blurred ep

demo album

Demotape Backup

anonymous predators

Olanzapin Wirkmechanismus

DEMO DEMO  prod. suni vega

rare trash demo created with audacity and an usb mic beat by omenxiii

better not    prod. grigoryan

trash   prod. NetuH

kxma, prod. ikiru & dvrst

Meds against psychosises i did not chose the shit im living in been alone since 23 my mins got ruined when they turned their back on me i miss my old friends everyday can not stay where im not wanted cant decay because its blunt bitch drugs the only hope I got cause my relations are too toxic i was all alone i had nobody to tell about my thoughts now i make it short suicidal thoughts its not worth it thats for both live and die No i never did decide
No i never had the mindfulness to get over the toxic people in my life cause im one of them im dangerous to anyone too close and when im high better get off of my side


close my eyes and im alone all by myself
No you cannot help leave me alone dont ask about my feelings how do yoi even get this close to me
How you even get to hope that i might change because the rope to my so called home was not cut and my mom couldnt stand me sonshe threw me out
All alone the victim of some docs now look at what i got but im afraid to lose it tho every second that i can not cope the fact they threw me out my home


home prod. Retain

I been on my own felt isolated til the psychiatry
psychosis in my head i did not notice it til it stopped coped way to often i felt softened on purpose i was joking bout my problems cause i solved them all alone
Got no hope just realism
Trauma bonds i could not fix them
Now im on my own again, i dont want ro talk again
I dont want another friend
I dont even want the drugs
But they help me stay awake
Prescribed by the doc no longer get them on my own
All the nights i spend alone
Dreaming of all the goals
instead of drowning in your fake love
Break downs what i wait for
But they cant come back from the depths
instead I write text yeah i feel better when i trap
I see some rappers and they flex but thats not the way i get it cause depressions keep on haunting cause they been not diagnosed
Sniffing my meds with my nose counting sheep gainst my psychosis
most the time it lets me sleep

Pink hair black jeans white T is all i need to be recognized
Thick air medicine hide and seek cause the public wont recognize
That i am danger still iam in danger i might caused anger
my lifestyle like a scorpion to any stranger it seems like i made it i am a rotten corpse
I own/get the checks cause of course people support my decisions giving no shit bout their business giving no shit bout the klicks all i want is to be listened to by a few to save me from myself and the crew from me
Now it is just you and me nobodies watching cant you see?

worse prod. diddyjameson

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insta: anonshine_

trap and german rap

trash prod. NetuH

anon死ね