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Nostalgic songs I'll bump when I'm 80

LYRICS: 

I’ve been searching for light
Through my eyes and I won’t let go
Through my eyes and I won’t let go
Through my eyes and I won’t let go

And I waste all my time
I stayed by your side
I gave you my life
Ripped out my heart
You tore me apart
Should’ve known from the start
Lotta things don’t go my way
When I feel so lost all day
I been thinking bout these things can’t change
Really hate it when I feel like waste
I been tripping bout some shit that got me feeling so ashamed
I been lacking so long that’s why they see me like a stain
Every time I look around I know I really have to strain
Cuz I’m searching for life

Hey, I know what your problem is
Every time they bring it up you be dodging it
Know you sitting there feeling like a pile of shit
Right now, suicide make a lot of sense
Every feeling that you have you disown it
Bad luck everytime at your lowest
Always thinking on a way to approach it
Ain’t no way to find peace in commotion
Dissociated, so dissociated
From the things that never change
Don’t remember anything
Cause it all just feel the same
Been so long you stay lowkey
Been so long since you had good sleep
Been so long since you last felt free
Been so long since you had your peace
Won’t be long til you feel that heat
Won’t be long til you take that leap
Won’t be long til you see 6 feet
Can't be wrong when it feel like me

Got me feeling like damn life has to be better than this
My motivation and my patience been deader than shit
I mean the way my mind is racing I’mma crash in a ditch
I’m not a fan of conversation when I’m sad as a bitch
I’ve been so antisocial
I’ve been so inundated
I might delete my socials
Can’t get out of this matrix
There ain't no way to fake it
Or is there
I don't face it, mind is vacant
I’m wilding lately
I don't wait, as-salamu alaykum
Ain’t no chasing, man i wish i made it
I’m gon say it
Why they treat me like the son of satan
Feel this pain I swear you're so mistaken
Cloud up on me, that's that condensation
Now let it rain

I feel that rain coming down
I get so used to the sound

I feel that rain coming down (and it make me go oh, oh, oh)
So much it flood up the ground (and it make me go oh, oh, oh)
I get so used to the sound (and it make me go oh, oh, oh)
Baby I’m lost never found (and it make me go oh, oh, oh)

Feel like I died and went to hell
So much commotion within the shell
Moving slow motion, not feeling well
Full of resent, I know you can tell 
I don’t want nothing but better sleep
Feelings fade, and I’m feeling fate
All the same in a world of hate
I can’t evade what I can’t escape
In a daze, feeling weak
On occasion, feel the need
To adjust, and I’m crushed
So I rush, to a friend
Every time I start feeling boxed in
I be calling you again and again
And I know you getting sick of my shit
But, sometimes I really wanna quit
Who wanna bet is that I don’t cheddar, forever
I manage to fall like a feather, no matter the weather
No matter the header, it’s always the same
I counted on pain, as part of my lane
But never the shame
Now picture me at the top of the cliff
It’s at least a couple niggas shouting please do a flip
It’s at least a couple niggas out here posting a pic
And if I’m taking too long they’d prolly push me and shit
Midsommar daylight shining through the abyss
Make you really think about what you did as a kid
And when I really think aloud I start to ball up my fist
I’m feeling like I missed out if you ain't getting the gist
I mean, I think of my idols
I wanted to meet em, I wanted to make em my rivals
I felt like a destiny's waiting, I’m Jack in The Shining
Something would take over me and make me a monster
But now I feel like I belong inside an asylum
Losing my mind, I’m sitting inside to silence
I cannot bare to be shown in light when I’m dying
Mentally, physically, feeling like back of the nine
Wasn't pose to make it past 25
The jokes on me, I’m still alive
Weighing that shit like pros and cons
At the end of tunnel, I don't see the light

'IV. SEARCHING FOR LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL, AND SO FAR I'VE FOUND NO HOPE' [prod. AIRY BABY]

LYRICS:

Soon as I get it, I fuck it up
Soon as I get it, I fuck it up
Soon as I get it, I fuck it up
Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up
Soon as I get it, I fuck it up
Soon as I get it, I fuck it up
Soon as I get it, I fuck it up
Sick of being told every day that I’m golden 
Spending every day being told that I’m chosen

Baby, 
I go from feeling like you want me
Straight to feeling like you hate me
What’s the reason why you make me go 
Crazy
And you won’t let go of me 
Even when I tell you only thing that's on my mind 
I’m gone be pushing up
Daisies
Lately
If ain't feelin like you with me, I’m hazy
& I’ll be insane like you want me, no safety
What I am saying is, I am wasting over you

Mania
She pull me up
And when I’m with my baby I can’t get enough
Feel the rush
Feel the rush, yeah
Feel the rush
Baby you can feel the rush
Mania
She pull me up
And when I’m with my baby I can’t get enough
Feel the rush
Feel the rush, yeah
Feel the rush
I’mma make her feel the rush
Mania
She pull me up
And when I’m with my baby I can’t get enough
Feel the rush
Feel the rush, yeah
Feel the rush
Baby you can feel the rush
Mania
She pull me up
And when I’m with my baby I can’t get enough
Feel the rush
Feel the rush, yeah
Feel the rush
I’mma make her feel the rush

Oh yeah, right now now now, you know I don’t behave
Don't weigh me, down down down, and push me to my grave
Someone send, a satellite, to come and save me
When it come around at night, there’s no safety
Don’t!
I can feel the rush, but I’m upside down
If she ain’t in love, it’s a bust right now
Feel it in her guts, she gone bust each round
If I’m on the cusp, she can't shut me out
Ooo baby, I’m going off the deep end
If you was fucking other niggas, straight fiending
I would prolly lose my mind and start tweaking
I mean, I don't even know the reason
maybe you got a hold on me
maybe you got control me
maybe you got control me

'MANIA' [prod. AIRY BABY & JUSTIN LORING]

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