i don't wanna leave my bed.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

cyclone.

unknxwn. - at least i don't feel like this everyday anymore. (prod. Lezter)

Produced by soprettyanxiety, Nuxe & Coward

This song is an intense and raw reflection of my internal struggle, creative frustrations, and the pressure to meet external expectations. It reveals the depth of my pain, the ways I’ve used music as a coping mechanism, and the realization that something essential was missing throughout it all. From a faith-based perspective, this song represents a moment of reckoning—a realization that no amount of external validation or creative expression can fill the void that only God can complete.

The Missing Piece:

“This is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that I’m missing a piece.”

This line beautifully conveys the feeling of incompleteness. In the Bible, this missing piece is often identified as the absence of a relationship with God. No matter how complete the “image” appears, the soul longs for something more—God’s presence.

Scripture reminder:

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." (John 15:5)

The Frustration with External Expectations:

“They miss unknxwn. when he rapped like this, they don’t know that he hated that shit.”

This reflects the weight of being misunderstood by not only my audience but in the world. I've carried the burden of creating art that resonated with others but didn’t align with your inner truth. 

Scripture reminder:

“Am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.” (Galatians 1:10)

Questioning Your Path:

“Oh my God, which of my turns were wrong? I can’t find out, I been here way too long.”

This moment of desperation acknowledges the need for guidance. The Bible encourages us to seek wisdom and trust God’s direction in our lives.

Scripture reminder:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Lyrics

They miss unknxwn. when he rapped like this, they don't know that he hated that shit
They don't know that he needed to scream, that he needed to sing to get out that ditch
Yeah the lyrics were deep but the shit he was saying did not feel complete
This is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that I'm missing a piece

I might swing fist at all of this
I'm stuck, it's fuck my monument
I'm sick as shit of all of it
I wanna make you feel just how I get

When I'm stuck in the back of my mind
Where no one even looks just to see if it's fine
I feel like a book that ain't got any spine
So when I turn a page, I don't know if it's mine

Resonate with that song so much I can't make a part 2 and say one single line
Sick of these comments coming from people that don't got a life tryna comment on mine
"Hey, unknxwn. you fell off with rock" "Hey, unknxwn. I'm missing the old shit"
"Hey, unknxwn. I fuck with you a lot" I DON'T CARE! CAN YOU GET OFF OF MY DICK?

SAY YOU LOVE ME, YOU THINK THAT I CARE BITCH?
ALL I CARE ABOUT ME, NO ONE ELSE BITCH
WHAT I SAY AT THE START ABOUT SCREAMING?
IF I DON'T THEN I CAN'T GET UP OUT THIS

I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'D BE IF WITHOUT THIS
REALLY AM BUT I ACT LIKE I'M NOT PISSED
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, OUT OF OPTIONS
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, I CAN'T STOP IT

They miss unknxwn. when he rapped like this, they don't know that he hated that shit
They don't know that he needed to scream, that he needed to sing to get out that ditch
Yeah the lyrics were deep but the shit he was saying did not feel complete
This is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that I'm missing a piece

Oh my God, which of my turns were wrong?
I can't find out, I been here way too long

this is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that i'm missing a piece.

Lyrics

Broke my heart, ran away
Scream I hate you but my feelings don't match what I say
Make my art from my pain
It's a paradox, wanna let it go, but can't
Where she went I can't go, I know that I'm always gonna end up on my own
Tried love, fell apart, I think that there's something evil growing in my heart
Tried to stop it, I can't stop it, my heart's hardened, out of options
I know I should let you go, if your heart get involved don't let her know
Feel like 2019, give me back my soul
But it's 2024, I ain't a kid no more

i say i hate you but my feelings don't match what i say.

Lyrics

If you look me in my eyes, you can find out what I am
But don't look me in my eyes cause I know that you won’t understand
Please don't go inside my mind cause you probably won't ever get out
Why you leave me for that guy? Can you tell me what that’s all about?
Can you tell me why you left? Can you tell me why you ain't here?
You can take away all my stress, you can take away all my fear
You can take away all my hurt, you can take away all my doubt
You can take away all my pain, you can save me if I drown
But you ain't do that, you gave me all that back
You gave me so much more, I don't think imma come back

I don't think I can be saved
I don't think I'm really worth anything more than pain
I think I need to be...

