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songs i like alot

2025 FEB

stuck fantasy

[verse 1]
i ain't think that i should make it this far in life
but my music growing big, i think thats a sign
my wallet begging to be filled so i try and shine
and my bros go up without me, ill wait my time

[hook x2]
window watching everybody pass
she tell me i should live every damn day like its my last
i act like no one talks to me but i cant open back
i check the mirror every night and i see broken glass
and thats facts, cause im 

[verse 2]
tired of responsibility
talking to my therapist cause thats just what i need
he tell me i rely on everybody except me
i told him im just tired of seeing myself bleed

[bridge]
and i know that i need help, i just dont know how
and im shooting for marriage but i suck with vows
and i dont control words coming out of my mouth
i need you around, im stuck in my house

[hook x2]

window watching

produced by soju!! @buginfestedfloorboards (go follow them rn)
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ty for listening :)
[Lyrics]
you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

why would i wanna see that
its cool id never be there
never gave me a reason
been like this every season
i wish i could help you
i don't fucking know how to
and everyone doubts you
fuck everyone that surrounds you
i've got a silly dream
its better when its you n me
feel better when you're feeling me
well can you fucking stayy
i don't wanna be away
i gotta hit it off
its reoccurring in my head
tell them to fuck it all
can we just end it all
can we just break it off
do i look better off
i don't wanna be alone

you sit in her beauty
you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

recluse

Heir

with wings of feathers and glue

woke up in a cold sweat
you thought about ending it all
you're not done yet
take a deep breath
i know you're upset
but don't you tell me about how

your mental said
i’ll be happy when i'm dead
it’s a way one way choice i’d rather not
you’d better stop
go and grab the knife and stab it through wall
or put it down
smash it on some rocks
you make the choice
will it be the right one
will it be the right one
i know you’re sad
i know it seems there's no hope left
but if you try just one more time
maybe you’ll be fine
you'll find someone worth living for

you have a nice dream you should chase it
hell it might work out
it might work out
all my dreams are silly
i forgot about em all then i
woke up in a cold sweat
you thought about ending it all
you're not done yet
take a deep breath
i know you're upset
but don't you tell me about how

what my mental said

cuz "throwing in the towel" is too long lol

woah
i just rly wanna give up
ppl never know when its too much
it's never been that fun
i lost my head
whats it like to be dead?
i cut off all my friends
they never knew me to begin with

old friend of mine
ive been up all night
and im rly feelin hurt
got her face in the dirt
i could never know for sure
trippin up on words
but hey it could be worse!
(la la la)
burning up in my sweater
tryna hide my face in my sleeve when she answers
what about after?
i panicked when i met her
wonder if i like her
i wanna be her ever after

i just wanna go to sleep
words are cutting rly deep
ur in every fucking dream i have lately
ive seen this place before
its not dark at night
what the fuck is going on

towel song

Nobody Else ft Redhorse

performed, produced, mixed, and mastered by goodbyebrody 

written by goodbyebrody, $haded, and mochji

[verse]
I got everything I wanted
Now I never see you callin'
I swear to God I'm falling
and I'm missin' you if honest

Promise me you’ll never go 
Hide the things you’ll never tell me 
Can't wait for the night
Cause I’m tryna get you right 

Her honesty, I can’t uphold 
Block your friends, you call that healthy
Can't wait for tonight 
Cause you know I’ll get you right

[chorus]
I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

[verse 2]
Holdin' you through all the motions, till you feel the time's right 
Feel your essence when we're kissin' under streetlights
You pull me under, all these feelings I don't wanna hold back, 
Keep me closer, I can tell that you won't it go 

Biting my cheek, hide the pain with many drugs
Driving down, any place you feel like livin' up
Cause you got something, my heart racin', I can't give it up
Cause damn I want you, and babe you know that

[bridge]
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted

(everything i wanted)
(everything i wanted)
(everything i wanted)
(everything i wanted)

[chorus]
I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

caught my eye

prod. joon & Noah Koslen

Verse 1:
I've been waiting for a lover that could tell me
What I'm really thinking of drinking of,
'till my feelings spill
(you don't waste time)
I've been contemplating everything she sells me
But sometimes it's too good to be true
But you know sometimes I just can't help it

Pre:
Some days I need someone for the patience
Called you up and felt the vibrations
So just tell me why, tell me why
I need some love in these situations
Back and forth I don't wanna take it
Please just tell me why,
Tell me why

Chorus:
I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly, I

(One, two, three, four)

Verse 2:
Having but I'd still rather see you (see you)
But, got people in my rearview (rearview)
Yeah I don't care what they're thinking
Hope you want to walk by me
We won't care who sees
You're just all I need 
You're just all I'm needing baby 'cause I

Pre:
Some days I need someone for the patience
Called you up and felt the vibrations
So just tell me why, tell me why (yeah)
I need some love in these situations
Back and forth I don't wanna take it
Please just tell me why,
Tell me why

Chorus:
I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly

I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly, I

company

Prod DollaTegaBeatz 
New song with Vai5000, wishing everyone happy holidays and a new year!!


