Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

Lyrics

Sticks and stones may break my bones
But words I'll into a song
Tell me that you hate me baby
Tell me that I did you wrong

Garrett tells me I'm enough
Detmer tells him shut the fuck up
Qayin feeds off both of them
So left or right he's always up

Ken is fucked up lost cause
He won't ever be shit, he will always fucking lose
unknxwn.'s only just a mask that he wears
So the people that listen don't think that too

You won't ever know who the fuck I am
I won't ever know what the fuck I feel
You don't even know how fucked up I am
I can't ever tell what the fuck is real

I can't even fucking cry
I don't wanna know the why
I don't even wanna try
I'll be okay when I die

I don't wanna see myself no more
I don't wanna breathe, my chest so sore

spotfy.

sticks & stones. | Produced by saint mike

prod. me
guitar by sharp

I'm tired of being the one that has to reap
what you sow the voice reminds me what I couldn't be
I'm sick of living without the lungs to breathe
in I can't exhale the toxins in me

this was never meant to last forever
I'm ultimately terrified you'll find somebody better for your needs

when did every string between us sever
i couldn't see it coming I was blinded by the weather in the trees

take me somewhere safe and sound
when you decide to come around 
and tell me how you really fuckin feel

I think my times run finally out
the clock has stopped the ticking now
Is anything you told me fuckin real
(hello?)
I don't know what to think anymore
(goodbye..)
you left me here to rot on the floor

chapter I: safe and sound

do u even remember the shit u did to me?
was it worth it tell me now were left to history
tried to tell myself there aint a point in fixin me
maybe i was the problem from the begining

close your eyes
and cover your ears
hide your mind
from all of your peers
youll survive
just swallow your fear 
youll survive
i promise my dear

pause my life
by the end of this year
plz cauterize
the ducts for my tears 
no longer cry
i swallow my fear
until i die
oh i hope that its near
 
god i hope that its this week 
if i were to go would my friends even miss me?
ill carve out my eyes with a knife please dont tempt me
i wont tell you twice that you cant fucking fix me

every night
i sob in these sheets
i cant take it
god im so weak
who am i
this vessel aint me
ill leave it vacant
like you left me

close your eyes
and cover your ears
hide your mind
from all of your peers
youll survive
just swallow your fear 
youll survive
i promise my dear

pause my life
by the end of this year
plz cauterize
the ducts for my tears
no longer cry
i swallow my fear
until i die
oh i hope that its near

i miss autumn

swallow your fear

swallow your fear (neverforever x etchmygrave)

Lyrics

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

I don't care how you feel about the shit that I say
I can say I don't care till this song damn end
I don't care about no promo, I don't care about no label, I don't care about no co sign, I don't care about no friend
Care where I'm going, I don't care where I been
Care what I'm doing, I don't care what I did
I don't care what you show me, I care what you hid
You can say that you love me in front of my face but behind all the scenes all that hate could be big

I don't care, holding my breath, think it's love in the air
I was alone, it wasn't nobody there
Did this shit on my own so it kind of confuses me when I see you asking for help
Don't get in your feelings, I don't care how you feel
When I was all in my feelings they ain't ask how I felt

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

That girl the reason I don't care, I gave her all of my love, in return I got hurt
I know that life isn't fair but what in the fuck did I do to deserve that hurt
Fuck did I do to deserve this shit? Don't try to hide, I'ma find you bitch
Every wall that you build, I'ma burn that shit
Everything that I felt, you gonna feel that shit

you're gonna feel everything that i felt.

Lyrics

Stab me in my heart, look me in my eye
Pull my skin apart, hang me out to dry
I know we won't last but you can tell me lies
Your love's all I ask for but I won't be that guy
Won't call my phone, tell me that you're coming home
Break every bone in my hand, won't let you go
Girl you're all I needed, so why you have to go?
What's the point of breathing if you're not who I hold?

you could break every bone in my hand and i still wouldn't let you go.

Lyrics

I found a buyer, soul in the fire
You're such a liar, stab me like Meyers
What's love? I forgot
Numb in every spot, alright I am not, I can't make it stop
Writing the same songs, I need a new pain
Felt this for too long, maybe I can't change
Stuck in the same cage, why can't I escape?
Death's all I got left, life, I need a break
Leave me alone I don't care anymore at all
I fucking suck, I know
Let me go, let me fall

I found a buyer, soul in the fire
You're such a liar, stab me like Meyers

I'm a piece of shit, I know that
Where's my soul? I sold that
Her heart's gone, I broke that
Hands on her neck, I choke that
I'm not an angel, I'm a monster
Head full of trash, I'm a dumpster
Smoke up the pack till my lungs hurt
Typing up tracks till my thumbs hurt
Heart's not beating, I'm dead
Want me to care? I can't
Red flag, you don't notice
Don't be surprised when I unload it

let me go. (2019)

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

Wish I was what she needed but I'm not the one she want
She was all I ever needed but I see I'm not enough
Yeah I'm out here making songs but I ain't making this shit up
I still feel like she the one, I ain't ever giving up

I won't ever let her go, you could never even know
What I'm feeling in my bones, what I feel when I'm alone
I don't have to be alone if you would come back
I won't ever let you go, can you please come back?

Stuck in my head, left me on read
Seen what I said but you didn't text back
I found some new motivation inside of these songs
Because I got my stress back

I just want what I had back
Life is a test, I won't pass that
I'm not in pain, bitch I'm past that
I had a chance but I passed that

Don't know what I did so wrong babe
You're not here so I'm not okay
Thought by now that I'd be healed
I'm still not, you're still with him

Wish I was what she needed but I'm not the one she want
She was all I ever needed but I see I'm not enough
Yeah I'm out here making songs but I ain't making this shit up
I still feel like she the one, I ain't ever giving up

I won't ever let her go, you could never even know
What I'm feeling in my bones, what I feel when I'm alone
I don't have to be alone if you would come back
I won't ever let you go, can you please come back?

Don't know what I did so wrong
You're not here, "okay?" I'm not
Thought by now that I'd be healed
I'm still not, you're with him

you're not here so i'm not okay.

Liars

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BEHIND THE DOORS

This beat is for the nights you overthink everything. Melancholy keys, deep 808s, and pain in every note. Perfect for artists with a story to tell. 💭💔

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you could break every bone in my hand and i still wouldn't let you go.

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