lyrics:
i don’t wanna die got no friends im
in a fight with my mind slit my wrists ten times
fight fire with fire i’ll burn my eyes out
drowning in the lies who the turned the lights out
hearts been broke, now i’m all alone
i could never trust again, no i hate that hoe
leave me lost in the dark, but her eyes they glow
if you ever want me back just let me know

stab me in the back you let me down
turn my smile upside down
the voice inside my head don’t bother me
but its so fucking loud
brain so numb put a bullet in it i know
leave me in the rain, while i bleed, it’s a cycle
break me down now i’m nothing, suicidal
i ain’t never felt the same since i wrote the suicide note

i don’t see the point of going on in a life
that i don’t even like
i don’t even wanna fight
i don’t see why i still try
when i know that i’ll meet demise
ain’t no one cared when i was close to doing what would make me die
doing what would make you cry 
if i went through with thoughts of mine
everyday i wake up in a cycle
i don’t think it spots the trigger i pull
i can see the bitch with my eyes closed
i don’t wanna talk anymore just let me go
you made me sick of myself
made me hate me cause what i felt
girl you played me for the last time
this the last time

i don’t wanna die got no friends im
in a fight with my mind slit my wrists ten times
fight fire with fire i’ll burn my eyes out
drowning in the lies who the turned the lights out
hearts been broke, now i’m all alone
i could never trust again, no i hate that hoe
leave me lost in the dark, but her eyes they glow
if you ever want me back just let me know

suicide note II w/ unknxwn (TXNSHI)

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

spotify.

shiver. | Produced by septfree

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I don't wanna talk, you want me to open up but I just wanna stop
Stop my heart, stop my breath, don't care which part
As long as it leaves me unable to feel all this pain that I haven't been able
I know this a song but this isn't a fable

Every single word I say real
It won't ever work, I can't heal
Honestly I could but if I did I
Couldn't make the shit I

Pour my heart into when I ain't got no one
I don't know what to do when I can't make no song
I know that I'm great but this shit not fun
You know where I'm at, you don't know where I'm from

I don't wanna talk, you want me to open up but I just wanna stop
Stop my heart, stop my breath, don't care which part
As long as it leaves me unable to feel all this pain that I haven't been able
I know this a song but this isn't a fable

I used to hear as a child, this kid gonna go places
Only place I been since then is Hell and I don't really think I can change it
I don't even know if I deserve it, wake up everyday just feeling worthless
I know nobody is perfect but I don't even feel I have a purpose

as long as it leaves. | Produced by saint mike

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

Left your mark so deep, I see your face in everything
Every one I ever meet ain't ever been enough for me
I wasn't enough for you, I just wish you fucking knew
Everything I ever did back then was for your benefit

But you don't care at all
You don't ever answer when I call
I been on the edge I wanna fall
I just need someone to push me off

Really need someone to pick me up
I don't ever feel like I'm enough
Told you I was good but I was bluffing
Honestly I always feel like nothing

Ken never meant anything to you
She won't ever know just what she meant to him at all
Cause she ain't stay
I'll be okay when in my grave

I cannot explain how I feel
I can't ease the pain and I won't heal
Every single day is an uphill battle
And I'm walking backwards

Wanna throw my fist into the wall
Shut the fuck up, I don't wanna talk
I don't wanna cry, I wanna bawl
I get sad and I get alcohol

I get alcohol and then I miss her
I miss her and then look at a picture
I look at a picture then I picture
What we could of been if I was with her

Left your mark so deep, I see your face in everything
Every one I ever meet ain't ever been enough for me
I wasn't enough for you, I just wish you fucking knew
Everything I ever did back then was for your benefit

when i call. | Produced by 11feinly

Lyrics

Winter's here now I feel at home
If you're not here then I don't have one
I feel fear when I don't feel you 
How could I not fall apart when you
Left here but didn't take me there with you
I guess what you are to me I'm not that for you
Every thing that I said bad for you
I tried my fucking best to be there for you

winter. | Produced by nowhere valley

Lyrics

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist when I'm sleep

I wanna feel your love, you wanna watch me die
I wanna build up trust, you wanna make me cry
I would of gave it all up just to give us a try
You were just out getting fucked when I wasn't by your side

