Depression

Melancholy

New new

its not a lake, its an ocean.

Think on my own

think on my own (prod.by zzzxrian x ProdbyEP

@arr_eeh


Cuz I'm a narcissist
But optimistic, I'll get better with time
No I don't listen, I'm persistent
Keeping grudges in mind
But I try, and you don't
Guess I lie, cuz you won't
And tell you everything's okay
Even tho we both know
It's no communicating
Every thought that passes me by
Can't get a break, there's no escape
And I'm a wreck but I try
But that light, in your eye
When you tell me we're fine
Do you believe that honestly
Cuz up to me It's goodbye

Maybe It's too late for me
Maybe It's too late for me
Maybe It's too late for me

I tell myself that I cant let go
I tell myself that they're the one
But they made me feel like I got no one
By my side
No one by my side

Oh, I dont feel okay
Okay, okay, okay

Cuz I'm a narcissist
But optimistic, I'll get better with time
No I don't listen, I'm persistent
Keeping grudges in mind
But I try, and you don't
Guess I lie cuz you won't
And tell you everything's okay
Even tho we both know

Maybe It's too late for me
Maybe It's too late for me
Maybe It's too late for me

Oh I dont feel okay
Okay, okay, okay

Narcissist w/ Re:

I Wanna Stop (Feat. xChild &  _EMPATHY)

forget about me

lyrics
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morning cartoons
filling up the space between daybreak & mid afternoon
oh great i've been inside all day again
the lock just got fixed so that means i cannot escape again
the faces in the walls have been grinning ear to ear
and their teeth still sitting on the floor as if i wasn't here
anymore
and i guess it's time to go
so i'll reset the flux capacitor erasing who i am and what i know

i hope one day you hear this
even from lightyears away
we can rest easy now
we're creatures together now

three, two, one

k1llm3sl0w (prod. phaseshift)

ON ALL PLATFORMS 
(prod. dercept and malloy)

Lyrics:

Take a look inside we are not the same
If I hold my tongue I'll go insane
Man I pray to God that I find my way,
Find my way yeah I'll find my
Look into the past it's been killing me
All the time but I cannot forget
Your face that night before you left
Me broken... I'm broken

Never thought that I would make it this far
All my bones got crushed from the weight of the scars
I kept my promise but you had to move on 
Good God, good God what have I become
Cause it's killing me in silence
I could bounce back, tell my past to keep quiet
Why is everybody staring at me?
I just want to go home baby leave me be
Yeah it's killing me in silence
I could speak up but I'd rather stay quiet
Why is, everything a problem with me?
I just want to go home baby leave me be
Cause its killing me in silence
Yeah it's killing me in silence
Yeah you're killing me in silence
Said you're killing me in silence
Never thought that I would make it this far
All my bones got crushed from the weight of the scars
I kept my promise but you had to move on 
Good God, good God what have I become
Cause it's killing me in silence
I could bounce back, tell my past to keep quiet
Why is everybody staring at me?
I just want to go home baby leave me be

killing me in silence

killing me in silence (prod. dercept x malloy)

Single on Singel (feat. Adriana Aslani)

maelstrom

not_there (prod. barelybreath)

your touch
feels like planetary devastation 
gaze upon me then proceed to lay waste
we’re a world ending event in the making
lips collide and leave a wreck in our wake

i just need to be in your orbit
lip locked lies but we’re choosing to ignore it
get me high but left you leave me floored it’s 
quite alright i just hope that you enjoyed it
burn my throat
im choking when i breathe you in
lovesickghost, 
you haunt me but i let you in
left you notes
i swear i didn’t mean to
let you know
but fuck, you make me seethrough 

your touch
feels like planetary devastation 
gaze upon me then proceed to lay waste
we’re a world ending event in the making
lips collide and leave a wreck in our wake

your touch
feels like planetary devastation 
gaze upon me then proceed to lay waste
our love would be a catastrophic end to all
but thoughts ignite and i’m alright with the fall

planetary devastation (prod. yung spoiler)

