When the table m turn and shes not there i know i shouldn’t care but i still find myself thinking about  her

its not a lake, its an ocean.

k1llm3sl0w (prod. phaseshift)

maelstrom

not_there (prod. barelybreath)

your touch
feels like planetary devastation 
gaze upon me then proceed to lay waste
we’re a world ending event in the making
lips collide and leave a wreck in our wake

i just need to be in your orbit
lip locked lies but we’re choosing to ignore it
get me high but left you leave me floored it’s 
quite alright i just hope that you enjoyed it
burn my throat
im choking when i breathe you in
lovesickghost, 
you haunt me but i let you in
left you notes
i swear i didn’t mean to
let you know
but fuck, you make me seethrough 

your touch
feels like planetary devastation 
gaze upon me then proceed to lay waste
we’re a world ending event in the making
lips collide and leave a wreck in our wake

your touch
feels like planetary devastation 
gaze upon me then proceed to lay waste
our love would be a catastrophic end to all
but thoughts ignite and i’m alright with the fall

planetary devastation (prod. yung spoiler)

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

times up lemme talk to em
they all want a spot but they ain that locked in
if the money all you care about you fkn up again
never thought that this would end so quickly
girl you got me fucked up can't listen to you anymore
they brag bout this, and brag bout that until they bored
if your ego take a hit you gon be sore
that shit gon hurt you to your core
say that you hate me, say that you can't love.

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

red light (prod.branwen)

@fleshgolem // @jolst
art by me
single 4
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lyrics:
i remember catching up in december
iridescence in the snow on your face
being healthy is a lot to remember
even worse when someone new’s in your place
i could tell you how i’ve been bout whenever
but who i am isn’t a gracious parade
i know i should’ve written this in a letter, nah
its better written so it loops in your brain

its all silence, it fucks with me, merely
oxygen, saving me, nearly
posthumous, i’m given what fears me
and with the life i’m given, i’m steering
off of a, cliff hoping it kills me
honesty won’t change how i’m feeling
talk to me, cold shoulder, no meaning
so with the life i’m given, i’m healing

it’ll all make sense in time
it’ll all make sense in time

i remember how it felt when you kissed me
time froze when you looked my way
on your neck a keepsake if you missed me
still i feel my heart sink when i think about

it snapping, you fucked with me, dearly
oxygen, saving me, nearly
posthumous, i’m given what fears me
and with the life i’m given, i’m steering
off of a, cliff hoping it kills me
honesty won’t change how i’m feeling
talk to me, cold shoulder, no meaning
so with the life i’m given, i’m healing

it’ll all make sense in time
it’ll all make sense in time
it’ll all make sense in time
it’ll all make sense in time

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twist the knife

spotify & apple

twist the knife [flesh x jolst]

happy birthday

lyrics

thought i shouldve stayed inside tonight
but you look like something out of heaven in this candlelight
so i will stay if you let me

cuz i only see you on the weekends
but it only rains on the weekends
my stomach hurts and im bleeding
figures talking to me while im sleeping
i wish that i could keep dreaming
but suicide is too easy
plus everyones telling me that im worth something

but i dont know what
i keep coming close but i can never get quite there
this town feels so different
but i dont know why
i cant put my finger on it
everyone cries
but i havent in a long time

i smile i see her
her missed calls i return
i get drunk and she burns
she loves me i made sure
she said im no fun cuz i stay inside and write songs
but maybe this will be the big one
i will love you till im freezing

cuz i only see you on the weekends
but it only rains on the weekends
my stomach hurts and im bleeding
figures talking to me while im sleeping
i wish that i could keep dreaming
but suicide is too easy
plus everyones telling me that im worth something

but i dont know what
i keep coming close but i can never get quite there
she said ive been so distant
but i dont know why
i cant put my finger on it
everyone cries
but God knows that i havent in a long time

so different (jacob vallen)

self prod (loop by jolst)

(lyrics)
Fuck all that, id kill myself
before i asked you for your help
its hard to admit but the world seems bleak 
i struggle to find colors even in my sleep
i hardly dream smoke too much weed
hopefully im fine by this time next week
i been strugglin could really use a hand
but its my fault i lost my friends 
x2

but i wont admit it
just give me another dose
and while im at it
i knew that it was close
to nothin, what you expected of me
but somehow i still fucked up everything
but now i must go and my only hope 
is that you'll be fine living life on your own

i'll write you a song in my suicide note
walk out the house with just my clothes
its not my fault i swear i didnt know
id break my legs and have to move on

its not what it seems
baby i been losing sleep

losing sleep

prod. heyzbee & neverforever

under your breath
you mumbled and said
that we just started
god i want you bad
under my breath
i mumbled and said
that i’m so damn jealous
i think i’ve gone mad

not even together
yet i want you for winter
and maybe for summer
i guess i mean forever
but that’s moving too quickly
i want to call you baby
then chill outside the city
watch the stars call them pretty

under your breath
you mumbled and you said
that we just started
god i want you bad
under my breath
i mumbled and i said
that i’m so damn jealous
i think i’ve gone mad

i’m scared to ask you out not sure why but i am
i get nervous just thinking bout it not sure if i can
i get so obsessive so upset and i’m in my head
i’m not sure what we are but i don’t wanna be friends
i suck when i flirt
honestly i’m just hurt
last time i was in the dirt
it’s my fault i’m disturbed
and i don’t wanna compare
but do you blame me i’m scared
i wanna complement your hair
but at this point i wouldn’t dare

under your breath
you mumbled and you said
that we just started
god i want you bad
under my breath
i mumbled and said
that i’m so damn jealous
i think i’ve gone mad

we keep on talking, barely flirting, tell me it’s working
my past is haunting, keeps on taunting, telling me something
but i keep fighting, never dying, honestly it’s draining
im tired of hiding, feeling i’ve been, having now i’m trying

mumbled

prod. sor

lyrics:
brace yourself
there's a lot of bumps
in the road
pebbles getting in my shoes
wonder why it hurts to walk
it's the only fight to lose
i hope that that's good enough
strange
just about everything
only make sense when I'm made
if you were in my shoes
it would make sense to you
i just don't know when to go
send out my persona first
i just feel so fraudulent 
wonder if I'll ever learn

how to be normal for once
I'm so fried I keep putting shit in my lungs
and I know it's probably not the best for me but
it's a symphony that I created from nothing
and I'm so proud 
even if it'd take all of my energy
won't slow down
wonder if anybody wanna sign me
yea I'm just tryna get some fucking money
they all want something from me anyway
I don't even know anything
back to it all
please don't give up on me
I'm trying my best

not_there (prod. barelybreath)

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