LYRICS 
Me:
It’s so cold, like frostbite 
I won’t go, till I find 
A way to run out and hope that you’re never looking back
I know it’s hard but this feeling is like a heart attack 

Cold and I’m wishing you known 
now it’s freezing me so slow all the way to my bones 
and every single other step getting stuck in the snow 
and then I’m hoping that you know, that I’m hoping that you don’t, that you don’t!

Out too long seen Ice building on windows 
match lit strong but the light is getting dim though 
hold my breath for a second with this halo
Tell me love why’d I ever ever wait for 

Vai5000: Lyrics coming soon


Me:

It’s so cold, like frostbite 
I won’t go, till I find 
A way to run out and hope that you’re never looking back
I know it’s hard but this feeling is like a heart attack 

Cold and I’m wishing you known 
now it’s freezing me so slow all the way to my bones 
and every single other step getting stuck in the snow 
and then I’m hoping that you know, that I’m hoping that you don’t, that you don’t!

Out too long seen Ice building on windows 
match lit strong but the light is getting dim though 
hold my breath for a second with this halo
Tell me love why’d I ever ever wait for

Winter Is Killing Me ft. Vai5000

lyrics:

I don't got lies to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep an eye out
For a daydream of a rescue
I don't know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep a cover up
On the things I never meant to

I don't got truths to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep a blindfold on
For a nightmare of a rescue
Never know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep it all away
Say the things I never meant to

What am I supposed to send
Letters all wrapped in red
A ribbon or two or ten
For anything to make sense at all
Every single thing I said
It's gift-wrapped in my head
All paired up with some greeting cards
I scribbled in my bed

So there’s a ransom for a promise that I'd never hear
Burn it down and build it up for another year
If I take my pictures down will I disappear
That's really what you gotta hear, that's really what you got

I don't got lies to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep an eye out
For a daydream of a rescue
I don't know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep a cover up
On the things I never meant to

I don't got truths to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep a blindfold on
For a nightmare of a rescue
Never know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep it all away
Say the things I never meant to

Hear me out
I'm not a saviour anymore
I keep on melting through the floor so I can't
Stay around
Let me just get my shining armor
And go ride off on my horse

That's what you wanted right
A daydream of a rescue
What you wanted right
A fairytale to run away to
What you wanted right
That’s what you wanted right

SPOTIFY + APPLE

rescue

@chewy @achorda

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\\ sorry i haven't dropped lately, i've had a lot going on. i never slowed down, though. i have at least like 30 songs in the vault; there's a lot more coming this summer !! we're so back. it's sinefelt season mf... \\

her eyes so unusual
find them 2b beautiful
n when i look on back
i cant help but miss their laugh

why can't we turn time ar---

hdwujipvcbhgedwfhjuoivbhijefb 
vhjlebfrwjlhvberwoihubvfoihuef

i felt free
from the lost n found
affectionate n cared
ab
now
i'll c u ltr ig
i'm js scared of
sum1
else
i live w
subconscious fears
that i can't hide
i don't
got
verneers

(move ur hands)

yea i js wanna b near u
reading ur lips when i hear u

um
i think i spoiled myself
a part of me wishes
that it didn't happen
the others r giving
a life 2a shelf

idealizations of u n i
sit trapped in my head
how does it work?
how can i help it?
idk..

idk how 2tell
if the two of us r helpless...

what happened 2feelin the same
rackin the backside of ur brain,
yea!

i wanna uncover the cause
even though you're uneasy bout that,
whoa!
 
i know, i know i know,
that we can't just go
but i been missing feeling ur arms
the one time i felt disarmed
n i see ur soul like art

did you feel mine through my body...?

