Shart (prod. Killedmyself)

im legitimately terrified (eric Godlow)

100keez954-Boca (Wyoming Rmx).mp3

I had an emotional week to say the least..
Confused with my purpose in life and questioning whether or not I am on the right path. Questioning if this is what God truly wants of me.
Heartbroken from realizing my own cycles of sin breaks the heart of my creator over and over again.
Tears flooded my face;
I sat alone in darkness.
Reflecting on my life and its failures.
I’ve failed more times than I’ve ever succeeded.
Especially when it comes to love.
Yet with that realization, I learned that I’ve also tried more times than others and will continue to do so.
Eyes welled with tears, I cried out silently, “God, you are calling me to lead, I’m here, what must I do?”
“Grab a pen and your great grandfathers old art book.”
Silently but sternly providing instructions.
I listened.
Yet more questions rose, “what song must I make? What beat is good enough? How can I find the right beat?”
Just as many more came to mind, Gods voice calmed me and suggested that I look instead of sitting paralyzed with my questions.
Deciding that I must really be crazy, and going for it anyways, I found the beat I used for this song.
The beat was titled “This beat has chosen you.”
In prior context my nan and I that same day were talking about the importance of the numbers 12, 22, and 7 in relation to our family and the bible.
When I had found said beat, it had 12k views, and was released 7 days prior.
Seeing it as a sign I downloaded it immediately.
I heard the beautiful sample and how it blended smoothly with the drums, then I started to cry once again briefly…
I had thought to myself, “why am I, a sinner enslaved to his own sin, like the fool in the bible, worthy of this much guidance and love?”
Emotions started to overwhelm me yet no more tears had come..
I took a deep breath;
“Forgive me father for I have sinned, I have let the devil in…”
It was on beat, I immediately understood what had to be done.
I used my pain as a vessel to carry a message that was true to me..
I realized that I’ve been feeling a lot of survivors guilt over the last couple months and had questioned why must I be brought back from death, while my loved ones stay?
I paused, stuck with not knowing what to write, I once again heard the soft yet stern voice of God;
“You must continue forward, they wouldn’t have wanted you to stay stuck mourning their loss, and neither do I, trust that I will take care of you and the rest.”
Overcoming the overwhelming emotions of grief and guilt, this song was made by the strength God has given me..
I do not claim to be perfect, I will most likely sin again either willingly or unwillingly;
Yet I am trying my best to be better everyday, even if it’s 1% at a time.

Sometimes in order to dance we must take two steps backwards..
I pray that this song can help those that need it to help the same way creating it has helped me..
I’d like to thank God, and whoever is listening and whoever has read all the way through to here, and thank God for connecting us together no matter how briefly you stick around.
May God shine light on all of us during our dark times and protect us from evil.
I just wanna go home..
Yet I’m still learning where that is..

I hope this song can help you relate and feel less alone in your struggles.
The least I can be is a voice of my own heart and struggles.
All I ask is for people to listen, relate, and feel.
If God wills it, I will be around for each and everyone of you.

Thank you kindly and God bless 💜🙏💜

Like A Moth To A Flame I Sin Again

#mood (prod. excedi x gudnightguy)

produced by @killedmyself

lyrics:

back on my bullshit
back on my bullshit
all my songs sound sad as fuck
if u dont like it dont listen

u playing my new shit
i hear it in ur shit
if you dont like why u sound like it
if u want a verse just say something

if i dont fuck with u
then i wont click the text
i got friends up in my inbox
like i know them but they on read

know them but they changed up
hate me if ion link up
theres lonely nights i wanna go out
but they dont hit me if a song up

ya my girlfriend said our times up
all my close friends in a limbo
young artist i dont give a fuck if
my gmail full of beats tho

my iphone got a cracked screen
that shit not even rose gold
i wake up and spit some listerine
think of new words and a new flow

soon its new phone i got new hoes
its new drugs but the same bros
new songs keep coming out
like 2 a week i dont slow down

2am in a ghost town
its fl till the sun down
i need a song all about this shit
if it dont exist well it does now

every love that i once had got a new guy and they real good
when i open up my newsfeed and i see them i dont feel good
brain cells that i used to have all dead now but the weeds good 
the only lighter i ever use she bought for me and i miss her

she said my new shit it dont sound good
if somethings wrong you can tell me
i dont say shit to anyone
so thats why my songs all about me

back on my bullshit
back on my bullshit
all my songs sound sad as fuck
if u dont like it dont listen

u playing my new shit
i hear it in your shit
if u dont like why u sound like it
if u want a verse just say something

back (prod. killedmyself)

produced by idealism

lyrics:

man we really out here
damn its chilly out
get ahead of myself
always end up down here

round here
no one give a fuck about your feelings
youre numbers
no one get to know you think about it your nothing

i move forward hard head
its scary any day u could wind up dead
i put my money in the bank
if there was no saving me id save a little change
help the family with the pain
that was before my current angle on my brain
that was before i got too busy for the pain
way before when everyday would feel the same

feel like everybody like me more
real life friends would ask me what im crying for
said they said i need the sadness just to feel the force 
making garbage i dont like so you would like me more

is not the way it works
i put my feelings first
i put em in the words
persuasion never works
opinions rarely hurt
bitch ill die before i spin another persons thought into the works

okok alright alright
blueberry packed in the pipe
rain sounds coming from the night
damn

this track is completely non-profit

side street (prod. idealism)

lyrics:

