New private playlist

 Me   writing my feelings about the things that impact me in ways I could never process without putting them into song from.  I hope you enjoy.

Cue the Comedown 'Im calling out to You'

Explosions in the Desert

remasters, better Music quality with better software 

All New Me

mixture of my feelings and how the reveal themselves. hope you enjoy. 

Cracks In The Floor

have my soul babe

Please lord help me find the right words to speak before I fall victim to a will so weak. 
I’m searching for light it’s what I’m trying to find. Ohlawoh 
 find the right shoes for my feet to walk upon the glass on my street. OH. cold hard truth i seek I want it I need it you see I want it I need oolaow
 answers needed for questions seeming to be left blank and I’ve only myself to thank. 
Oh I want it I need it I do anything to achieve it.  find me lord, I’m calling out to you, I need you now to help and comfort me through..
I’m asking I'm praying lord help me find the right words to speak  Please give me the answers I seek. 
I’m Alone in the dark im searching for a spark. I’m stuck in my mind searching in darkness to find. wowlaa wow
 OH find me lord, I’m calling out to you, I need you now to help and comfort me through..
The road is long and the journey  hard. 
free falling through life stumbling around in the dark trying to find my spark ohh  im hoping to find someone to shed light to hold my hand tight as we walk through the fire leaving darkness behind us hoping the future it binds us in light. 
 this internal growth I only hope my courage shows and my family knows I’m here please grant courage rid fear throughout my journey home. 
OH find me lord, I’m calling out to you, I need you now to help and comfort me through oolaow 

I'm calling out to You

From my darkness you’ve shown me so much transformed me from a boy to a man to a loving dad  
 My daughter’s my way out of the darkness, here’s a message from me to you, 
My Grace, you help me get InTouch with my kindness gave me unbreakable ties, also my eyes were closed I was blinded before you but now I see.
  I see the beauty in you and who you are and who you’ll become. don’t shy from pushing the limits I know you’ll work hard babe the sky is the limit it’s ok to shoot for the stars.
 I’ll be your parachute when you fly and catch you when you fall and I’ll pick you up again over and over again Oww ahh yes I’ll catch you when you fall. 

  ahhh lalala oway oowaay la la lala 

My second girl my youngest, Willow Your still a baby yeah your only 1,  the madness you present your just a bundle of fun, You butter me up with cute smiles and silly faces each passing day you grow more beautiful.  Creation born into life changing pages 1 at a time but your heart yeah it never changes.  features change day to day No day is the same as the next. 
  Ahhh lalala oway oowaay la la lala 
Soon you’ll be talking then the real fun begins, hearing your voice for the first time, I’m so  delighted that your mine ohh that your mine. 
 I’ll be here for you forever a promise I made to you and your sister, 
Until I’m dust. even then I’ll always be with you in your heart and your thoughts. 
 Nothing in this world can keep us apart’ no nothing, sweethearts. Wayyyahhoww 

A young age innocent still untamed, wild and free a true bless sent from heaven hear that the angels as they sing songs of
Your two hearts pure and full of love excitement and wildness.
. La lalala ahhh lala


My Daughter's Transformed Me

Remembering to
Take time for yourself when things get low, sometimes it takes the darkness to help our light show 
Ponder on your story and the people near. 
Thinking of those people, the ones we hold dear in our hearts no matter the distance apart. 
Determined you
Mediation helps me focus on the thing I want most ohh my life can be a circus when the freaks are set loose, tame that wild lion, before you’ve broken him loose. Not everyone can handle him shush. Owwe 
Remembering to ooo
Control your life one step at a time there ain’t no hurry so take your time this world is yours. 
Ponder on your visions what you want... Think of yourself Asif you’ve already won. If you do this, i promise you’ll be there in one beat of the drum. 
Determined you
Ohhh you gotta tame that wild lion before youve broken him loose, meditation clears a view of the new improved you.
Control your life one step at a time there ain’t no hurry so take your time
Take time for yourself when things get hard and you’re low, sometimes its the darkness that makes our light show  ohwooh 
Keep the ones you hold so dear in your heart,
 Ponder on your visions of what you want... Think of  yourself Asif you’ve already won. If you do this, i promise you’ll be there in one beat of the drum. 






Determined 'you'

thanks for reminding me

[Verse]
First line lit me like a fire in the dark
A big bright spark that carved its way deep in my heart
Each breath since feels like I'm just chasing a ghost, I'm just chasing a ghost. 
Hold on tight it's off we go
Hold on tight, it's off we go,
yeah it's off we go.

[Chorus]
I'm just Chasing the high, through the night, can't ever catch it and im
Trading my dreams in the flickering light
no other line hits the same
No other line, takes me as high. 
Chasing tail in a losing game, one set up that I just cant win. No I cant ever win. 

[Verse 2]
I ride the edge where the comedowns fade
Searching for the thrill, that next high 
Every peak feels like a lie that i always believe, 
I can't recreate the first time, I could fly

[Chorus]
I'm just Chasing the high, through the night, can't ever catch it and im
Trading my dreams in the flickering light
no other line hits me the same
No other lines takes me as high. 
Chasing tail in a losing game
Just chasing a ghost 

[Bridge]
The clock spins fast but my heart stays slow
I follow the trail but it won't let me go
The first line whispered
"This is all you'll need"
Now I’m chasing its ghost
Forever it leads
Down the rabbit hole, deeper and deeper we go, down the rabbit hole.

