prod. cxrter

surprise surprise;)
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don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
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lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

Lyrics:

if only i, if only i was happy
if only i, if only i was happy
if only i, if only i was happy
only i

if only i was happy, i could watch the world burn
if only i was happy, i'd be ashes in an urn
if only i was happy, i would lock my heart away
if only i was happy, you could watch my soul decay
if only i, if only i was happy
if only i, I'll never be happy

i'll never be happy, i'll just feed into the laughter
i'll never be happy, i've been hanging from the rafters
i'll never be happy, i've been bleeding for the crowd
i'll never be happy but i'll make them fucking proud
blood on a blank canvas, take my final bow
watch my spirit vanish as i leave my broken shell

i wish i was happy, got me wishing, i wish was happy when i was

Credits:

Art: messy
Production: cxrter x cloud
Mix/Master: Ensenada Beats

happy (actor) prod. cxrter x cloud

lyrics:
hello darling can i have your name
never knowing what disaster brings
its not fair the way you make me feel
i dont care because this lifes not real

im not waiting 
for an answer 
we're so past that
pointless banter 
give me something 
worth my effort 
i dont know 
what might happen 
if i let go 
of my perception

hello darling can i have your name
never knowing what disaster brings
its not fair the way you make me feel
i dont care because this lifes not real

hello darling

hello darling (sheepy)

boxin up the v shit it look like silent hill

silent hill

cheetah print w/ seezenz

out now everywhere https://open.spotify.com/track/3WZfIIyPPn0EuxMoxV9aJz?si=337b5ebf125d47fc

thank u for listening <3 i love u

spotify

trust (prod. siemspark + will_rhead) #ALLPLATS

randy moss

prod. noise complaint 

lyrics:
i just want to speak, and get it off my chest
its painful leaving this unsaid
the memories keep playing in my head
seeing you in my dreams again

oh, is there something that im missing?
just tell me
oh, im ready to listen 
im sorry
know its my bad
i always worry
i miss you here
baby, come hold me
hold me
hold me

flesh:
I've been holding the door closed
It's been harder to take a breath
And part of me wanna step outside
But I wanna let you know
How beautiful you are to me
I didn't mean to be hurtful
I wanna be your armor
When you put your arms around me
I can feel my heart beating stronger
I swear I'll tell you everything
Be honest, keep no secrets
We'll bear this hell, you and me
Help each other fight our demons



hold me (feat. flesh)

Big collab! Thanks to everyone <3 
Production by Cxrter & babieyummo
Mix & Master by Vails

lluna : https://on.soundcloud.com/dLQzh5lPzA3ZTsuV8K
Milxnake: https://on.soundcloud.com/1P6F8oL4xXOM6m2Gyo
nvr nvmbr: https://on.soundcloud.com/JsubehE6ULMdX8Zad4
Liru: https://on.soundcloud.com/pnUmFnRPRm5xIhAIVj
Cxrter: https://on.soundcloud.com/vYSP04xGI9JLI081G0
Babieyummo: https://on.soundcloud.com/VB6L2J2aQbr22JoTjW


Lyrics:

(lluna)
「遠い未来
嘘みたいな再会
想像して期待したい
混ざり合い
何気ない日常をもっと愛したい」
↓
( A distant future
A reunion that feels like a dream
I want to imagine it, and believe
Blending together
I want to love the ordinary days even more)

(Vails)
Lately I
Wish I never met you
Cus lately I
Can’t seem to forget you 

 you moved on
This hits home, it’s killing me
my smiles gone, I’m perched down
On to my knees

I’m trying to avoid it the best I can 
she dont know my heads 10 feet in the sand
It’s still in my conscience that I’m not her plans 
I can’t say I’m fine I don’t know where I stand 

She’s laughing with him while I break alone
She’s found her place while I can’t find home
I wish I could hate her, but love won’t go
So I sit with this pain that she’ll never know

(Milxnake)
Didn’t she care?
Baby, I cared
I just got tired
I just got scared
You wanted answers
I can’t explain
I’ll hold my breath
Swallow the pain 
And it’s all a fucking mess now
Like, can we fix this up?
Because I’ve had enough 
I’ll be your girl forever
Just hit my phone whenever
So tired of explaining myself now
And I’m willing to change but idk how

(Vails)
Lately I
Wish I never met you
Cus lately I
Can’t seem to forget you 

 you moved on
This hits home, it’s killing me
my smiles gone, I’m perched down
On to my knees