{Hook}
I tell Scott "Send it through"
I'm about to make a heater
Beam me up, rollin' zoot
Pouring dirty by the liter
In a whip and it's blue
Had to park it like it's Peter
Got some heat in the booth
Turn these goofies to believers

Make her "Ay" then she "Ouh"
Tell me just a little higher
I came back out the blue
Fuck the 9, I'm droppin' fire
Take a seat by the booth
I got bottles and a driver
But I got Backwoods and a lighter
Say I'm good but I'm a liar

{Verse 1}
Baby what'chu want
Fuckin' til I see the sun
I'm a fill it up
Tell your boy it's fisticuffs
Since you somethin' special
Scoop you in a rental
Swear her teeth like dental
I got sex all on my mental

Let me lay it down
We smoke by the pound
I got some much layin' 'round
Take a quarter ounce
Fuck it, half a pound
I don't wanna see a new moon
Feel like Lil Tracy I been sellin' lil' whore

Take five, take four
I've just gotta take a break
I've been thrustin' like hour
Need some water, goodness sake
Rollin' leaves like I'm a rake
Frontwoods, Bear Kush
Girl you lucky you got me
Straight up, real talk

{Hook}
I tell Scott "Send it through"
I'm about to make a heater
Beam me up, rollin' zoot
Pouring dirty by the liter
In a whip and it's blue
Had to park it like it's Peter
Got some heat in the booth
Turn these goofies to believers

Make her "Ay" then she "Ouh"
Tell me just a little higher
I came back out the blue
Fuck the 9, I'm droppin' fire
Take a seat by the booth
I got bottles and a driver
But I got Backwoods and a lighter
Say I'm good but I'm a liar

{Verse 2}
Spy spaceship to high need a grip
Mad lips, big spliff, no we buy by the zip
Maybe one drink of Goose and some rum now I'm drunk
Try to move look at me
I'm lookin' like a fool
Play me, make me sad 'cause I'm a tool
Got me fallin'
Got me textin' back I'm all in
See you stallin'
I know that your man callin'
Blond hair, big lips, man I want it
Juicy wide hips, let you flaunt it

And I can't go out
Start thinkin' what I'm 'bout
Half of these bitches just want clout I say
I just Migos these bitches and ballout

{Hook}
I tell Scott "Send it through"
I'm about to make a heater
Beam me up, rollin' zoot
Pouring dirty by the liter
In a whip and it's blue
Had to park it like it's Peter
Got some heat in the booth
Turn these goofies to believers

Make her "Ay" then she "Ouh"
Tell me just a little higher
I came back out the blue
Fuck the 9, I'm droppin' fire
Take a seat by the booth
I got bottles and a driver
But I got Backwoods and a lighter
Say I'm good but I'm a liar

okkkk (scottysplash)

9tails - I Cant See Anything (prod GHXST)

found one of miles' hidden  gems of a feature

9tails - Why Do I Still Call Knowing You Wont Answer

All revenue made from this song will be given to sewerperson to donate to BLM funds

*Revenue is from Soundcloud and Spotify streams, as YouTube is not monetised for me*

https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson

AMV:
https://youtu.be/ZLMMiklJ2kM

LYRICS:
if i could hear these walls
id lose my mind
the rest of heart lays in scraps on my arm
we just gotta get into every other night its like we got to
walking out my house i see these panes u put the rocks thru
i aint change my phone those texts are green because i blocked you
i hope u doing better now with no one else to talk to
i had left in the pouring rain
for an early trip i planned yesterday
smile painted across my face
as i board this plane going far away
why was pain so quickly dealt
it seems that i have forgot myself
belting out into open space
as we mumble hymns from a broken place

whole damn week
i was wondering where the cash at
whole damn week
i was moving outta glad bags
world so bleak
i been dodging all the mouse traps
words heavy
i can make it feel my back crack
reach the next day ill never know
is she ok i better hope
freckle pale face tarped over bones
sleeping half baked
eyes aint even closed damn

9tails - Why Do I Still Call Knowing You Wont Answer

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