prod. cxrter

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Summer 2024 Songs

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dope white boy songs pt 6

websitezero november '24

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @metlast
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Still the same scared kid that I was way back then
Know I'd give anything to change how it happened
Still bleeding from the wounds of my past and
Pursuing happiness
But I can't have that

Take another hit to my pride and my passion
Loss after loss like a chain reaction
When everything goes wrong
I need a way out
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

The drugs don't make it better
They just keep me distracted
From the life I'm supposed to live
And out the one that I'm trapped in
When everything goes wrong
I tend to break down
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

(skele)
And love I promise that I mean well
All those things I did were fucking my health 
I've never been good at helping out myself
It's getting bad
I prolly need help
I never meant for you to run away 
I just wanted you to feel a bit of my pain 
And when everything goes wrong I hope you'll be here 
Need someone to fix all my fears

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When Everything Goes Wrong w/ skele (Prod. metlast)

-NAVY-
i aint nothing
i aint nothing
do ur talking
i know u like it

u try to stop it
ur fuckin drugs which confinement are u hiding in, i cannot fuckin find it
-Hiraeth-
staring at the ceiling baby all i see is blood
u dont gotta call me now its nearly been a monf
u. aint gotta tell me that u luv me its a front
all my feelings are gone now u said u where done
i dont even wanna text you
i never thought id bean issue
"didnt mean to mistreat u"
my god have a reason

-NAVY-
but it wastes, wastes, wastes
been pullin on ur waist
im in space, space, space
aint nothin like it used to be
erased, reased, rased
im waiting on the day
putta 5 up to my head if u think u can run away
ima end it, end it, i hear voices in my basement

its hard to realize the sounds that fiddle in the distance
but you missed

-Hiraeth-
when i die would you let me grieve 
running out of skin 
nothing left of me
feel the marrow in my bone 
u gotta set me free
my god. 
my god would you let me breathe


-Sleepwater-
i wish u wouldent hurt me
the things u do desert me
so vacant for what concerns me
my bloods in ur vial turn me (into)
a dirty cheating scumbag
i know that i hate myself
i feel like a lost book that turned me down
i guess im just another hand me out

-NAVY-
im vacant, i stare blank, at the floor
theres nothing left, to mourn

-sleepwater-
im just not ur agony
you can lay me down, peacefully
I'm just, not ur agony


I Hear Screams In The Distance ft. hiraeth & sleepwater (prod. uforia)

Featuring @decksmusic
Produced by @shikixo & @jolst
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I don't talk much
'less I got something to say
Unconsciously
Rotting into my grave
Because my bad ideas and worst mistakes
Are catching up up with me today

Obnoxious
Intrusive thoughts in my brain
I'm not sick
We're all a little bit strange
Like what would I do with all this pain
If not create
So here's to the mess I've made

I admit I've made
A lot of mistakes in my days
But I'm not afraid
To own up to the fact that I could change

For the better
I've been doing my worst
You've got your head in the clouds
While I lay down in the dirt
It's so fucked up
How you made me question my worth
When karma comes back around
You'll get what you deserve

(decks)
Did I deserve this
It's like a boomerang
I'm feeling nervous
Never got a thing to say
It's like I'm locked up
A product of talking down
I'm always washing my hands just to clear my doubts

It's like I never care at all
I'm terrible
You say I'm not responsible
Insufferable
I know I'm just miserable
It's cyclical
I speak with my chest
'cause now I'm wishing the best for the mess I've made

Mess w/ decks (Prod. Shiki XO & Jolst)

surprise surprise;)
---
don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
---
lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

this is not a british accent fuck u

produced by yungspoiler and daks9k

originally performed by 9tails

completely non profit

lyrics:

talking up just to talk backwards
actor
i remember when the enemies where not a factor
gotta move different cus of outbursts of my temper
i might be an asshole but the truths what matters
splatter
all my deep down thoughts get shattered
on my new reboks plant matter
and it coned out raw
smoke that spliff then wrote this song

holding in smoke face
blue man group 
loud way too loud
man it smell like poop
but enough about me
tell me more about you
did your friend text back?
did u link that dude?

