produced by cxrter x retz

throwaway off losing myself again

consider this addiction pt.3

4 months ago i lost my brother to the percs
i think about him everyday and it hurts
but i still do the same shit
i cant help it if my heart hurts
and taking these fucking pills is all that works
i need to get sober or ill end up just like him
i called him my bestfriend
than cut him off cuz of the drugs
but im doing the exact same stuff
cut everyone off so i dont have to feel the love
my grandma cant even recognize her grandson

get out my head

produced by cxrter & braga

lyrics;
i wanna take a portal to another world 
gave most of my time to a new girl
that was jus god throwing me another hurtle
friends dropped me, family wont talk to me
people wont talk to me im ha lf demon but im still mortal
am I dead am I alive either way my bodys laying on the floor tho

i do this to myself
and i repeat the process
i try to looking my brain
it jus repeats non sense 
im booting up fl 
im writing another song
jus for it to sound the same
they all sound the same
when are the lyrics gonna change

put some autotune
add some reverb and compression
record some lyrics about having no compassion or empathy
its hard when the world brought u this far when they brought u here from bullying and other tactics
im not trying to sit here and say my life is tragic
but like it gets hard sometimes
u cant even imagine 
i didnt think i would be doing this music stuff 5 years later
ig i can imagine

ig im the only person i can count on
i dont even look at my flaws anymore
i jus wanna be someone u can be proud of
im jus stuck in place
and the river cant stay stagnant

i wanna take a portal to another world 
gave most of my time to a new girl
that was jus god throwing me another hurtle
friends dropped me, family wont talk to me
people wont talk to me im ha lf demon but im still mortal
am I dead am I alive either way my bodys laying on the floor tho

i dont wanna be alone
but i choose too
i dont wanna be alone
but those doors closed too
i liked the life i had 
but it was over too soon

i wanna take a portal to another world 
gave most of my time to a new girl
that was jus god throwing me another hurtle
friends dropped me, family wont talk to me
people wont talk to me im ha lf demon but im still mortal
am I dead am I alive either way my bodys laying on the floor tho

ig im the only person i can count on
i dont even look at my flaws anymore
i jus wanna be someone u can be proud of
im jus stuck in place
and the river cant stay stagnant forever

another world

this pain only feels good cuz its by you </3
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You can stab me in the heart 
Baby just do it in the dark
I don't wanna see who you are 
Or what you've become
Take my soul
I don't need one
All I wanted was your love
Maybe that wasn't enough
You can leave me in my blood
Where does that leave us
Spent so much time just to get here beside you
This pain only feels so good because it's by you
I don't wanna feel alone
But I hate the hoes on my phone
Geeked up 
Face one to the dome
My cup never felt so strong 
I might wake up with a nose bleed
I might wake up and she with me 
This pains a drug when she loves me
I get so numb when she close to me

You can stab me in the heart 
Baby just do it in the dark
I don't wanna see who you are 
Or what you've become
Take my soul
I don't need one
All I wanted was your love
Maybe that wasn't enough
You can leave me in my blood
Where does that leave us
Spent so much time just to get here beside you
This pain only feels so good because it's by you
I don't wanna feel alone
But I hate the hoes on my phone
Geeked up 
Face one to the dome
My cup never felt so strong 
I might wake up with a nose bleed
I might wake up and she with me 
This pains a drug when she loves me
I get so numb when she close to me

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<3

-emo fruits aka idk mannnnnnn i just dont know anymore

this pain only feels good cuz its by you (prod. cxrter x jolst)

flip i done as a test to see if emo fruits would fit my beats lmao

emo fruits - nightmare flip

borderlands (cxrter)

wut do u see in me </3
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Do you believe in chance
Shawty run it back
Roll us up a lil
Trying to relax
Sellin you a dream
What do you see in me
What do you see in me
What do you see in me

I still can't cry
I'm just weepin
I feel the most alive when I'm sleepin
Your heart
Shawty put it on the defense
Your heart
Blood
Leakin
My heart
Barely beatin
My time
Slowly creepin
Our love at the bottom of the deep end
Can't see it now
You hope it drowns
Geekin
I gotta lie down
I can't keep stickin around
Sunrise
I pass out
Sunrise
I pass out

