i know you hate me but i'm proud of myself
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Call me reckless all you want now
I'll do it on my own
Cause I'm tired of this selfishness
You never tend to show
And burning in the fire
Won't save you from the cold
Cause this everlasting restlessness
Is nothing but your fault

You're pushing your luck
If you think you can come on top of this
You live on the edge
But you can never see the point of it
I'm losing my mind
It's hard to sleep cause I keep seeing the
Disgust in your eyes
I know you hate me but I'm proud of myself

I know you hate me but I'm proud of myself

Undecided
Uninvited
Maybe you should be reminded
Undecided
We're divided
In my life you're not invited

Call me reckless I won’t find out 
There’s only so much I can know 
I just sit back here and reminisce 
How did I get so low?
You call me a liar 
You think that you know it all
Why do you never make any sense?
I always take the fall

You're pushing your luck
If you think you can come on top of this
You live on the edge
But you can never see the point of it
I'm losing my mind
It's hard to sleep cause I keep seeing the
Disgust in your eyes
I know you hate me but I'm proud of myself

I know you hate me but I'm proud of myself

Undecided
Uninvited
Maybe you should be reminded
Undecided
We're divided
In my life you're not invited

Guess I don't need you anymore
Leave me alone
I'm tired of this life that we both chose
And this fear of giving up keeps getting worse
And every second wasted staring at the wall
I'd rather spend it all alone

Undecided
Uninvited
Maybe you should be reminded
Undecided
We're divided
In my life you're not invited

CALL ME RECKLESS

CALL ME RECKLESS w/ Adronn, Distant, Rainswept & Rocor

Hour in a day goes
And my mind is the same ol’
Go and shut the window
While they say they go where they go

I think i’m too old for some things
That’s why im just a ghost
And they play around for these days
That’s why I can’t change

Oh, do you mind 
That I worry myself all the time?
Oh, I wanna be fine
But I keep saying a lie
Oh, do you mind 
That I worry myself all the time?
Oh, I wanna be fine
But I keep saying a lie

Things might last a while
But I still consume my style
I’ll wait till it dies out now

Kicking things out the door when i freak out
Isn’t it funny how that plays out

I think i’m too old to have a change
But there’s so many places i can go
And while these things just stay the same
We’ll still have the time to wait

Oh, do you mind 
That I worry myself all the time?
Oh, I wanna be fine
But I keep saying a lie
Oh, do you mind 
That I worry myself all the time?
Oh, I wanna be fine
But I keep saying a lie

(Worry myself all the time)

Oh, do you mind 
That I worry myself all the time?
Oh, I wanna be fine
But I keep saying a lie
Oh, do you mind 
That I worry myself all the time?
Oh, I wanna be fine
But I keep saying a lie

the answer is nowhere

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lyrics:

riding a setting sun
live fast
burn red
die younger then
clouds changing shapes
day by day

the horizon
hides what gifts I gave
rising, left behind 
to wonder
where I’m meant to be

the answer is no where
dying to go there
why do I keep on pushing through

why is it harder
been there before
know what to do

why do I fall so far
I’m spiraling
burnt out
rewiring
writing new ways to say
I finally found my
home where
nowhere means I’m free

I lied
when I said I could fly
always climbing
hands are cut
but the blood wipes off fine
I wear my scars with pride

but how many more climbs
and new scars earned with time
til I get to know?
(I don’t know how I don’t know)
where I will fall
when I finally learn to let
go

the answer is no where
dying to go there
why do I keep on pushing through

why is it harder
been there before
know what to do

why do I fall so far
I’m spiraling
burnt out
rewiring
writing new ways to say
I finally found my
home where
nowhere means I’m free

RIGHT
(spent all these years
spent all this time
not enough to 
face the fear
I’ll never find)

LEFT
(dying to go there
I know this will hurt me
why do I deserve to be
the one to lose)

