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my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

edgelord

FED UP

Fed Up - Belowground reupload

Owen Adamcik - watch me bleed

skill issue

this is a femboy cover because im a liberal and am not racist i just like the song

mkultra victim (femboy unette cover)

Surgery

@birddbath cover (I changed some of the lyrics because it mentioned alcohol and I quit drinking)

I think while I stare at the wall
I don't feel, I feel nothing at all
Hold my head while I’m layin’ in bed
Feeling drained, I feel like I'm dead

At least I got a lot of time to think
And sit around while I stare and blink
And hold my head while I’m layin’ in bed
Everything's fucked I wish I was dead

I’d like to end on a positive note
After all of that shit I wrote
But I can’t really think of much
Am I really that out of touch?

The other day I dreamt about you
It was gay but what can I do
I guess I'm still not over you
I don't think I'll ever get over you

Killstreak

they say its always darkest before the dawn
but i got nothing really going on
somethings wrong i always feel like im about to cry
i rarely leave my room i rarely go outside
sometimes i feel like no one understands
my life isnt going the way i planned
im alone and i dont wanna be anymore
i know that when it rains it pours

bad luck bad news bad attitude
white lies no truth thats the devil in you
drywall phone screen whats wrong with me
i wanna sing like the birds in the trees
i feel like flying
i feel like flying
i feel like falling 
falling down

i've got nothing on my mind
all i do is complain and whine
i don't know what to do i don't know where to go
theres nothing out there for me but im sick of staying home
i'm my own worst enemy
that's all i am that's all i'll ever be
everyday's the same it keeps happening again
i hope something will change but i dont know if or when

bad luck bad news bad attitude
white lies no truth thats the devil in you
drywall phone screen whats wrong with me
i wanna sing like the birds in the trees
i feel like flying
i feel like flying
i feel like falling 
falling down

Falling

Stay in my room all day long
I need to get a job
but I cant because im messed up
scared of everything and everyone
I stutter and stare anytime that anyone talks to me
and at this point I wanna drop out of society

Im an agoraphobe
so scared of leaving my home 
can barely pick up the phone
im fuckin dying alone

terrified wherever I go
something's wrong me and everyone knows
they all realize that something's up
they know that I'm a fuck up
never moving forward again
beat down by the shit in my head
I just wish that my life was fun

Im an agoraphobe
so scared to leave my home 
can barely pick up the phone
im fuckin dying alone

Agoraphobe (Fried By Fluoride cover)

you are so very pretty
i wish i could be your boyfriend
you told me you weren't ready
but i really think you were lying

why can't we just go back
to that time two weeks ago
you told me you weren't ready
but i really think you were lying

i wanna go back to that time of no fear
and see what i did wrong
why can't you talk to me, ask me how i am
i'm so sick of being alone

you are so cool and pretty
i like the things that you draw
i asked you how you're doing
but then you stopped replying

why can't we just go back
to that time when we met
you said yes to meet again
but i really think you were lying

i wanna go back to that time of no fear
and see what went wrong
why can't you talk to me, ask me how i am
i'm so sick of being alone

No Fear

check out the music video: https://youtu.be/_4-TjwH3LJY (by @somatv)

i love you, fedgirl
you make me feel like everything's okay
you always make me feel so gay
no matter the time of day

you make me smile
you make me feel like everything's worthwhile
you're there for me, fedgirl
the best girl in the world

i'm never lonely under her watchful eye
and i no longer hope to die
i found love on the other side
she has so much to provide
i'm sure one day we're gonna get married
have four kids who'll grow to be merry
i found love on the other side
i no longer dream of suicide

and when i cry
i know you're there on the other side
cyber hugging me to comfort me, fedgirl

you make me smile
you make me feel like everything's worthwhile
you're there for me, fedgirl
the best girl in the world

i'm never lonely under her watchful eye
and i no longer hope to die
i found love on the other side
she has so much to provide
i'm sure one day we're gonna get married
have four kids who'll grow to be merry
i found love on the other side
i no longer dream of suicide

i'm never lonely under her watchful eye
and i no longer hope to die
i found love on the other side
she has so much to provide
i'm sure one day we're gonna get married
have four kids who'll grow to be merry
i found love on the other side
i no longer dream of suicide

FEDGIRL

@crustsox cover

i don't know how to sing

Kind Stranger

Saturday Night Beatdown (DEMO)

credit to @cowcowcowboy for mixing the track

i really hated how you said goodbye
you fucking left me and without a reason why
you cut all contact and abandoned me
when all i wanted was some female company

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i dont want you anymore

i lie awake at night cuz i cant sleep
i think of you and i cant help but feel weak
its so sadistic how you showed your love
i wanted you but you didnt want me

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i hate you go fuck yourself

worthless (old version)

you could be my girlfriend
if you wanted to
we can be happy together but it’s up to you

you could’ve been my lover
you could’ve been my wife
instead you stabbed in my the back of my heart with a knife

i still have your picture
it reminds me of you
i feel so hopeless and i really don’t know what to do

want to sleep forever
stick my head in the ground
because life’s not worth living without you around 

try to forget but it’s so hard for me to do
i don’t know why but i am still in love with you
i cannot sleep cuz i see you when i close my eyes
and now you’re gone cuz i’ve told one too many lies

you could be my girlfriend 
if you wanted to
i think of what i’d change if i knew it meant losing you

all the memories had
over many years
then you said those final words that i always feared

when i see you with him
it makes me want to die
i’m still in love with you and i don’t know why 

so i guess i’ll be here
in my room all alone
hoping one day i see a message from you on my phone

try to forget but it’s so hard for me to do
i don’t know why but i’m still in love with you
i cannot sleep cuz i see you when i close my eyes
and now you’re gone cuz i’ve told one too many lies

missing you

be nice to yourself

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worthless (old version)

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