treat him like a main or a strong number 2
u about to break with the weight on u
put the faith in him but he always falls thru
lately i just hope that im not that dude
u aint really done nothing bad say u (say who?)
i been getting pew pewed every other song
drop
drop bombs and support gonna cease i guess
profit increase so does everybody's needs i guess
vampires when i bleed i guess
when i fuck off now u fuck me i guess
smoke my weed then kiss ur teeth whats next

im sorry friend
could we make amends? 
its the second call 
but ima call again
im on a variety of shit
its only 2pm
bottles concious n spliff
all beside me n the whip

i want decemeber 
there wasnt as many plans
that i felt bad for missing
to really see what i can
do with these hands
do with this brain 
and the subject matter inside
u leave im working
im eager
something i could never hide
something i could never hide
no
no

i get too deep in it
mind overdrive
my thoughts override
as fear overrides my shit
coarse cough got me fucked up
with the blood spit
yuck

some_ missed_ calls_ (yungspoiler x daks9k)

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

PRODUCED BY @Sinxi 

LYRICS

I crash in the night just a little bit
Black eyes empty space yea I sit with it
Love life ain`t the same when you live with this
Cold eyes empty space yea I sit with it
Take the pain I never had a way out
Wish I stayed I really want to lay down
All the same I'm bored until the next town
All the same I'm bored oh what a let down
Don't need no one else for introductions
Got my blade I'm hanging out inside the dungeons
Might just cut out my liver so I can function
Take out my feelings I don't need no one

Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)

I ran in my mind I never had plans
But your wanted after my hands
Broke the problems at the door
But the problems multiply and they make more
I don't want to love you
I don't want to trust you
I just wanted fate
I don't want to break down everything you say now
I'm not a detective keep me up awake
Leave me on the facetime
Staring at you topless smiling at my face
I don't want to face mine
Can't be fucked dishonest lying next to me

Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)

SPOTIFY

FEELINGS

Produced by navyxower
Written by Heylog & navyxower
Mix and master by Heylog & navyxower

lyrics
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its so challenging
you can throw me out, recycle me
I'm mortified
trying everything to keep me in line
I was neglected, but I'm feeling fine
will I be alright
i cant see through the fight!

I'm really a joke
you can see it in my eyes
a lonely little child
nobody by my side

they stay up for a while
night shift, go for a drive
ill wait until the morning to see you both in life

YOU ASK ME IF IM BORED OF YOU!
i tell you its alright
nobody ever missed me, im happy that your mine
ill stay here watch some cartoons
*do nothing with my life*
a lonely little child
just trying to get by

sing me, a lullaby to put me right to sleep
sleep by my side, and ill be happy as can be
a life that's full of trauma, guess healing aint for me
wait until the morning, ill be throwing up you see

she's upset, I know I messed up
in the bed, I slowly get up
look around, this is the last time
in ur room, it's home in my eyes
thunderstorms
travel back
stay the night 
then miss u bad
one hour
till I'm home
the last place I wanna go
seeing you like everyday to not seeing at all
how'd it go from talking every night to not one call
these changes, I don't like them, especially being alone
it'd probably be worse if I didn't learn how to grow

I'm really a joke
you can see it in my eyes
a lonely little child
nobody by my side

they stay up for a while
night shift, go for a drive
ill wait until the morning to see you both in life

sibling w/ heylog

distance📍

you can go and lie love 
tell me you mean it 
im going round in circles glued to the ceiling 
cus every time you talk to me i feel so diminished 
my heart starts beating i cant breathe for a minute 
i cant speak for a minute 

feel so close to you I
can feel the warmth to your side
im breaking down all the time 
my worlds been frozen in ice 
ur sending chills down my spine 
im finding somewhere to hide
 
say you been so lost 
well baby open it up 
can't relate what you've done 
oh baby i've had enough
im always afraid 
you've taken all that i was
baby please let me run 
im dissolving to dust 

i've been down sleep bet you didn’t notice 
bitch i’ve gone deaf i can barely hear ur shit 
u need to shower, the smell is potent 
balls so big bitch they're floating 
oh god its a shame i
had to see u fumble two guys in the same night 
oh god its a shame i 
went and curved your message at the same time 

don’t you feel stupid cus you look dumb 
whoring  for attention, no one wanted to cum
theres no self worth now the feelings gone 
done it to yourself at least you having some fun 

is this all im worth
i thought i made you mine 
i want mind, 
i wont lie

you could do so much better than me 
oh i 
spend so much time by myself inside
maybe you’ll find me hibernating 
deep in the forest unusual cadence

me

deaf

crumbling everywhere i go to, lately 
breaking down nowadays is something, daily 
i swear i tried but i can't seem to escape this trapped in a maze where every corner's an abyss

it seems like no1's trynna save me 
no helping hands, no calls nor texts
they just leave me to face it
got no support, full of remorse i need you to embrace me 
in ur arms, they sooth the scars and make me just forget this

