Your flows are always so good I feel like I'm riding a wave when I listen <3

might've started an addiction to this song but I don't mind, just another song to cast away to

prod. cxrter

I could care less on how I dress on the weekend
Maybe I'm depressed under stress off the deep end
Everyone around me seems so basic
I hate that term but that's what they named it

Internet won't connect all these ties that I let
Get frayed give way and finally break
Sorry didn't respond my mistake
Hardly anywhere but my head these days
Give a fuck cuz I know my friends are offline
Outa luck won't forgive me from the sidelines
Highlights all over their front page
I guess I don't care if I'm included really no way

Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it
Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it

No other way to say it
but friends feel overrated
I guess it's what you make it
Then again in the end I hate to face it
No offense I don't care how you choose to take it
I'll admit past six you can find me pacing
I wanna be alone and I don't know why
Maybe hit me up but I'll say not this time
And that's why I question myself so much
Why do I miss it when I wanna lose touch

Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it
Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it

Spotify

sorry i didn't reply (prod. IOF)

feat. https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7
prod. https://soundcloud.com/user-597676997

Lyrics:

I've been waiting for the day when I fall apart
I've been steady grinding in room no I don't care
working in the silence, I can't help but feel the stare
looking right upon me
smoking palm trees in the air
I don't know where to go, where you at babe?
I can't get their quick I'm stuck up in the traffic
up a couple days making tracks now
turn up the attack think I'm gonna snap wow
thats shit hit, jump in crowds getting lit
like down another bottle of the gold bacardi quick
pop out to your party but I'm sad asf
I can't find no fucking end I never get enough
~
I cannot fight that
feeling so I sit and zone by myself again
In love with creation
Taking my mind to a different location
Fill up the spots in my chest that lay vacant
It's like a drug cannot refuse to take it
Exhale all the vapor I've been holding in ...
Use it as my Medicine ...
Frequency Irrelevant
Vision going black, back to the past now
Got all of our pictures on the wall
Slowly watch us fall
this winter the end of it all
~
Unknxwn
I've been waiting everyday but you don't call
I don't think I can be saved from the snowfall
I don't feel no love inside of my heart no more
If this only the start than I dont' want to know more
All I really wanna know it where you at babe?
Got my heart trapped stuck inside a damn cage
I don't like that baby don't you damn play
This getting old, Don't hit me up anymore
bullshit again I can't take this
Fucking with me and I hate it
Can't give a fuck no not no more
In the cold I've been stuck I done got so cold
Lost all my trust I can't cope no more
Mind filled with love that I can't show
Anyone what I feel inside
Anyone get what that feel like?
I can't let no one get inside
Of what I like to call my mind
I've been waiting for the day when I fall apart
I've been steady grinding in room no I don't care
working in the silence, I can't help but feel the stare
looking right upon me
smoking palm trees in the air
I don't know where to go, where you at babe?
I can't get their quick I'm stuck up in the traffic
up a couple days making tracks now
turn up the attack think I'm gonna snap wow
thats shit hit, jump in crowds getting lit
like down another bottle of the gold bacardi quick
pop out to your party but I'm sad asf
I can't find no fucking end I never get enough

where you at babe? w/ unknxwn [prod capsctrl]

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

waking to the same shit
every single fucking day
im getting tired of all of it
im sick of the waiting game

this shit hit me outta nowhere
i wasn't expecting
anything that would make me feel so bad
why is life so unfair

my life has been nothing but fucked up
some say i deserve it
others that i have bad luck
can't depend on any1 and yeah that shit sucks
im only 16 and i can't get the fuck up
can't sit back and relax while i roll 1
cause im always stressed and depressed
i can't feel love
now im on my knees
in the middle of my room
wishing to be dead, soon

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

ha~a~oh//woah~o
(please leave me be)

stuck in my head
never talk; i be nauseous
i feel the wind on my skin
never wanted you more
like am i important?
cause i feel ignored
i swear that i’m worthless

i try to be by you
but everything’s breaking
so now i should die soon
for not fucking waiting
it hit like a typhoon
oh how degrading
my eyes they would dilute
would you come to save me

leave me be w/autumndropsdead (afterlife x jolst)

amv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LT7FyConbo
thank you all for the amazing support just in general.
love you all. take care
featuring my extremely talented friend @sleepywater 💙
prod. @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~
[autumn]
you ok?..

