circa — September 2021
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I realized who I'm talking to
it's not me or you
you don't care about me as much as I care about you

It's the pain in my stomach it's the way you kinda love it 
when I hate you
it's the flickering lights it's the chills down my spine
I can't live without you
and I can't do this anymore and all my guards are on the floor
I think I'm losing my mind but that's still better than waking up

Late Night Recovery

(plays are botted)

prod.me

i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

that's enough to kill the bitch
stuck inside my room
i don't give a shit
more time to myself
ima make a hit
yea my mom said i'll make it
IMA MAKE THIS SHIT

i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

-tacular
ask me how i feel
i feel spectacular 
-tacular 
-tacular
spectacular 

i'm tryna do this shit for too long
it better work out
i've tried to hit the ball too far
now there's no sound
they tryna take me down i said 
FUCK YOU
HOPE IT WORKS OUT
i've got the best feeling 
it's somebody i know 
i hope you get well

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

spectacular

(plays are botted)

prod.me

i move, i move flawless
talk down to my brothers 
we gon' pop shit
telling me to shut up
i ain't toxic 
yea, find the key to shit
but i ain't lock it 
up ...
i don't move back
they know that i'm done
why you so mad? 
why you so sad? 
did you think i'm dumb?
if you doubt yourself ...
guess i already won 

i could NEVER fail
do this shit twice
i don't need help
yea, you see me goin up 
don't know how to feel
yea the message still stands
HOPE YOU GET WELL

cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
i move. 

[-50]

flawless

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1JAV46oTdV7Z05cJZIF0ac?si=67e499cfa1f6436c

lyrics:
i know your starving in heaven 
i know your starving in heaven
are we all meant to die (die)
are we all meant to

stop!
are you a fan of a person you dont like
if you cant stand closing the curtains when its night 
and i cant tell if im doing this all right 
and i cant tell if you're doin alright 

(stop) i got 24 missed calls inside my inbox
too many gamma rays around me need to detox
you got me trapped inside your springlocks (springlocks)

(stop) cus im so constantly worried like "what do they think about me" "am i not interesting" 
its getting harder to sleep without you
you said its only me but why am i counting two

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
(bring me to life)
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

well what do you think 
why you so bad
you've done terrible things
you ain't the one to change cus you've never been

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)

bring me to life

art: @xaev 
prod.me 

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes
she says that i'm fine
it's all in my mind
i don't wanna die
i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes 

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

JUST TAKE WHAT YOU WANT
I HATE GAIN AND LOSS 
I'VE LOST THE WHOLE PLOT!!!!!!!!!!

close my eyes and i'll see.

gain & loss

[MUSIC VIDEO - https://youtu.be/BxLYEp4Ya1A]

prod.@xaev + @72crash + me

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you-

bruises on my body
dont ask me how i got it
brand new face i bought it
shout out to my doctor
bruises on my body 
please dont get me started
bruises on my body
i just wanna party

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?

plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING
plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty thing

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty th-

you just wanna be like me 
but you cant afford it
stop obsessing over me
but you know i love it
if you say i gotta leave
im like ok fuck it
PROMISE you wont follow me
if you blink you miss it

bitch im rolling in my bed
turn the music up
i just wanna smash my head
i just wanna jump

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
I DONT LOVE NO ONE
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA 
JUMP, JUMP

turn the bass up, why????
IM TOO SHY TO PARTY BUT ILL STAY UNTIL IM HIGH
i dont wanna talk i can talk between my eyes
right behind my forehead is where i form all my lies

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK

it's a beauty thing

all i can give is a smile :)
vocal help from @outfed - dota
shoutout @sounddesignday always <33
cover: @zzoos youre the best

initiate it

im all for it
im all for it

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

im saying you don't know at all
you hate the way i talk
why do you hate it all?
i'm out of it, lost
you say there's something off with me, i can't even respond
so baby do you hate me
do you think im pretty oh god
bitch i hate it
i want you to save me
i know you want to take it
you won't get a taste
saying that i'm dangerous
but you won't see me break

yeah see me break
i know how you feel, and it makes me ache
they all wanted me but i can't be taken
can't be taken
give or take, i'll still end up dead

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

gain & loss

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