produced by cxrter x retz

throwaway off losing myself again

consider this addiction pt.3

4 months ago i lost my brother to the percs
i think about him everyday and it hurts
but i still do the same shit
i cant help it if my heart hurts
and taking these fucking pills is all that works
i need to get sober or ill end up just like him
i called him my bestfriend
than cut him off cuz of the drugs
but im doing the exact same stuff
cut everyone off so i dont have to feel the love
my grandma cant even recognize her grandson

get out my head

dark//light {prod. cxrter x jolst}

colors (prod.cxrter x jolst)

Taylor -  

I shoulda let you go cause my demise is your endeavor, 
I knew you would leave I prayed we got  stuck in that elevator , I wish that u stayed forever
 guess it’s another fever cause the tears are dropping hot as ever , 
hands they steady shaking cause this alcohols my decompresser, 
substances are like you my endeavor , substances always get my through the weather , but I can’t eat no I can’t sleep, morbid thoughts up in my mind since every tie w you got severed  

a brand new day, the same ole vice , another full moon where I’m alone all through the night , mistakes are not mistakes if they’re repeated more then twice , lately I been low as fuxk  unless I’m higher than a kite , and I know we can’t be together but its only right , but if it’s up to you you’ll take a blade and put it through my Spine, rigor mortis creeping through my bones again , I knew when you walked up out that door that we were over with,

Hook 

Brecken- 

i hate this dumb cycle that ive been for too long 
make it stop
pull the lever make it better knock it off
i know i cant fix my temper unless i got alcohol
i hope im wrong
but i wish that i could do it but i crawl back
i wish i could tell em how i felt without a rematch
they’ve been telling me im nothing they think i should be in rehab
but i think that its bullcrap i been doing everything i can to make it out
atleast thats what it feels like when i been feeling down
i been in a draught for way too long i wanna drown
you cant tell me how im feeling if you hardly been around
in a way i think its healing cuz i hardly hear you shout

I shoulda let you go cause my demise is your endeavor, 
I knew you would leave I prayed we got  stuck in that elevator , I wish that u stayed forever
guess it’s another fever cause all of these tears are dropping 
dropping hot as ever , 
hands are steady shakin cuz thus alcohol my decompressor
daily takin substances cuz thats whats been relieving pressure
lately i been running far away looking for better weather
and i know i cant stay right here 
id rather write a letter states away

My endeavor ? W/ brecken (Cxrter)

salty </3
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Hate to see me
So you block me
How cliché are we now
No reason
You're just petty
I can see you're salty now

You used to mix my potion
You ripped my chest wide open
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my hope is
Yeah you hate to see me
So you block me
How cliché are we now
No reason
You're just petty
I can see you're salty now

You used to mix my potion
You ripped my chest wide open
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my hope is
If you see it
Can you find me
Do you think you're out of my league
I don't think you ever liked me
These other hoes just as sweet
Tell my dawgs that I'm reloaded
One pill will help me focus
First my heart
Now what's broken
That bitch just kill me slowly

You used to mix my potion
You ripped my chest wide open
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my hope is
Yeah you hate to see me
So you block me
How cliché are we now
No reason
You're just petty
I can see you're salty now

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<3

-emo fruits aka mr pretty derby

SALTY (prod. cxrter x jolst)

dying in the fall </3
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Yeah I hate this feeling
I been feeling like a target
Shawty has the gun
Aim it at my head
But it hit me in the heart
But I just wanna party
I can't feel a thing
Am I doing what you wanted
I don't care who calling me
Pop half the pill
I fall asleep
What's killing me
I thought it was me
But it's your knife after all
Dying in the fall
Lying in your bed
Hear you crying down the hall
Put me down like a dog
No matter what the cost
If I want it
Then it's bought
Your heart kept locked
In that heart shaped box
She love it when I talk
But I don't like to talk
If it's money that she want
Then it's money that we got
Think I saw this girl before
Have you seen my dreams
Yeah I've been this hurt before
Have you seen me bleed
Have you seen me breathe
Can you tell it's hard for me
Have you seen me breathe
Can you tell it's hard for me

Yeah I hate this feeling
I been feeling like a target
Shawty has the gun
Aim it at my head
But it hit me in the heart
But I just wanna party
I can't feel a thing
Am I doing what you wanted
I don't care who calling me
Pop half the pill
I fall asleep
What's killing me
I thought it was me
But it's your knife after all
Dying in the fall
Lying in your bed
Hear you crying down the hall
Put me down like a dog
No matter what the cost
If I want it
Then it's bought
Your heart kept locked
In that heart shaped box
She love it when I talk
But I don't like to talk
If it's money that she want
Then it's money that we got
Think I saw this girl before
Have you seen my dreams
Yeah I've been this hurt before
Have you seen me bleed
Have you seen me breathe
Can you tell it's hard for me
Have you seen me breathe
Can you tell it's hard for me
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<3