I think I need to be put in the dirt
Wanted you bad, now I want you worse
I hurt you last but you hurt me first
I don't care if you’re poison, quench my thirst
You’re lost fire, I'll burn
I’m so tired, won't learn
My lesson, I'm stressing
Can you please read my message?
Can you return my call? Why I'm still in my car?
Tryna find where you are, please don't be too far

i don't care if you're poison just quench my thirst.

Lyrics

Finna stop doing this music shit, I do not give a shit
Everything I do, I seem to quit
My life is full of shit, world is the toilet
Losing all hope and I don't see no benefit

I'll be a bum for the rest of my life
Please do not tell me that I'll be alright
I've made my choice and I'm not gonna fight
Just cause the sun is out don't mean it's bright

They say that money ain't happiness
But everyone's sad and I bet they wish they were rich
Don't even lie cause you're scraping for change
And I know you think yourself that life is a bitch

I'm 17 and I'm already dead
Why do these thoughts always enter my head?
Fuck everyone and the words that they said
Honestly, I would be better off dead

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

unknxwn. - I don't know what that is

i don't know what that is. (2017)

Lyrics

I'm not an evil person but I've got some evil curses
Why God do I feel worthless? Honestly, I might deserve this
'Cause sometimes I don't play the victim
Broken pages in a book, I ripped them
Arrows shooting at your back, I sent them
All the hurtful things I said, I meant them
Sometimes I wanna go away, sometimes I like the noise
Sometimes I feel the hate, sometimes I feel the joy
Why can't I hold myself down? I guess if I could, I'd be dead by now
I would allow myself to drown

sometimes. (2019)

Produced by racky

Lyrics

Quenching my thirst with a poison, no wonder I keep heading back, I ain't know it was that
But I'm at point where I been here for so damn long, even though I know, I'ma go back
Cause that's all I know, if I stop then that means I'ma have to restart and that's so fucking hard
And I wanna be comfortable even if comfort is killing me, cause at one point what it meant to me

Was more than anything, if I know anything, I know I'll find her
She'll never get away, tried to get away, I was right there behind her
Baby please don't be afraid, that man of yours, he was in the way
Got him out the way, lets get away, we need to get away, they tryna find me

You hear those sirens? They getting closer, I can see all of the colors
You gotta make a decision right now, come be with me or you'll be another
Body I give back to the earth and we all gotta die but I swear you'll be first
I know I said you got a decision, this ain't a debate, if you choose the wrong one, meet your fate

Don't walk out that door if you don't wanna see what's out there
Baby I'm the only one who's out here
It's funny, there's 8 billion people in the world
But we're the only 2 in this specific part of it, no stopping this

You ain't wanna choose me, I'ma choose for you
I'll take us out this world and there ain't nothing that you could do
To stop it at all, you could of been involved with me some more
You gave me just a taste of your love but I needed more

All I was, was honest, you were so dishonest with me
The heart I gave was real but you just gave a copy to me
We could of avoided this if you just weren't so sloppy to me
You stepped all over me and now I got your blood on my feet

I see your blood on the floor
It's sad that all of that lead to this
Like what was it for? I guess that we'll never know
Guess that we'll never know

the heart i gave was real but you just gave a copy to me.

Produced by fowni x jaysset 

Lyrics

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

Told you before, I'm delusional
You treat me so ugly but you're beautiful
Found you again what you moving for?
You won't escape me until you're a corpse

Keep fucking with me and I'll expedite it
If it makes you feel safer then go ahead, change your name
But I swear that I'll still find it
If you stayed then I wouldn't be like this

Don't try to say that this ain't your fault
You coulda saved me but you said fuck off
Tasted your love, baby I need it all
My head is spiraling and it won't stop

It never will because you won't come back to me
Won't ever be enough for you but you were already enough for me

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

i don't know what that is. (2017)

Archive: unknxwn.