I know where I’ll fall
it was here when I
faced my fear
of falling too far behind

and I think I know why

I know what’s mine
I had lost it before
I’ll take what I’m owed
take everything I’ve earned
and more

the answer is no where
dying to go there
why do I keep on pushing through

why is it harder
been there before
know what to do
why do I fall so far
I’m spiraling
burnt out
rewiring
writing new ways to say
I finally found my
home where
nowhere means I’m free

Puppet & if found - The Answer Is Nowhere

allithinkaboutisu

w/ @distantx_x
@rainsweptmusic
@noirskg
@adronn

I’m drowning in this temporary ecstasy
I’m never quite who I intend to be
And seeing the world like you never did
Growing up but still a stupid kid

I wanna fill the empty space
Just today
This feeling never stays
Tomorrow we’ll be alone again
’Til then I’ll swallow the poison

Four years flew right by
Stuck here, I can’t decide
Wanted to feel alive
Wish that I had the time
Chasing
Changing
I’m so uncomplacent 
I just want another day

Another day to fill the space
Another chance I can’t replace
Among the crowd I’m just a face
Don’t worry, I’m ok
But if it all comes crashing down
I don’t know if I’ll come around
Another war I should’ve fought
Don’t tell me what I want

I wanna fill the empty space
Just today
This feeling never stays
Tomorrow we’ll be alone again
’Til then I’ll swallow the poison

I’ll swallow your poison
Your flesh and your bones
And I’ll stay here with you ’til it’s over
Time took my friends
And I’m nothing without them
The ink turns to black in the winter

I wanna fill the empty space
Just today
This feeling never stays
Tomorrow we’ll be alone again
’Til then I’ll swallow the poison

I wanna fill the empty space
Just today
This feeling never stays
Tomorrow we’ll be alone again
’Til then I’ll swallow the poison

TOMORROW WE'LL BE

Long before the fall
I never knew I was going to
You were holding all my hurt
I never knew you were hurting too

the weight of all the world
you were only young and not bullet proof
You were Tryna hide it all
Facing the world alone and letting them assume

You would say
What’s waiting for me?
What’s waiting for me?

Ah what’s waiting for me?
No I never got told the story
Yeah no I know its bout the journey
And I’ll share with you all my memories

I know I know you risked it all
building a world I could call home
followed the blind faith leading road
you trusted that you're never truly be alone

I'm sorry I never pick up m y phone
im sorry that you feel responsible
I wonder if you wanted a hand to hold
did you wanna go home did you feel alone?

what's waiting for me?

ah what's waiting for me
I was only sold a story
yea no I know its about the journey
and ill share with you all im learning

what's waiting for me?

im trying im trying do you feel the same
im trying im trying to put on a brave face
im trying im trying to fit in this space
im tryna be the light that you would always create

I know you tried
im by your side
I know you're tired
im on the other side

what's waiting for me

Always or Never

thanks lauv for this tremendous piece

also s/o to autotune for autotuning my outatune singing

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Lauv - Sims (phritz cover)

chapter 4 of internet girlfriend <3

Written by Asher Postman & Steven Martinez
Produced by Asher Postman

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down for you

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Lyrics:
Slowly falling. What's up ahead, I wouldn't know. Save your wingspans for the waters, endless oceans. I don't need comfort. I know my way. The shooting stars above they never shine enough to me, to me. And every flame that i ignite always drowns out in the light. So they said...
Take flight into skies. Unknown soaring high. So they said I wasn't worth their time so I left to the stars in the night. Freedom is only for those who leave their past behind. Behind, far behind.

Felimos & N33T - Shine (ft. Pooki)

if I drove for hours to your place
would it all be okay?
could we sit by the fireplace
and wish this void away

will the embers warn the cold?
as tear drops spill in the fire
we'll let out every single fume
of troubles and desires

you'll say everything will be fine
that this too shall pass with time
but under the weight, how much can you take
before you collapse?

collapse into me, let it all out
how much more can you take?

someday you and i will sit under a clearer sky
oh someday the sun will shine all its rays on our troubled lives
someday you and i will sit under a clearer sky
someday we'll find our way, so won't you stay alive with me

stay alive with me

we'll sit under a clearer sky
we'll sit under a clearer sky

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Clearer Sky

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