i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

lyrics⬇️
crushing the thoughts that been breaking me down
how could i write so much and you never liked my sound
voluntarily always around
but now ur making me feel a way so i gotta get out

lie on the cold ground
duplicate that feeling that you thought you found
maybe this my chance maybe right now
yea or I’ll suffocate in advance if i dont fight it out
even lookin at these plants i i feel like i dont amount 
to all the beauty that they hold cuz i cant even count all the times that i would fold at the fault of my mouth
even when i promised everyone it wouldn’t go south

late gigs knowing that you wont be there

paint a pictire for me knowing that i will not fear

yea cuz i wont breathe ur judgy person air
for once it might be nice to be all the way out your hair

ill push back i dont like it when it feel like that

no crash pad when im falling i fall down hard flat
i dont even have the energy to feel bad
i dont see anyone who wanted a rematch
i been pushin in my memories like way back
Yea u dont want anything like this you want a price tag
money dont mean anything if you cant even buy that 
promise youd be runnin from me if you knew what i had

i live i laugh
but i dont wanna use the stuff that hurts the people most
wait until the night pass
then ill stay low
cuz thats the way that itll last

(Weepings)

We've been on and off like every other week I fucking swear
Girl you got me crashing out; You got me growing out my hair
I'm doing all these drugs to pretend like I don't care ...
But I do too much
Girl I know you fucked him I feel nauseous but I still miss your touch 
Smoking on some potent pop some oxy till my brain turn dust
I'm bleeding out my back I'm just your toy and my heart soft like plush
A puppet on your string an I will wait for you to treat me such
~
Cuz if the pain I feel is cause by your hands I don't mind
I showed you my darkest parts and you left me behind
Who knew that my love for you would leave me feeling blind
Girl no matter where I go you're still stuck in my mind
~
And flashback to the moment that I met you
Even then I knew I cannot forget you
I remember how you looked at me the night I loved you
But now I fear I'm falling short
Back and forth, every time we speak it feels like we in court
God it hurts, Knowing that the girl I love left me in dirt
What am I holding onto still, like bro ... that hoe left me first
I could never trust another soul, like I trusted you
I still got love for you
I wish you loved me too
Girl honestly I can't see my future with another fucking person in this life

voluntarily w/ Weepings (cxrter x yunnygoldz)

nightmare </3 
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I hope you see me in your dreams
Maybe I look better in a nightmare
Fade into black
I think my shawty callin out to me
Can't lie
I can't die 
Unless you right there
But you hate me now
Only time I see you is my dreams

Countin up my money only thing that give me peace
See that shawty callin
I just let the phone ring
Yeah I'm sorry
I can't do this right now
If you saw me 
Like me
You'd break down
Say she wanna kiss me thru the phone
I think I will
Shawty cast a spell
Controllin how I feel
But you don't feel how I feel
Lets keep it real
But you don't feel how I feel
Lets keep it real

I don't wanna know if you're alone every night
I don't wanna know if you do it out of spite
Fucked up our vibe
I been fuckin up my life
I just really hope that you see me in your dreams

I hope you see me in your dreams
Maybe I look better in a nightmare
Fade into black
I think my shawty callin out to me
Can't lie
I can't die 
Unless you right there
But you hate me now
Only time I see you is my dreams

I don't wanna go to sleep 
I don't wanna go to sleep no more
I don't wanna go to sleep 
I don't wanna go to sleep no more

I hope you see me in your dreams
Maybe I look better in a nightmare
Fade into black
I think my shawty callin out to me
Can't lie
I can't die 
Unless you right there
But you hate me now
Only time I see you is my dreams

Countin up my money only thing that give me peace
See that shawty callin
I just let the phone ring
Yeah I'm sorry
I can't do this right now
If you saw me 
Like me
You'd break down
Say she wanna kiss me thru the phone
I think I will
Shawty cast a spell
Controllin how I feel
But you don't feel how I feel
Lets keep it real
But you don't feel how I feel
Lets keep it real

I don't wanna know if you're alone every night
I don't wanna know if you do it out of spite
Fucked up our vibe
I been fuckin up my life
I just really hope that you see me in your dreams

Maybe I look better in a nightmare
Fade into black
I think my shawty callin out to me
Can't lie
I can't die 
Unless you right there
But you hate me now
Only time I see you is my dreams

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<3

- emo fruits aka this is how i be watching youtube

nightmare (prod. cxrter x nihil)

i know it feels good when you hate my guts

https://soundcloud.com/vito2300
prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter  https://soundcloud.com/yunnygoldz

i can't feel my skin
and it's numbing 
god you make me sick 
when you touch me
blood drip down my lip 
like you're wanting 
tear drop down my chin
baby i can't run 
baby i still would 
do i make you blush?
god i know it feels good 
when you hate my guts
baby i still could 
even now, just us
god you know that you should 
till you've had enough

off this bottle 
got me swerving, i'm sedated my,
heartbeat so slow i can't pace it i,
gave up, crush crush till it make me right
i'm the only one you keep awake at night
faster, hands over my body going faster
laughter, he don't feel attached like an actor
backwards, every fucking night i'm moving backwards
everything i ever felt it didn't matter

i don't wanna go like this 
but it's coming
the bruise still stains my wrist from the cuffing
i can't feel my skin 
god you make me sick,
you made me 

