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Lyrics

Embodiment of envy, I don't think nobody feel me
I just need a fucking friend, ain't got nobody here with me
Ex just hit me up while I'm tryna move on
Yeah that shit messin me up, who's the girl I really want?

Is it you? Is it her? I don't really fucking know
I ain't ever really sure about where the fuck to go
Need to find a fucking cure for the shit that I can't cope
So cold, hear me brr, I been stuck inside the snow

Depressed but I'm lit like coldhart
Life ain't really it, this so hard
Way I'm making music feel like mozart
If life is a play I want no part

Cause I don't like my soul, I don't like my thoughts
I'm so tired of these hoes, they always treat me wrong
I can't wait till I can go to a place where I'm not lost
Cigarettes what I'm gone smoke till the day that I drop

Till the day that I drop my life gone fucking suck
Cause I keep having thoughts, that make me feel fucked up
I just can't fucking stop, I guess I ain't had enough
Am I worth it? I'm not, I think that I'm out of luck

envy. | Produced by cryberstarr

Lyrics

If she don't love me, I don't wanna feel it again
I turn to nothing when I'm not pressed up on her skin
I think you're bluffing when you tell me "I love you Ken"
But it don't matter, you ain't even around, why the fuck can't I have her?

I'm got lost in the thought of your love
Feel the moon light down from above
It just makes me miss you more
Girl I really wish that you missed me more

How's oats? How's your mom? How's Autumn?
All the signs that you sent I caught 'em
But there ain't nothing you could do to make never want you

LRG I need an LMG
I don't hate you, why do you hate me?
Wanna die fast like an SRT
Cause the one that you want now is not me

I don't know why I hold on
Please don't go, I have no one
I'm so cold, now it's froze on
Hate this hoe, I don't even wanna go on

CTRL ALT
Grab my file please delete
I don't think you'll ever see
How much you meant to me

Hurt me 1000 times
I'll love you through 1000 lives
I don't wanna see the light
Unless it's coming off your eyes

I don't wanna say goodbye
I don't think that I'll ever try
Ain't no drug can get me high
As your love can but I'll still try

if she don't.  | Produced by daitana

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

out of reach.

Produced by flower x luffysome

This song expresses raw pain, rejection, and a deep longing for love and validation. It reflects a cycle of seeking fulfillment through a relationship, embracing pain as a necessity and using anger as a coping mechanism. From a faith-based perspective, it highlights the emptiness of trying to fill a void that only God can truly satisfy. It’s another piece of my story that could be reframed as a testimony to healing and transformation.

Misplaced Identity and Worth:

“I need the pain, I ain’t nothing without it.”

This line reflects a dependency on pain and rejection to define my identity, which ultimately leads to toxicity and despair. God calls us to find our worth in Him, not in our suffering or others’ approval.

“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession.” (1 Peter 2:9)

The Futility of Seeking Validation:

“Gave her my heart, she ain’t care nothing about it.”

This lyric echoes a common struggle: placing your heart in the hands of someone who cannot fulfill its needs. God offers the love and care that no human can perfectly provide.

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7)

Embracing Pain as Inspiration:

“Fuck inspiration / I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it.”

While pain has driven my creative process, this lyric reveals the limitations of using anger and despair as a source of inspiration. God invites us to channel our experiences toward healing and purpose.

“Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.” (Romans 12:21)

Longing for Love and Connection:

“I just wanted to hold your hand.”

This simple yet profound statement speaks to a yearning for closeness and intimacy. The Bible reminds us that God is always present, offering a love that fulfills this deep need.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18)

Lyrics

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
Say she love me but I fucking doubt it
Nobody saved me, I was drowning
They don't hear what I'm saying, they just hear how I'm sounding

She don't care that I'm hurting, she left me deserted
I want her love but I guess I ain't worth it
I just spoke up, don't ask how I wrote it
I feel like a rodent

Everybody I see only wanna get rid of me
You don't understand what you just did to me
Girl, I wish that you knew what you meant to me
I'm so good to you but you so mean to me

What you mean to me, guess I don't mean to you
Girl, you're my drug and I fiend for you
Baby, call me when your lips are black
I would bleed for you

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

Know that I should but I can't let it go
Did so much but you don't even know
If she isn't there then I don't wanna go
Need the pain so I don't wanna cope

Fuck inspiration
I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it
Broke my heart but bitch, I ain't breaking
This a song but bitch, I ain't faking

Bitch I ain't faking, I swear
I would prove it to you if I cared
But I don't so I guess that you won't
And it's cool cause I know that you don't

Understand all the shit that I'm sayin'
I just wanted to be your man
I just wanted to hold your hand
But you told me that I can't

i just wanted to hold your hand.

Lyrics

Wish you knew what you meant but you don't cause
If you did, from my love, you would not run
You wouldn't have left me, you wouldn't have did that
You wouldn't distress me
What I gave to you, you'd give back
You would've came back by now
Did me wrong, you ain't think I would find out?
Old me would've been folding, went and got drunk
'Cause I can't get high now
I really wish I could cry now, but I can't cause my tears all dried out
I'm at a point in my life, I ain't got time to waste
Either do or I don't, I can't try now

Really hurt my heart when you left, I don't know how to deal with this stress
And I'm only just gonna get worse
I don't believe in myself enough to be the best
Don't remind me of what I did, I don't know how to do it again
And I know that I did you wrong but I wish that we could be friends

i'm only gonna get worse, i don't believe in myself enough to be the best.

Lyrics

I been making progress from the old me
But sometimes I wish someone would just hold me
Sometimes all the weight gets me to folding, gotta let go of what I'm holdin
Is it just the drugs or something more I feel?
At this point, I really do not know what's real
I've seen a lot and hurt some more than time can heal
If I slip back in, I'm saying fuck those pills

daemon. (2019)

vanished. (2021)

wish i was dead(freestyle)

all credit to:
https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

lyrics : 
i feel not alive
fighting my mind trying not to die
dont know how to deal with the pain inside
so i make a song put the pain inside
every time i feel alone i got nowhere to go
they dont see the pain i got no one to show
this graph of mine goes lower and lower
one day i hope that its over
fuck my life
will i go to sleep no not tonight
i just wanna see that fucking light
i dont wanna live another night
when the moon comes up so do my problems
like algebra i cant solve em
fuck one cup
i need the bottle
i dont cut but im self harming
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today

unknxwn. - not over. | Produced by ryini

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling, that feeling is gone

I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help
I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help

No cure for me so theres no care for me
Call me your friend but you're not there for me
I'll never fit in, theres no "pair" for me
I'll never leave but they don't bear for me

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Unknxwn. - Problems. (Prod Chuki Beats.)

She thought I needed her
I'm leaving her
What I wanted wasnt even her
She tell me that she love me but I don't believe in her
She so full of shit with all the lies that I been feedin' her
She open like a book for me but I don't bother reading her
Man I'm such a mess
I need to invest
Time into myself
So I can heal the hole inside my chest
Bitch you playing fuckin' games 
Well I'm bouta hit reset
When I do 
Don't come crawling back I'll show no love and thats a bet

Everyone I cared about 
I feel like they leaving me
To them I am dead
But I don't think that they greiving me
Fuck it I aint gonna waste my time
I'll be fine
Soon enough 
I'll be far ahead
They'll be far behind
In my mind
They will still reside
Feelings for them I will hide
All conncetion that I had
Honestly has fucking died
I kept losing care for them
With everytime I fucking cried
Used to feel important
Till you kicked me to the fucking side

vanished. (2021)

Archive: unknxwn.