i'm running out of words to describe this feeling.

deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
non profit

Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

lyrics

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

unknxwn. - Faults.

unknxwn. - faults.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

Produced by staywoozy x owleeng

Lyrics

Can you tell me why you left it all?
Did I ever mean anything at all?
I would still answer if you called
Answer when I call

I want you to know that I figured out
Every little lie you let out your mouth
I hope you don't think that I grew up and I'ma let it go
Everything feeling that I grew up, I'm bouta let it go

I don't wanna die, I want you to
You gon' lose your life if I'ma lose you
I know everywhere you ever moved too
I know every single fucking room too

Picture on the backdoor, flower on the counter
Top drawer passport, I like it around here
But there ain't enough room for the 3 of us
This world will be better off when it's free of us

I get hurt, that's usual
Putting me first unusual
You don't treat me a like person
I'm a tool, I'm useable

Here when you want me
Thrown to the side when you don't need me
You'll always haunt me
I just wanna cry but I don't want you to see me

Told you how I feel, you don't believe me
When it gets real, you're gonna leave me
Bitch I'm right here but you don't see me
Why does no one ever really need me?

I'm not that bad am I?
I just wanna smile, why can't I?
I guess I'm the bad guy
I only ever wanted to be your guy

Can you tell me why you left it all?
Did I ever mean anything at all?
I would still answer if you called
Answer when I call

I want you to know that I figured out
Every little lie you let out your mouth
I hope you don't think that I grew up and I'ma let it go
Everything feeling that I grew up, I'm bouta let it go

Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
Can you save me?
Can you love me?
Can you call me?
Can you want me?
Can you text me?
Can you tell me?

spotify.

anything at all. (extended remix)

Lyrics

Wish you knew what you meant but you don't cause
If you did, from my love, you would not run
You wouldn't have left me, you wouldn't have did that
You wouldn't distress me
What I gave to you, you'd give back
You would've came back by now
Did me wrong, you ain't think I would find out?
Old me would've been folding, went and got drunk
'Cause I can't get high now
I really wish I could cry now, but I can't cause my tears all dried out
I'm at a point in my life, I ain't got time to waste
Either do or I don't, I can't try now

Really hurt my heart when you left, I don't know how to deal with this stress
And I'm only just gonna get worse
I don't believe in myself enough to be the best
Don't remind me of what I did, I don't know how to do it again
And I know that I did you wrong but I wish that we could be friends

i'm only gonna get worse, i don't believe in myself enough to be the best.

Produced by kledyy

Lyrics

I opened up my chest, laid it bare for you
I pulled out my heart, something I never do
I scraped out the pain, every secret, every scar
I was hoping that you’d see me but you always stayed so far

I gave you the pieces, every single one with care
I was hoping that you’d hold them but you just left them there
I poured out my soul, let you see it all
But you never even caught me when I began to fall

I scraped it clean, down to the core
Gave you the love I’d never shown before
But you turned away, left me bleeding out
Now I’m hollow inside and I'm filled with doubt
I gave you my heart, every piece that I could
But you never would love me in the way that I thought that you would

You were the light I reached for in the dark
The warmth that I chased to mend my broken heart
I showed you all of the places I hide
The ghost of my past that I kept deep inside

Now there's nothing left but an empty space
Echoes of a love that time itself won't ever erase

i've scraped my heart clean to give you everything i possibly could.

Lyrics

I wish I had back my friends, I just wanna turn the time back
Losing another I love, I don't know if I can take that
I replace pain with a drug, mom ask about it, I fake that
One day I'll stop doing pills but until then let me take that

I stay up late watching movies 'cause I just see sleep as a skip to the next day
And every time that I wake up I'm just hoping that I don't succeed to the next day
It's so fucking bad, I'm always angry but I'm never mad
Fucking depressed, I'm not just feeling sad, I wish that my body was inside a bag

I wish that I wasn't awake, I wish it was all just a dream, I wish it was all fucking clear
There's always a read in-between, and I fucking hate it, it sucks
Always asking why I'm not enough
I'd end it all if I could, put a knife into my fucking gut

unknxwn. - If I could.

i'd end it all if i could. (2017)

Lyrics

Finna stop doing this music shit, I do not give a shit
Everything I do, I seem to quit
My life is full of shit, world is the toilet
Losing all hope and I don't see no benefit

I'll be a bum for the rest of my life
Please do not tell me that I'll be alright
I've made my choice and I'm not gonna fight
Just cause the sun is out don't mean it's bright

They say that money ain't happiness
But everyone's sad and I bet they wish they were rich
Don't even lie cause you're scraping for change
And I know you think yourself that life is a bitch

I'm 17 and I'm already dead
Why do these thoughts always enter my head?
Fuck everyone and the words that they said
Honestly, I would be better off dead

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

unknxwn. - I don't know what that is

i don't know what that is. (2017)

Lyrics

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

You never told me how you really feel
Silence took over and it broke our deal
My heart gets broken and it never heals
I want to forget so I resort to pills

You played along like you actually cared
You couldn't leave me cause you were too scared
All of my problems you just couldn't bare
You used to be here but now you are where?