(vito:)
Do you want me
I can’t even tell anymore
Your words haunting
Mellowing the pain i endure
A closed chapter
I keep looking backwards
My body’s tattered
Forever and after

But you wanted this so bad
That I don’t think you thought about it
Lay down through the pain
Say what’s good about it
You could love me in ways
I can’t live without it

you make me sick

duck hunt </3
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Heart cold as the tundra
Fucked up
Lil shawty know I want ya
I'm a demon
But that girl know I love her
Go to war for that girl
Keep a strap like it's duck hunt
All the drugs 
All the pain
It's for lovers
All the drugs 
All the pain
Keep me fucked up
Deep down 
I know that I'm lost
Shawty bring the pack
Don't wanna fuck
I wanna talk
She gimme dome 
I guess I want it after all
So long 
My heart is the problem
Yeah she up all night 
But never call
So long 
I should've never fallen 
Red wine match the blood on my arms 
My wrist match the scars on my heart
You like your lipstick dark
You like your switchblade sharp
Can't lie 
I don't feel the love
Maybe I just don't feel enough
This pain just eats me up
So cold 
My heart is frozen

Heart cold as the tundra
Fucked up
Lil shawty know I want ya
I'm a demon
But that girl know I love her
Go to war for that girl
Keep a strap like it's duck hunt
All the drugs 
All the pain
It's for lovers
All the drugs 
All the pain
Keep me fucked up
Deep down 
I know that I'm lost
Shawty bring the pack
Don't wanna fuck
I wanna talk
She gimme dome 
I guess I want it after all
So long 
My heart is the problem
Yeah she up all night 
But never call
So long 
I should've never fallen 
Red wine match the blood on my arms 
My wrist match the scars on my heart
You like your lipstick dark
You like your switchblade sharp
Can't lie 
I don't feel the love
Maybe I just don't feel enough
This pain just eats me up
So cold 
My heart is frozen

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<3

emo fruits aka mark borja aka this how i be watching youtube


DUCK HUNT (prod. cxrter x jolst)

PLZ DONT CALL AT 2AM </3

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I don't want you callin me at 2AM
I'm tryna sleep
I don't wanna breathe
I mean
Baby I don't wanna think
Maybe it's the drink
But shawty you sound lovely
I just wanna bleed
Can you be the one to cut me
I see the knife in your hand behind your back
I think I might've got a lil bit attached
I wanna die
But shawty you been knowin that
You been knowin that
You been knowin that

I don't want you callin me at 2AM
The bars close
You just want some company
I guess we're in the same boat
Hold on
I've been feeling numb be gentle
Hold on
I've been feeling numb be gentle
Do you think about me when you're out there
Will you still be here when the smoke clears
Take my heart and hang it like a chandelier
Take my heart and hang it like a chandelier
Don't call me at 2AM when I'm alone
I might just let you bring down my wall
You fuck with my head and the chemicals
You fuck with my head and the chemicals

I don't want you callin me at 2AM
I'm tryna sleep
I don't wanna breathe
I mean
Baby I don't wanna think
Maybe it's the drink
But shawty you sound lovely
I just wanna bleed
Can you be the one to cut me
I see the knife in your hand behind your back
I think I might've got a lil bit attached
I wanna die
But shawty you been knowin that
You been knowin that
You been knowin that

We don't gotta say nothin to eachother
Cause we already knew
There's nothing left to lose
There's nothing left to lose
Who else gonna hate me in the same way you do
A storm just hit my room
Hurricanes
Typhoons
A beautiful natural disaster like you
A beautiful natural disaster like you
A beautiful natural disaster like you
A beautiful natural disaster like you

And the look on your face
I can't tell if you care
When you walk away I'll be standing right here
Don't let me down now
Don't let me drown now
If you pull up
I'll crash out
We can't even speak now

We don't gotta say nothin to eachother
Cause we already knew
There's nothing left to lose
There's nothing left to lose
Who else gonna hate me in the same way you do
A storm just hit my room
Hurricanes
Typhoons
A beautiful natural disaster like you
A beautiful natural disaster like you
A beautiful natural disaster like you
A beautiful natural disaster like you

And the look on your face
I can't tell if you care
When you walk away I'll be standing right here

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<3

-emo fruits aka the emo dominik mysterio aka i need liv morgan

PLZ DONT CALL AT 2AM (prod. s0ftskelet0ns x cxrter)

produced by cxrter & threemvsk
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(halfhearted)
said i wouldn’t trip 
but i miss the way it felt when we kissed and our lips touched
don’t know how you live, just admit that i’m too much
since i was a kid, hear em saying i’m a no one
i wasn't one for the games
or making a song for the fame
hop in the whip switching lanes
burden still up in my brain, break all the chains
sick of the faces around
wake up and i’m drowning
when rain hits the ground, i can’t help but feel clouded

