i'm running out of words to describe this feeling.

Lyrics

Why do I cry?
Why am I sad?
Why do I lie?
Why is my head?
Fighting against me all over again
Thought this was over but I'm back again

Back in this spot
I'm gonna rot
So why do I care about anything not
Making me feel like I know what I'm here for?
I'll never know what the fuck I am here for

I'll never get back the way that I was
Full of hope, full of love, but do I give a fuck about anything else other than myself?
Anything else other than my Hell?
That I'm gone deal with all by myself
I only heal when I'm by myself
Making these songs, screaming what's wrong
I don't feel right if I'm not feeling wrong

I'm always right, I ain't ever been wrong
This is my life so is shit really wrong
If I don't think so? If I don't say?
I fucking can't go no other way
Except for the way that I want
I don't care if I'm not
Getting to where everybody else got
Fuck all that sheep shit
Bitch I'm a human
This ain't no deep shit
I'm only truthing

Fuck all that sheep shit
Bitch I'm a human
This ain't no deep shit
I'm only truthing

*auditory agony*

Why do I cry?
Why am I sad?
Why do I lie?
Why is my head?
Fighting against me all over again
Thought this was over but I'm back again

Back in this spot
I'm gonna rot
So why do I care about anything not
Making me feel like I know what I'm here for?
I'll never know what the fuck I am here for

Don't wanna talk
Leave me alone
Bitch I am detmer
I'm not unknxwn.

Scent on my sweatshirt
Weeping alone
Can I forget her?
I do not know

Maybe I won't
Maybe I will
All that I know is that I'm gonna feel
Like this for the rest of my life till I'm still

Is anything real?
Is everything fake?
Are we all a piece
Of a stupid ass game?
I'm searching for peace
But I keep finding pain

Don't know what I need
How am I gonna change?
I know if I leave
I won't come back the same

I know if I leave
I won't come back the same

why? | Produced by saint mike

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

desire.

Lyrics

What do I do? I don't even know
I don't have a home, I got nowhere to go
I been holdin' it in, I don't know how to cope
With the pain that's within every ounce of my bones

Don't look up to me, I am the epitome
Of all the reasons everyone got rid of me
Don't say you care cause I know you just pity me
God if you're there tell me why you did this to me

I'm a loser, I know I'm a mess
Only at this computer know how to confess
All the things I can never get off of my chest
Life is a game I just wanna reset

Pushing away any entity tryna be friends with me
See everyone as an enemy
Tired of fighting though, I wanna stop
At this point I don't know if I can turn it off

I'll never be who I wanted to when I was wanting you all I could dream of was holding you
I couldn't change all the hoe in you, I was just boring you, how did I ever see love in you?

Never was there when I needed it, pain you were feeding it 
My heart was yours, you were beating it
I feel like X you were eating it, I kept repeating it
Knife in my back, I'ma leave it in

God I don't know where I went wrong in life
But I need to figure it out but I can't figure it out
I just been losing myself, all been doing well
Tryna call god, think I'm going to hell

But I don't want to, no I don't wanna
I just succumb to all the weight I'm under
I'm not an angel, baby I'm a monster
From another angle, I'm a motherfucker

That's just how this thing go, I'm just on the river
Might let this pain go, I might pull the trigger

spotify.

bones. | Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Fool me, told me that you would be there but you never was
Choose me, baby, I wish that you would give me your love
Use me, anything you need to do to me to be enough
If she doesn't want me, I'm not enough
If I give her time, then she'll see that I'm enough
Move on, wish that I could but I can't cause baby I'm stuck
Don't wanna do none, I had my hope, love, and dreams crushed
I miss that girl but she don't give a fuck, feel like 2019, not enough
And I know that I'll never bе, and I know that I never was
And I know that you nevеr cared, and I know that you never could
When you told me that you would be there
Part of me knew that you never would

when you told me you'd be there part of me knew that you never would.

Lyrics

If you look me in my eyes, you can find out what I am
But don't look me in my eyes cause I know that you won’t understand
Please don't go inside my mind cause you probably won't ever get out
Why you leave me for that guy? Can you tell me what that’s all about?
Can you tell me why you left? Can you tell me why you ain't here?
You can take away all my stress, you can take away all my fear
You can take away all my hurt, you can take away all my doubt
You can take away all my pain, you can save me if I drown
But you ain't do that, you gave me all that back
You gave me so much more, I don't think imma come back

I don't think I can be saved
I don't think I'm really worth anything more than pain
I think I need to be...

I think I need to be put in the dirt
Wanted you bad, now I want you worse
I hurt you last but you hurt me first
I don't care if you’re poison, quench my thirst
You’re lost fire, I'll burn
I’m so tired, won't learn
My lesson, I'm stressing
Can you please read my message?
Can you return my call? Why I'm still in my car?
Tryna find where you are, please don't be too far

i don't care if you're poison just quench my thirst.

Produced by kledyy

Lyrics

I opened up my chest, laid it bare for you
I pulled out my heart, something I never do
I scraped out the pain, every secret, every scar
I was hoping that you’d see me but you always stayed so far

I gave you the pieces, every single one with care
I was hoping that you’d hold them but you just left them there
I poured out my soul, let you see it all
But you never even caught me when I began to fall

I scraped it clean, down to the core
Gave you the love I’d never shown before
But you turned away, left me bleeding out
Now I’m hollow inside and I'm filled with doubt
I gave you my heart, every piece that I could
But you never would love me in the way that I thought that you would

You were the light I reached for in the dark
The warmth that I chased to mend my broken heart
I showed you all of the places I hide
The ghost of my past that I kept deep inside

Now there's nothing left but an empty space
Echoes of a love that time itself won't ever erase

i've scraped my heart clean to give you everything i possibly could.

