brakence - deepfake (acoustic)

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take me back (instrumental)

like a fool on a shelf (instrumental)

heart (instrumental)

a collab with Andy Cizek, from Makari/Monuments/Termina/WVNDER

prod breakdown vid on youtube: https://youtu.be/NGkT72ZahdI?si=_6P3t3q7N1QIsm0x

ANDY:
bent the truth so I could see clearer
gazin through those cracks in the mirror
you can call me but i ain't gonna hear ya
don't wipe up your tears, now
don't wipe up your tears now

SCRO:
reaching out my hand to a stranger
tried to break those eyes tried to change you
take it back i don't want it i don't blame you
it all feels the same, ya
and i can't play your games now

BOTH:
im turning back from a blind eye
from seeing ev-er-y face i hide from inside
feels like i'm brooding on lost time
and now i'm chasing the echoes i try to rewind

SCRO:
I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night

ANDY:
I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night

cause now I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night

SCRO:
cause i don't, i don't need this
moving on, don't believe this
ENTER ANDY: i tried to learn from the reset
but now i'm burned and all i feel is the regret
SCRO:
i've found the reason
i can't believe it
no more deprivation
reprise from desperate mourn; he cries

ANDY:
I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night
you know I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night. I do this every night

ANDY:
born of a ghost left behind
rinse off the blood from the wine
the voices deep in my head, the voices deep in my head
I do this every night
BLEGCH

BOTH:
echoes; left behind
fractures; from my mind

fractures (w/ Andy Cizek)

confess it

Grape Juice by alynford & @not_boat

It's not the end of the world
Anyway wouldn’t we
Shake it off with a handshake
Seek to set right
What’s been upset
Take back the dumb things we wish so badly we hadn’t said
Maybe we misinterpreted
Easily turned to hurting them
Got me wondering…

Have I ever been right?
No no no
To be wrong
Or to be alone your whole life?
Just wait, I’m ok
I’ll be fine, hush
Let it go
Til you’re not bleeding anymore
Have I ever been right?
No no no
I guess that I held on a little too tight
Rush, tug fate delicate
Timelines touching
Heaven’s gold
You’re gonna leave here on your own
Stay loving

Have I ever been right?
No no no
Fault’s location won’t
Keep me up at night
No way, saying stay
Don’t leave, don’t go
If you squeeze your grape juice box
It stains your clothes
Have I ever been right?
No no no
Now that you’re gone
Wish I’d been wrong the whole time
So pray but they may still have to go
Everything ends
Especially what matters most

What will they say when they see?
I’ve already ruined my brand new t-shirt
What will they say on Monday?

Not much juice
will find your mouth
Lately I’ve been finding out
Death grip sends it flying out
Seems like I’m still finding
I’ll take my lifetime learning how
When will I?

Oh when will I learn?
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I try
Raining grape juice
stains my clothes
Heaven knows I try
Stains my clothes

Have I ever been right?
To be wrong
Or to be alone your whole life?
Just wait
Have I ever been right?
Hush, let it go
Have I ever been right?
I guess that I held on a little too tight
Squeezing
I’ll be fine
Leaving

Grape Juice feat. string cheese

vision ends where the light refuses to reach

falseskin

vernal

a short collection of songs about repetition, self-awareness, and growing out of the same old patterns.
written fast, left rough on purpose.
by any other trope, it's still me.
made this in a rush because overthinking ruins everything.

heliotrope

rainbows
on my tv screen
the shit they first fed me 
when i turned thirteen

still step outside
for the weather
to take a breathe
and i wrote u a letter

i remember the first time u kissed me
and it felt like u rly missed me
and i wish that it always felt that way, that way

and i remember the fights in the movies
it felt like u rly missed me
and i wish it always felt the same, the same

wristbands
they/re giving out
the hell they sent me in
when i cried for help

step outside
for the weather
to take a breathe
and find a new lighter

i remember the first time u kissed me
and it felt like u rly missed me
and i wish it always felt that way, that way

and i remember the fights and the wrist bleeds
it felt like u rly missed me
and i wish it always felt the same, the same

its been awhile, its been awhile
felt different, felt the same
ill wait awhile, its been awhile
felt that way, what a waste

ur hands in my hair
i love ur touch, and i love ur stare
it isnt fair, it isnt fair 
it isnt fair

do u still love me?

Lyrics are provided for all songs and reading them while listening is a great way to enjoy my music. I float around genres and love hard hitting, edgy music if it’s also emotional and beautifully melodic. Like some of these favourites of mine: brakence, Panic At The Disco, Ellie Goulding, Cosette, Emily Millard.
Original drummer of Canadian metal band "The Afterimage".

I play piano and guitar and love collaborating; pretty much all of my songs were created collaboratively in some way and I am exceedingly grateful for the many talented and kind friends God has given to me through music. As any of them would tell you about me, I value originality and strive to extract, embrace and enhance all that makes me and my music unique while trying to grow my skill in any and all areas of music always. My collaborators have encouraged me and pushed me to be far better than I ever thought I could be and I’m ecstatic over the quality of music I make now which never would have been possible by myself. Thank you so much everyone who has made music with me; I can’t tell you how much your efforts and fellowship do for me.

If you haven’t heard my music before I tend to write passionate songs with deep, poetic lyrics heavily riddled with alliteration and coloured with careful word choice. It’s not so much a place I seek to paint and then immerse the listener in with my music but more like the emotional imprint of your own memories. I feel deeply both pleasant and painful feelings and more so again as they are fed by their contrast with the other. The goal of Alyn Ford music has always been to sting a bit unexpectedly but in the hopes that good may come of it somehow. Much of my music is written about one individual in my life who embodies what I wanted to my music to be long before we ever met. Someone who can’t bear to look but too brave to look away. These songs tell of her story and of mine while some tell stories of my collaborators; these are special to me. Whichever song you listen to I hope above all that it is your own story that you hear. My songs carry a message but I would rather you interpret them yourself and form your own and the one you need to hear. Thanks for listening.
 ~ Alyn Ford

Nicholas Allen Ford McCaslin
alynfordworks@gmail.com
Ottawa, On. Canada