her eyes so unusual
find them 2b beautiful
n when i look on back
i cant help but miss their laugh

why can't we turn time ar---

hdwujipvcbhgedwfhjuoivbhijefb 
vhjlebfrwjlhvberwoihubvfoihuef

i felt free
from the lost n found
affectionate n cared
ab
now
i'll c u ltr ig
i'm js scared of
sum1
else

dont BE scared @heroine @achorda

@chewy

catch my breath
hit my texts
wishing i'd roll over dead
misinterpret what i meant
misconstrue what i say

turn my legs to gelatin with every word you speak
don't even explain, i don't want to hear a peep
feel like a fool
used as a tool
bloodlet a pool

really thought this would be a good idea;
the price i paid was premium (x2)

man fuck a safety net
i don't ride with all that
better empty your atm
'fore i take you right around back
damn it really feels like i was made for this
endure any and all pain for this

i can't see without you
why is my heart still fluttering?
i can't be doing this again
i know you meant what you said
bent over backwards ever after
till i was ordinate

fooL* @heroine

lyrics :

at first glance i heard you on radio
you made it but you're not someone i used to know
only left out with the stones of your body
with the fame that it can make you be happy
but you still want more to keep you alive

it's deadly
it's deadly when you call it back
i know what it's like to get addicted
the consequences always come first yeah
but if that's what you like
let that be deep down your mind
i won't forget or forgive anything to you

any day anyway
it's time for me to get going
and thank you for listening
it's fast since i went missing
there's way too many eyes i can't handle
but i'm glad i didn't get blinded by the lights
i'll keep exploring through the night
see something new that i can find
walk alone don't fear if i get lost in tunnels of disguise
red carpet spirit soul gon' die
in hell this ain't a paradise
it's when i get terrified
afraid i'll be buried alive

i'm afraid i'll be buried alive

no forgiveness for you until you're buried alive

lyrics :

[ dialogue ]
you have made it
how are you feeling
clear your mind
i will guide you through this journey
everything will be fine
as long as you stay calm and follow my path
embrace the unknown
follow the right steps
open your eyes through soft spoken past tense to the hall of egress
farewell

[arys vance]
she said she will find me
she will guide me
cuz i'm naive to my emotions
is she lying?
am i just overthinking that i won't survive
she will find me
she will guide me
she will find me a tree to sit next by
on my own

keep a distance
i know that you've been listening
and it's a last time that you hear my voice
knowing that i been going missing from the world
but i cannot win your love so i'ma do my own thing
cuz i find comfort in my own circle
i know it's lonely all of that it's just an external

can i trust you?
with angel wings cuz i see through
inside your eyes what can i do
to get out of fire and leave too soon
before i die the strings are too loose
you lost my heart and it's falling in loop
missing piece and i can't renew
for second life and i see the value

but i can't go out no more
these feelings that i can't ignore
i shut up lie down on the floor
i've never felt like this before
it hurts to see myself in doors
i walk until my legs get sore
it struck right down into my core
this final piece inside a lore
and i go

she pull out my heart and let me see
what is hiding inside i left the things i couldn't fix it to be
she does what i couldn't do

she said she will find me
she will guide me
cuz i'm naive to my emotions
is she lying?
am i just overthinking that i won't survive
she will find me
she will guide me
she will find me a tree to sit next by
on my own

clear your mind

cover by @1ure
@zzjay
@46b
@kin1k
@h4blackasf

ok w. edyn, zjay [@kin @ivvys]

@chewy @dreamno7e @finlince

i wanna say sum but i can't i gotta get a grip
gotta bite my fucking tongue until i sever off that shit
or i'll tell you everything you did that was wrong
i can't resist
(oh my god)

sing !!!!!!
dance !!!!!!!
you're braindead if you can't see through the rants
so i have to put all my trust in their intelligence
honestly, it's my fault; she didn't deserve a chance

i saw you again and didn't know if i'd be able to stand it
i just simply ask that you acknowledge all your collateral damage
i could tell though from your eye lobes that you couldn't understand it
feeling so sickle and famished; wanna take back what you ran with

i get so obnoxious when bleeding
and you sent a lot i'm not reading
just kidding i did and got livid
but it's okay, i live for the feeling
(x2)

BiTE my tongue @heroine @dreamnote @finlince

shoutout my homies @ritsusc & @ryelsc
produced by @arysvance

lyrics :

@arysvance :
saturday nights i'll be the only one that you're thinking about
when we fly high right into the clouds
you've been quiet didn't make any sound
and i doubt it

i love it when you call
i see that is the time
but when we start to fall
where we came from at the sky
the things that i just saw
they tryna come alive
they trying to break through and it's too late cause

i love it when you call me back when you go
when i'm free i'll let you know
if we wanna talk i'll meet you after your show
be here in my soul cause

i love it when you call me back when you go
that's all i need i don't want it more
and how have you been you're not like this before
can you let me know i'll die alone without you

@ritsusc :
i miss the way you talk to me 
i miss the way you are 
and i've been having trouble
getting up at my alarm
that i set for you
but was i far far from the truth that i've been
followin
just to hide within
cus we've been fallin way too far
and i don't wanna hold all my scars

