Produced by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @sainttomorrow

LYRICS
I left flowers at your grave
As if just to say
Though you may be long gone
Your memory remains
Wish that you were still here
Wish I could take your place
But I'm in need of closure
So I've decided not to stay

They say it was an accident
You can never really plan for them
So when all your friends left mass exodus
You stayed behind like my happiness

All of the trauma she endured at your hands
Was it enough to push her over the edge
Many nights I laid awake
Soaked with regret
For the love that I had left
So today I'm leaving these

I guess that bastard got 
What was coming to him 
They read your diary and saw all the things he did 
But that won’t bring you back no
There’s no solace here in that 

I wish someone had listened 
When you said you wanted to leave 
So now I’m taking the last bus out of this town 
And I’ll keep your memory with me on the breeze

Said I'd come back for you
But I never did
I turned my back on you
I'm such an idiot
But I can't be held to promises
That I made when I was just a kid

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I've Decided Not to Stay (Prod. Horosha & Saint Tomorrow)

she don't even kno me ☆⌒

produced by byekento

Lyrics:

byekento *laughter*

i don't blame you at all
feel like i lost everything 
got nothing at all
and after i said everything
got no one to call
fading all my memories of 
you in the smoke and dust 

its not as hard as it seems 
but i'm still losing everything
i live in my dreams 
i know nothings what it seems 
i'm silent on my own 
all i needed was you
all i needed was you

so if i ever say i-
don't need nobody than
i'm lying but i'm not 
so sick of trying
i just want it to stop
everyday seeing it all fade away
there's nothing left for me 

there's nothing left for me 
i'm drowing in my sleep
don't ever walk away 
i'm out of my damn mind

(i'm out of my damn mind)

i'm drowing in my sleep

(i'm drowing in my sleep)

i'm out of my damn mind

there's nothing left for me

Porch Light

mixed/mastered by me
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produced by https://soundcloud.com/prodpitfall

neurotic (pitfall)

produced by @kingtheta

[@lottaheart]
used to think you were the best damn part of me
now i see who you are and its so hard for me
to believe you could do me so horribly
after everything, you saw the heart in me

but i guess that wasn't true
now i don't know what to do
i was falling hard for you,
you were out with someone new
while i working away
to get you out that place
the place that you hate
you were hiding your faces
its outrageous
the way you faked this
and left me vacant

[@xobroken]
where are you?
i need to see you one last time before you go
i just need to let you know im vulnerable
because you fake all the emotions you show

but i cant do it the same
run away from the other pain that we face
be yourself, lately im too blame
is it really me or is it you that you hate?
baby what you saying?
telling me she loves me, i know that she's faking
lying to my face and i just cant take it
feeling out of place, got too many things changing

[@lottaheart]
used to think you were the best damn part of me
now i see who you are and its so hard for me
to believe you could do me so horribly
after everything, you saw the heart in me

bestpartofme w/ xobroken [king theta]

prod. heyzbee & neverforever

i sold my soul 
to a girl i know 
if she hurts me now 
it’ll me break me whole 

(and i’m okay with possibilities 
so i just sit back in tranquility)

she’ll crush my skull 
with a force unknown 
while my blood rush out 
on to the white rose 
i want to talk to you more
down to my core
my life i have sworn 
left on the shore 
don’t separate from me 
i’m still on the recovery 
i know that i’m an oddity 
but god i get anxiety 
i know that i am tiring 
you do not need to lie to me 
there’s something wrong i know i see 
there’s something with my wiring 

yeah, my soul is corrupt 
i think i’ve had enough
cuz my hearts in a rut 
my heart has tons of these cuts 
that just burn like the sun 
and the scream at me, shush

i sold my soul 
to a girl i know 
if she hurts me now 
it’ll me break me whole 
she’ll crush my skull 
with a force unknown 
while my blood rush out 
on to the white rose

soul

some words to decipher or not up to you thanks for listening

lyrics:

anticipating catastrophe
fatal flaw relaxing in the face of that adversity
acknowledge my reaction is the product of the casualties
experienced in adolescence carried to maturity
repetitive confession of the pathos that perpetuates
the nature of my situation quickly fabricated fate
a force historically ignored unless it benefits the way
that i’m behaving in the moment victim to it every day
that’s the problem with it
when im given option to respond or not
i’m dodging quick to circumvent
it’s honestly exhaustin but ive given in on fixin it
could barely be above the water brag that im still breathing in

