normal. (snippet)

Lyrics

I can do a lot with this microphone and my thoughts
For 5 whole years I only took a couple nights off
And every time I did I met a new demon to fight off
Safe to say I learned my lesson, all I see now is progression

I don't focus on the path ahead
I been making my own sometimes don't know where to step
So sometimes I fall through, don't know where to run to
Relapse or rewind that's what I'm never gone do

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Neither would I, I'm scared of what's inside
Of this head full of thoughts that I always will hide
I barely cry cause I wasted so many tears
With the time that I did could of moved on from it

I'm a wizard, I spell out these words
Spit a verse like it's magic but some are a curse
Turn something tragic to something that's worse
Now I watch what I say cause these vibrations lurk

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Find my mind when I'm losing it, havoc I'm fluent in
Told me don't do it, I'm doing it
This beat is a drug, I'm abusing it
I don't like talking to people, I'm threw with it

I sit in front a screen just screaming
Sat in the back of class just dreaming
'Member you laughin at what I believed in
Don't come to me actin like I was believed in

truthfully.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

ISSOFU.

Produced by sockedbeatz

Lyrics

I know that I'm bound to be forgotten
So please stop hounding me, don't care about it
There's not just one devil on my shoulder, I'm surrounded
She think I'm an angel just because of how I'm sounding

All I know is pain, that's what I'm used to
I won't find myself if I don't lose you
I don't understand why you won't leave me
Can you cause me pain? That's what I'm needing

I don't wanna leave my mark, wanna mark my departure
I don't care if she lied, I don't care if she using me, I'm sad, I lost her
I don't want you, you're not her, shut the fuck up, I don't care
What's in my cup I won't share, I need her back and I swear

I'll get her back cause I can't live without her, she don't understand
What don't I have that another man does? Can you tell me why you ran?
Can you tell me where you are? I'ma find where you stay, I know you ain't far
Out of my mind but I'm in my...out of my mind but I'm in my heart

In my feelings, I can't get out I tried
Girl, just tell me why did you ever lie?

I don't wanna leave my mark, wanna mark my departure
I don't care if she lied, I don't care if she using me, I'm sad, I lost her
I don't want you, you're not her, shut the fuck up, I don't care
What's in my cup I won't share, I need her back and I swear

I'll get her back cause I can't live without her, she don't understand
What don't I have that another man does? Can you tell me why you ran?
Can you tell me where you are? I'ma find where you stay, I know you ain't far
Out of my mind but I'm in my...out of my mind but I'm in my heart

i won't find myself if i don't lose you.

Produced by septfree

This song reflects a raw, unfiltered expression of heartbreak, unrequited love, and obsession. The pain and longing in these lyrics capture a deep emotional struggle and also exposes the dangers of placing one’s identity and worth in another person. From a faith-based perspective, this song could serve as a powerful testimony of how unhealthy attachment can be transformed through God’s healing and the discovery of His unconditional love.

Unrequited Love:

“What I saw in you, you did not see in me.”

This line conveys the pain of loving someone who cannot reciprocate. From a Biblical perspective, this speaks to the human tendency to seek fulfillment in relationships rather than in God, who is the only source of complete love and acceptance.

Scripture reminder:

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18)

Obsession and Idolatry:

“Girl, you my drug, I’m a fiend.”

This suggests the unhealthy attachment and idolatry of another person. Biblically, anything we place above God in our hearts becomes an idol, which leads to emotional and spiritual harm.

Scripture reminder:

“You shall have no other gods before me.” (Exodus 20:3)

Heartbreak and Agony:

“Look at my heart, look at all these scars.”

The scars represent the emotional wounds caused by misplaced hope. Healing begins when those wounds are brought before God, who can mend them.

Scripture reminder:

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” (Psalm 147:3)

Lyrics

Care so much about you but you don't see that
Told you that you were the one, you told me that you never could be that
And I know what that really means, what I saw in you, you did not see in me
What I saw in you I still ain't seen, girl you my drug, I'm a fiend

Where my hug at? This ain't a meme
Girl I need you, call me please
It's okay, I don't care if you lie
Can you tell me you love me?