-emo fruits aka i really like this one so be super nice to me

DYING IN THE FALL (prod. cxrter x tahtx)

3_4 times {prod. cxrter}

https://youtu.be/-IFm9rK4a1Q?si=sF1mgzBJ1DkQJTQE

@prodcxrter
@spaceboyry

lyrics:

tried my best
yeah i tried so hard

fucked up something that i can't restart

talk back to me
u think ur so smart

run back to you
but i end up scarred

ask what's wrong
don't know where to start

ran in circles
yeah i ain't get far

back then, used to be so insecure

back when i would take your words to heart

we could do it all again
i won’t mind it

imma roll it up
you could light it

seen my texts turn blue,
turn green,
black screen

now i'm back where i was
yeah i hate it

yeah, took it so far

oh, that's how we are

sleepless nights w you under the starss ://

gotta watch my back
i keep my guard

think sum wrong with u,
wrong with uuu

i can't always lose..?
i do, its true

good gas w my crew
that's what i'd rather do
not you

im stacking
what's happening
got traction

got traction, more action
i'm up, why u lacking?
stop talking.. distractions
i did that n then u copy me

free
act nice, now you want something for free

get back
get off of me
got no time
got no days off

i can't lie i miss ur heart so soft
i miss ur luv, your touch
when u would take it all off

..for me
now u act like you don't know me
you act like you don't miss me
like you don't wish for me

we could do it all again
i won't mind it

imma roll it up
you could light it

seen my texts turn blue,
turn green,
black screen

now i'm back where i was
yeah i hate it

yeah, took it so far

oh, that's how we are

sleepless nights w you under the starss ://

gotta watch my back
i keep my guard

i tried (cxrter spaceboyry) *mv in desc*

prod. cxrter x irby



lyrics:
ima keep counting till the sun up
big bands, high end brands ima show off
deep fried, lemme cook, im a sauna
i can make it big, ima show her

she cant even look at me, im shining
if she ever walk on me, im fining
talking with the fairies, im flying
icgaf about no timing

bitch im cool
who tf is you?
on a groove
baby, tell me what it do?
making moves
got on my dancing shoes
shades on too
spotlight shining through (x2)

Kiddamo:
im drinking campagne in a limo
im staring at your house through the window
you turn this shitty town to santo domingo
multi persaonlity im stuck in a limbo
in a limbo, oh
in a limbo, oh, oh
im talking like an asshole but i think you could do better
told her shes so perfect that i wish i never met her
i hope you see the beach when you read these love letters
shawty fell in love because ima go getter
smoking on some runtz and these pringles extra cheddar
shoutout to the kid in bangladesh that made this sweater

scorpio:
bitch im cool
who tf is you?
on a groove
baby, tell me what it do?
making moves
got on my dancing shoes
shades on too
spotlight shining through

spotlight (feat. Kiddamo)

w/ @user-642636378
produced by king theta
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(cxrter)
they say i’m acing
used to the lack of, complacent
call it an anomaly, but i’m breaking
i’m stagnant by myself
so hidden in my shell
cause i’m trying to decipher what’s even implied
trying not to leave it all unsaid, i’m fine
like a semi turning cities, i’m swinging wide
satisfaction, is it fake when we say goodnight?
where's the trial run? we all just turned 21
just reminders of all things that i haven’t done
no directions, expectations of fantasies
gardening misery
yeah i’m so sorry

she said that it’s okay
i don’t get why it’s happening
just hope that i’m enough
these kinda things are challenging
but i wish that i could 
find the space and
save the day
but i’m too caught up in your eyes
i can tell it’s me, it’s what it seems
miss understood, i fall in line

(halfhearted)
and it happens to me every time
you got a two faced love, i don’t wanna try
if its all my fault, then i’ll testify
i try to break your fall when u call at night
called it off
applying pressure
wrote a song
left it on your dresser
if i was wrong, then it’s nothing new
i gotta bite my tongue when i talk to you
i’m better off now
cause i was at a loss, and i couldn’t be found
couldn't get across cause the the bridge had burned down
i’m out of options

(cxrter)
she said that it’s okay
i don’t get why it’s happening
just hope that i’m enough
these kinda things are challenging
but i wish that i could 
find the space and
save the day
but i’m too caught up in your eyes
i can tell it’s me, it’s what it seems
miss understood, i fall in line

ace/21 (feat. halfhearted) (prod. king theta)

discord: scorpio4488

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