swag beat made by tomiee


im still hopeless
im doneee!!!
n i dont care about u
no moreee!!
but its okayy
oh nooo!!
n i dont care about u
no moreee!!
x2

take me to the moon
cuz im done lookin at the stars
thinking about u nvm
its been just like past

always getting mad
when im looking at the back
always getting mad
cuz i dunno how it works

n i dunno how it works, love
my heart is going to explode
i need to get yours

n im knocking at ur door
runnin away
get fucked get lost

im still hopeless
im doneee!!!
n i dont care about u
no moreee!!
but its okayy
oh noooo!!
n i dont care about u
no moreee!!
x2

no more

anxiety

anxiety (lileffort)

@ilykaden

lyrics
@angelicxmei

(chorus)
im fallin down,
its always just a mess
i dont wanna die,
its making me regret
all of my lies!!
and i want to hold ur back,
yea youll be alright

yea youll be just fine
yea ill wipe ur tears and
make u feel nice
when i see ur smile
yea i feel butterflyes
when i see ur smile 
yea i flyudsauadsy

save me!
yea from this hell
just help me!
to be myself
they hate me,
oh no oh well..
all of their lies
i might throw'em
like a shell

there's no sense to be best,
no matter how hard u try
they will tell u u're the worst
no matter whose fault it is
they will tell u it was yours
no matter how fucked they are,
they will tell u u're the most

(chorus)

locked w/ ilykaden (k4nji)

bring me up
wipe my tears
make me always
be on spot

push my back
hear me out
i like to talk to u alot

just grab my hand
all the time
let me smile w u

we're gonna break
the problems
we're going through

i love being around u 
cuz u makin me feel safeee
everytime i sit without u
i overthink and feel sadddd

u cleared on my mind cuz of y o u i feel better
u makin me calm down ive struggled forever
and i dont know ever where i could bee
so i rather just stay with u and me :>

bring me up
wipe my tears
make me always
be on spot

push my back
hear me out
i like to talk to u alot

just grab my hand
all the time
let me smile w u

we're gonna break
the problems
we're going through

i like u (k4nji)

with @0arid <3
amazing prod by @k4rson & @hiseph

myself w/ arid (k4rson + seph)

@blxty
@karsonlol

[@angelicxmei]
if u ever feel like drowned,
ill hold u down
wanna bring u up,
lets taste the clouds
ye sometimes we cant
and we end up cryinn
but ill do my best
and wipe ur crystal eyes

ull be alrighttt
ill make it fineee
and sometimes i wonder
do i know real u?
everytime im hopeless
i wanna get near u

ill put ur heart togheter
so it can stand forever
u say you could've never
i feel i can do much betterrr

do u belive in me?
no way u cant belive in me
and i always want u to feel free
i guess thats meant to be

[@blxty]
tell me how u feel
just tell me how u feel rn
tell me how u feel
just tell me how u feel rn

i dont have a patience, you piss me off
i dont have the time for you to shoot your shots
i made a mistake, and then you break my walls
im starting to think im just a hit and run
oohh i dont even know you that well
my heart was put under a spell uuhh
and now you hurt me as you should

spotify

crystal eyes w/ blxty (karson)

ty @0arid for this amazing beat

inspired by @quannnic

dont ever waste ur tears
like i just wasted mine
its hard to hide ur fears
losing myself inside
self inside
i know it looks so hard
u step aside
i hold u tight so u will
never drown
whats inside u
i really need to find
tell me the truth
im really stuck in time
i know real u?
no i do never mind
theres something messing around

wasted tears (arid)

featuring @820 

produced by @176s @kggn @f3arme (-‿◦☀)

[nurse]
u piss me off x4

what were u thinking
its all lost
the shots that im missing
all went wrong
i talk u wont listen
im not a ghost
i thought u were different
its all gone
i spread all my feelings
and now im cold
emotional damage
oh here we go
im starting to panic
where do i go?
erase all my feelings
dont want em to show
cuz its all gonn (ﾉД`)

u piss me off x4

[nosg]
i know what you were saying behind my back
i would love to feel poison inside my veins
u treat my like weirdo, why is that?
got me counting to 1000 in my head
i would wait
for you but it doesnt really seem like youre coming
but ill wait
im still choosing silence, unveil something

ghost w/ nosgov (sense kuru feardorian)

