terminal! on my deathbed
warmed up spoonfuls of hospice strings from needle felt silk worms
spewing ropes of rape around my heart-thing
as if to say I'd ever had such a thing

and to a girl who has blood so loud...
I imprint on the thin veil of skin on her pale neck
leaving a puncture wound
I tried so hard to stay with you

(so I guess, if you won't love me
I guess I'll have to love myself!!!
if you won't love me, and no one else will
I'll love myself)

went swimming in the bathtub the day after my birthday
watched the water turn black
vomit burned like hell inside of my nostril
as I failed to self-immolate with tap water

she likes to cut me with spades while I sleep...
so I'll never close my eyes anymore.

I promise myself, I'll make just a few cuts tonight
I promise myself, I'll bleed myself dry tomorrow
I promise myself, that this is worth it
I promise myself, that this is love
how could anybody do this to me and call it love?
how could anybody think that this love?
if you won't love me, I'll guess I'll have to love myself!

Terminal! on My Deathbed (ft. Zodiacs on the wing)

traumatized n pissed off Appalachian outsider emo / heartcore to browse imageboards to.

I wasn't asking about your camera. I was worried about you!

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rat soup w dj matthewratthew: live every thursday 9-10pm pst on KXSC kxsc.org/listen B)

my first few shows from way back posted below. need to clear up space but cant bring myself to delete them lol. Now I do jungle + hardcore + noise so catch that when u tune in thrusdays 9pm

deathkidcity founddead4years ago love u matthew

Terminal! on My Deathbed (ft. Zodiacs on the wing)

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