circa — October 2021
Background Vocals by @iloveallmydogs

Don't know if it's love is it just pretend
Every time you call my phone I wish that you were dead
Can't get you out of my head
Can't get you out of my head
Don't know if it's love is it just pretend
Every time you call my phone I wish that you were dead
Can't get you out of my head
Can't get you out of my head

And where do I begin, I love you so much we can go through the thick and the thin
I'm describing everything I want to say to you, 'cause I can't hold back (not this time)
It's been like too long, without your phone calls
And despite of everything, I hope I'll see you around (I hope I'll see you around, around)

Don't know if it's love is it just pretend
Every time you call my phone I wish that you were dead
It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway
It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway
But I still haven't kissed you, is it bad that I still kind of miss you
It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway
It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway

It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway, it's alright
I didn't need you anyway

Around

cover photo by @zzoos
samples works by @vaultofsecrets854
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(where are you, where are you)
oh i cant say i feel the same as you
what do you want
its irrational, a place not meant for two
what are you on

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
lets make the most
before youre gone

will you think of me?
oh, i hope not
i pull the petals off, loves me not

love me, love me not
i dont care when im in your thoughts
and as i watch you rot and decay, i feel invincible
oh its all that i want

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
lets make the most
before youre gone

i guess lets make the most, of this
the little time you have left
oh, will you fade away
please dont come back
lets make the most
before youre gone

ill die all over again

love me, love me not

prod.me

i know
a place to run and hide
against the wall, remind
against the wall, remind
me of
everything
you've done to me
i've been ripping at the seams
ripping at the seams
i know
a place that's far away
crying everyday
i've been crying everyday
cuz you're
not here
and you'll never be
i've been trying to close the seams
i've been trying to close the seams

- original title, endings(seams intro)

[ily4ever]

everything-you've-done-to-me

1 out of 4

lyrics:

And you still got a lot to learn
You don’t know me and u would probably never will
I’ve seen u lost the turn
I see u right through it
And I’ll make you watch until it hurts
And u still got a lot to learn
You wanna see my past but not who i fucking am now
Go ahead and ignore me im sorry
But i know that you hate me
Its all part of the story

Stick a knife in your heart
I know that if it’s real then it bleeds
Let the whole world see it
Now is not the time i make u leave
Feels like it’s a pastime all the time
Said u wanted ur life to be working around art
Feels like im a drag like all the time
Keeping my composure while i cannot play the part

And you still got a lot to learn
You don’t know me and u would probably never will
I’ve seen u lost the turn
I see u right through it
And I’ll make u watch until it hurts

And u still got a lot to learn
You wanna see my past but not who i fucking am now
Go ahead and ignore me im sorry
But i know that you hate me
Its all part of the story

if it's real then it bleeds

art: @xaev 
prod.me 

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes
she says that i'm fine
it's all in my mind
i don't wanna die
i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes 

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

JUST TAKE WHAT YOU WANT
I HATE GAIN AND LOSS 
I'VE LOST THE WHOLE PLOT!!!!!!!!!!

close my eyes and i'll see.

gain & loss

[MUSIC VIDEO - https://youtu.be/BxLYEp4Ya1A]

prod.@xaev + @72crash + me

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you-

bruises on my body
dont ask me how i got it
brand new face i bought it
shout out to my doctor
bruises on my body 
please dont get me started
bruises on my body
i just wanna party

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?

plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING
plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty thing

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty th-

you just wanna be like me 
but you cant afford it
stop obsessing over me
but you know i love it
if you say i gotta leave
im like ok fuck it
PROMISE you wont follow me
if you blink you miss it

bitch im rolling in my bed
turn the music up
i just wanna smash my head
i just wanna jump

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
I DONT LOVE NO ONE
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA 
JUMP, JUMP

turn the bass up, why????
IM TOO SHY TO PARTY BUT ILL STAY UNTIL IM HIGH
i dont wanna talk i can talk between my eyes
right behind my forehead is where i form all my lies

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK

it's a beauty thing

prod.me

i'm crying
i think therefore i am
i watched them playing live
first i think i'm young
then i've overstayed my time
we're just so different
i think it's circumstance
you're just not like me
but when i think, i am

patience
i keep my
patience
i keep my
patience
oh, yeah

i'll take all i want
cuz i know you'd forgive
love can outlive art
i know thievery is sin
the night my life will change
and i just want my move
it's hard to wait my turn
but you know i learned to

patience
i keep my
patience
i keep my
patience
oh, yeah

patience

all i can give is a smile :)
vocal help from @outfed - dota
shoutout @sounddesignday always <33
cover: @zzoos youre the best

everything-you've-done-to-me

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