Lyrics

I wish I had back my friends, I just wanna turn the time back
Losing another I love, I don't know if I can take that
I replace pain with a drug, mom ask about it, I fake that
One day I'll stop doing pills but until then let me take that

I stay up late watching movies 'cause I just see sleep as a skip to the next day
And every time that I wake up I'm just hoping that I don't succeed to the next day
It's so fucking bad, I'm always angry but I'm never mad
Fucking depressed, I'm not just feeling sad, I wish that my body was inside a bag

I wish that I wasn't awake, I wish it was all just a dream, I wish it was all fucking clear
There's always a read in-between, and I fucking hate it, it sucks
Always asking why I'm not enough
I'd end it all if I could, put a knife into my fucking gut

unknxwn. - If I could.

i'd end it all if i could. (2017)

Lyrics

Finna stop doing this music shit, I do not give a shit
Everything I do, I seem to quit
My life is full of shit, world is the toilet
Losing all hope and I don't see no benefit

I'll be a bum for the rest of my life
Please do not tell me that I'll be alright
I've made my choice and I'm not gonna fight
Just cause the sun is out don't mean it's bright

They say that money ain't happiness
But everyone's sad and I bet they wish they were rich
Don't even lie cause you're scraping for change
And I know you think yourself that life is a bitch

I'm 17 and I'm already dead
Why do these thoughts always enter my head?
Fuck everyone and the words that they said
Honestly, I would be better off dead

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

unknxwn. - I don't know what that is

i don't know what that is. (2017)

Lyrics

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

You never told me how you really feel
Silence took over and it broke our deal
My heart gets broken and it never heals
I want to forget so I resort to pills

You played along like you actually cared
You couldn't leave me cause you were too scared
All of my problems you just couldn't bare
You used to be here but now you are where?

These words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

unknxwn. - dead

dead memories. (2017)

Lyrics

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

I don't ever get why people leave, man I'm such a mess
Honestly, I don't want you to leave but I think it's best
Say you're not the samе, I don't believe, you'rе just like the rest
God, take away the pain please, I don't wanna stress

I don't wanna feel all this fucking pain
I don't wanna deal with what I have inside my brain
I don't think I'm normal, I just think that I'm insane
I should pull the plug, I know life is just a game

Always up too late, working on a song
Tryna get too baked, I wanna feel numb
Tik-tok-tik, feeling like a fucking bomb
Now I'm underwater, ain't no air inside my lungs

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

i think it's best. (2017)

Produced by flower x fonkyfake

Lyrics

Holding on to nothing
I don't care, I just needed something
Drugs I'm off and drinking? Stopped it
Had to resort to another option

Don't know where I'll go from here though
I wanna save you but I'm not a hero
I need God, I need a miracle
I don't think my vice is curable

This ain't talent, this is pain embodied
Speaking through my body
I'm not alive, I'm a zombie
Pain is what I eat when hungry

Lost my heart, I won't ever find it
My mind's dark and I won't ever light it
I been battling my demons and I'm tired of the fighting
Fuck ken, detmer's who I can confide in

I don't wanna hide it
Yeah, I kinda like it
I don't wanna fall short
But I might really fall in

God can you forgive me?
For I know not what I do
Will it take away the pain?
If I give it all to you?

this ain't talent, this is pain.

CHAMELEON

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lyrics

[lightning logan]

gothic bad bitch, but she a sweet heart
her boyfriend think that he hard
drive slow when we pull up in that street car
bloody in my styrofoam, i need to recharge
wrist cut, but that bracelet goyard
off the slopes; that’s a hunnid dollar snowboard
tweaked out, white mask like ghostface 
up next: top five on myspace

[heroine diaries]

bad bitch, blonde hair, and she love me 
i don’t really care, got her off the molly 
i don’t really care, i be dying slowly 
i don’t really care, used to being lonely 
you can see it in my eyes, look closely 
black jeans, black nails, she a goth queen 
she don’t need a man, but tell me that she love me 
wanna fuck me, both druggy 
nose bloody, heart lovely 
heart lovely, baby, why you love me?
i'm so broken, i can’t be saved 
soon enough i'll be lying in the grave

[lightning logan]

wrist cut, but that bracelet goyard
off the slopes; that’s a hunnid dollar snowboard
tweaked out, white mask like ghostface 
up next: top five on myspace

[heroine diaries]

bad bitch, blonde hair, and she love me 
i don’t really care, got her off the molly 
i don’t really care, i be dying slowly 
i don’t really care, used to being lonely 
you can see it in my eyes, look closely 
black jeans, black nails, she a goth queen 
she don’t need a man, but tell me that she love me 
wanna fuck me, both druggy

children of the night tag made by @gucccifer
prod. @ryini
written by @lightninglogan x @heroinediaries

samples from Scream x Scream 2 x Scream 3 x Prom Night x Cam

HEROINE DIARIES

goyard w/ heroine diaries [prod. ryini]

fraidy cat *p. torture*

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling, that feeling is gone

I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help
I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help

No cure for me so theres no care for me
Call me your friend but you're not there for me
I'll never fit in, theres no "pair" for me
I'll never leave but they don't bear for me

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

i'd end it all if i could. (2017)

Archive: unknxwn.

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