Ethel Cain

Perverts (Deluxe)

000.1 (Wellwater): Replaced last minute by Thatorchia
006: Etienne demo
009: Described by Hayden as a "little demo for the next project maybe"
011: Kudzu
013: Thatorchia demo

Perverts Demos and Outtakes

jugular lifting

Ethical Cain Vinyl Way

Melancholia

housed by a vessel, it shall revolt

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hospital beds pt.I pt.II - Ethel Cain

ethel cain - celestia

Selby Wall - ethel cain

Crying During Sex - Ethel Cain

dust bowl (demo) by ethel cain

Mother matron of the morning time
Ebb and flow as the sun will rise
Colossal gods run the expanses
Pulling you in with their dark black tide

I am not as small as I believe I am
I am god to your mother
I am mother of man
Command your ancestors
Hold their heads in my hand
I won’t swim in your ocean
Colossus
I can’t

Tell me you love me
And light me on fire
Fuck me to death
On my funeral pyre
I’ll become your rock
I can’t feel your love
Is this the abyss
That your god speaks of

I am not as small as I think I am
I am god to your mother
I am mother of man
Command your ancestors
Through no slight of hand
I won’t swim in your ocean
Colossus
I can’t

You are not as small as you think you are
You throw yourself into my waters
But you won’t go far
I am not the one you wanted
But I’m all you have
I’m your only saving grace
In this colossal black

Lose your conscience
Your purity
Give up your body
Give it to me
Lose your religion
Lose your soul
Give me your life
Give me it whole

I can't swim this anymore
I can give you nothing more

I am not as small as I think I am
I am god to your mother
I am mother of man
Command your ancestors
Hold their heads in my hand
I won’t swim in your ocean
Colossus
I can’t

You are not as small as you think you are
You throw yourself into my waters
But you won’t go far
I am not the one you wanted
But I’m all you have
I’m your only saving grace
In this colossal black

colossus - ethel cain

waco, texas- ethel cain (demo)

This is an older one, either white silas era or early ethel era

Ethel Cain - Varnish

hospital beds ii - ethel cain unreleased

First you've got to Do It For Dale
Raise hell, praise Dale
Love is a nightmare and all that you’ve got
Still getting lost in a bare parking lot
And the vertigo’s fun til' you
Want it to stop praying this is the end when
You know it’s not
I could be good but it wouldn’t matter
There’s no silver line on a fucking disaster
I hope that you’re happy, glad you can forget
While I'm spending my nights reliving it
Been scared of the dark for all of my life
I’m digging my grave by all of the lights
I’m always afraid but never to die
But not just yet so I’ll be
Twirling around my room again
Spraying blood like the food court fountain
Forgive mе, my trespasses
Holding me down through a
Holе in the mattress
You think you’re someone else
That it only hurts when it hurts yourself
Americanized, Jesus Christ born to lie
So you lie and you lie and you lie and
You need easy, you want weak
When you were hungry, I was soft and pink
I bleed easy, I go weak
You look hungry then back to me
If I fall, I fall hard
Onto you and then all apart
But when the room went dark and I needed you
Where were you?
Twirling around my room again
Spraying blood like the food court fountain
Forgive me, my trespasses
Holding me down through a
Hole in the mattress
You think you’re someone else
That it only hurts when it hurts yourself
Americanized, Jesus Christ born to lie
So you lie and you lie and you lie and

Earnhardt - Ethel Cain

ethel cain - the epitaph

lyrics:

I sing the lord’s euthanasia blues
When I take you and your brother in the back pew
Drive into the median, keep myself from eating and wonder why I feel so sick
Tradition’s ligature marks always yellow through


I lied when I said I didn’t want you
In no time, you’ll forget the way we were supposed to be
Asking what I’m on this time, holding on to you like I do
Like we’re the only people in the world god left to mind to

Two drowning coals won’t ever light
But if I ask you to, you’ll warm the night


If I want you like I said I’d never do
I would hold my breath and sit down next to you
Terrified you’ll bite the hand that needs you
And right now I need you
I don’t know what happened
I don’t know what happened
I was young and sweet
And then something happened
Something overwhelming
Something everlasting

Time drags on
I hate him for the time he’s gone
I’ve been here for weeks, I’ve been here for years
I’ve been here too long
I forgot what stop means
Either I drink it or the boat sinks
It’s easy for him to get out of me
What I’ve been praying will get out of me

Will I always be crying during sex with you
All my dreams take place in heaven where it’s quiet, lying next to you
Heavy breathing and sighs, bruises between my thighs, look me deep In my eyes like I’m a river worth wading
And if I’m crying, it’s because I’m in love

[Outro]
And I could love you if I tried
And I’m trying
I’m trying, I’m trying, I’m trying

crying during sex - ethel cain

one of her best that’s for sure

Sunday morning and I’m wasted
Had too much to drink again
Preacher’s saying God will save me
If God is real, He’s a fucking bitch

Tell my baby that I love her
But, right now, mama’s gotta go
I didn’t ask to be this crazy
But since we’re here, I’ll give them a show

Always run from the best of them
But I’ll fall for a piece of shit
Half-cocked ’cause he’s not a big boy
And I don’t wanna know that half of him

If you try to hurt me, I won’t stop you
But there’s something you should know
It’s that my daddy’s fucking crazy
And always ready to blow

The first boy I ever loved
Was a brother I never had
I thought, with him, maybe I’d make it
Maybe it’d be half as bad

Spеnt my nights under the covers
Just wishing hе was there
Draw his portrait in my diary
Just to hold when I got scared

Now I’m fucked up and I’m nasty
But they say I make it look good
I don’t do what my mama told me
I just do what my mama would

I don’t starve ’cause I hate my body
I just starve ’cause I’m fucking broke
And on my mama, I hate this country
America is a fucking joke

What’s gonna scare me when I’ve seen it all?
Been too sick to walk, so I had to crawl
When you leave, turn off the light
I leave my door open at night
To be strung out and still be stone cold
To reach the end, but never close to old
I don’t feel good, but I don’t wanna cry
If I can’t live, can I just fucking die?

Make Room in Hell (Demo)

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