#indie #experimental #darkfolk #radiohead #tomyork #muse

Soul Rocket

Headphone Users

Can You See(Prod.hisohkah)

recovered all my old tracks from 2012-2016 because my laptop broke last year. AND NOW WE BACK MOFUCKAS, we takin back to 2015 when i was in high school talking about coping with my grandfathers death, trying to finish school and dealing with a abusive relationship at the time. hope you guys enjoy

lyrics:

when i was a youngin i wanted to play baseball
just runnin those bases while my pawpaw was smilin
now my heart is divided cause right now he ain't here
he died last year, and i still ain't got over it.
yo my face filled with tears. when i heard the bad news
he said it's only the rain, it'll be over soon.
i learned alot from him right now he ain't right
under this mask that i wear, the only color is blue
and i'm a failure i know you see it

yo.. right now i'm not passing high school, graduation my be delayed, i can't get a diploma with a 1.8 GPA im sorry momma
i can see the dissapointment on your face
im sorry momma
i wish i was a better son but
hey, im gonna make it out, but am i gonna stay whole?
i'm trapped in these self doubts.
my teachers say Elijah, please be realistic this music shit is just a dream.
go graduate and go visit a fucking community college and be hopeless when finished, and then go live out your life blindfolded with no direction, but hey i get it
we work a part time job just to get a little money thinkin thats our future life we stubborn with the teen's perspective that you're supposed to swim in an ocean of failure and depression, you're envious of others askin all them niggas questions like


HOW YOU MAKE IT OUT?
YOU AIN'T GOT A CAR
HOW YOU GET AROUND?
YOU AIN'T GOT A JOB MY NIGGA
HOW YOU SAFE AND SOUND?

i never understand because im not optimistic
they told me to make a plan B but you know i never listen
tell em it's "build or destroy and it's my decision"
and i'll find a way to fix it, if i make a mistake
you should've seen the fucking look on my face.
when the white folks clapped their hands while i performed on the stage
but when i went home i stayed in my room until late, and i wonder if fame will be my fate and will tomorrow be the date that i pass away?

life is funny will i pass away tomorrow?

i'm dancin with the devil till im starin at the dirt
life is funny, i always laugh at her
she's really sensitive, i can't get too mad at her
cause you know afterwards, there ain't no after her.
if you know what i mean
i mean you live, you got your dreams, things aren't really there as you see
the depressing part it's so hard to achieve 
you start to burn your own jersey and start leaving your team
you gettin desperate like it's do or die
you're stationary like you crucified
friends ain't friends no more you're un-unified 
so you say fuck it, i might as well commit suicide 
but you don't love it

when i decide to sign off, and it's my turn to settle down, i won't return, promise that you will dream about me
promise that you will dream about me

(interlude with my granny)

i made some fucked up mistakes
i wish a time machine was real so i can rewind the tape
stress and depression got me
caught my soul, wiped the grin off my face
cause im a failure and a liar i get it
tell your friends that i said it,
that your boyfriend's pathetic, and he's ugly as fuck.
and cosmetics won't get him to a attractive nigga 
bashin my own damn genetics, but aye im grateful i said it.
my heart should be broken, like a mirror in shards, why don't you just OD and die nigga, it isn't that hard, take a pill and then snooze
drown the candy with booze, too bad i always stay sober, i never win i just lose, i never win i just lose.
bought a new necklace. the "noose"

im a good for nothing son a bitch and my life don't een matter
hurt me back, keep repeating that pattern, sometimes to get rid of pain i wanna load up on drugs, but im just kidding inside.. what i want is a hug.

why am i in my feelins why am i in my?

you shouldn't be without me

you a pussy nigga elijah

kill yourself

im sorry momma (feat. granny) prod. knxwledge (2015)

ImYoBitchTuxedoMask!
art by @itsbubblegum

Ali_Must_Die X Lil Polearm - TuxedoMa$k [Prod. By Skel]

1. Start	
2. Tunnels 
3. Boss	
4. Fun (For Nujabes)
5. Challenger 	
6. Dreams 	
7. Continue 	
8. Save Her 	
9. Rest 	
10. Glitch 	
11. Fly 
12. Friendships 	
13. Bonus Stage

afterschool games [beat tape]

Death Day (Feat. Scuare)

hey guys i'm feeling much better lately <3 
artwork done by my homieee (i just added the orange square)
follow her IG: artsy.faartsy
&& Twitter: @DominicaDean1

lyrics:
would've never imagined you leavin me
i shouldn't have assumed you were mine 
when you werent
it felt just like magic
you next to me
i shouldn't have assumed we were one 
when you left it hurt.
oh it hurts babe

(it hurts so damn bad)

LEAVIN ME

I knew i wasn't able
took 20 years
but now my fuckin demons have a seat at the table
and i agree with their fables
i got ropes on my wrists
to the arms of a chair
plus some scissors to my hair
i got a- god damn nother rope diggin at the skin of my ankles
this shit ain't fair
i juggle between self conscious and self aware
i struggle to comprehend its impossible to compare
i guess this is growing pains at last
but i felt since 13 guess i was growing too fast
i started smoking weed when i was fucking 17
and then i got popular cause niggas found out i sing
but then i realized 
niggas ain't as real as they seem
my brain made out of glass that shit shattered my fucking dreams
so i took that feeling 
and hid it behind THC
but i was smoking way too heavy
life looking like DVDS
searching for some TLC thats all i fucking needed
tryna find some fucking family time up on my twitter feed
but i ain't succeed
thrash around my bed at 3am 
wonder why i can't sleep
asking where my smile?
guess the vileness done melted my teeth
hoping i don't fucking feel this way when i turn 23
hoping when my kids grow up they wont be like they DAD
idk what challenge face me next
i hate silence in a room that shit makes me deaf
awkward round my parents it's like we ain't even met

LALAH

keeping my guard up
wont help no one
steer away from close ones
in fear of judgement
wish i could fly away
go somewhere else
but no matter how far i go
i still land in myself
i see sunbeams from your eyes
gleaming down on me
in your absence i hope you're still proud of me
maybe im too young to worry what comes after me
i wonder where spirits go
i wonder if they flow there
casually

we're the same
you and i
the same blood
the same blood.

Go Somewhere Else

mixed by : @bigdumie

pretty swamp but she's prettier 
not no bitch, not no hoe, u just a baby huh?
grab my hand we gon rock up out this city
cocaine nose with a stifling demeanor

she hates the name mikey
she prefers to call me "babyswamp" 
i get it...

Go Somewhere Else

maru.