Do not let the thoughts win.
Twitter post:https://twitter.com/astolsko/status/1619058359948435456?s=20
Alternative titles (i was indecisive):
Thoughts Spiralling (Out Of Control) 
Thoughts Out Of Control (Spiralling)
Thoughts Spiralling
This was supposed to be playable (it's not)
Anyway now that the description probably doesn't show up on mobile anymore
Happy new year everyone (30 days late), I'm really happy with how 2022 went for me even though it had it's negatives as well, I feel like 
I've made a ton of musical progress this year and improved my understanding of it, still got a LONG way to go but, I'm very glad for the progress. Thanks to everyone who supported me throughout the year, I will keep trying my best for all the people who enjoy my music, and in the hope that I can meet even more cool producers and musicians like I did this year!!
If I had to mention any goals for 2023 it would probably be the fact I want to release a lot more music this year, since despite spending a lot of time working on music last year I still didn't release a lot, so I would like to show off what I learned more. I also would like to be stuck up in my own things less and pay attention to others more, especially when it comes to music.
Anyway enough emotional talk for probably the entire year.
The song, it's very heavily inspired by Tsynphonia, a lot of songs I've heard from him over the months, but mainly "Spiralling out of control" (thus why the title), So the goal was to make a similar song to that but with a slightly different theme, something that would still replicate the spirally feel, and that would still sound like a fever dream, like having it go round and round, and at the same time also expressing how i feel.
I don't tell him this often but I find a lot of the things that Tsynphonia makes super inspiring, like he just has this ability to express an idea in a very unique but straight forward, and I really do admire that, so I had to at least make one song that would be heavily inspired by his works, as a sort of homage.
I had a lot of fun making this overall, this was my first time finding out the pedal is a thing you can automate on piano libraries (shameful after 3 years of music i know), but once i did find out it felt really nice, like it added a whole new layer of expression to what could be done with the song, which also makes me wish I figured it out earlier but better late than never surely.
Had a lot of fun with 0:37 onwards especially, it has a very back and forth feeling to it, and also happens to be the part of the song that I really planned out super meticulously, unlike the rest of the track that was mostly trial and error, and trying absolutely random things that shouldn't really make a lot of sense, but that ended up working anyways? But the fact it's (somewhat) random adds to the spiral feel I believe, which works out in the end.
For the cover I thought this would fit quite well (for obvious reasons (she has spirals in her eyes(she is clearly lost in thought(but not in a fire emblem kind of way))), and as my friend said, "the most astolsko image".
And I chose the theme of non stopping racing thoughts to let you all on in my twisted dark mind, my deranged vision of reality, my absolutely hidden perspective (the thoughts won't stop(please help)).
Anyway
I hope everyone enjoys this song as much as I enjoyed working on it, and I promise I will release more music this year (so I can also get the opportunity to ramble in the song description once in a while)!!!!!!!

Spiralling Thoughts (Out Of Control)

Welcome! I am a 19 year old musician and composer that specializes in chiptune, lofi, digital fusion, ambient, edm, funk, jazz, synthpop, rock, metal, piano, orchestral, soul, r&b, and hip-hop music. I am always looking for more inspiration to add to my sound. 

Banner taken by me on a beach :)

I am currently working on:
- Getting classes done at college
- Playing drums
- Making more music!

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Music producer/composer and part-time witch. 

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Spiralling Thoughts (Out Of Control)

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