@lazydoll
@y4ndere

[@angelicxmei]
it is so cold yeah
pass me the sweater
my heart is frozen
burn the loveletter
im stuck here always
is it for something?
u were my fever
my heart is frozeennn
my wings wont stay forever
but ill do my best ill be better
feelings wont last forever
nothing matters at the end

[@lazydoll]
i saw you fall out
i don't even understand
make me sad,
make me mad,
make me feel alright?
hold my hands and go far away together
frozen my heart
君が見えないや
そばに居たって変わらない
でも君が居ないと意味がない
i promised in that cold night

[@angelicxmei]
closer, the things
i havent told her
its okay
i been working 
for nothing

frozen w/ lazydoll (yandere)

featuring @psych 
produced by @inno1k

[nurse]

spread all my feelings unhealthy
lies that u told me
i wasnt holding
bottle my feelings u get me
words are deadly
bleed so much
lately

bleed so much 
im a walking dead
look into my eyes
i thought u were me friend
i thought it was nice
i took off my guard
i trusted so easily
and now im staying armed
pills that i swallow

they wont get me through
we both touch the bottom
always full throttle
it always lead me to sorrow
but theres hope for tomorrow
cuz theres always a sun after rain 
dont get hollow

[kate]

···

#remedy
#sukicity

dear diary w/ psych (inno)

ill wait a 1000 days...

produced by @winter

yea i hide my pain
yea i keep it all inside
i love all my friends
but i shouldnt cut the ties
i love when it rains
they dont see me when i cry
i try all my best
all u do is step aside

i panic so hard
soooo
i let my guard off

breath... calm
theres too much
stuff going on
everynight
it brings me on
i told uu
theres something off

and u left a smile
i wonder what it said
i try my best
u never seem to care
bleed from my wrist
its loud in my head
there must be a poison
behind this mess

how do i find a way
is there even a one?
im lost
im lost
im looost

and ill just sing and dance
ill wait a 1000 days
it may just tore me to shreds
but how do i get a(way)

1000 days (winter)

produced by @kggn

[nurse]
i dont like the way u act
the way u stab my back
u keep me off the track
but honestly im alright
dont want u to call back
cuz everytime i throwback
deep inside i fall down
to the ground

u said that it always be aight
but i dont trust u now
deep inside my issues
i dont know where im at
stab me in the back
i know u been playing games
my dress is bloodstained
i dont know if im the same

tears down to the ground
i know that is awful
hide myself 
put my feelings in the bootle
u knew u had my trust
and u broke it like a waffle
tears to the ground
just shoot me wit ur rifle

idle
i rather stay idle
heavy heart it is made of iron
rewind time never ending spiral
wish i could smile more
but things just toring me up

i think i need a rest
cuz i been tired of doing my best
dont wanna see ur face
cuz i been tied im feeling stressed
i wanna change my fate
everytime i jus be leaving a mess
i think i still regret
everything we did in the past

Instagram

honestly (kuru)

prod @winter

[mei]
i really dont want u to go...
id rather listen to your lies...

but does it matter
now u let me go
left memories up to shatter
u know that i struggle
my heart is fragile
because u hurt me
it turned me to shadow

i really dont want u to go!
(ill hold your heart 
while you hurt my soul) 
id rather listen to your lies!
(and stare at your eyes
while youre stabbing my back)

i really wanted to be yours
ive wanted to be close
even if youre the one 
that hurts the most
keep on trying my best
i only make it worse
nothing ever makes sense
i guess im gonna fall

ill be on my own
i gotta move on
i cant let it go

i carry burden 
deep inside my soul
i dont feel like
getting further
dont get me bothered
it doesnt matter
im so unhealthy
cant break the pattern

attached (winter)

Merry Christmas!☆ * ❄️💝
prod @y4ndere

and i swear my heart is getting colder
so im searching for the warm, dont get it frozen
but- why u were the one that made me hopeless
u were the closest one... im swear that im trying!!!
and- why i cannot be enough
always do my best i cannot make it right
i thought u were the one but u just broke the trust
deep inside my heart i think im too attached...