Why in the fuck did I think I could make you mine?
Everything you say lies
I'ma make songs about you until I make bank
You gonna watch me rise
Thought what we had was something real but it was so fake
You were just in disguise
I used to feel so much love for you, now it's all hate
All of my feelings collide

I don't feel like myself no more
Are you safe for my health? Not sure
I don't like the way I'm not yours
I don't get what this is all for

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist when I'm sleep

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist in my sleep

Why in the fuck did I think I could make you mine?
Everything you say lies
I'ma make songs about you until I make bank
You gonna watch me rise
Thought what we had was something real but it was so fake
You were just in disguise
I used to feel so much love for you, now it's all hate
All of my feelings collide

I don't feel like myself no more
Are you safe for my health? Not sure
I don't like the way I'm not yours
I don't get what this is all for

disguise. | Produced by yeezo x slaying ibis

Lyrics

Write these songs like I got some to say but
When in person ain't got none to say cause
I'm a stupid, broken, anxious
Shell of a man, I don't think that I can

Reach every goal that I had in the plan
I took a turn on the path that I had
So close yet so damn far
How can I feel love with a broken heart?

Coming this far kinda blows my mind
Still sometimes I just wanna hole in mine
Carrying weight with a broken spine
I get so full of hope in a hopeless time

Cause thats all I got to rely on
Where was god when I needed the light on?
I was stuck in lightless place
When he took who I loved to a lifeless space

That was fucking forever ago
But the feeling I felt it won't ever just go
And sometimes I don't think that it's better to cope
I do better at this when I'm hurting the most

I bled for this, I shed for this
Went to heaven and jumped into hell for this
I'm bred for this, was fed for this
Burned every bridge just to care for this

But you won't understand don't even care if you can
I'm so full of myself, I be foolin' myself tryna act like it's cool when I'm crying for help
When I know that it's not but I won't ever admit that
I still feel like I'm lost but I'ma still just pretend that

Everything is a okay, even when I hate everyday
Every waking moment is a moment closer to the day
I'll really find out if all this agony was worth the wait
Or if it didn't even matter at fucking all

I get this urge I should just splatter this fucking wall
With every piece of me that hold these secrets deep beneath
The surface that you see in me these curtains here conceal a beast
That I don't wanna show nobody

stupid. | Produced by raspo

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Lyrics

dear me,
love,
you

Lost in thought, I'm lost a lot
But if you ask I'll say I'm not
I never cared for fucking help
Cause no one really fucking cares

I'm not excused, I do it too
Cause what the fuck we supposed to do
When all we learned at every turn
Was people just like using you?

I know the feeling that you get when you just wanna scream
But you don't cause you don't want the ones around you to believe
That what you need is mental help when that's not what you fucking need
What you need is fucking love but all you have is fucking drugs

I don't wanna talk so I just sing behind a fucking screen
Yeah we both speak English but you can't distinguish what I mean
There's a barrier thats heavier than Earth that's in between
You and me and it just fucking hurts that you ain't hearing me

If not for music, I would not be where I am today
I'm still not where I wanna be but where I was I'm far away
I met this girl, I'm thankful she stuck by my side along the way
This line right here don't fit the song, it's just to say I love you babe

Now can y'all stop sayin' that I only talk about the bad?
I can talk about the good but that's not where my talent's at
I turn broken pieces into art for broken people
So they know that there's some good inside when all they feel is evil

detmer, garrett

dearmeloveyou. | Produced by miercoles

Produced by tennis player

Lyrics

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna feel alive
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm dead inside
Maybe in another life
I won't need to think about another life

Maybe you won't leave me for another guy
Maybe you won't tell my ass another lie
Maybe I won't give a bitch another try
Maybe I won't give a shit and you'll just die

Bird brain, head cage, I'ma let it fly
I don't think about the pain tonight
I can't get away from the pain inside
All I feel is hate, I just wanna say goodbye

I can't heal with all the pain I deal with
I don't wanna feel it no more, I wanna kill it
Death to what's in me, demons I know many
But one's always closer than the others, like a brother

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna...
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm....
Maybe in a...
I won't need to think about a...

anotherlife.

a compilation of my best (IMHO) phonky bootlegs and remixes

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Archive: unknxwn.

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