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The Upload 1/19/2022

a little odd at midnight

Dance Of The Phail

Polonium

lyrics

watch the green fade out
watch the brown fade in

u say u lie but what abt?
i dunt wanna run around :/

its so hard when u dont talk :/
ya ur going thru alot
im at ur door but its still locked.

hi whats good its bea again!
they claim tht ur not a friend!
when i start 2 shake
they tell take another ativan :/
im a hopeless junkie
they say i wont make it far :(
when i moved out 2 LA
i offered a seat in my car
u denied all my help..
u say u want someone else
i mean thts fair but im still mad
im still hyped up i jus got sad
u said i fell off after backrooms XD
but tht shit was rlly ass

ya fell apart but whats new
i never know what i do
u said its not me its u
the oldest lie u cud use

stream

fatiguée

Marina

Mothra

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https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/belak/cloudwatching-feat-powfu-2

Ft. @powfu

produced by Ocean Beats

Lyrics:

[Belak]

i looked up at the clouds
(wow what a beautiful day!)
you said that one right there, looks like its feeling down
i see it now that you've pointed it out
(yeah it does kinda look sad)
maybe its frowning only because the sun's not out
i-i-i look down at the ground
(at the ground, at the ground)
and tap my feet anxiously, cause the words wont come out
oh baby you've got me looking around
(oh around)
double checking myself, can i hold it down?

(yawn)
just woke up to a text that said
"do you wanna go cloudwatching with me?"
i was like "yeah, of course i wanna go do that"
"do you know of any good spots near you and me?"
she said "i know of one. it's on a beach, next to some trees, right by a lake"
i said "sounds great! do you want me to just meet you there, or pick you up at 8?"
she said "you could slide over beforehand. and you could kiss me, and we could slow dance"
then my heart started beating faster
i started sweating, im such a disaster
talking in my head like "come on bro, just fuckin answer"
so i hit her up with a "yeah, lets do that"

i looked up at the stars
you said "i wonder how they got so far?"
now you got me wondering the same thing
how'd they get so bright?
thats how i wanna be

i looked up at the clouds
(wow what a beautiful day!)
you said that one right there, looks like its feeling down
i see it now that you've pointed it out
(yeah it does kinda look sad)
maybe its frowning only because the sun's not out
i-i-i look down at the ground
(at the ground, at the ground)
and tap my feet anxiously, cause the words wont come out
oh baby you've got me looking around
(oh around)
double checking myself, can i hold it down?

[Powfu]

yuh
i got some snacks in my bag, we can share if you want
is the sun moving closer, or is it just me?
so much better than my dreams with you here
i didnt think i'd make it through this whole year
you made of alchohol, cause im falling
and thowing the sadness out of my pocket-et-et-et
follow the clouds until they departure
move farther, i see the starting line with you there

Cloudwatching

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Cloudwatching Ft. Powfu

By Any Means Necessary (Demo)

lyrics


verse:
it only took me like 3 days, 3 days
to break ur heart in like 3 ways, 3 ways
and now i’m busy having 3 ways, 3 ways

prehook:
fuck me real good then you fuck me up babe
i don’t want love, but i want your love babe
using me more than the drugs that u take


hook:
say you’re sorry
then say u love me
i’ll be honest 
i’m fucking lonely
please don’t call me
begging to fuck me


verse:
i’ve been thinking
can we pretend
that we’re still friends
you’re on my mind

where have u been?
i miss ur scent
i can’t hit send
to save my life


prehook:
fuck me real good then you fuck me up babe
i don’t want love, but i want your love babe
using me more than the drugs that u take


hook:
say you’re sorry
then say u love me
i’ll be honest 
i’m fucking lonely
please don’t call me
begging to fuck me
fuck me

don’t say sorry
then say u love me
i’m not falling
like u did for me
please don’t call me
i’m fucking horny
horny

bridge:
don’t u water me down
water me down
i know i let u down 
i let u down
i hope u come back around 
come back around 
so u could water me down 
water me down


hook:
say you’re sorry
then say u love me
i’ll be honest 
i’m fucking lonely
please don’t call me
begging to fuck me
fuck me

don’t say sorry
then say u love me
i’m not falling
like u did for me
please don’t call me
i’m fucking horny
horny


THE END

SAY UR SORRY

Mixing, Mastering, and producing by @dustbunnybedroom
Co-produced by Mahal Slick

Lyrics:
And like that, I'm wasting all this time
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
So silly, thinking I could fly, away
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
When I could be doing more with my life, but that's okay
They say, you're still young, don't worry you'll be alright
Alright… But I'm wasting time!