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r 

and i’ll sit alone
my phones on dnd 
but it wouldn’t matter 
no one checks on me 
and they’ll say they care
but don’t listen closely 
they’ll say they care 
when i finally can’t breathe 

friends hit me for a feature 
but they’ve never shared my songs 
and i’ll pretend it’s cool 
cause it’s not worth i’ll play along  
so i may be a narcissist 
please say that it’s okay 
cause if i do not love myself 
then that leaves no one loving me 

i walk alone 
drag broken bones 
they throw their stones 
and go for my throat 
i’ll turn off my phone 
and i’ll keep it closed 
cause i don’t need anyone to know where i’ll go

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r

casperrr & geist - cast (pekarot)

One That Got Away

prod. idly blare

lyrics 

Could you please go away
She sits around arm's length so she can twist the blade
Poppin' uppers cause it helps and it numbs the fuckin' pain
My friends are worried I say don't be I swear I'll be okay
Why do I walk the same path hoping shit will change
I need to cut out these fake ass people out the frame
I don't know who to trust all these bitches are the same
This isn't me it's cause of her, fuck, she's the one to blame
Could you please go away
She sits around arm's length so she can twist the blade
Poppin' uppers cause it helps and it numbs the fuckin' pain
My friends are worried I say don't be I swear I'll be okay

amphetamine (idly blare)

i know how it feels (p. niche)

prod. heyzbee :) (also thanks to @eden-is-empty for some advice)
feat. @user-642636378

somber air and wisp of ghost sing 
you declare what means to be seen
in the windows you cannot see me 
when you find me i won’t be one piece
as i suffocate i turn to someone 
but their names on the tip of my tongue
can’t be said if i do i’m gone 
not here honestly i’m withdrawn 

in the willow, i can see where it’s hollow 
underneath is where i go to wallow
in a second i can meet you in the grotto 
but under willows my tongue is borrowed
in 
the 
trees
i live

halfhearted:

this time
maybe you need someone else by ur side 
i cant never get it right, when i try 
iv been drinking a new bottle every night 
to heal my cuts, but i 
never settle and eats eating me alive 
when i pull up you just say i kill the vibe 
smoking smoking and she saw it my eyes 
thanks for nothing guess ur friends were 
always right about me

u were there for it all 
now my texts are all green 
but im happy your good 
ill write our love in a book 
ill cross ur name off a list 
i gave it all that i could

ppl talk idrk the reason
i dont need help
im the reason that im bleeding

pressure been building im popping an artery said im a villian but it didkt bother me 
said iv been crossing the lines 
but ima just go for a drive

fine, you don’t wanna talk
fuck that, then you’ll get blocked 
tryna waste my time i thought 
so i keep my heart locked 
honestly i can’t stand the way 
you objectified me it hurts to this day 
damaged to the point might catch a stray 
just for looking at me don’t ever play 
burn this willow to the floor 
at one point i did adore 
memories i don’t want more
in the air the ashes soar
i can’t breathe with all these vines
still unsure if i have time
so much garbage in my mind
my mental is in decline 

somber air and wisp of ghost sing 
you declare what means to be seen
in the windows you cannot see me 
when you find me i won’t be one piece

in the willow, i can see where it’s hollow 
underneath is where i go to wallow
in a second i can meet you in the grotto 
but under willows my tongue is borrowed
in 
the 
trees
i live

willow (feat. halfhearted)

lie to me w/ DecayingAnyways (prod: TNVR)

Full Moon

Earned

The Right One

Left Right Now

Verse
I don’t wanna break up I don’t wanna leave 
I want you here next to me 
But it’s hard for me to see 
How this world isn’t better off without me 

I don’t wanna go no I just wanna stay 
But I keep pushing you away 
It’s hard for me to watch you break 
When it’s my fault yea every day 

I just want you here with me 
But I got toxicity 
Suicidal thoughts it’s hard to breathe 
But I got down on one knee 

Sometimes I think I gotta go 
You’d be better off without me home 
But something always keeps me here 
I have to say it’s you my dear 

Prechorus
I can’t let you go 
I can’t let you roll 
I just need you around 
All I do is let you down 

I can’t do this all alone 
I just need your hand to hold 
Mine is gone I need your soul 
Mine is gone I need your soul

Hook:
Think about how much better the world would be if it were without me 

Think about how much more of the world you’d see if you were without me 

scorpio verse:
Would you be happier, if I weren't here?
If it's best for you, I'd disappear 
Don't want to be a weight on your shoulders
Even if means not having you while getting older
I'm so scared, I'm fucking petrified 
I can't lose the love of my life