I’m trying to avoid it the best I can 
she dont know my heads 10 feet in the sand
It’s still in my conscience that I’m not her plans 
I can’t say I’m fine I don’t know where I stand 

She’s laughing with him while I break alone
She’s found her place while I can’t go home
I wish I could hate her, but love won’t go
So I sit with this pain that she’ll never know

(Nvr nvmbr)
baby, you took a piece of my soul
then left me here dead in the snow
i guess it’s how things gotta go

the weight of all this pressure
it’s crushing my bones
i don’t have a heart or a home
you’re someone now that i don’t know

don’t come through
you tear me in two
with the things that you do
what do i have to lose?

i’m black & blue 
mistaken & used
you fucked my whole life up
now & we’re through

(Liru.)
I keep breaking down so easily
I still remember what you said and girl it eats on me
Im so sorry that youre leaving me
I dont know how I became this monster that you see in me

im losing myself and damn I dont know how to stop
I dont know if we can go back to friends
cause baby you tore me apart
now my sanity's fucked up 
I hope I can wake up
cause this shit is a nightmare
I thought you could fight fair
I thought you could fight fair
I thought you could fight fair

Wish we never met (feat. lluna, Milxnake, nvr nvmbr, Liru.)

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor

my heart; it’s cold 
like snow, it snows, it snows..
it’s gettin’ old & now we cannot grow

you left me here
i’m bleedin’ all alone..
i’m glad for you go make it on your own

aye, yuh, woah, no.. don’t go
i’m fucked in the head
it’s sad, it’s sad; it shows..
you wish i were dead
i wish i could cope.. i won’t

can’t get outta my bed
i lost every bit of hope 
it’s cold, it’s cold
it’s cold, it’s cold, it’s cold

no heart in my chest
‘cause whatever’s left is stone
release my last breath
may God only hold my soul
i’m fucked in the head
it’s sad, it’s sad; it’s shows

(aye, yuh, woah)
please don’t go..
you’re all that i have
you’re all that i have, you know?

you don’t give a fuck
you don’t give a fuck, i know..
i’m bleedin’ to death
i’m bleedin’ to death, don’t go..

a cold rainy day
i don’t have shit to say
i just wanna be okay
your words cut me like razorblades
but i don’t feel anything
yet that don’t make it okay..

(aye, yuh, woah, please don’t go..)

*me shredding*

(please don’t go)

my heart; it’s cold 
like snows, it snows, it snows..
it’s gettin’ old & now we cannot grow

you left me here
i’m bleedin’ all alone..
i’m glad for you go make it on your own

aye, yuh, woah, no.. don’t go
i’m fucked in the head
it’s sad, it’s sad; it shows..
you wish i were dead
i wish i could cope.. i won’t

can’t get outta my bed
i lost every bit of hope..

it snows

iTunes

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor
cover art by https://www.instagram.com/bleak7x/

heartache (my heart hurts)
all the time (i don’t mind)
we’ll meet (we’ll meet again)
down the line (i don’t wanna be alive)

check my vital signs
now it’s clear that i died
but you don’t care so i’m sayin’ goodbye

check my vital signs
they’re as clear as the sky
yeah, i’m no longer here
so just say your goodbyes

i know you hate me so much
but i’m in a coma
just go n’ smell the roses
yeah, i know that it’s over

heart cold, minnesota
pour it up in my soda
it’s how i died on the sofa

yeah, i thought about buyin’ a gun
yeah, it could be some fun
watch as they die or they run
yeah, the taste of the blood..

baby, you don’t care about me
like you could live without me
i scream, i’m fucking shouting
as the world fall around me

everything i love is turning to dust 
yeah, i know i’m so fucked
sweep me under the rug..

i destroy everything that i love with my touch
i use your love as a crutch
this liquor’s holding me up..

you speak to me in my dreams
when i wake up, i bleed
they gave me no time to grieve

i know you hate me so much
but i’m in a coma
just go n’ smell the roses
yeah, i know that it’s over..

heart cold, minnesota
pour it up in my soda
it’s how i died on the sofa

yeah, i thought about buying a gun
yeah, it could be some fun
watch as they die or they run
yeah, the taste of the blood..

minnesota

grow.wav

chicagoland producer 💜🖤🩶🤍 | 21 | 🧠♾️
(prod.) credits: @sewerperson @lilskeleskrrt @emofruits @vito2300 @denverkell

BLACK ICE 2002
TEARDROP MAFIA 
PAIN 2 PRESSURE
HOUNDS 4

happy (actor) prod. cxrter x cloud

luv2messy

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