feature from @820
mastered by @0rch_id
prod me

(avast)
I think i’m tired need to lay down
ill make it thru somehow
its too much, i’m gonna drown out
u looked a lil deeper tell me what u found

i’m in the club, ur not invited
its gone, if i dont like it
I call the shots, dont need a sidekick 
I wanna be alone and hide it

gone again, u wouldn’t know
all the feelings I couldn’t show
i’m going out in the snow
need to go on whats showing

all alone in the sky
sticking to myself I’m shy
falling through in the night
do i tell her when its over? say goodbye?

(nosgov)
im pouring some substances
i pour too much just to exist
cant wait to go all wrong with it
i have to go along with it

please walk with me please dont leave
and when its getting hard to breathe
addiction taking over me
please hold my soul when i cant breathe

im screaming outloud
i stay in the dark
fucked up on my part
end up in a fight

gone again ft. nosgov

@i9bonsai @prodchapter @o9seren1ty

~Lyrics~

yung leo:
Won’t stop waiting on your love
And I tryna make my heart stop, calling up the plug
And wanna enjoy this, ima live it up
I can’t never stop, quit nor give up, cuz this shit runs in my blood

Ima flip the switch up yeah no matter what it does
Caught up in the past it doesn’t matter what it was
Always rollin marijuana blunts, jus because
I might pop another xan, yellow school bus
  
You a fan, please stop actin like you knew us
Me and Zane doin loosie in the tour bus
She looked me in the eye and said she don’t want lose us
If you don’t fuck wit RBiM you a loser 

Baby girl I really see you in my future
And you know I had options but I had to choose her
Everything you see Louie V, check the shoes first
But I didn’t check the price tag to amuse her

Now I’m covered I’m bruises
Runnin’ low on fuel
And I started hearing voices
Trying to get to a new world


i9bonsai:
y wld i evr evr tlk2u
tha mor tht i do im nt gtn thru
cz i cnt evn deal wit ya attitud
underneath thes grn trees dnt nd tht bluu

so u pt me2tha test nw
abandon it,, it gts rundwn
i go awy dnt nd2b found
go far awy,, awy frum dis twn

i gt it,, think of it thn i gt sick
wlk in bliss i dnt nd2fllw it
toss n turn cnt recovr from tht hit
nw im ovr ovr all dis shtt

y wnt u chang it,,
i cnt kp chasn
bck n forth pacin
lukawy gazn

in my blood +i9bonsai (chapter x sereN1ty)

s/o alex 

0:00 w/ @fucktwintails
1:19 solo
2:44 w/ @kojowav
3:21 w/ @prodsoma
4:06 solo
5:05 + 6:12 w/ @shishyshishy
7:18 solo
8:03 w/ @ev333
8:42 w/ @viinssoo + @heroinsick
9:23 w/ @sssore
9:57 w/ @artemys
10:33 w/ @sssore
11:08 w/ @prodsoma
11:41 w/ @saikyoestral
12:14 w/ @troiner

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FALL 21' @saikyoestral @kojowav @heroinsick @prodsoma @viinssoo @fucktwintails @artemys

produced by @lilac

like im no good
for u (for uuuuuu)
i cant even see it thru
its truu
swear its tru 2x
stuck inside my room
dont kno wat 2 do
(just a second)
a second of ur time
trade it 4 a lifetime of mine
if i could i would press rewind
if i could i would show u the signs

i cant catch a break time after time :/
put it all 2 #wastee like its no use of mine
like i swear i wana stay but its a waste of my time
take it all from me give u all of mine .
like im trash what u see in me??!/1/1/??!?!!!?!
ima bring it back jus believe in me
no this not a act ya its rly me :D
all i ask 4 is ur companyy . . . ..

spotify

if i could (lilac)

ty

https://www.instagram.com/prodwasterr/

love story

1 year, 1 year full of great meetings, discoveries, learnings, about u n me & music, so ty guys ,tysm :) enjoy this lil mix <3
ib : @y4ndere @ev333 @lilac @fucktwintails @synthion @prodbytoshi @maknae @prodgreentop @mental @blxty tysm for keeping me alive 