@ryel_v:
i like to take it slow
i see it in your eyes
that you don't care no more
can you hang on this time
can you let me know when you decide
cause i'm not holding on for four years this time

you're the only one that i'm needing
show me who you are i wanna see things
fuck my clone mentality it's all inside of me
you don't know this side of me i guess that's fine with me

@arysvance :

i love it when you call me back when you go
when i'm free i'll let you know
if we wanna talk i'll meet you after your show
be here in my soul cause

i love it when you call me back when you go
that's all i need i don't want it more
and how have you been you're not like this before
can you let me know i'll die alone without you

waterfall w/ ritsu & ryel

Might slow down on dropping, I'm working on a secret :3
Sorry this one is kinda short
Single 1/?

Lyrics -

so can you tell me what's the problem
don't know how to solve em
all on my own
and I can't afford to drop it
rlly gotta lock in
so i gotta go

reaching for solutions
making me feel stupid
lying to my face
cause you know that i wont do shit
i dont really wanna go back home
just so you can tell me ITA

know you're questioning like everything i say
shift the blame on me, you hate on me when things dont go your way
im the punching bag i get it, its embedded in my brain
so when that bullet cross my mind, i know that you got nun to say
always leave me feeling upset
targets on my head
and the numbers aint gon help that
or anything about that
my hands go numb and i can't feel my legs
so put the bullet right inside my-

AITA (xhaji)

produced by cmb
written, mixed, performed by me
i love you always
hope you're well ^.^

///
you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again 

i told my pops i'll be okay
he knows that i can't sleep at night
the thought of you with someone else replays like hell i'm petrified 
my arms stained crimson red
i wish you'd kiss me and tell me that it's all in my head
feel like a psycho i stalk you and then go back to bed
without you i would rather be dead
without you i would

forget all that i said
unscrew my head and put another, lay me down to rest
couple folks told me i need to let it go
told them they’re crazy and i left
i know that i could be a handful baby it’s part of my nature
fool me once, you fooled me twice, so much for asking for a favour
why do you look so blue?
your eyes have lost their colour bae, what’s bothering you?
don’t mistake me for a loon, i see right through you
it’s not a secret i miss you oh i see right through you
it’s not a secret i love you

you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again

lifetime

lyrics :

we were lost inside a forest
as we're trying to hide
from the monsters outside
keep an eye

i'll stay awake until morning
we try our hardest to survive
in the shelter but it's not that strong

so we stay inside of a treehouse
we played a song and start to dance
you feel safe in my arms as we rest
till the nights go down
when the moonlight keeps going roundabout
you hold on to my hands and i said

if you see the stars
we're dancing slowly into the dark
we'll never know who shatters my broken heart
i'll remember when we're too far apart
how far have we go?

i've never seen a true romance
it was just lust and chasing feelings
that don't last forever who knows
if that's how it is then that's no way to go
we don't need all that just to live and we know

you're my only one who i trust
my loyalty stays true to death
we were flying through the clouds
and parachute down
we're safe and sound
can you feel the lights are all around the house?
cause' we've been closer was it meant to be?

if you see the stars
we're dancing slowly into the dark
we'll never know who shatters my broken heart
i'll remember when we're too far apart
how far have we go?

treehouse

produced by @arysvance

lyrics :

i still remember everything about you now
for once in a while that i've been going off
i ain't vulnerable so i'll protect you from all the storm
but i'm stronger and wiser to anybody i don't wanna get involve

i'll bring all the flowers for you when you're gone
the magenta shades glowing into the dawn
hold my hand we fallin' under the sand
but we are far away from our fantasy land i'll be

right by your side
but i didn't know what you're going through
never been loved before all this is so brand new
and you're the right one for me i only need you

i'ma let you know
i been thinking about you everyday when i'm alone
i learnt to take my step and living out here on my own
i'm showing that i still need you
and i hope that i see you again
i won't be gone for you
when the sky will turning blue
when we fall we'll parachute

i wanna see you again
you're my everything
i miss your voice everytime you sing
i always pickup the call everytime that my phone rings
but i still can't find love that's only one thing

i stay with you and i don't wanna go back and take their advice
had enough had to cut them all off with my only knife
i need you in my life i've been all alone it's alright
i wanna see if you're my true love

i'ma let you know
i been thinking about you everyday when i'm alone
i learnt to take my step and living out here on my own
i'm showing that i still need you
and i hope that i see you again
i won't be gone for you
when the sky will turning blue
but when we fall we'll parachute

and i hope that i see you again