Slippin' from my hands, I need a little time alone
Gonna pull myself together, shaking through my bones
Missing every single deadline, working slow
Don't you think it's past your bedtime, I don't know

Shit got me feeling anxious
What's the use in just situating
In the end, it's gon' come again and bite back, been feeling so degrading
Oh, been moving slow, man

And like that, I'm wasting all this time
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
So silly, thinking I could fly, away
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
When I could be doing more with my life, but that's okay
They say, you're still young, don't worry you'll be alright
Alright… But I'm wasting time!

Summertime got me feeling lazy
All them dreams that we keep on chasing
Left the room, they ain't coming through
I been sleeping in almost on the daily
That's another problem, I'm facing
Crusty eyes, and tears on my face
So beautiful, that's my look, no shade
To anybody in this situation

Wait, oh that's me
Stuck at home in this plain white tee?
Baby face, but I still ain't clean
Say get out, but won't let me leave
I just wanna go feel this breeze
Won't progress until I'm at ease
Growing up really ain't that easy
Lately what I've been fearing, but

Don't be afraid to try
You'll be alright, yeah
Some day you'll grow your wings and fly
You'll fly away, yeah
Don't worry, it's okay to cry
Just let it all out
Real soon, you'll make it back in time
Back in time, back in

And like that, I'm wasting all this time
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
So silly, thinking I could fly, away
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
When I could be doing more with my life, but that's okay
They say, you're still young, don't worry you'll be alright
Alright… But I'm wasting time!

time (prod. dustbunnybedroom)

some old stuff I found in my computer. sorry for the rough quality. album on the way soon and its going to sound very clean XD trying out some new things  


lyrics for last song:
I,
feel,
sad,
sad
I,
feel,
sad,
sad

demosfrom2020

the midwest is a tar pit
it seems like no one ever really finds a way out
indiana is a tar pit
at this point, i can feel it flowing into my mouth

but i won't die here!
i refuse to!
i won't let it steal my youth

i had one thing
keeping me here
and now she's gone, too

i hope she's resting peacefully
i hope she's having better dreams than me

i dial her number without thinking
in the morning as i turn on the tv

but i don't think she's ever answering
i don't think she's ever answering

'cause the midwest is a tar pit
i miss her more like everyday
indiana is a tar pit
why does it take the things that i love away?

tar pit (demo)

i don't know how much i could change
even if i wanted to

even if i wanted

GO HARRY

thanks to everyone who's ever been there to support me.

i wouldn't be here without you guys.

this was gonna be for 2k, but fuck it, you guys deserve it.

a letter to my freshman self (prod. purpan)

edit/update: the person who this song was originally written about is now essentially devoid of respect and likability in my eyes, so now it's a ballad for all of the lovers out there who aren't fucking each other over.

good riddance, s.

thanks, p.

thanks, world.

[peace.love.happiness]

e[u].logy (prod. purpan)

@tomppabeats

welcome to the beach.

thank you for the continued support.

i love each and every one of you with all of my heart. <3

sand (prod. tomppabeats)

well, here we are.

after a long journey spent coping with sub par mental health and the various females inhabiting my high school, i've finally accomplished the thing i set out to do so long ago:

i put out a real album.

i hope that you all enjoy listening to this as much as i enjoyed creating it, because this whole thing has been an experience for me.

thank you for getting me so incredibly close to 10,000 soundcloud followers and thank you even more for taking the time to listen to what i've created here.

the cover art was created by my good friend halli hunt, or h.h. as some of you may know her.

have a fantastic day, and hey;

the world might not always be beautiful, but the potential for beauty and peace exists so long as the potential for hatred and violence is present. you can't have sunshine without a little rain, and i can't have happiness without a little help from my friends. i love you all.

<3

humility (prod. borealism)

forgetting u (prod. purpan)

streetlight voodoo (prod. ntourage)

this is the outro, i hope you like it (prod. ntourage)

bars (feat. cole corduroy) (prod. junyii)

@mt-marcy

LYRICS:
i'm sick of trembling in fear at the idea of death
since it's always on my mind i just hide in my bed
"everybody's scared of it" is what my therapist said
but my case seems worse, when i've barely been fed

because the kitchen's too far to desire the steps
it'd take to make it down the stairs and try to find a baguette
or something similar that wouldn't make my stomach upset
it doesn't feel like this is real, yeah, my mind is a mess

the only times it seems clear is when music is played
some relatable creator says i'll soon be okay
or when reading poetry trying to soothe the dismay
and i can lose my insecurities in cute little sayings, like

