the midwest is a tar pit
it seems like no one ever really finds a way out
indiana is a tar pit
at this point, i can feel it flowing into my mouth

but i won't die here!
i refuse to!
i won't let it steal my youth

i had one thing
keeping me here
and now she's gone, too

i hope she's resting peacefully
i hope she's having better dreams than me

i dial her number without thinking
in the morning as i turn on the tv

but i don't think she's ever answering
i don't think she's ever answering

'cause the midwest is a tar pit
i miss her more like everyday
indiana is a tar pit
why does it take the things that i love away?

tar pit (demo)

they said it feels just like catharsis
but more short-lived and less concise
i guess it could have been my ego
i couldn’t trust that they were right

my youth walked a fine line: she would etch it afternoons
plan a path around the casket she imagined as her doom 
walked so many fine lines, they wove a web—then a cocoon,
then a sheet set so cozy i could never leave my room

i was ebenezer scrooge in the bad mood phase
skipping class just to bask in the bathroom breaks
the panache everlast like tuck, but the tattoo's fake
all's well that turns bad moods great

i don't believe much in actual fate
it's fun to pretend that there's some magical weight
but i don't put much into actual fate
maybe in the back of my brain... sometimes

they said it feels just like catharsis
but more short-lived and less concise
they said it feels just like catharsis
i couldn’t trust that they were right

they said it feels just like catharsis
they said it feels just like catharsis

peace of mind <3

cover of bright eyes' song "false advertising"

false advertising

decided i was going to start an emo band by myself and made this in around four hours

hope it's decent enough for the internet

yelling softly, speaking to you
i can read that expression that you do
it screams loudly towards my eyes
"either something's wrong or someone died"
i'm struggling with everyday things
like going to the bank or buying groceries for us
and it's nothing for you to brush me off like dust on your jacket sleeve
but something in you won't let it happen this week

knowing you
breaking down
what exactly is
that awful sound?

missing you
breaking up
how can i be such a
big fuck up?

knowing you
breaking down
what exactly is
that awful sound?

missing you
breaking up
i'll day drink my way
out of this rut

i'll day drink my way
out of this rut

asking questions you don't even know the answer to
it makes no sense, still it's the only thing that i can do
i wish i was invisible for just one day of my life
i'd be so much better off if i disappeared for eternity
late night phone calls, missing your touch
nothing says "i don't need you these days," quite like not answering does
i am sorry for my mistakes
i'm but a fragile addition to something uncouth, you're the nucleus of this whole world

knowing you
breaking down
what exactly is
that awful sound?

missing you
breaking up
how can i be such a
big fuck up?

knowing you
breaking down
what exactly is
that awful sound?

missing you
breaking up
i'll day drink my way
out of this rut

i'll day drink my way
out of this rut

i'll day drink my way
out of this rut

day drink

https://rapperatlas.bandcamp.com/album/im-happy

i'm happy

where am i going?

this is an album about the fears and tremors that come with love, and the crisis of not knowing your own identity as yours.

enjoy.

fog & obscure

download

fine

for h.h. once more

lyrics:
we all must chip our antlers now and then
life will throw us hate with no defense
but these, my dear
aren't times too tough to fix

so you can keep your chin up if you please
and smile while you frolic in the trees
'cause antlers, antlers, yes my dear
i promise that with time, you too shall see

and even if you fall
just know i've got your back

and even those designed for war
have battled, fallen, gotten back on track

so maybe you see spiders now and then
while i see figures float above my bed
see, even those arachnids know
that you're too fucking tough to circumvent

and you know what else has got eight legs?
i said, you know what else has got eight legs?
us in front of mirrors
looking boldly at two kids who never fled

and even if you fall
just know i've got your back

and even those designed for war
have battled, fallen, gotten back on track

i said, even those designed for war
have battled, fallen, gotten back on track

antlers, too

it's never enough </3

lyrics:
i'm prodding around this vacancy
this empty hole you left in me
i thought i'd fill it soon
with someone else's skin and you would too
i'm sorry for you how feel
i know you see that swerve behind the wheel
you see yourself inside the ground
and i know i can't fix you with sound

but i can try

if you'll open up your eyes
and i'll show you the way i dive
into this ocean of dismay
this terrifying grey in which i sleep
and there's no disguise
i just wait for my demise
as it comes towards me
it can't ignore me...

anymore

and i'll keep losing friends
whether it's to death or to the wind
it's such a passing trend
being a breathing and living person
at least it seems that way these days
with how often my loved ones slip away
i'm growing concerned for my safety...

i hope i'm not next
i'm too scared to die
the concept is frightening
but still i can try
and i hope you're not next
i love you too much
everything you say
i use as a crutch

so open up your eyes
and i'll show you the way i dive
into this ocean of dismay
this terrifying grey in which i sleep
i know the void
all my patience is destroyed
when i start panicking again
and start ignoring all my friends

but i hope i'm not next
i'm too scared to die
the concept is frightening
but still i can try
and i hope you're not next
i love you too much
everything you say
is never enough

NEVER ENOUGH

split betwixt patrick and i !

download: 
https://themostbeautifulimages.bandcamp.com/album/split-with-tea

https://teatea.bandcamp.com/album/split-with-the-most-beautiful-images-created-to-be-destroyed

is that so hard - tea

by atlas

source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djTW4TssFz0

lyrics:

life sucks, then you die
life nuts, in your eye

my friend Bartholomew just fucking died last week
overdosed on heroin they found his body in the creek
in between these manic states and panic dates I barely speak
cuz insanity's an uphill climb and I am mad on peak
inside my mind its an overflow
i would try to explain but I hardly know
my laugh for brightening these days
my mind is as we chase yeah

and especially cuz Bartholomew doesn't exist
and I'm sure everyone who hears this is probably pissed
about it

life sucks, then you die
life nuts, in your eye

my friend Ted just killed a man last year
and now he's running for president goes to show you can't trust what you hear
had a couple voters from the nation for a while
but they realised that the zodiac was hidden in his smile
my friend Jonathon took Bart out in Los Angeles
had a job in marketing but then he said he can't handle it
brought a gun to work and made some threats he didn't mean
and every time the tv's on, his face is on the screen cuz

life sucks, then you die