[Chorus]
Chasing the high into the night till the
Comedown hits my eyes start to close, 
What goes up,  ohh it must come down

Wishing it was that first line again 

But no other line hits the way it does 
When it's very first buzz
What goes up, must come down
Chasing ghosts 
Yeah I'm just chasing ghosts 



Chasing Ghosts

You i, everyone in Between

Vibe n dine

He who watches

Tonight We Fly

Give It Back To me

very raw, very real.. this one hurts like hell.

Hurt me Quiet

Character 2.  (trance version)

This is just game-boy
Feel Asif Im free falling through space and time-boy
Wish I wore a parachute before I jumped from the plane boy.

Feeling like I'm in free fall I could compare myself to the size of an aunt so small in the sky-insane boy. 

So fucking strange that my moods can play tricks on me. Like last week I was high, now I can't breathe am I about to die? 
 

Why? (You lie)
Why? (You did) 
WHY? (YES YOU FUCKING DID) 

I try, I do my bit, I play my part, I LIKE TO MAKE THE MOST OF EVERY SINGLE SECOND. I try to make the best impac-ting play, every time I get to enjoy warmth under 5 year olds play outside it's the sandpit today. Under 5 years old, yet so smart, they could buy and sell me truth be told. I'm tryna give 'em love, keep them sheltered from the dark. 


It can be ah simple thing from you, to fill me full of doubt, make me second guess myself wondering if I can fly out-ah-here way up in the fucking strat-os-phere miles away from you and the point you puke. 
 oh can make me, yeah baby, yeah,  you make me want to die... Sometimes. Ohhh you make me want to die sometimes 

Hahah what a joke, you think I'm for real? Hell girl you have another thing coming if you think I'll let you  my head and to mess around my mind from the inside. 
I know what to expect from you, I know what is coming from you, when you open your mouth it's nothing but hate nouns. 

Step away step inside your cave I've had enough of your hate speech for one day, let me be leave me in peace to enjoy my time with my two under 5 year olds. 

WOAWW WOAWW WOAWW

I try, I do my bit, I play my part, I LIKE TO MAKE THE MOST OF EVERY SINGLE SECOND. I try to make the best impac-ting play, every time I get to enjoy warmth under 5 year olds play outside it's the sandpit today. Under 5 years old, yet so smart, they could buy and sell me truth be told. I'm tryna give 'em love, keep them sheltered from the dark. 


It can be ah simple thing from you, to fill me full of doubt, make me second guess myself wondering if I can fly out-ah-here way up in the fucking strat-os-phere miles away from you and the point you puke. 
 oh can make me, yeah baby, yeah,  you make me want to die... Sometimes. Ohhh you make me want to die sometimes 

Hahah what a joke, you think I'm for real? Hell girl you have another thing coming if you think I'll let you  my head and to mess around my mind from the inside. 
I know what to expect from you, I know what is coming from you, when you open your mouth it's nothing but hate nouns. 

This is just game-boy (Hate Nouns)

Fight or Flight

The Breakaways

Stepping out the Frame


Dead man walking
Trying to feel alive
Crowd all around me
But I’m empty inside


Screens tell stories
None of them true
I look in the mirror
Don’t know who’s who


Dead man walking
Heart still beating
Drowning in noise
Swallowed by meaning
Dead man walking
Carrying pain
Looking for love
In the cold and the rain


Eyes stay open
But I’m half asleep
Dreams get stolen
Promises cheap


They sell us fear
We drink it down
Smile on the surface
But we’re breaking underground


Dead man walking
Heart still bleeding
Searching for truth
In a world deceiving
Dead man walking
I won’t decay
I’ll sing for the broken
Till the end of days


Dead man Walking

Hello, I know, it ain't me.

Nightcore - Gravity

A mixture of different geners of nightcore.


Cant Control Myself

♫ Song: Never Gonna Catch Me
Artist: El Speaker & Skan
Genre: Trapcore

❖ Original ❖
→ https://soundcloud.com/tribaltrapmusic/nevergonnacatchme

Trapcore - Never Gonna Catch Me

Cash Cash

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Nightcore - Mama Told Me

Freemasons - Uninvited (Original Alanis Morissette Mix).mp3

Private Message Me if you would be interested in a Collab! 💯✅🙏190k+ thank you for the mind-blowing digital formations the numbers I'm stuck on can't keep staring in to the digits wheey Nono save that for another time. . , how the plants doing how they doing, this weekend grow turned in the space of few pleasure months, woaw . well, right now,  a decision to make, very important must say. 



THANK YOU, EVERYONE, THATS EVERYONE WHO BATHED ME GAVE A ROOF OF NY HEAD WHEN OTHERS KEFT ME FOR DEAD, WAS SUPPOSED TO MENTION IT BUT I SAID IT CANT REWIND IT MAYBE THEYLWHO GAVE ME THAT TIME OF YOUR PERSONAL DAY! 🤘 APPRECIATE YOU! 


 🤘💀hell bais, can't speak for yous but I'm feeling a bit like a tweek or two? it was about time I change my ways changed a sentence and punctuation too. 
gotta understand I focus, days I don't and they haunt us, low energy levels I'm feeling unstable, but guess what and we still get it done yeah yeah we get it done oh we got it done. 
beginning of I wanna put across my many many manny a thanks to everyone who has took time to give one of my tracks a play🤘🙏 phase one in education 

Hello, I know, it ain't me.

(Andrew G Holden)