subside. (snippet)

so long. (unmixed/snippet)

Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

Lyrics

I can do a lot with this microphone and my thoughts
For 5 whole years I only took a couple nights off
And every time I did I met a new demon to fight off
Safe to say I learned my lesson, all I see now is progression

I don't focus on the path ahead
I been making my own sometimes don't know where to step
So sometimes I fall through, don't know where to run to
Relapse or rewind that's what I'm never gone do

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Neither would I, I'm scared of what's inside
Of this head full of thoughts that I always will hide
I barely cry cause I wasted so many tears
With the time that I did could of moved on from it

I'm a wizard, I spell out these words
Spit a verse like it's magic but some are a curse
Turn something tragic to something that's worse
Now I watch what I say cause these vibrations lurk

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Find my mind when I'm losing it, havoc I'm fluent in
Told me don't do it, I'm doing it
This beat is a drug, I'm abusing it
I don't like talking to people, I'm threw with it

I sit in front a screen just screaming
Sat in the back of class just dreaming
'Member you laughin at what I believed in
Don't come to me actin like I was believed in

truthfully.

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

I can't stop this fucking bullshit
My life is some fucking bullshit
My past was some fucking bullshit
My future some fucking bullshit

My songs are so fucking morbid
Breathing I am fucking bored with
My life might be fucking shortened
I don't think that I'm important

You could never hurt me because I'm my biggest enemy
Everyone deserts me and you don't know what that did to me
You don't wanna know about the shit that I got hid in me
They're dark and they're bad, put my body in a bag

Demons all around, it don't matter where I go
I find solace in the sound and I feel hopeless when I don't
Got fans all over the world but I'm stuck in this fucking room
I can't stop feeling this pain and I don't know what else to do

Am I stuck? Am I fucked? Am I shit out of luck?
Will I burn when I die? Have I lost my fucking mind?
I'ma waste, I'ma burden, I won't ever stop this hurtin'
I can't take what I been holdin', I'm so sick of feelin' hopeless

I can't stop this fucking bullshit
My life is some fucking bullshit
My past was some fucking bullshit
My future some fucking bullshit

My songs are so fucking morbid
Breathing I am fucking bored with
My life might be fucking shortened
Don't think that I'm important

enemy.

Lyrics

Drunk, stuck, don't give a fuck
I still ain't had me enough
Why so shook? Knew what was up
I never lied about none

I told you I wasn't what
You were still searching to find
You hurt you
I was just taking advantage and passing the time

I'm not even what's close to divine
I lost hope and I never will find
It again, I'm in the shit again, I'm never fitting in, God I know that I'm not getting in
Your heaven, I'm hellbent on my only purpose

You think I'm at the top
But I feel like I'm losing
Life's hard wanna stop
Something in me keep choosing

To fight off these thoughts
That tell me let it off
That tell me that I'm not
Worth everything that I got

That bitch ain't care
Why the fuck should I?
There's some in the air
That makes me wanna die

So why do I fight?
When I think I'm lost?
Maybe because I
Can only fight when lost

Stuck in a cycle, that's how my life go
Honestly think that I'm psycho
Midnight, can't keep my eyes closed
I might need Nyquil, I never like it when I feel

Like I can't sleep cause you'll be in my dreams
Even when you don't care you're the one that I see
In my life for the rest of eternity
Why this love in my chest keep on burning me?

Why the girl that I love keep on hurting me?
Don't know what's wrong with me, everyone always deserting me
God why the fuck did you burden me? Death is an urgency
All my emotions are murkin' me

mercury.

Lyrics

I can't get away from all the shit that I'm on
I went farther than where I was, I should of stopped
I let all of the loops in my head to go on
I met death and I think I'm the one that he wants

OD, that's what I tried when I wanted to die
I see everything I believed then was a lie
Where I breathe, you out of breath when I don't even try
What I see, I would see still even if I was blind

God please send me a sign, I been losing my mind
I need something to show me I'm not out of time
My greed sent me down a path where I couldn't survive
So I fleed but I'll never get away from whats inside

I can't tell if I should give in or fight back now
What's this talent I was given? I got all these mask now
detmer, garrett, unknxwn., qayin, ken is of the past now
Too far to reach back now, can't get back what I had now

addiction.

Lyrics

God I don't know where to go now
I been here too long, it's old now
Write these songs to get my hopes out
I know I sound negative but that's not what it really is

I just never learned a language
That was not within the anguish
Even in the times of happiness, whatever that is
It was only just distraction from whatever this is

I can feel it building up now
I don't know when it'll come out
But I know that when it does though
You don't wanna be within scope

I'll hurt everyone around me
When I can't please the one's around me
When I can't take them up the mountain
At least I know that I can show them where the ground is

anguish. | Produced by HELL$HOT

Lyrics

Don't know what I did so wrong
That would make you fucking think that apart we're better off
Cause it's only been a week and I promise that I'm not
Any better than I was when I thought you were the one

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

I can't let this happen but we don't have to go there
Don't tell me you're moving on or you ain't going no where
Promised you would never leave, I won't let you break that
You say I'm the problem well you gone have to face that

Don't say "we should slow down"
I can't let you go now
You've dug way too deep
I won't ever let another get as close as you to me

I wanna know what I did to make you hate me
I wanna know why you thought you had to break me
Don't wanna know where you been as of lately
Because girl, because baby...

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

without me. | Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

I don't wanna wait, girl I need you now
I just wanna break every time you're not around
Evil in my head so that's why I keep it down
Staying in my bed, I ain't ever going out

I ain't seen the sun in a couple days
My room is a box that I turned into a maze
I be having thoughts that don't ever go away
I don't know a lot but one thing that I know is pain

Yeah I know the kind you do to yourself
Detrimental physical and/or your mental health
I don't wanna talk about what I feel
And that's kinda funny cause I'm making songs to heal

It's only place I can say what I want with no filter
I won't ever leave or give up on what I built here
I don't really see anywhere else I belong
I don't wanna be only just another one

Another mind gone to waste at a job
Another dream down the drain for a cause
That isn't original, only typical
Make you believe what you want only fictional

Feel like I'm violet, invisible
Don't ask how I been, I feel miserable
Happiness only been miniscule
I got a void growing in my skull

*auditory agony*

I don't wanna wait, girl I need you now
I just wanna break every time you're not around
Evil in my head so that's why I keep it down
Staying in my bed, I ain't ever going out

I ain't seen the sun in a couple days
My room is a box that I turned into a maze
I be having thoughts that don't ever go away
I don't know a lot but one thing that I know is pain

Yeah I know the kind you do to yourself
Detrimental physical and/or your mental health
I don't wanna talk about what I feel
And that's kinda funny cause I'm making songs to heal

It's only place I can say what I want with no filter
I won't ever leave or give up on what I built here
I don't really see anywhere else I belong
I don't wanna be only just another one

mercury.

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