(kiddamo)
take my sweater cuz outside is freezing
i can’t live with the thought of you leaving
but if you want you can go
i got used to the cold
i miss the conversations that we used to have on the phone
if i could rewind
re-rewind to the start
watching as the fireworks combine with all the stars
i spent my whole life wondering like “where you are”
stay where you are

(brecken)
and i been grounded, but when it rains i still think about you
still hear the sirens whenever i do sum’ i shouldn't do
yeah well that's how it goes
lying to people you love and you know it
yea all of it shows
they can see what you doing in the moment
losing my focus
i'm feeling broken
thinkin’ bout chili’s
that would be so lit
all of my homies
eatin’ tortilla chips
chips full of spinach dip
just give me a tub of it

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(lil booj)
hey there can you pick me up 
i’m in the lost and found again 
i’ve got my only friend right beside me 
the thread i keep it tight 
i keep it on the mend 
i try to keep us safe and then you stop me 
tell me you’re sad about maybe we’re crashing out, i know 
nothing we talk about goes anywhere because i know 
sediment building up, everyone doubting me, oh no!
are you proud of what you see, now you feel it so?

(yungcray)
paranoia when i step outside 
i’m feeling like this all the time 
got no time, need to find my coat
i hope my gloves are still inside
ice heart, i know I’m cold 
yea this shit’s getting borderline
tell me that there’s more to life 
i can’t feel myself, but i’m the reason that i live like this 
gas up from the shelf, i roll it up and we don’t think a thing
i been in this maze, god this shit gon’ drive me crazy 
i been feeling different lately

(vails)
they tell me look for signs
might be written in the stars
even though they’ve realigned
i still feel like i am far away from an answer
oh i wish i had the answers
now it’s eleven fifty three
still been caught up on IG
scrolling past old memories 
of us by the tapestry in my old home
where we should of left it all alone

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

cameras out! (cypher) w/ notahero, halfhearted, kiddamo, brecken, lil booj, yungcray, & vails

the hate me club </3
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Codeine
Bad Bitch
I need both of 'em
I always stay awake till I see the sun
You use to be right here when I want
Yeah Ima probably die here
Ain't it fun

And I can't see
And I can't breathe
All the smoke in my lungs
Coke nose getting numb
Lil shawty tellin me she don't believe in love
Lil shawty tellin me she don't believe in us
Hate to talk about it
And she probably hate me
I been gettin money with a hole inside of me
We been up all night like we both hate to dream
Yeah she a reaper and her scythe slice me

I can't even get out the bed lately
I'm just dealing with the pain on a daily
Passin out
At this point
Nobody wake me
I know they hate me
I know you hate me

Codeine
Bad Bitch
I need both of 'em
I always stay awake till I see the sun
They wanna be me
I'm a one of one
Everybody hate me
Shawty join the club

And I can't see
And I can't breathe
All the smoke in my lungs
Coke nose getting numb
Lil shawty tellin me she don't believe in love
Lil shawty tellin me she don't believe in us
Hate to talk about it
And she probably hate me
I been gettin money with a hole inside of me
We been up all night like we both hate to dream
Yeah she a reaper and her scythe slice me

Codeine
Bad Bitch
I need both of 'em
I always stay awake till I see the sun
They wanna be me
I'm a one of one
Everybody hate me
Shawty join the club
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<3

-emo fruits aka does anybody even read these????? i may have used this one before idk.. damn... 

THE HATE ME CLUB (prod. cxrter x heyrick)

changes {prod. cxrter x bino beats}

this pain only feels good cuz its by you </3
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You can stab me in the heart 
Baby just do it in the dark
I don't wanna see who you are 
Or what you've become
Take my soul
I don't need one
All I wanted was your love
Maybe that wasn't enough
You can leave me in my blood
Where does that leave us
Spent so much time just to get here beside you
This pain only feels so good because it's by you
I don't wanna feel alone
But I hate the hoes on my phone
Geeked up 
Face one to the dome
My cup never felt so strong 
I might wake up with a nose bleed
I might wake up and she with me 
This pains a drug when she loves me
I get so numb when she close to me

You can stab me in the heart 
Baby just do it in the dark
I don't wanna see who you are 
Or what you've become
Take my soul
I don't need one
All I wanted was your love
Maybe that wasn't enough
You can leave me in my blood
Where does that leave us
Spent so much time just to get here beside you
This pain only feels so good because it's by you
I don't wanna feel alone
But I hate the hoes on my phone
Geeked up 
Face one to the dome
My cup never felt so strong 
I might wake up with a nose bleed
I might wake up and she with me 
This pains a drug when she loves me
I get so numb when she close to me

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<3

-emo fruits aka idk mannnnnnn i just dont know anymore

this pain only feels good cuz its by you (prod. cxrter x jolst)

send me beats and stuff. or if u just wanna talk idk. <3
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