(prod. sickboi)

ily @internetfraud

[apxthy verse]
i cant deal with all of my problems
run away from things i cant solve and
you said that you really dont mind
but i cant seem to shake it this time

i apologize that i cant understand
cant think with these chems in my head
i fill my lungs with vapor
roll my joints with notebook paper

just to feel something different
instead of indifference
can you hear the dissonance
its so fucking sickening

i dream of these nightmares
i hate that i dont care
you listen but you arent there
i hate you im so scared

[internetfraud verse]
can’t think so i fill my lungs with smoke
better days before i was on my own
don’t talk, i just want someone to hold
no conversation, just hold my place in

youuuuuuuuuur heart, 
girl in yoouuuuuuuuuuuuur heart,
i’ve felt so alone girl, so alone,
one day i hope you’ll hit my phone

look at my face,
look how i bleed,
look at my thighs girl,
above my knee

look at my face,
look at my face,
can’t match my pace girl,
can’t match my pace

wake up, getting high off of the wakeup 
numb my mind cus i’m tired of the fake love
f-f-fake friends that gave me fake numbers
i-i-incel i don’t got no lover

you think we’re friends? you really don’t know me

oh you don’t know me

im fine, awesome in fact /w internetfraud

(prod. peril)
💜🕷️

a key to  aheart
you lied from the start
just play all your parts
in your sad story :<
I worry x3

key to my heart <3

the pain is drawn out but its ok
i eat like shit and get high everyday
nothing good comes out of it anyways
if i try to say what i really wanna say
rather blow my brains out than wait another day
5 mminutes in and ive lost all hope
i just dont know where id go
im at the end and theres nothing else so 
whats the point of health

when it hits harsh


(intro)"when youre older will you listen to the shoulder that the devil is sat over when
he says to cut away?"

cuts on my arms and my hands
you told me stop i told you that i cant
"oh you cutter
youre a dumb motherfucker
you wont ever have a lover
if your arm looks that way"
"when youre older will you listen to the shoulder that the devil is sat over when
he says to cut away?"

ill never be alright again
i try to get fixed but they never fix it
ill never see the light again
my solution grab the rope and end it

cuts on my arms and my hands
you told me stop i told you that i cant
"oh you cutter
youre a dumb motherfucker
you wont ever have a lover
if your arm looks that way"
"when youre older will you listen to the shoulder that the devil is sat over when
he says to cut away?"

(outro
cuts on my arms and my hands
you told me stop i told you that i cant
"oh you cutter
youre a dumb motherfucker
you wont ever have a lover
if your arm looks that way"
"when youre older will you listen to the shoulder that the devil is sat over when
he says to cut away?"

cutter

gone with the wind(w apxthy)

ive never felt this alone before
crying in the bathroom i woke up on the floor

i am obsessed
i am near death
shes gonna kill me with no regrets (x2)


slumped over, sunday afternoon
on my phone "soul i hate you"
i cannot take it
my legs always shaking
leave for the pain 
or stay for the pain 
"it is your decision"
but i just hate listening
to this hate
i feel insane

ive never felt this alone before
crying in the bathroom i woke up on the floor

i am obsessed
i am near death
shes gonna kill me with no regrets (x2)

stop it please youre being mean to me im crying im crying im crying im crinhg

drama queen

SKEL COVER :3

everytime i hit record , my cats chilling on the bed
by the laptop, where she rests her paws infuckingstead
clickin keys till theyre broken and they cant be fucking pressed
and these songs play over and over inside her head
and she listens to my words, never knowing what i said
man i wonder and i wonder wholl love her when im dead
when i step outside just to smoke a cigarette, and i come back in see her waiting where i left
she be sleeping all day like its time well spent, and shell always be a cat but my very best friend
and im kinda antisocial, friends, i dont text them
lifes kinda lemonade when its bitter in the end

i love my fat stupid cat :3

ydkm so dont act like it
when its snowin only time she like me
when im drinkin only time she right here
i dont get it am i not enough man

prod. bigghoney

it's on me

@projectkyra

bitch im off my meds and u talkin fuckin dumb
wanna try n fuck me u gon end up in a tub
yeah she in the back snortin coke and a double cup
slurred speech, trippin feet and ion wanna sober up
ask me if i love em man i only love smokin nic
keep her round me like a purse cus im a pretty bitch
i been thru it so dont think im not gon act quick
pretty boy fuckin with me so i left him in a ditch
cast a spell if ion got my gun cus im a blood witch
i got ties to the underworld how the fuck u think i got rich???

@fcxkjxh

this lil vape not enough, break ts open i need the nicotine 
i love shopping for shit i hit the mall imma true religion fein 
pull up in a new whip 2025 im in a space coup 
they all wan be like me but they can’t do what i do
yah swaggin on this beat got this shit for free
double parkin all the whips n the hoes from dollar tree
said bitch we moving up this a movement
move bitch ain room for u on the pavement 
i ain talkin shit  less u got my payment
they all thinkin it but they won’t say shit
but omg u movin up can i get yo autograph
back as a jit i was sleepin in that math class
what i love most abt that bitch is dat fat ass

ties to the underworld w/ fcxkjxh

(prod. robin_cause)
art by my friend @emofs-869113733 :)
💜🐼

you'll find someone to look after you..
and I know it hurts
and I know it's my fault

but don't forget all the good that I did for (your heaaart yea) youuuu

it's cool, don't get too comfortable
don't think that it's alright
for you to go and loose controlll

my thoughts,
my thoughts I think of you..
you're what just keeps me through

the things I usually do ooo
I'm sitting round in my roooom
^w^

don't think too hard about it boo

I know it hurts

apxthy doesn't care

apxtheticloser on tt and ig follow for a cookie

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<3

im fine, awesome in fact /w internetfraud

apxthy.