When the table m turn and shes not there i know i shouldn’t care but i still find myself thinking about  her

@prodsunsetlover
i've been taking my time with releases lately
i just, want to start making things that mean a lot more to me than they usually would, and to do that takes a bit more time than I usually would give myself to make a song.
so i hope you guys enjoy this 1. be safe
get well for those of you who need it <3

~~~lyrics~~~
(2x)
when will we learn 
it’s making me hurt
yeah i ain’t complacent 
yet i ain’t been changing

i won’t think out loud 
(i won’t think out)
(i won’t think out loud)
lying on the ground
(yeah, yeah, fuck)
i can't reach when i cut off my hands 
(my hands)
what’s the meaning in being
in being who i am

i can’t go out
i’ll get overstimulated
guess i’m home bound 
how the hell am i gonna make it?
leaves they fall down 
i can sense the aberration 
ever since i found a little solace 
during isolation

no more dreams when i wake
i’m covered in sweat 
many things that i see in all of them
they fill my heart with pure regret 
just when will i get over it? 

conscious is biting my brain
(conscious is biting my)
(biting my, biting my brain)
but it don’t matter 
i swear that i’ll find a way
(swear that i’ll find it)
(i swear that i’ll find a way)

i won’t think out loud 
(i won’t think out)
(i won’t think out loud)
lying on the ground
(yeah, yeah, fuck)
i cant reach when i cut off my hands 
(my hands)
what’s the meaning in being
in being who i am

threads of hair hang low
the angel you once knew 
turnt her back on the helping help 
that gave her thy wings 
simply in danger
let go
this is just a fever
(this is just a fever...)

thy wings [prod. sunsetlover]

THE SONG OF THE SUMMER
WITH @ejcarrmusic
EP SOON

lyrics:

up three, down one 
soak in the fun 
couldn't catch it too fast 
something hidden in the grass 
thought i left it in the past 
but don't think that i can shake it 
use me for entertainment 
think i'm falling down the hill 
started fading out the thrill 
needing patience when i'm still

waking up 
guess it was 
plain to see 
through all the positives 
no shot you're taking this away

no shot you're taking this away

i lost enough, can i get another one?
i think im trying to hard to be the one
you know its hard when i always wanna run
i think i’ve finally had enough
of all the shit i take
my conscience can’t be
under all the weight
of half the people
in my day to day
i try to keep the
things you said
behind a lock and key, ‘cause

waking up 
guess it was 
plain to see 
through all the positives 
no shot you're taking this away

waving out of this one
save me from everyone
all within me
no shot you’re taking this away

its all the time i wonder
is all of this a blunder?
before the lightning; thunder
you strike me over and over

there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(its all the time i wonder)
there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(is all of this a blunder?)
there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(before the lightning; thunder)
there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(you strike me over and over)

waking up 
guess it was 
plain to see 
through all the positives 
no shot you're taking this away

waving out of this one
save me from everyone
all within me
no shot you’re taking this away

no shot w/ evan carr [immortal x perish]

spotify & apple!

not_there (prod. barelybreath)

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

times up lemme talk to em
they all want a spot but they ain that locked in
if the money all you care about you fkn up again
never thought that this would end so quickly
girl you got me fucked up can't listen to you anymore
they brag bout this, and brag bout that until they bored
if your ego take a hit you gon be sore
that shit gon hurt you to your core
say that you hate me, say that you can't love.

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

red light (prod.branwen)

i would try
i would hide all my feelings away
id put it inside
cut up wrists while i cry
do what i like
do what i need to every night
someone's right there outside
someone's alone, so am i 

i dont believe all that i say
you pushing me down
you make me ashamed
i felt so great
now i feel like running away
thinking of that night
in that barn
with the lady from la
its a cold rainy night and im looking at her waist, in a way

i dont wanna feel this way
trust me i dont know what to say
its hard when i dont trust myself okay
i cant keep a promise i made a mistake
its okay
im the only one to blame

trust issues ion trust myself
cant find a person that takes care of themselves
locked in their house, or theyre crazy oh well
babied for life i dont get it, just waste awayy
if they're normal they're usually taken anyway
its making me sick to my stomach
dont try
it with anyone
dont lie
about, anything
okay
just get it right
im a liar in the shadows
no capable of anything
or showing love to anyone
or being what i said i was

ill hide
for the rest of my life
and blame
you for taking everything i had
my passion and my drive to love
my head is gone because of us
anxiety and the mistrust

i dont believe all that i say
you pushing me down
you make me ashamed
i felt so great
now i feel like running away
thinking of that night
in that barn
with the lady from la
its a cold rainy night and im looking at her waist, in a way

Lady La (prod. loneliness)

prod. heyzbee & acey
feat. @yungcray

i fly away 
like doves in chains
you used your fangs 
and bite my wings 

this my last song that i’ll ever write about you
it’s nothing personal, i just finally have withdrew
a lot has happened recently, i actually got a tattoo
i’m finally done with my past i even changed my shampoo
like a lonely dove
i’m actually out of love
it took me all these months
now i’m finally done
flying away, i’m not same
sometimes i wish that i didn’t know your name
low-key miss when you used to call me lame 
but it’s  too late now i know actually have to change 

i fly away 
like doves in chains
you used your fangs 
and bite my wings 

pull me down 
straight to the ground
you can hear me scream 
as my heart starts to pound
i never thought 
my heart would rot 
now i just think 
will this ever stop 

yungcray:
girl ur presence really kept me alive, it’s been 2 months and I just feel fine, never thought I’d let go of this life, I’ve gripped on  so hard it’s time I dropped the knife, it’s time I healed my wounds, cuz its passing, passing by, and I can’t even move but I think is cuz I’m high, I looked up in the sky no the stars did not align, it was never meant to be simply  a chapter passing by, 

now my life’s so changed I’m going full throttle they not even catching up, all my life in this pain, I open a bottle I know this gon pick me up, I wish I had new ways to drown out the feelings, but I’m just so fucking stuck, i will find a way I will find a way

(2x)
i fly away 
like doves in chains
you used your fangs 
and bite my wings 

flying away, i’m not same
sometimes i wish that i didn’t know your name
low-key miss when you used to call me lame 
but it’s  too late now i know actually have to change

dove (feat. yungcray)

You don’t pull my strings cause I swapped em out for keys 
You might be able to play accordingly 
I think I only did it for the dopamine 
Don’t overthink it don’t be mean 

Just need some guidance 
Just a new instruction 
This infrastructure crumpled up it’s losing gumption
I’ll build this life in bits and pieces drawn in silence 
It’s drawn in silence 
it’s drawn in silence 

I’ll sit back by the stream of flowing where we stacked the stones taller 
Think we even dropped a dollar so it could 
Find its own way like we wanted 
Now I’m only feeling haunted by the river gone solid so we trade 
Everything for ocean fodder 
Hoodies for the buttoned collar 
Made us something that we’re not I dream for better days 
We don’t have to share a word your thoughts is what I’ve always heard 
We’ve always been depraved

Just need some guidance 
Just a new instruction 
This infrastructure crumpled up it’s losing gumption
I’ll build this life in bits and pieces drawn in silence 
It’s drawn in silence 
it’s drawn in silence

play accordingly (michael harrison)

banquet

hitmyphone

WUNM SPYRE

https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/mikehardingerratic
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

not_there (prod. barelybreath)

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