These words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

unknxwn. - dead

dead memories. (2017)

Lyrics

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

I don't ever get why people leave, man I'm such a mess
Honestly, I don't want you to leave but I think it's best
Say you're not the samе, I don't believe, you'rе just like the rest
God, take away the pain please, I don't wanna stress

I don't wanna feel all this fucking pain
I don't wanna deal with what I have inside my brain
I don't think I'm normal, I just think that I'm insane
I should pull the plug, I know life is just a game

Always up too late, working on a song
Tryna get too baked, I wanna feel numb
Tik-tok-tik, feeling like a fucking bomb
Now I'm underwater, ain't no air inside my lungs

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

i think it's best. (2017)

Lyrics

I been making progress from the old me
But sometimes I wish someone would just hold me
Sometimes all the weight gets me to folding, gotta let go of what I'm holdin
Is it just the drugs or something more I feel?
At this point, I really do not know what's real
I've seen a lot and hurt some more than time can heal
If I slip back in, I'm saying fuck those pills

daemon. (2019)

vanished. (2021)

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

She was my queen, I thought I was her king but she jacked up my heart, I got played like some cards
I don't know why you left, I don't know why you ran, girl you know that I'll find you wherever you are
Did you think we were done? Girl, I'm sam I am, I can have you near, I can have you far
Girl my life won't be better, my life won't be okay
Until the day that I have your heart

She was my queen, I thought I was her king so I trusted her but she fucked me over
I got a void in my chest, it won't be put to rest until her life is fucking over
Girl I'm just playing, I need you alive if you're dead then there isn't a purpose in mine
Either I'm tryna get you or I'm the one with you

Yeah you might feel what I'm sayin', you do not know what I been through
Hold up this wasn't the plan, I don't know what I got myself into
Bitch, why in the fuck is you playin'? You can't get rid of me that simple
Acting like I ain't ever did shit when you know damn well that I did though

Why you gotta be like that? Beat me down, make me so sad
You ain't gotta do all that, can you keep me around? You're all that I have
Baby can you please come back? Who I was before you, I can't go back
They say that hearts don't have bones...how the fuck she broke that?

*auditory agony*

until the day i have your heart.

This song comes from a place of deep pain. I poured my feelings into every line the sadness, the silence, the things I couldn’t say out loud. AB Music is my way of expressing the emotions I can’t hide anymore. 🎧💔

AB - I am Sad

wish i was dead(freestyle)

Lyrics

I might swing fist at all of this
I'm stuck, it's fuck my monument
I'm sick as shit of all of it
I wanna make you feel just how I get

When I'm stuck in the back of my mind
Where no one even looks just to see if it's fine
I feel like a book that ain't got any spine
So when I turn a page, I don't know if it's mine

Love is a drug and I'm fiending
I fucking mean it
Thought she was who I should be with
But that ain't even close to attaining
I don't like this shit, wanna be faded

The fuck is this shit?
I'm not amazing
So fucking pissed
It's fucking amazing
How I could hold all this pain
Until I find the words that can take it away

I'm not a goat, I'm not a legend
I'm nothing special, I'm not eleven
I'm just a ghost, sending a message
This where my head go when I get stressin'

I'm on a road headed to nowhere
Stay out my head, ain't nobody should go there
My body soaked with all the toxic shit
I don't get how anyone could like this

Numbers don't help, I'm stuck in hell
I don't like the shit that I felt
I'm a lost cause, blow my top off
I'm on the edge, think I'ma walk off

I made an album to let go but it ain't work out
I can still feel all the hurt now
I know that I am a mess so no need to point out
All expectations I won't mount

Tell me please, am I really helping?
By talking bout all the pain that I dealt with
I can't see, who I'm affecting
So I appreciate when I get messaged

I'm just a human going through it
I got some thoughts I don't know what to do with
Other than turning it all into music
I don't what I would do if I lose it

This ain't a song, this an attempt
To show myself that I can get a grip if I really try
Because sometimes I feel like
Life ain't worth the time

Thoughts in my mind
That I don't like
I feel like I'm
Running out of time
I can't take another night

vanished. (2021)

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