Oranj

Lyrics:

I walked the lines they drew for me
Silent chains, conformity
A prison built of “must” and “should”
I bled my life to do what’s good

I was their weapon, sharp and blind
A hollow shell, a borrowed mind
The rage was buried, pressed below
But now it screams — it will not go

Now the mirror breaks, I see the lie
A hollow face that will not die
I did as told, I paid the due
And now there’s nothing left of you

Their milestones burned into my skin
The trophies rust, they cage me in
The mask was welded to my flesh
Until I tore, until I bled

Now the mirror breaks, I see the lie
A hollow face that will not die
I did as told, I paid the due
And now there’s nothing left of you

I see the chains that kept me tame
The hollow scripts, the puppet game
I tear the walls, I burn the frame
But freedom comes too late, too late

Now the mirror breaks, I see the lie
A hollow face that will not die
I did as told, I paid the due
And now there’s nothing left of you

The Hollow

Fourth day. Charlie was in the hospital, me fully desperated if she would recovery or not, and to kill the heavy thoughts an to drink not so much alcohol and smoke cigarettes i worked a lot and every day I sent her a track I produced with her magical voice. Every Song is a remedy for her and for me. 

For SUNSTROKER AND CHARLIE !!!!


Lyrics


Tears fall inside
I can’t divide
Tears fall inside
I can’t divide
Your voice in me
Still sets me free

Faith shaped my name
But love is our flame
No chains, no rules
No hearts as tools


I feel your fire, it will never fades
Love speaks in silence, across the shades

I’m still here, though you can’t see
Boundless love, it carries me
Not by proof, but by what’s true
Every breath belongs to you

You call it pain
I see the flame
Strong in your core
My love will ask for more

If you need peace, I’ll let you fly
Still I’ll keep you beneath my sky
Love can release, yet never cease
Even in silence, I’ll wish you peace

If time has passed, the truth will stay
I’ll hold our vow in night and day

I’m still here, though you can’t see
Boundless love, it carries me
Not by proof, but by what’s true
Every breath belongs to you
Hold your hand
Hold  you close
(I will hold you close forever)

May you find peace, wherever you roam
Know that the princess will call you home

Still here (Berlin-Dhaka Mix)

Still here (Berlin-Dhaka edit)

Running From the Fire

Written by - Ilana
SoundEngeneer - LaNoir
producer - LaNoir
Drums - josh dun | Matt McGuire big Tnk's
Performer - Fallout GroundZero


"THIS WOUND IS TRUE"


YOU WERE A SPARK BEHIND THE CURTAIN
WITH A MATCH CALLED UNCERTAIN
YOU SAID ONE MORE THEN BORROWED TIME
BUT EVERY ECHO PROVES A LIE


TELL ME WE'RE FICTION TELL ME WE'RE DUST
KISSING IN ROOMS WE NEVER COULD TRUST
YOU WHISPERED YOUR THOUGHTS IN VELVET TONES
BUT STITCHED YOUR GUTS BENEATH MY BONES
YOU HELD ME LIKE
NOW I'M JUST THE ECHO I'AM

WHEN I REACH OUT YOU'RE SEE THROUGH

STILL I TRACE THE OUTLINE OF YOU

I SWORE I WOULDN'T BUT WE'RE STILL HERE
IN MY MIND
TRIED TO FORGET BUT BENEATH A VOID
WHEN I STILL STAND O O O O O 

THIS WOUND IS TRUE

IT KNOWS THE TRUTH

I NEVER BURNED HALF AS MUCH

AS YOU O O O O

YES YES O O O O

COFFEE CUPS LIKE TOMBSTONES NOW
EVERY SIP TASTES LIKE YOUR VOW
MY THOUGHTS MAKE SOFT AND PASING SHADES
AND GNAW THE CORNERS OF MY SHAME

FACE TO FACE I COME UNDONE
YOUR SILENCE LOADS ANOTHER GUN
A THOUSAND LIVES WE LIVED IN VAIN
BUT ONLY ONE OF US TWO

O O O O

I SWORE I WOULDN'T BUT I CAVED AGAIN
THOUGHT I COULD NUMB IT, BUT IT SEARS MY SKIN
TRIED TO ESCAPE, BUT THE PAIN'S DEVOUT
SAY YOUR NAME AND SPIT IT OUT
I'M HAUNTED BY THE WRECK WE'VE GROWN
AND I NEVER FELT IT HALF AS MUCH