0.00 , 4:50, 6:30, 7:47, 8:17, 9:25, 16:21 solo
2:00 @mechro2k
3:00 @chained2
3:40 @fucktwintails
5:30 @2variant
7:15 @okeefey
10:00 @kyur0
11:30 @prodsoulsss
11:40 @kojowav @nskyi
12:15 @prodgreentop
13:30 @lb66
14:00 @mechro2k
14:40 @kkkarasu
15:10 @april211k
17:29 @april211k
18:23 @inno1k
18:55 @1spoof
19:40 @internetjoe
20:30 @chained2 @7lux 

all for sale, just dm me on ig or sc (:

1 Year + kojo lb66 greentop karasu april21 okeefey spoof inno twintails chained2 kyuro & friends

@bliss05 @winter @lilac @arideyes
i will never makeup to the pain
i try so hard but it never goes away
these days i dont know what to do
do you have something else to prove

you cant keep holding me close
you know i needed you the most
please dont go away right here
no telling why i feel so lost
i feel exhausted
dissapointed and lost
is it really ever worth it?

@bliss05
im tryna find my worth
idk if ill make it work
everyday i wake it hurts
everyday wana leave this earth
but i wana do it w u
dnt talk dnt ruin the mood
ya its truuu
everyone seems so see through
and i kno its true
cant make it thruu

never +bliSs (winter+lilac)

@sanriorose @winter @tosleep

https://www.instagram.com/b5b5b5b5b5b5b5b5b5b5/

#bliSs
life is cold
n its all the same i know
how we flyin thru that zone
but i still jus feel so slow
i dont know
kno i lost u wit my soul
u broke me when i was whole
u could say it took a toll
ya its true

wana kno how we got this fly
locked to u like zip ties
everytime we link eyes
im so geeked cant even think straight
we all had them sad days
knock it off like ash trays

im like what r we doing tonight
all good kno its a sad life
im all goood im livin right ya
never wana fight ya
kno its my last night ya
watchin from the sky ya
now u kno how i feel ya
its all good we press one button
kno we peel off
no i never felt nothing
break the seal off
never seen all
but we made it realll
just one phone call
and u kno i feel all

#dolly
now u kno how i feel
i used to b right here
i dont even like u ya
im still getting high still
i dont even mind it
i used to b liked i guess
i still havent blocked her yet
i deserve an oscar ya
drugs like a doctor
treat me like im awkward
she think im a monster ya
i think that im awesome ya
ofc she think im awful ya
Best Friends give em what they want
why u think im strong
obvious im not ya

all the same +dolly (winter+nemui)

reserv - dirtbag (prod. odel)

b-iz☆(funfriend)

@kaedefall and myself prod @1yugenn @lb66
its been a privilege to kick off my 2021 with a song with these guys everyone go show them love <3

arman:
ive been so displaced, feel like waste clogging the drains 
and im tryna find a way to end the pain that i have felt 
and i cannot get away from all this shit put in my face
and im moving so slow got some shit up in my veins

trapped behind these chains i cant keep on moving forwards
all my homies going on without me im a loner
throwing up in the bathrooms but i’m sober
posted up in a black room with a strap on me,
 
dont act funny, might take a soul
i been so down bad i been so low
and i’m solo, i’m so alone
i just wanna go, wanna go home

kaedefall:
gotta stay low, pills got me so slow
yea i wont make it thru the night i need my brains blown
we not the same bro, i swear im not sane hoe
my heart it stays cold, ig thats where my pain goes

oh, when im off of the pills, im searching for something real
and im walking on glass, i still got shards in my heals
and i cannot relax, cant lyk how i feel,
and i got my skull cracked, for u ill go and get killed

and i thought it all would change, but i lost my fuckin hope
get the fuck away from me, bitch dont get too fucking close
and thru it all ima bleed, ik that i lose control
its sum shit i cant believe, i turned to what i hate the most

never +bliSs (winter+lilac)

suri