1 Brick AtA Time

this playlist is my journey through life, the spiral started, it begun to spiral fast, taking place in winter 2024, so I thought I could use that and try write fractions of my life in a form that people could hopefully relate to or hear what Im trying to say.. it's a story, never ending. 

New Autumn

Alright  intrusive mothah fuckah, ima tell ya how it really is believe it or not this is how it is and that's just that.... yeah I'm alright thanks for asking now time to stop shit talking all lies about me, It's okay, don't worry, no not about me, 
Why worry when all you do is try drown me, 
It’s okay, don't worry about me I’m feeling fine,  
Don’t worry ‘bout me  you worry ‘bout your own time.  Worry about yourself and what's going on in your mind, don't take up my time with bullshit and hurtful lines 
If you ask me, I’m doing alright,  
I know I sleep better on the ice, don’t I?
I worry ‘bout shit that don’t make sense,  
You really think I'm Up to all kinds of nonsense.  When I'm just grinding honestly...  the problem starts at home,  you think I'm done think I can't do any right in your eyesight, bet if you took of your sunglasses you'd really fucking see me and how fluorescent my light is how bright I shine just by me believing in me! 
And if  you don't know fine, right  focus on the older 1 hes the one who losing he lost everything that meant anything, I'm not forcing on that cuz I've enough shit to spread me wide. 
The younger one’, well that's me... ima tell ye that he's doing alright,  
Making money for himself, putting up a fight.  
Surrounded by negativity, tryna pull him down,  
But he ain’t gonna let this pull him down.  
He’s grown up, got kids, got a car, got a family,  
Separated from the mother  sadly.  
Nothing you can do when the bridges are burned,  
Maybe for the best, lessons learned.  
i thought I understood how the world turns,  
Until I stepped outside — realised it’s the Matrix.  We're all Sims ina game but who's the mother fucker that thinks it's funny playing playing playing with our emotions and goals????? 
When you do things for yourself,  
Ain’t nobody else gonna do it,  
Only blood, sweat, tears — prove it.  
People call me crazy, people call me paranoid,  fuck I'm sorry for laughing 
But I feel it deep inside me 
So how could it be anything else but void?  
I don’t think these things for nothing,  
I don’t feel these things for nothing.  
Everybody says it’s my issue,  
I’m the problem.  
How am I the problem if I’m chasing the solution?  
I don’t like feeling this way,  
It’s just pollution.  

Like our drink water in a toxic lock, fully plugged with green blue algae,  microdose in my blood flow, drops most people 
Shit in my head tryna drown me.  
But I got my life jacket on, my boat still floats row with my oar 
Ain’t nothing you can say to get me down anymore.  



I can do things on my own,  
Bars at 11 bars at three, don't make a difference what times due, creativity 
Only thing I need now’s a roof overhead,  
A place to call my own.  

My kids adore me, I adore them,  
Nothing I wouldn’t do,  
I’d go to the world’s end.  
Protect them, save them, do anything for them,  
If they call my name  I’ll be there without hesitation.  

I know that. Everybody knows that.  
If you don’t, it don’t make a difference to me.  
You are you, I am me,  
I’m daddy.  



I’m the man that has to work,  
Hold emotions in, grind through dirt.  
Do it all on my own,  
‘Cause nobody else understands me.  

Cousins get me, outside family get me,  
But under one roof, it’s only me.  
They say I’m the issue, say I take advantage,  
But how can I take advantage  
Of something offered by a parent —  
A giver by nature?  

Mothers give, fathers provide,  
I feel out of place but I ain’t taking sides.  
They can do what they want, think what they like,  
I’ll do what I want ‘cause I know it’s right.  



I’ll do what I want for myself,  
I’ll do what I want to better my life.  
Nothing they can do or say  
Gonna drag me down in the dirt,  
Nothing they can do or say  
Gonna get me hurt.  

Only one who can let me down is me,  
And I ain’t gonna let that happen.  
I’ll keep working, grinding,  
Do something spectacular —  
Do something never done in this family.  

I’ma make history,  
For me and my girls — gladly.


intrusive mothah fuckah

this is a very powerful song, I have tried my best to get a couple messages about, love, control, science, manipulation, and most importantly Race and  hate. 

As Your Told -(We weren't born to hate)

Made To Break

Seasonal Love

I came to figure if I got wasted, yeah if I got wasted, wasted tonight it’d be good and that it would yeah that it would push all my problems aside and give me peace of mind to sleep tonight, thought itd make it easier to make the harder decisions..harder decisions 

(never good it’s never good no never no never good for you) then why ya do it dude? 

Aye ohh away ohh ayyy away ohee oh no. Oh no oh no oh noooo 

Man what the hell was i thinking

Was Ind any kinda mind set 

No logical thinking

Why did I think that’s a good way to make any decisions now my nose is left gushing with blood.. what the fuck was I at, why do I always convince myself that it’s gonna be good it’s even gonna be great but guess what? Each time got worse, damn man it was never good. 

(never good it’s never good no never no never good for you) then why ya do it dude? 

Then when I sobered up it was a train went right throught my gut and tore me to pieces that whenI came to figure I came to figure I came to I came to figure  I wasn’t rightmm should never have gotten wasted that night 

It was a quick fix saloution for longevity problems, should took mytime made a a better decision one when I was wanting high.. 

