credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

my friends they all hate my guts
and i always feel so fucked up
dont know why i even try
be better off if i would just die

lately
ive been feeling crazy
think theyve had enough of me cuz
im so fucked up
lately
everybody hates me
i should learn to just shut up cuz
im so fucked up

dont know why the things i say
always push the ones i love away
stay inside never go anywhere
get left behind cuz nobody cares

lately 
ive been feeling crazy
think theyve had enough of me cuz
im so fucked up
lately
everybody hates me 
i should learn to just shut up cuz
im so fucked up

so fucked up

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getting fucked up every day
brains in a state of decay
tried to change my ways but i said fuck that
been alive for way too long
i dont think anybody will care when im dead and gone

never getting better
ill be fucked forever
got no friends dont leave my home 
i guess that i am dying alone

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

crashed my car into a wall
no one really cares at all
life has got me by the balls i really fucked up
wake up every fucking day
dont know why its all the same 
i dont like living this way

i really fucked myself
now im stuck in hell
i fucking hate everyone
so i dont care about anything anymore

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

FOR THE HELL OF IT (ft. DethTech)

Pop-Phlodge x Chadpilled

Lyrics:
It's been a bummer for a while
I hardly ever smile
why does living feel so vile
cold heart like a reptile
and I got this dry ass phone
no text, no one, no hoes
wish I'd crash out on the road
and rot and die alone

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

you keep blowing up my phone
with pics of you giving dome
so I'll take the benz out to the road
crash into the lake
and drown there cold
as the water feels my lungs
I'll feel the bliss of a 1000 suns
just how the schizos speak in tongues
cause ill know my shitty life is done

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

I'm killing myself tonight I'll be dead by morning
and all of this fucking time I was shouting out warnings
I was crying for help from you guys and you fucking ignored me
so I'm killing myself tonight that's the end of the story

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

Oh God Why (Feat. Cameron Phlodge & Chadpilled)

Im afraid of sex
If ive ever had it
I think that theres
Something about it
Its just kinda weird to me

Take my
Take my everything
Give it right back to me
Wrap me
Give me a bow
Push me where you dare not go
Im not in style
Grind my teeth
I must confess that im afraid of sex
Even in my stagnance
Fix my problems
Make me and addict
Im afraid of sex
Make me and addict
Take me out back
Shoot me in the garden

Holding on to my eyes
Im so embarrassed
Holding on to my eyes
Kill me now
Im afraid of sex
Even if ive had it
I think that theres
Something about it
Its just kind of weird to me
Its just kind of weird to me
Its just kind of weird to me

jjjjjr

i wake up still unemployed and
make myself a cup of soylent
logon to my favourite website
and scroll through till the end of daylight

you say that i'm
simply wasting my life
oh, all my days are gone
wasted on reddit.com

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me

my cat is so obese
post him on reddit so that he
can be laughed at by online people
dont sit here and try to tell me that i'm evil

i'm wholesome 100
you're probably a normie
who doesn't like big chungus
and browses ifunny
i saw a kid who liked fortnite
so i bullied him to suicide

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me

Kind Stranger

Blackpilled Again

Blowing My head off

I’m Sorry That I Blew My Brains Out Across The Room

Im so afraid to speak, im scared of everything
everyones watching me, they know that im a freak
im staring at the floor, what am i living for?
i want to be normal, why cant i be normal?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

im staying home again, i dont have any friends
afraid of what they'll think, i shrivel up and shrink
they know im low iq, they know i failed at school
i am a fucking joke, why am i such a joke?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

Too Neurotic

I Miss When You Were Normal

i really hated how you said goodbye
you fucking left me and without a reason why
you cut all contact and abandoned me
when all i wanted was some female company

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i dont want you anymore

i lie awake at night cuz i cant sleep
i think of you and i cant help but feel weak
its so sadistic how you showed your love
i wanted you but you didnt want me

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i hate you go fuck yourself

Worthless

be nice to yourself

https://soundcloud.com/targetedindividuals

dejected

anhero