"why frown when the sun goes down,
if you'll wake in the morning to such nice sounds
when the nighttime creeps, well your eyes might weep
but that's just moonlight tryna find nice people"

"why frown when the sun comes 'round
even if you feel shaken or upside down
when the daytime hits, you'll be great, my friend
just make it through this, just make it through this"

"why frown when the sun comes 'round
even if you feel shaken or upside down
when the daytime hits, you'll be great, my friend
just make it through this, you can make it through this"

meurte

such nice sounds (prod. mt. marcy)

@flayvors

happy valentine's day :)

art by bennie (http://www.instagram.com/cozylile)

this is a thank you for everything
a semi-colon hovering where something once was menacing
a "soon-to-be continued" that exists after the ending screen
the only song i know that i would ever even wish to sing
when the heat is blistering, you're the ice that's glistening
inside my cup of tea, which is also you... interesting
throughout all the seasons, in this transition of winter-spring
you've been here beside me with the sweet nothings you're whispering
you're a lovable, angelic piece of perfect
and anything i do for you is worth it
times a million and a half, we can sit and be resilient and laugh
in between the subtle compliments and billlions of half-
kiss/half-hug/half-cuddle moments we share
i know it's unfair that we could only spend a few days here
but i'm yours, and i think that it's clear
so forget about goodbye, this is "see you soon, my dear"

'cause i love you and i'd like to spend forever
in the sublte warmth inside your arms, like fireplaces' embers
i will try my best to keep you by my side until the weather
turns apocalyptic, and we end up drifting to the nether
but we'd still be wearing sweaters when we got there
'cause we're both too caught up in cuteness to care 'bout hot air
and even if it burnt me alive, i'd have my crosshairs
set up on your heart, making art, 'cause why stop there?
i'll keep on creating for you until my final days
dancing in the living room and smooching while the vinyl plays
i've been losing track of the romantic shit i'm tryna say
but basically i love you and that's kinda gay...
i'ma stay by your side when i can
keep your grip on my hand
'cause we can both hear the compliments coming in from these pals of mine
i've been wondering if you would be my valentine

valentine (prod. flavors)

download <3

Produced by Rodger

Verse:
i was in my room when u called me
Didn’t answer it cuz u annoy me
I was in the hall when u saw me
I looked away
And kept walking
I told u once
Ill tell u again
Ill be your boy
But not your friend

Im not your friend


Chorus:
Pathetic me is waste of time
always get blamed even when its not mine
Everyone says imma big fat mess
Say one word someone ends upset
Thats who I am
Dumb decisions might break my neck
dont give a shit
If you knew me
You’d know im a wreck

YouTube

i'm not your friend

Album by japanese shoegaze band My Dead Girlfriend, released in 2010.

my dead girlfriend - spirits of the dead's bad dream

my dead girlfriend - shadow where it doesn't disappear

my dead girlfriend - cattle mutilation, strage u.f.o.

my dead girlfriend - 12gatsu, poolside, ukabu shita

my dead girlfriend - watashi no aishita manatsu no shinigami

prod by @ria_chuelo :)))
plz go follow n support dem !!!

lyrics:
i dont think i can get over this..
shes holding me down while theres guns to my head..
i jus wish she loved me like she loved him..

but truly we never get what we want
every time we talk its always breaking my heart
i know you say you love him but i treat you better
i wont tell you what to do
but i think thats the wrong move
i think that i lost it
my minds a moshpit
i think that im sick in the head
n i cant get past this
i got over stimulated aimin for the bathroom
i got lost along the way now im stuck in the backrooms
you say that ur just friends w him but ion know what that includes
im havin a panic attack
n ion know what to do
just point me in the right direction
we fell off like a disconnection
i guess that i dont get to say anything its case closed

i hope that ur happier
i hope that u start smilin
x3

ion understand why you always win the arguments
i have things to say and ion think u comprehend them
why is it jus such an issue jus to let me talk
ill jus shut up
ill just stop
please dont tell me that your coming back for me
i think that i told you that he didnt really love you
you want me back but i dont think i trust you
im sorry baby i think that were threw..

but truly we never get what we want
every time we talk its always breaking my heart
i know you say you love him but i treat you better
i wont tell you what to do
but i think thats the wrong move
i think that i lost it
my minds a moshpit
i think that im sick in the head
n i cant get past this
i got over stimulated aimin for the bathroom
i got lost along the way now im stuck in the backrooms
x2

backrooms (ria)

RIP BLEACH + ISAIAH COVER ART

prod goodbyex2002 and stargate !!