I don't wanna leave june in july
My body is sick of this place
Too many games and I don't wanna play
I still got time but I don't wanna stay

All of the colors I knew are now grey
I really wish I knew what I should say
It's been so many God damn years
Why the fuck would you ask me if I am okay?

Did it stop your heart when you saw your name?
Oh, you thought changing it'd keep me away?
Oh, you thought changing it was the end of it?
I'm making songs but bitch I'm not pretending it

Just cause you don't love me don't mean that I stopped
Ooo shit, okay I'm blocked
You really think that mean something at all?
I'm down the street and I'm parked in my car

I can see you in yo God damn yard
You don't see me hiding in the dark
Look at my heart, look at all these scars...

*auditory agony*

NEED HER BACK, ALL I HAD THEN
NEED HER CLOSE, GIRL WHAT HAPPENED?
THOUGHT WE HAD SOMETHING SPECIAL
GUESS I WAS WRONG, GUESS I WAS WRONG

Care so much about you but you don't see that
Told you that you were the one, you told me that you never could be that
And I know what that really means, what I saw in you, you did not see in me
What I saw in you I still ain't seen, girl you my drug, I'm a fiend

just because you don't love me doesn't mean that i stopped.

Produced by flower x 5head

This song reflects a deep struggle with boundaries, emotional exhaustion, and the tension between loving someone and being drained by them. It captures the weight of giving so much of yourself that you lose your ability to thrive. From a faith-based perspective, this song could serve as a testimony of learning to set healthy boundaries and entrusting both yourself and others to God’s care.

Loving Without Losing Yourself:

“I love you to death but I can’t let you take my fire.”

This lyric shows the tension of loving someone while recognizing the harm that relationship is causing. The Bible calls us to love others as ourselves, not at the expense of ourselves.

“Love your neighbor as yourself.” (Mark 12:31)

Recognizing Emotional Draining Relationships:

“What is the point of this if I’m keeping you alive but I can’t live?”

This line captures the one-sided nature of a draining relationship. The Bible encourages us to help others but also to be wise stewards of our energy and resources.

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way, you will fulfill the law of Christ.” (Galatians 6:2)

“Each one should test their own actions.” (Galatians 6:4)

Turning to God in Despair:

“When they thought I would fall, I said ‘Dear Heavenly Father.’”

This is a powerful declaration of faith in the face of challenges. Even in moments of emotional exhaustion, you’re turning to God as your source of strength.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

The “Sinkhole” and Spiritual Warfare:

“Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you’re getting stronger.”

This reflects a recurring battle with darkness, whether external or internal. The Bible reminds us that spiritual warfare is real but God equips us to overcome it.

“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness.” (Ephesians 6:12)

Lyrics

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

And it seems you're getting smarter
Tryna figure out where you reside is getting harder
I been keeping close some things I should be keeping farther
When they thought I would fall, I said "Dear Heavenly Father"

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

the moment the pit in my stomach becomes a sinkhole.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

See your face in hallways but you're not there
Why I always end up back here?
Tried so hard but I failed again, I feel like selling my soul again
Named my heart winter how cold it gets, I know I won't get her but I'm still not over it

Cause without her I feel like a no one
I know she hurt me but at least I'm someone
Someone she hurts and abuses
But at least I'm somebody she uses

Treat me worthless baby
You're so perfect baby
I don't know what I'd do without you
I'll always ignore the truth about you

Like when you laughed at me when I told you I'd be there for you forever
I guess there was someone better that you were talking to in secret
Cause you left that same damn evening
And don't you dare tell me I'm wrong, cause you got there at 12 but you found him at 1

See your face in hallways but you're not there
Why I always end up back here?
Tried so hard but I failed again, I feel like selling my soul again
Named my heart winter how cold it gets, I know I won't get her but I'm still not over it

worthless perfection.

townies

#alternative #dreampop #indie #aliablo #goingnumb

GOING NUMB

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling, that feeling is gone

I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help
I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help

No cure for me so theres no care for me
Call me your friend but you're not there for me
I'll never fit in, theres no "pair" for me
I'll never leave but they don't bear for me

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

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