scrapped album intro track - felt necessary to release something while music remains difficult for me. working on reboot + new visual/musical direction

i'll put it on plats if you all enjoy it that much

guitar by soundcloud.com/maae-ko

is it my fault
that i feel like i'm the center of gravity
feel like everyone else has it out for me
that all my problems will resolve themselves naturally
the moment is magically
erased like its alchemy

why does everyone else seem afraid of me
have i always been some kind of enemy
am i afraid to be wrong or just scared to belong or do i want everyone else gone

crickets [jan 2023]

cats

cover and feature from @1dxn we made this shit so fast fr

lyrics!!
me
I think that im way too fucking drunk right now
and I cant focus cuz the musics too loud
and I didn't wanna keep my head down
but Id feel better if ur still around

spilled beer on my shirt now its see through
could say more than one word when I text u
looking through the names on ur phone like its a menu
was I just never enough I don't get u

u don't care about me
never in my life once have u cared ab me
and now im always frowning
I don't think I can remember why I want ur bounty

always the nice guy
u hate me, don't ask why
do u remember the last five
cuz I do now I cant try oh!

@1dxn
said "at the party, im too wasted"
and youre expecting me to save you now?
out my mind, your body's faceless
you'd look better when youre in a crowd

because its harder to see
id rather take these pills than see youre messaging me
id rather take myself than see your face on my screen
if that doesnt say something, dont say something to me, no-ho

me
I think that im way too fucking drunk right now
and I cant focus cuz the musics too loud
and I didn't wanna keep my head down
but Id feel better if ur still around

spilled beer on my shirt now its see through
could say more than one word when I text u
looking through the names on ur phone like its a menu
was I just never enough I don't get u

@1dxn
oh-oh
bet you wish i was the nice guy
got your feelings washing up like a riptide
miss that feeling, was it love, was it a blindside
was i the right guy? was it the right time?

but now youre wishing you could take me back
but its far too late for that
bottoms up, now im in my bag
this is nothing like you wanted right?

said "at the party, im too wasted"
and youre expecting me to save you now?
out my mind, your body's faceless
you'd look better when youre in a crowd

because its harder to see
id rather take these pills than see youre messaging me
id rather take myself than see your face on my screen
if that doesnt say something, dont say something to me, no-ho

me
(I hate ur guts)
(don't need ur luvv)

care about me!! + dan

soft snowy destruction_chapter431

disappear

scrap

i feel like im going crazy
rot in bed im trying daily
burn cigarettes, i do it crazy
mom and dad, im trying daily

veins

New Hope, Chapter VII - honest
Recorded 2.1.24

oh, don't let em take my breath away again
oh, I'll live forever if I could, if I could
death only matters anyway 
if you have someone to share it with
promise I won't put you on a pedestal
I'll only love you forever
and the sun's getting hotter, oh
but my hope's getting bright
one day we'll have a baby, my love 
one day we'll have a baby
in each other's arms, I love you still
oh, I could look at those brown eyes forever, and see you still

only I know how to love forever
if I could love you still
and only my friends could catch a glipse of the spark
only from the start
read your funny books
and tell me everything inside them
read your funny books
and tell me fuckin' everything

i know the music ain't perfect yet anyway
what the fuck does that even mean?
i'm recording into a focusrite
to tell you i'll love forever

baby I had a dream that you and I were in a library

-st

hmm? (do it anyways)

New Hope

honest

og @d1tto @mondai1112

the original is soooooo good

d1tto - Those Famous Girls That Upload on Facebook (chai flip)

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