. . . fall.

Mixed and Mastered by @xo_jalen
Produced by SnowBlood

Chase (Prod. SnowBlood)

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

prod @splashgvng
Art by @ dmn_youth on IG

https://open.spotify.com/track/2hLBc0GIzOh0cq7uiuGlat?si=UUAhBSk4TjOLKUu2hKKhFw

Spotify

It's Alright (feat. SadBoyProlific)

Another Memory </3

Produced - Musicality

Mixed & Mastered - The Insomniac Lab

STREAM ON SPOTIFY

Novocaine (Prod. Musicality)

**explicit thoughts**

Much love to the boys @sadboyprolific and @nuxemusic for creating this song with me <3

Lyrics:
Thomas Reid:
I don't know what I'm feelin' these days but
I hope it gets better
And it cuts deep like I'm grippin' a blade
My heads light as a feather
And I hope that I feel it
Hope I feel something someday
A little something at all
And I hope that I feel it
Hope I feel something someday
Something to fix my heart

SadBoyProlific
(Yuh)
Sometimes I'm scared you'll open up your eyes and see the signs
Finally see I'm worthless and nothing compared to other guys
And yeah I'll cry but still smile and say it's fine while my mind leaps to different forms of fuckin' suicide
Jealousy's my biggest enemy so what's the key
To put down all the drugs all my demons just face defeat
I've got some family whose faces I could never see and even some that soon won't ever fuckin' remember me

Thomas Reid:
I don't know what I'm feelin' these days but
I hope it gets better
And it cuts deep like I'm grippin' a blade
My heads light as a feather
And I hope that I feel it
Hope I feel something someday
A little something at all
And I hope that I feel it
Hope I feel something someday
Something to fix my heart

Feel Something

Thomas Reid x SadBoyProlific x Nuxe - Feel Something

Produced by 4lexf

Kam Michael
instagram.com/imkammichael
youtube.com/c/KamMichael
twitter.com/kammichael_
spoti.fi/2RxYGFj

JXVE
@jxve
twitter.com/jxve_
instagram.com/jxve.ig
youtube.com/user/KiDJiiiveVEVO
spoti.fi/2HNQnRt

Lyrics:

[Verse 1: Kam Michael]
I hate that I'm forgetting what I have until it's gone.
I wish that I could turn back time, cause you're the one.
When I try to open up it's like my heart is on the run.
But I put it on my grave that you're the only one I want
And nowadays being in love is do or die
Tryna get you out my head is like committing suicide
I just wanna find a way to make it you and I,
But the drama all around us got me feeling mortified.
I miss the old times that we spent, now everytime we talk you just throw another fit.
I try to make amends, but everytime I do it ends. Tell me, why the fuck should I just go lose another friend over bullshit?
Another day another fight.
Lately I've been tryna fix it all; make it right.
Used to be the one that i held every night
I'm really broken down but I say I'm alright, yeah

[Hook: JXVE]
Love is suicide, you and I, do or die
Love is suicide, you and I, do or die
One survivor

[Verse 2: Kam Michael]
I wanna tell you everything, hard to find the words. Everytime I try to talk to you my stomach turns. My heart's cold but I still feel the burns. Every night when I lay down I swear I feel the worst.
You and I, know this shit is do or die,
Tryna get you out my head is like committing suicide. I've been done.
I need to find a way out.
All the pain that I have, it could never minimize
Everytime I try to make up, it's like you never listen
What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm losing when I'm winning
Everybody that's around me says I'm better off forgetting but it's hard when all I know is it was done from the beginnin
You made it hard for me trust
Tell my why you make hard for me to fall in love
Let me down slow, yeah you put me in dust
I was searching for the one, you were searching for lust.. yeah

[Hook: JXVE]
Love is suicide, you and I, do or die
Love is suicide, you and I, do or die
One survivor

Kam Michael - Love Is Suicide (ft. JXVE)

Wish U Were Here (Prod. Brandon Taylor)

Jomie - Whats The Point

@ivrii
@tomcbumpz

mix/master by @mostlyeverything
artwork by cohnography

listen on spotify: open.spotify.com/track/07i3iHqyTo…GeS36X2jLB6zJsFQ

lyrics:

eyes getting irritated
i will await my doom
scratching at my skin
burrowing within
they stare and then they grin
let me in
please let me in


i ain’t felt threatened since seven to eight
got it straight now i keep a razor blade at my waist
your life revolves around happiness i’m studying hate
i just beheaded seven angels that i met at the gate
cause my demons told me in my head there ain’t enough space
when you’re fighting for survival etiquette has no place
if me and satan met again i’d be forced to handle the reigns
i understand my mind and the power that it contains
and also that a mind is so fragile that it can break
in a matter of seconds depending on what you take
i learned the hardest battle we face is against ourselves
i’ve been questioning reality while fixing my health
even Liu King would need help tryna kick shit this well
my flows hotter than the stove tops on kitchens in hell
so just stick to yourself or you can go missing as well
just like all the fucking confidence i had for myself
what’s a born sinner forced to fucking live life in hell
then told to go back when he dies by himself
its me and you

Doom (w/ ivri & tomcbumpz)

got taken down. re-uploading without monetization. this song is important so it needs to be out.

conversations with myself (prod. sleepless boy)

i literally just drop music whenever and then b deleting it lol, but you can find everything on streaming platforms(: 
Make sure to share tha music <3
Contact: astrusmgmt@gmail.com

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