so i tell myself
don't die on me
don't lie to me

i lie here, ask how i'm doing
words out my mouth 
is it trash that i'm spewing?
i deserve hell for every wrongdoing
you sewed up my heart
just after i skewed it

hate when anybody talk to me
there's not a lot to me
i'm just distraught and weak
there's so much to do in the day (day)
what do i have to do to make you stay (stay)

how does this world expect me to keep going
when all that i have are depleting emotions
and all that i am is pathetic and hopeless
and all that i ask, and all that i ask is to leave

i'm begging please
i'm falling down
whenever you leave
don't make a sound
don't even breathe
i finished counting all my steps
a cliff they lead

[sleepwater]
i'll be ready, drowning
heart beat too fast; anxiety
in my hollow frame
lost cause, puppet brain

spewing my heart 
over a fire; got dark
will you be my ember 
stuck in a cauldron
do you remember when i was holding
your achy arms i was all upon it
you got my clothes but 
you could of stopped it
sorry for the vacancy i wish i locked
it was a fucking job to you 
i wish i stopped it

[autumn]
lawless; aching doesn't stop
isn't this what i wanted from you
i'm so awful

[sleepwater]
don't make a sound, don't make a scene
filling my lungs with nicotine 
oh damn ur the one that i'll ever need
damn ur the one that just let me be

[autumn]
(let me be)
don't really know why you like me
are you just starving
for someone's pysche?
i can hear the hounds
yeah they're howling in the darkness
wonder what they found
either molly or a carcass

[sleepwater]
im prowling in the twilight
everything you say now its a delight
maybe ur an angel in disguise 
fucking up my psyche, cutting all my ties

[autumn]
i cannot talk for long
there's somewhere i gotta be
the green of the forest it calls
yeah i got a date with the-
i got a date with the trees

tell me who i am
and who i'm supposed to be
won't be here for long
bitemarks made with teeth
the frostwalker it crawls
arriving at your feet
let it rest beneath...

puppet brain w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

surprise surprise;)
---
don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
---
lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

track 2 
prod speedlmt 
mixed + mastered by me 

and i’m right on ur street 
and i’d love to see u bleed
and i’ve learned so many things 
since we last met
i can’t wait to show u 

and i smile as you scream 
cus i’ve lost everything 
this means nothing to me 
so if u beg 
i’ll blind u with this irony 

ive killed 3 men for u my love
and i would kill again 
i’ve seen so many people run
i wipe my tears and repent 
and u tell me 
that i will be just fine 
but i wont 
unless you come here 
i promise i wont hurt u
and u tell me that i’m evil
i said i know
i’m obsessed with ur perfume

 and i’m right on ur street 
and i’d love to see u bleed
and i’ve learned so many things 
since we last met
i can’t wait to show u 

and i smile as you scream 
cus i’ve lost everything 
this means nothing to me 
so if u beg 
i’ll blind u with this irony

killer, pt2 (speedlmt)

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

ｔｈｅ　ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔ　ｍｅ　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｌｏｏｓｅ　ｅｎｄ

love all of you guys seriously so much.
this is the only thing  i ever want to do, and your support helps push me to continue with all of this; i would regardless, but i'm grateful to no ends for whatever kind of reception is given back. things have been seriously difficult as of late, and so all i can say is thank you for being here. thank you for listening.
shit's kinda cliche when i say that, but that cliche shit is true sometimes, and i mean it; whatever. thank you 
just the beginning 

prod @cartermetro & @vito2300 

you left (you left)
i crashed (i crashed)
now all we ever had is in the past
(it's all in the past)
i'll stay (away)
detached (from that)
until the very moment i collapse

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
but i couldn't give a shit
hammered down any spite, bring out the knife
lying outside again

and my notes are filled with solutions,
that you might consider delusion
the old me is buried in ruins
the present me is just a loose end
turned off the phone for monochrome daydreams
'cause i don't give a shit if i'm wavy
i mean look at what happened to davy

making a point to you's crazy
crissin' it 'cross like an apple, how tasty
stuck in a drench, while i'm soaking in sweat
more or less i'm expecting nobody to save me
pokemon quest on the blue 2DS
nowadays i'm a wreck, and i stench what i'm craving
heart full of rust,
when the musk fermentates in my chest you can leave what you're hating

i got a pain in my neck, can't stretch it
the hurt in my voice can't be heard over message
so let's make a break where we got no connections
only direction, never perfection
when i talk to the sky, it'll always rain hail
bulimia fucking me up 'till i'm well
"the truth doesn't sell"
leave me for dead with the dread in my head and no breath to inhale