Prechorus
I can’t let you go 
I can’t let you roll 
I just need you around 
All I do is let you down 

I can’t do this all alone 
I just need your hand to hold 
Mine is gone I need your soul 
Mine is gone I need your soul

Hook:
Think about how much better the world would be if it were without me 

Think about how much more of the world you’d see if you were without me

WITHOUT ME feat. scorpio (prod. IOF)

ft. vails @alex-thomas-fox
prod. @whos-that-clown x @prodryankelly
LYRICS
Hold me close, my soul is like an open window
My sails will lead me where the wind blows
Holy ghost, i hear the tip toes
Crawling up the stairs hope im not sacrificial 

Sacrifice who i am, another sacrifice, another door to slam
And baby i might be cannon fodder but im not ur sacrificial lamb
I got goals i got dreams i got plans
And you might never understand
Ima keep on making even if theres no demand
She a demon, but in the end were still holding hands
I guess underneath the surface im an evil kind of man
sacrificial lamb, put me at the stake play ur hand

Last call, for the loners in the back, 
me myself and i, i guess i got a triple stack
Always second guessing but u still gon have my back
And honesty gon tell the truth, so baby where you at

VAILS:
So im retracing my steps headed back to my quarter
 Need to escape all the pain Feel like a lamb send to slaughter
 And its tearing away at me im so afraid
 i need to sacrifice myself So u can be saved
 But its so hard Giving up everything we built but all towers fall eventually
 So guess ill run away with the guilt



sacrificial lamb ft. vails [prod. the sound clown x ryan kelly]

Vails, Vito, Cxrter - Rubick’s Cube 
Lyrics below:


Head spinnin round seeing colours like a rubix
Cuban in my hand, slow burn 
I take two hits
To the point, so blue, like chalk to a cue tip
So Film it, Stanley Kubrick, this my new shit 

Late night walks where we going I don’t know though
Promise I wont slip and tell a lie like Pinocchio 
Every single moment that we have worth a photo
Sorry that I’m high, put me first , im goin solo 

She ghost me in a nice way think she fuckin  Casper 
Pull  my proton pack out, take a stance then I’ll blast ya 
cannot deal with fakes
too many fucking snakes in the grass
Like a conference we debate
Stay up late and throw up hands

We be fighting every night like Tyson in his prime
I miss feeling myself, in the bath, drinking wine
You always bring a fuckin storm like hurricane Katrina
But still I’m always fuckin thankful that I got the chance to meet ya

And now my Head spinnin round seeing colours like a rubix
Cuban in my hand, slow burn 
I take two hits
To the point, so blue, like chalk to a cue tip
So Film it, Stanley Kubrick, this my new shit 

(Open)

Head spinnin round seeing colours like a rubix
Cuban in my hand, slow burn 
I take two hits
To the point, so blue, like chalk to a cue tip
So Film it, Stanley Kubrick, this my new shit

Rubick’s cube (feat. VITO)

Lyrics🌟⭐️💫


Stay hittin that double cup until i fall asleep
When I’m at my happiest, I don’t feel anything 
May not be who you want but I’m the one you need 
May not be who you want I gave you everything 
Now I’m having lucid dreams off that codeine
Say she hate me, but she fending for some more of me
Shotty craving my dick like a dope fiend
Left my heart in the cellar it’s molding
Extended clip, and it’s a long as a rope be
Broke the chains you could never control me
Pussy boy it ain’t never been no hoeing me
And I know they all love my music more than locally
Shout out Joe and Dom and jaded always road for me
Made Lost Lane game changed we where we supposed to be
Stars align bitch I’ve been fly they start noticing
Sick ass car I drive I was born to ride through the night sky
I feel so alive look into your eyes I don’t wanna die, baby girl forever you and I
Babies by our side thank you all for keeping me alive
And it’s fuck you and it stank you to the one who criticized
Still remember times that I
Stay hitting that double cup until I fall asleep Stay hittin that double cup until i fall asleep
When I’m at my happiest, I don’t feel anything 
May not be who you want but I’m the one you need 
May not be who you want I gave you everything 
Now I’m having lucid dreams off that codeine
Say she hate me, but she fending for some more of me
Shotty craving my dick like a dope fiend
Left my heart in the cellar it’s molding

Stay hitting that double cup until I fall asleep

Stay hitting that double cup until I fall asleep

Stay hitting that double cup until I fall asleep

Stay hitting that double cup until I fall asleep

Double Cup (dope fiend) [ohmygon! X prod.sneezii]

produced by cxrter & retz
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
i’m so sick of the notion
they won’t ever understand 
got no things to put hope in
got me hanging by a strand
keep a cabinet open
and a bottle in my hand
found the pressure too potent
now i'm nothing like you planned
thought you wanted devotion
now you want some other man
got me stuck in a ocean
it’s high tide