maybe this just isn’t meant for me
perspective antiquated rhythm fixed to what it used to be
pitied desperation tried to entertain the efforts
but endeavors only measured by results and mine historically
been undeveloped
a set obsession with ethics and people pleasing 
punctured arguments deflated any lesson to learn
seems the reason that the hunger’s never satiated
same as why i never placed the blame on who decided to hurt
i’m much angrier than former incarnations of the self
i shouldered fear of resignation years i kept it to myself
and watched it turned into distortion yearn for retribution well
after the dust has settled left me empty handed aimless
fighting ghosts

battle’s over but the metric for atonement isn’t settled on
so everyone involved in different places trynna cope a different loss
the only way they know how
out loud grievances shot down shut mouths
narrow eyes keeping opposition in peripheral
to hide lies it’s fine every peace time ephemeral
cause i remembered all of it and held on
like if i lost it id be lost with nothing at all

anticipating apathy
in an attempt to pacify myself my mental atrophied
actualize identity to rectify the stagnancy
but still get tunnel vision when confronted with reality
rock bottom of hope
long time lying down a lot of laundry to fold
cups not in the kitchen with em flowering mold
stuck in indecision listen static and drone
rot when getting up and getting with it still accessible
stuck in indecision numb to input and uncomfortable
existential rhythm living nothing in an instant 
inconsolable when hit with the idea that this is it
and nothing more

vacant and complacent and still hoping that it’s different
like the effort wasn’t my decision left it up to luck and i’m sure
if i continue like this know that imma sigh my life away
to think i thought i was mature
heighten caution for those close to opening doors
i’m not sure anybody even knows me anymore


drone metal [prod bailey daniel]

particles & atoms

particles & atoms (secre)

w/ @h8fake
Prod by morioh
Mixed by byewana

Eazz w/ h8fake

MERRY LITMAS VOLUME 2! REAL CHRISTMAS SHIT!

Merry Merry Litmas (feat. lorelei.wav)

hope u all like this one, all platforms 8/14 🌟 💕 
-- lyrics --
Shawty got Red Bottoms
She aint got no soul
Took my heart, left a hole
Shook it hard, left that hoe
Now I'm doing better on my own
Nowadays I gotta keep a pole
Wrist so fresh I gotta keep it cold
Thats a light flex, gotta stay ten toes
What you expect? I gotta go

Baby you left me no choice
Can't you tell by the tone of my voice?
I'm lonely up in this rolls Royce
Without you the fuck is the point?
Pointed out flaws
Said I wouldn't make it
Now I'm a boss
And I got it made bitch
This life had a cost
I worked and I paid it
Sorry your loss
It's too late to save this
Baby I gave you my heart
Why did u rip it apart
Took years for me to restart
Now the Range got a push button start
It started out hot
You loved me a lot
Now you came back
Cuz I'm on the top
Now you my thot 
You come thru the spot
Throwing it back
Then u cum on the top

Shawty got Red Bottoms
She aint got no soul
Took my heart, left a hole
Shook it hard, left that hoe
Now I'm doing better on my own
Nowadays I gotta keep a pole
Wrist so fresh I gotta keep it cold
Thats a light flex, gotta stay ten toes
What you expect? I gotta go

Ok I admit it I miss you
It cant be a permanent issue
When u come thru I still kiss you
I don’t write these songs just to diss you
No second chance
For normal romance
You just came back 
for what I got in my pants
Oh please stop it 
You know want “that”
And my wallet
No way that it could be true
Your lies I see right thru 
I didn’t wanna leave you
But I can’t stay when I can’t believe you
Believe this 
I got big grips 
Gotta new babe
In my new whip
Gotta go away
From your bullshit
Gotta stay paid
Youre my motive 

Shawty got Red Bottoms
She aint got no soul
Took my heart, left a hole
Shook it hard, left that hoe
Now I'm doing better on my own
Nowadays I gotta keep a pole
Wrist so fresh I gotta keep it cold
Thats a light flex, gotta stay ten toes
What you expect? I gotta go

Gotta Go

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gotta go (prod. haze X jkei)

•ᴥ• 2000
Oakland Show: https://app.fanfly.live/ticket-claim?showId=40&ticketTierId=39

neurotic (pitfall)

AkiraDoves