Do you believe in chance
Shawty run it back
Roll us up a lil
Trying to relax
Sellin you a dream
What do you see in me
What do you see in me
What do you see in me

Do you believe in chance
Shawty run it back
Roll us up a lil
Trying to relax
Sellin you a dream
What do you see in me
What do you see in me
What do you see in me

I still can't cry
I'm just weepin
I feel the most alive when I'm sleepin
Your heart
Shawty put it on the defense
Your heart
Blood
Leakin
My heart
Barely beatin
My time
Slowly creepin
Our love at the bottom of the deep end
Can't see it now
You hope it drowns
Geekin
I gotta lie down
I can't keep stickin around
Sunrise
I pass out
Sunrise
I pass out

Do you believe in chance
Shawty run it back
Roll us up a lil
Trying to relax
Sellin you a dream
What do you see in me
What do you see in me
What do you see in me

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<3

-emo fruits aka SUMMER OF FRUITS BAYBEEE STARTS NOW

WUT DO U SEE IN ME (prod. cxrter x jolst)

dark//light {prod. cxrter x jolst}

colors (prod.cxrter x jolst)

Taylor -  

I shoulda let you go cause my demise is your endeavor, 
I knew you would leave I prayed we got  stuck in that elevator , I wish that u stayed forever
 guess it’s another fever cause the tears are dropping hot as ever , 
hands they steady shaking cause this alcohols my decompresser, 
substances are like you my endeavor , substances always get my through the weather , but I can’t eat no I can’t sleep, morbid thoughts up in my mind since every tie w you got severed  

a brand new day, the same ole vice , another full moon where I’m alone all through the night , mistakes are not mistakes if they’re repeated more then twice , lately I been low as fuxk  unless I’m higher than a kite , and I know we can’t be together but its only right , but if it’s up to you you’ll take a blade and put it through my Spine, rigor mortis creeping through my bones again , I knew when you walked up out that door that we were over with,

Hook 

Brecken- 

i hate this dumb cycle that ive been for too long 
make it stop
pull the lever make it better knock it off
i know i cant fix my temper unless i got alcohol
i hope im wrong
but i wish that i could do it but i crawl back
i wish i could tell em how i felt without a rematch
they’ve been telling me im nothing they think i should be in rehab
but i think that its bullcrap i been doing everything i can to make it out
atleast thats what it feels like when i been feeling down
i been in a draught for way too long i wanna drown
you cant tell me how im feeling if you hardly been around
in a way i think its healing cuz i hardly hear you shout

I shoulda let you go cause my demise is your endeavor, 
I knew you would leave I prayed we got  stuck in that elevator , I wish that u stayed forever
guess it’s another fever cause all of these tears are dropping 
dropping hot as ever , 
hands are steady shakin cuz thus alcohol my decompressor
daily takin substances cuz thats whats been relieving pressure
lately i been running far away looking for better weather
and i know i cant stay right here 
id rather write a letter states away

My endeavor ? W/ brecken (Cxrter)

salty </3
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Hate to see me
So you block me
How cliché are we now
No reason
You're just petty
I can see you're salty now

You used to mix my potion
You ripped my chest wide open
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my hope is
Yeah you hate to see me
So you block me
How cliché are we now
No reason
You're just petty
I can see you're salty now

You used to mix my potion
You ripped my chest wide open
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my hope is
If you see it
Can you find me
Do you think you're out of my league
I don't think you ever liked me
These other hoes just as sweet
Tell my dawgs that I'm reloaded
One pill will help me focus
First my heart
Now what's broken
That bitch just kill me slowly

You used to mix my potion
You ripped my chest wide open
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my hope is
Yeah you hate to see me
So you block me
How cliché are we now
No reason
You're just petty
I can see you're salty now

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<3

-emo fruits aka mr pretty derby

SALTY (prod. cxrter x jolst)

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

send me beats and stuff. or if u just wanna talk idk. <3
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