004, blunt force on the baby
there ain't a lure with the potent to save me
getting by as a passerby,
keeping lowered eyes, i'm already hazy
not that i'm lazy,
just marinating in lost time they never gave me
i'm short on breath, should i recollect
or detach, while i'm still straining
i hate that when i fall back into relapse
it's me i'm saving
what a nuisance, when i do this
you're clueless about what i'm saying
so, deuces, 'cause few stick when the roof lifts
i'm sick of waiting
got mucus on my blue lips
from fucked shit i feel on the daily

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
why should i give a shit
hammered down any spite, brought in the knife
i wanna die again

my heart's open
why is my heart open
quick, gotta close it
quick, gotta close it

collapse [prod. cxrter x vito]

[yung cray]:

you say that I need help
idk how to reach out
the voices in my head they get too loud
but can you really turn my life around?

and I promise I will call you back when the time is right
but right now nothings going my way and I'm stuck inside my head
and I’m a poltergeist walk thru the night, the days here I am scared
and I don't wanna fix myself I lay up in my grave and rest


you say that I need help
idk how to reach out
the voices in my head they get too loud
but can you really turn my life around?

[safeatlast]:

i try my best to conquer my fears
but i get depressed by all of my peers
i cant stand to look in the mirror
cuz everytime i do im reminded bout the fact that ur not-

breathing
not been good at succeeding
why am i never leading

...the war against myself
im trapped in someone elses shell
how could i ever end up well

leaving
the place i reside is deceiving
... can i be somewhere else

[yung cray]:


you say that I need help
idk how to reach out
the voices in my head they get too loud
but can you really turn my life around?

and I promise I will call you back when the time is right
but right now nothings going my way and I'm stuck inside my head
and I’m a poltergeist walk thru the night, the days here I am scared
and I don't wanna fix myself I lay up in my grave and rest


you say that I need help
idk how to reach out
the voices in my head they get too loud
but can you really turn my life around?

deceiving w/ yung cray

SnuS

Mood

prod. pink

lyrics:
Let's pretend that I'm alright
I'm anxious little psychopathic fuck
can't sleep at night
all alone the thoughts they've grown
and I ain't putting up no fight
can't conduce the fucking truth up out your mouth but that's alright
~
can't control but my mind grip
gotta let it go the thoughts they flow
ain't gotta fucking trip
lifes a puzzle, mind is muddled
clear it up, I kiss your lips
grip your hips
biting on your neck until you fucking drip

like a puddle, we cuddle until the sundown
ride my shuttle rebuttal, we smoke and comedown
I'm so faded, I'm crossed
intoxicated I'm lost
inebriated what cost?
I'm feeling run down

been stuck in head sometimes
don't leave me for dead, i'm blind
in due time i will find
that, it don't matter what you wanna do
just put you're all into
focus you're mind and I swear you will get it
don't stress the small, stand up tall pay attention
sure you fall, but will you get up? redemption

Let's pretend that I'm alright
I'm anxious little psychopathic fuck
can't sleep at night
all alone the thoughts they've grown
and I ain't putting up no fight
can't conduce the fucking truth up out your mouth but that's alright
~
can't control but my mind grip
gotta let it go the thoughts they flow
ain't gotta fucking trip
lifes a puzzle, mind is muddled
clear it up, I kiss your lips
grip your hips
biting on your neck until you fucking drip

like a puddle, we cuddle until the sundown
ride my shuttle rebuttal, we smoke and comedown
I'm so faded, I'm crossed
intoxicated I'm lost
inebriated what cost?
I'm feeling run down

PanicAttack! [prod. pink]

@sewerperson
@guccihighwaters

prod by me oobv get w the times

Down and Out (feat. sewerperson & guccihighwaters)

chicagoland producer 💜🖤🩶🤍 | 21 | 🧠♾️
(prod.) credits: @sewerperson @lilskeleskrrt @emofruits @vito2300 @denverkell

collapse [prod. cxrter x vito]

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