It just back around came back to get me to bite my behind.. 

what the hell was i thinking

 

Was Ind any kinda mind set 

 

No logical thinking

Shoulda been sleepin 

Not sitting up sniffing ohh

Stupid decision ohayy 

Fuckin stupid oh no 

Yeah it’s fuckin stupid  ohhw ayy away

Aye ohh away ohh ayyy away ohee oh no. Oh no oh no oh noooo 

 

Man what the hell was i thinking

 

Bot any kinda mind set to make sense never mind life changing altercational decisions 

 

No logical thinking

 

Why did I think that’s a good way to make any decisions now my nose is left gushing with blood.. what the fuck was I at, why do I always convince myself that it’s gonna be good it’s even gonna be great but guess what? Each time got worse, damn man it was never good. 

 

 

 

 

 

 it just came back around came back to get me to bite my behind.. 

 



Cocaines Never Good

Soon to have our baby, don’t know what to expect on the daily, You love me one day then the next you hate me, You flatter me in embracing vibes then, in naught point 5, killing me, metaphorically, It’s your eyes, they cut deeply.

I’m about to bring new life into the world, in waters uncharted, Me and mum weren’t great together, Best decision was a mutual departure.

I’m about to bring new life into the world, But part of mine just ended, feeling every twist and turn.
 don’t know what to expect on the daily, You love me one day then the next you hate me, You flatter me in embracing vibes then, in naught point 5, killing me, metaphorically speaking, It’s your eyes


Now it’s new autumn, only first week of October, Leaves are browning and some already grounded and have started rotting, But hey there’s a new vibe around autumn now, A son begotten to me, breathe air for the first time and let a newborn cry out.

I’m about to bring new life into the world, But part of mine just ended, feeling every twist and turn.
 don’t know what to expect on the daily, You love me one day then the next you hate me, You flatter me in embracing vibes then, in naught point 5, killing me, metaphorically speaking, It’s your eyes

Who are you, who am I From fallen leaves to newborn cries

Soon to have our baby, don’t know what to expect on the daily, You love me one day then the next you hate me, You flatter me in embracing vibes then, in naught point 5, killing me, metaphorically speaking, It’s your eyes, they cut deeply.

I’m about to bring new life into the world, in waters uncharted, Me and mum weren’t great together, so we departed, broken hearted aw man, well it is what it is baby ohh baby haha well...

Now it’s new autumn, only first week of October, Leaves are browning and some already grounded and have started rotting, But hey there’s a new vibe around autumn now, A son begotten to me, breathe air for the first time and let a newborn cry out.

I’m about to bring new life into the world, But part of mine just ended, feeling every twist and turn.
 don’t know what to expect on the daily, You love me one day then the next you hate me, You flatter me in embracing vibes then, in naught point 5, killing me, metaphorically speaking, It’s your eyes

Who are you, who am I From fallen leaves to newborn cries
Cries at night, baby looking one more feed before lights out for the night, Eyes closed tight. Drifting off to sleep time, don’t know how with my breaking voice as I try singing lullabies, You’re beautiful Arlo, pure and full. I love your son, goodnight.

Autumn

New Vibe Around Autumn

Window Dew

lights camera action on this scene Seeing  I based this playlist on a season. 
named new autumn 
the month in the spotlight 
it only just hit me: October.
who knew the the topic of this scene would be you? huhh who knew youd be birthing a baby boy too

In slow labour with A, our first boy,
Funny how ironic October last year,
I was fucked out on my ear.

It’s all funny till sight comes lookin’.
There ain’t no lookin’ 
and there ain’t no lookin’ away.

Till sight comes lookin’...
and there ain’t no lookin’ away.

Funny how we try put our toughest challenges behind us
the ones that make us introverts,  but the ones beside us 
and on the outside, those ones don’t see that inside, it hurts.

Obstacles. Speculated thoughts.
If it’s outta sight, it’s also outta mind.
Funny that.

is what im saying makeing sense to you

When we’re obedient to lie on a limit 
funny it only goes outta mind for a while,
till sight comes lookin’
and there ain’t no lookin’ away.

We’re so good at putting illusions on our mind,
feeling delusional 
it’s mental how it happens to be seasonal too.
does any of what im mentioning resonate with you?

Damn… haha.
Till sight comes lookin’
and there ain’t no lookin’ away.

Life’s rhythm a beautiful
a rouse to think we’ve got things behind us,
till they’re coming from behind us.
does any of what im mentioning resonate with you does any of what im mentioning even make any sense to you?

Time don’t heal,
it just reminds us.
Fate’s playing hide and seek inside us.
Don’t let illusion blind us.

Funny… funny.

Many ideas flood the mind,
but fate’s another way of saying wake.
Funny how wake and birth are similar.

Funny 
as it’s similar ‘cause you’re in labour,
and I’m sat at the table, eating leftover dinner,
at my foldable Dell computer,
writing this madness,

just because an idea for a song came to mind,
just to say “hey, what about giving this a try?”

To combine a playlist
based on autumn.

And I’m at home again, living with mum,
about to be a father to my first son.

Fucking funny… haha.

Hold the phone, man,
this is getting outta hand.
Gotta slow down, drop down a gear or two,
catch my breath see it through.

See ya later.
I’ma leave it at this  peace.
I’m taking a breather, dude.

October spinning round again…
and somehow,
life feels delusional.

Funny

The Moment We-Liv

a message to my kids, better understanding of their lives and they have no worries 👍 

Future Reference

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