let my tears on the floor, let em all out loud
and my tears are so cold i really wonder why
is it really my fault? i really wonder how
losing all of control watch me fall to the ground

let my tears on the floor, let em all out loud
and my tears are so cold i really wonder why
is it really my fault? i really wonder how
losing all of control watch me fall to the ground

i really miss the older times 
when we were close to shining stars
and- it really piss me off i miss u uhh
so please dont gooo~
i really wish i knew whats next
we cry and lie its all a mess
where do i go? im losing sense
the wounds cant heal
will i ever understand this?

tears

tears (yandere)

prod @odel007
w/ @385u2

[mei]
you cant keep the promise
you said that u promise me
and i hope that ull keep our secrets
what are we hoping for?
for the better i guess
but its all a mess
so i could just run away
so you wont see me
i could fly to the outer space
to outer space!
u told me u would never change
turn that love to hate
and then i take the blame from u
and i couldve never love but u
it was the times that i never trust but u
and i did it all for u
but i knew i wasnt ever enough for u T-T

[utumiyqcom]
君と添い遂げることはなかった
これは終わり、エンドロール流れるの
君が呪いみたいな声で
耳元で囁く「弱いね」
この呪縛は覚めないままね
(so i could just run away
so you wont see me)
フラッシュバック記憶と戦うの
(i could fly to the outer space
to outer space!)
秘め事仕舞っておいていたのはあたしだけだったんだ
余命も短い関係も最初から無かったことにしよう
「例えば君が言う事
何もないって思うことにするよ」
「そうしたら未来も変れるかな」

promise

promise w/ utumiyqcom (odel)

prod @kggn

[mei]
i think i had enough i just been through much and now i realize
analyse clear my vision now i see ur stupid lies
in ur eyes i see it in ur eyes u cannot fool me twice
traumatized i think im traumatized u cannot heal me

blood & despair, lost in my head 
no im not the same, rot in my bed
do my best u dont seem to care
keep it all inside like every single day

it lost its taste just like a chewing gum
why i cant just spit it out?
ur words keep on hurting me like knife
going in and out
i trace my heart i keep it safe & sound

if im being honest its not what i wanted
spojrz na moje dlonie, cale sa czerwone
czemu nie gadamy o tym jak temu zapobiec?
moze chcemy pobiec, kazdy w swoja strone?

i can feel it through veins, paralyzed
cant scream through my pain
do or die noo this is not a game
ask me if im fine im not okay

i dont know what the cause is
"thats just how it is"
ill wait a 1000 days i promise
i want u to be honest with me
u dont want it, i see
i feel nauses, i bleed
down to my knees

vision (kuru)

prod @ddertbag

og: https://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm1715919

[mei]
(It's Mei!!)

I been stuck in time I don't know where to go
Pick me up, pick me up pick me from the floor
Spiral I'm falling down, down the rabbit hole
いつもいつも always on my own
I feel under the weather, your touch
Makes me feel way better
My heart, you got it dismantled
I don't know, should I rip it off?

I just need directions on what I'm doing wrong
Keep falling for your affections,  damn I can't let go
Thoughts I'm recalling from long time ago
I just can't cope, wish you could've not go, not go

どうかゆるしてくれて (It's all my fault)
愛してくれてありがとう
あなたを絶対に忘れない
Niech ta chwila trwa wiecznie (ty i ja)

Uh, "Let's search for the sky! Only you and I!"
"Let's climb somewhere high, and look for the stars!"
Remember those times? It's always in my mind
I can't move on 'cause of the past, that's why

always (ddertbAg)

prod @h1yori

[mei]
lately all i do is search for the warm
remember how i felt, i just felt like a worm
i dont know where i step, just tell me whats going on
ive lost my only friend now its just me against the world

but then i met u at the end, 
u said its going to be fine to be okay
and at this moment, u saved me from my tears, 
u saved me from my fears
i felt like i touched the bliss

are you the one who painted moon?
i wonder cause, u said u would take me there if i wanted
in the sky i remember the shade of blue
and ur silhouette something that i never saw again
open up the sky im spreading my wings so wide
look me in the eyes ill show that i can fly
ill stay by ur side, if i hold ur heart could u hold mine?
higher than the clouds i hope u can catch me if i fall

sky (hiyori)

‎
𝄞𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ 𓈈⭒♬ ﾟ.19
@modeseraphim
@kliwia

angelicxmei.

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