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

yeah we used to want that house with picket fence
now summers almost over and you told me it depends
putting teardrops on my pants 
and now my music my one plan
i don’t wanna walk around it
quit the drama no offense
i’mma 
i’mma be who i'm destined to be
watching people pull me down
but i'm still on my feet
bet you’re looking at now
while i'm living out my dreams
never did it for myself
girl i did it for the weak

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through
just hoping for some guidance
looking at my scars
on my cheeks and on my eyelids

like girl i feel it in my chest, when the night turns young i can feel it in my head now
why i’m feeling so depressed
but i try to talk about it
and it turns into a mess
i was just a kid now i'm losing all my hope
put a bounty on my head
point your gun and now i'm broke
wrong way wrong turn and now im dead weight
can't kick a habit
i can feel it on my worst days
they keep saying that im perfect
but u knew im never worth it
like i kept lying to ur face
now i'm going back to bed
but its been feeling like my grave

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been  sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed but i need one more
sorry baby i know lately i'm an eyesore

eyesore w/ halfhearted (cxrter x retz)

Lyrics:

What say you - my only pride
You held me from my will
What say you - my nightmare
I loved you way too late

I don’t want this pain no more
And you don’t wanna feel it too
And no matter what I do
I’ll always fuck it up, I’ll always do
Take it up with the sky for me
Seeing if it wants to cry
But I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna see the other side
Now my pulse is fading
Slowly my blood is slowly freezing
I don’t wanna close my eyes
Take me away from endless sleep
It’s way too late for me
I just want to fall asleep
And leave it all already
Take me back to my grave

What say you - my only pride
You held me from my will
What say you - my nightmare
I loved you way too late

[last post of 2024, happy new years!]

Music For Funerals

what say you [+ sogimura]

fun song about complacency and aimlessness

lyrics:

cold war martyr know they pray over my grave 
if only i had ever learned how to behave
two steps farther than i should’ve took took up
betting cause i never learned that fate is something you cannot escape
i’m stubborn it’s relentless how i skipped when i should listen
since it’s recently been a little less than great
but it’s essential that I flip into the rhythm of Ascension
so i’m pitching the delusion that i’ve built up isn’t fake

okay i admit it
my obituary forged and i been living
on the fringe a mental monastery
high up in the mountains
and the altitude is secondary
only to the things that I’ve been feeling 
and now i wait 2/4 in my place
for a rush gust of wind to carry me far away
and I’m impatient but satiation the old way is ancient
is it really my fault if i’m now complacent 

i know im okay
but what i see and what they say isn’t matching 
just survive the day
then imma get it and get it and get it and go

talking the sound and the sight of it got me nauseous
it’s chronic been living with it in a catatonic
lethargic sense of stability if i’m lying and saying i’m fine
inside of my mind at what point do i start to believe it as well
been going through hell
all nine circles been circling round
under buzzards that hover and hope that a buzzer beater
isn’t near in my future
take time at the right time not to lose it

i’m Lazarus back track habits been adamant
i’ll bounce back but what’s passion in the face of lack of action
i’m attached to it
could never break free at all
fate set in stone pride cometh before the fall
but i’ve been falling for a minute 
what’s the difference 
if i feel the pull of gravity and say that i enjoy it
cause i feel it either way

but in the end will i be satisfied
in life will i react to what’ll happen around me
a specter in spectator mode
or take action a reclamation of control
a designation of the path of my soul
or rather auto-condemnation to the shackles and bolts
or rather some degeneration of my flesh and my bones
cause i rather would establish that i know what i know
and i know that i know nothing i got room i could grow
so imma take that

cold war martyr for the cause i think i hate that
old wars fought became a symbol for the movement
harder battles have been won but lost the ones i really shouldn’t
need to relax i need to kick back
i need that kick drum snare clap boom bap in my pulse 
i need that blood pump first jump off the ledge and im gone
i need to cross that threshold event horizon in sight
i need my turn to prove im gonna move at least im gonna fight
pull my shoulders back stand tall
hold my weight up
breaking out of stasis lately need a minute to wake up
shaking off the frost reintegrating the salient
space that i need to succeed can be seen
i just needed a second to breathe
cause the weeks of the season seem to be blending
acrylics i’m mixing to different hues of blue
till im in too deep

cold war martyr [prod stoic]

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