upside/down w/giovanni prod boyfifty

this is a song about dissociating 

produced by fats'e 
soundcloud.com/youngburial 
twitter.com/youngburial 

art by ghostly pixels 
twitter.com/ghostly_pixels

lyrics:
laying alone, i dissociate 
laying alone 

i saw a pictureframe 
and it turned out to be a mirror 
my reflection's so much clearer 
when i'm not aware it's me 

i saw a maple tree 
it was growing in my head 
when everybody else was dead 
and i climbed up it just to see 

i saw myself again 
but i stood outside my being 
i could understand that being 
isn't all there is to be 

i see the future now 
got too distracted by the present 
to remember that my head is 
not a vehicle for fear 

and it's a long way down if you fall 
and it's a long way up if you don't 

and it's a long way down if you fall 
and it's a long way out, so 

i sit in the center 
and i ponder my disinterest 
for it all 

it's a lot easier 
to imagine ending things 
(to imagine ending things) 
when i'm watching myself 
from the third person 
(from the third person) 

it's a lot easier 
to imagine changing things 
(to imagine changing things) 
when i'm watching myself 
from the third person 
(from the third person)

dissociate (prod. fats'e)

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Ouse - Lost [Prod. Korou]

i had it removed because I didn't like it as much as my other songs but its gotten quite popular on spotify so it's back up.

lyrics:
in just a couple months I'll be turning 17,
18s just another year away and im still processing.
I'm still not big yet and my grades havent rised
I kept my hopes low and there's still no still no surprise but
I'll make it somehow 

This is not a song about you this is a song about me instead
I'm tired of writing shitty love songs on a paper that will never get read
I try to sleep comfortably but there's bed bugs on my bed
I wanna make some better songs but I can't find the chords in my head

I told myself that I would fix my overall mentality 
Aprils almost coming soon and the third days just for me
There's peoeple and dreams that all stop me from dying
but all this bullshit just makes me wonder why
I'll make it somehow

This is not a song about you this is a song about me instead
There more you hear the song again you might think that I'm a hypocrite 
but this is just what i'm saying and it all comes from my head
I'd write a lyric here and there but I think I'll stick with this instead

not a song about you

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//多分いつか//

lyrics
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baby maybe you could come my way
if you want to you could always stay
it's not like you just to walk away
treat it like it's just another day 
pick up my phone
twitter i'm scrollin' all day i'm alone
walkin' outside
get in the whip & i drive on my own
saw the cd
spirals drawn on it you made it for me
cry by track three
grabbin' my pen & i puff till i'm free

truth be told i lost control a year ain't nothin' changed
you could be my everything just come back for a day
truth is that i love you so but lost you on the way
you cracked the door i swear you swore that things would never change
mortified by what's inside the demons in my range
grip my head pronounce me dead i'm turning in my grave
said goodbye i held you tight the night you drove away
no one ever told me that i'd never be okay

(travel your mind you'll see what i)

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someday

Adonis

Off the forthcoming "Cynic EP" on Fake Four Inc. 

"Cynic formed as more of a prayer or mantra that I ended up humming to myself at times when I needed to calm myself down. The song turned into a confessional type of thing where I address my absent father, my lover, and myself. It's just me trying to figure out how and why I do the things I do, or why I react the way that I do (emotionally, etc) and how the past inevitably fits in and fucks with you." - Terra Lopez

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Sister Crayon - Cynic

Got Me! (feat. Re:)

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Got Me! (feat. Re:)

prod. by @hellahaunted and @sainttomorrow

lyrics
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what if i testify against everything that i
have been saying this whole time
cause i’m probably telling lies
what do i do when i
feel like lying down to die
does the dirt eat me alive
do the worms feed off my eyes
open wide for the flies
cause they’re feeding off your spine
crawling up & down in line
like a soldier bound to die
come inside so will i
wipe your feet until they’re dry
wipe the tears out of your eyes
part of me likes when you cry

winter and summer collide
this universe isn’t mine no
we hope this reaches you in time
chaotic but jesus christ you’re beautiful
(x2)

get caught up constantly in life’s residuals
and paint the sky full of agonizing visuals
can’t press rewind when you realize it’s minuscule
so don’t let go it’ll only leave you miserable

maelstrom

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