lyrics:

mention
oh you never seem to mention
i can feel the added tension between us
its feeding on shit that i say
it ruined my day

oh, mention
i think that i forgot to mention
i’ve been feeling like an asshole of late and
i never mean to say what i say
im trying to change

i’m trying to
break down on a side street
i’m finding my footing
while the ground’s disappearing

im feeling the bricks as i fall down
erasing a chance of a thought now
maybe i should speak

decision
i gotta make a damn decision
i know u miss how it was written between us
its doesnt have to stay this way
im willing to change

indecision
im struggling with indecision
the lights have never been so dim when between us
i’ll never try to make
you stay

im trying to
break down on a side street
im finding my footing
while the ground’s disappearing

im feeling the bricks as i fall down
erasing a chance of a thought now
maybe i should speak

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im feeling the bricks as i fall down
erasing a chance of a thought now
maybe i should speak
up for myself now
i’d much rather just see myself out
maybe i should speak

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lyrics : 

(hook)
i always lie say i'm okay 
i'm burning bridges everyday
throw me into the ground till i decay 
a cry for help i can't convey

(verse)
and maybe i can keep taking these sleeping pills
until my kidneys fail 
until i'm feeling ill
until i'm feeling guilt
until my blood spills
and i be sleeping way too much and therapy don't help
i need to get my shit together focus on my health
and everyone that i know around me chasing wealth
i need to grow the fuck up but i don't feel compelled
i need to grow the fuck up like everyone i know
yeah i'm not special and this music shit is just a joke
i've lost all interest in the things i used to call my home
i step outside and take a walk and i still feel alone
and i did way too many pills when i was way too young
can't even smoke weed anymore cause i feel like im stuck
my hands are cold my mind is racing and my chest is numb
i pray to God to lend a hand he said i'm too fucked up
i need to work on all my problems but i'd rather run
i take a look up in the mirror and i know i'm scum
i try to fix my brain but it's been overrun 
with false perceptions of myself and i am not the one
(i try to fix my brain but it's been overrun 
with false perceptions of myself and i am not the one)

(hook)
i always lie say i'm okay 
i'm burning bridges everyday
throw me into the ground till i decay 
a cry for help i can't convey

Decay (prod. irby)

august

it's hard

lyrics:
i scribbled symphonies of peace to cope with finding out the truth
worked as needed reaching what middle school me would think was cool
fiddling pens and pencils pensive wasn’t picky with the tool
i’d use for some naive translation of my angst and fragile mood

i can’t afford it now

growing pains replaced with what the bills are like in winter now
since the cold ascended i can’t shake the taste of poetry
phonetically imperfect pretty speech protruding out of me
im cramming syllables to cry of colder temps and picture books
reliving twisted memories romanticizing what it took
to be alive surviving prerip jeans and social trends
extending my insistence on reliving those remember when’s

it’s a fucked up toxic endeavor

middle child needs attention to feel valid who’da guessed it?
choose an evening to feel hollow with my grief i’ve been selective
been a lot of things over the years but never been objective
i’m a passive dude

some would call it sitting fence and when i’m honest i probably would too
at my expense i picked the easiest escape when i could
now im desperate to do something i should

cause there’s something bout finality that scares me
wavered care perpetuated the impression that i’m distant and aware
of ticking hours minutes seconds sticking strictly to my regiment
rejected any message i was yet to learn my lesson
started strong and i accepted that’s enough to use the leverage
and projected progress farther now it’s a little more than hard
to understand i’m on a limit always finish weaker than i started
know how to begin but stutter further in the tempo how ironic

looking in the mirror a song by melmige thank you for listening [prod. eeryskies]

https://soundcloud.com/lovedi3d
https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall

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eyes w/ lovedi3d (nevrfall)

https://soundcloud.com/whosvacant
https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall

Lyrics:

Got my heart tied
You don't understand but I
Leave my life right now
Lets forget all about the past

You only love me for the pleasure
I can't have that around me
Cause it's sickening me
You only want me in the late nights
Can't tell if you're lying
Can you be honest with me

You used me for what you needed
And I denied the way I was treated
Our toxic love
I felt defeated
So who i am to judge
I tried my best for us
Same shit different day was this even love
You took so long
then you messed it all up
Something so good gone in a whisper from ya
Things were normal then you was just gone
You used my energy for something so wrong
So wrong, so wrong

You only love me for the pleasure
I can't have that around me
Because it's sickening me
You only want me in the late nights
Can't tell if you're lying
Can you be honest with me

late nights w/ vacant (nevrfall)

https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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Lyrics: 

I feel lost in war
I've lost my friends to this
I want them back
I wish we could go back

Seen too many places
It's been too much you should know
We're fighting for nothing at all
I'm left you to die

Stop all this fighting
I wish I could control it
The war is continuing
theirs no possible ending
I'm seeing bodies decay
Stuck in this field
Where bodies lay 
My friends right here
They died in front of my arms
And I'm screaming out for help
I wish I could help

If you could understand how I feel
They cried in front of my arms
They told me to live
But I couldn't just let it go

You died in my arms
I'm sorry for leaving

Put it all away just to stay with you
Fighting every night just to keep you safe
I don't understand anything that you say
I don't give a fuck about no one but you

war (nevrfall)

https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow
https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall

being sincere w/ reapers shadow (nevrfall)

https://soundcloud.com/stezzyxl
https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall

Lyrics:

you're my saviour, like a remedy
But I lost myself, need clarity
We were once so close, now were enemies
From love, to the point you wanna kill me so
I fill myself with guilt
That I crushed everything that I built
And it leaves me drained, to the point I'm ill
Where I lay in bed, wonder if I'm real and

Now I'm scared to sleep
Because if I do you'll be in my dreams
And I cant bare myself and see
Myself, knowing that I'm incomplete

I feel myself with guilt
She tells me everything I don't know if she's real
The lies you say I hate
They get me every time
And here I was I just thought we had something
And now you're going back and forth about this feeling
Thanks for nothing

You're far away

scars w/ stezzyxl (nevrfall)

https://soundcloud.com/ilyl1ght
https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall

Lyrics:

The world is yours Bella
I love you with all my heart
The world is yours Bella
To explore and meet new people

And I don't wanna waste your time
And I don't wanna stop it now
I know you're thousand miles away
And I'll be there waiting for you

Oh it hurts so bad that you're not here with me
Oh god it tears me apart 
And you live so far
Oh I tearing apart

Oh the sound of you voice brings me back to life (back to life)
Oh you calm every wave that keeps me up at night
And I don't wanna lose you again 
I can't believe you're so far away

late nights w/ vacant (nevrfall)

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