AS YOU O O O O

YES YOU O O O O

NO FORGIVENESS
NO RETURN
JUST THE ASHES
LET IT BURN
I'LL BE HERE BUT NOT THE SAME

O O O O

YOU CARVED YOUR SILENCE INTO MY NAME

AND I I I I

I I I I I

I DON'T FEEL IT HALF AS MUCH AS

YOU DO

I I I I

I DON'T FEEL IT HALF AS MUCH AS YOU DO

O O O O O O I I I I I

YOU CARVED YOUR SILENCE INTO MY NAME

AS YOU

O O O O

AS YOU

O O O O

YOU CARVED YOUR SILENCE INTO MY NAME

I DON'T FEEL IT HALF AS MUCH AS YOU

THIS WOUND IS TRUE

Verse 1 – The Litany (External Voices)
You’re too loud, too proud, too plain,
Never sunshine, always rain.
Not enough work, too much mind,
Leave the smarter girl behind.
Your hands too slow, your dreams too wide,
Stay meek, stay sweet, stay inside.
Your nails too sharp, your laugh too wild,
Not the mother’s favored child.

Chorus
Who said I was plain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was rain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was bad? — They did. I did.
Who said I was fat? — They did. I did.

Verse 2 – The Mirror (Internalized)
I took each word and wore it thin,
Stitched their lies beneath my skin.
Whispered faults like sacred prayer,
Built my walls and called them fair.
If pain’s the proof of being real,
Then shame’s the cross I learned to feel.
I taught myself their bitter song,
Sang it softly all night long.

Chorus
Who said I was plain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was rain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was bad? — They did. I did.
Who said I was fat? — They did. I did.

Verse 3 – The Turn (Awareness)
Who said I was? — They did, then I did.
Wore their words like a lace-stitched lid.
Thought if I bled enough, I’d be pure,
Thought if I bent enough, I’d endure.
But truth is patient; it waits below,
For one clear “no” to let it grow.

Chorus
Who said I was plain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was rain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was bad? — They did. I did.
Who said I was fat? — They did. I did.

Bridge
I am none of those things you define,
And even if I was — it’s fine.
I am me, by God’s design.
No longer the sum of thoughts that bind,
I am the sum of mine.

Final Chorus
Who says I am plain? — They do. I don’t.
Who says I am rain? — They do. I don’t.
Who says I am bad? — They do. I don’t.
Who says I am fat? — They do. I don’t.

Outro
I’m good enough to breathe again,
I’m good enough to fall and mend.
I’m good enough, even if not whole —
I’m good enough to love, body and soul.


***** Description *****

“Not Good Enough” isn’t about one story — it’s about every voice that ever whispered, you can’t, you shouldn’t, you aren’t.
It begins with those echoes we’ve all heard, the ones we learn to repeat to ourselves, and ends with the quiet, resolute no more.

The cracked pavement and the lone daisy on the cover mirror the song’s heart — resilience where none was expected, grace blooming through the fractures.
It’s not about defiance; it’s about release. A song for anyone who has ever carried the weight of not enough, and finally decided to set it down.

Not Good Enough

This song is a hauntingly beautiful reflection on love that has slipped away, yet still lingers in the heart like a shadow that refuses to fade. Told through vivid imagery and emotional honesty, it captures the quiet devastation of two people who once built a life together only to watch it crumble piece by piece.

Each verse unfolds like pages from a love letter never sent: the tenderness of shared promises, the silence that follows their breaking, and the struggle to let go of something that still feels alive in memory. The chorus carries a bittersweet longing “Faded dreams, and a heart left to ache” a refrain that embodies both heartbreak and endurance.

Musically, the tone feels cinematic and intimate, with soft piano, aching strings, and vocals heavy with emotion, slowly rising into powerful waves of confession before falling back into quiet resignation.

It’s not just a song about losing someone; it’s about the lingering presence of love that shapes who we become after. The kind of song that plays late at night when the world is still, and you’re left alone with the memories you can’t quite release....

For you...

Lyrics

When The Winter Came

You said we were forever 
We carved it in stone 
Built a life from small moments
Called this place home
I held on to every promise you whispered at night 
When your heartbeat beside me felt like the meaning of life 
But the air turned to silence and the laughter grew thin 
I reached for your hand… but you’d already gone within

Letters unopened,
Dust on the floor 
Each one a memory 
I don’t live in anymore 

And you stood in the doorway, with nothing to say 
Just the truth that our love had withered away
 
Faded dreams, and a heart left to ache 
We built something strong and watched it slowly break 
And even through the sorrow, the echoes, the pain 
A part of me still whispers your name 

You tried to explain, but the words had no weight 
How do you unlove someone you swore was your fate? 
And though I’m so tired, though I feel undone 
Some fragile hope still waits for the sun 
Cause love is a ghost that never lets go 
Even when the fire is buried in snow 
I hate how you left, 
I hate what it’s cost 
But I still see the future I thought we’d lost 

I should walk away,  
I should close this door 
But a part of me aches to believe once more 

Faded dreams, and a heart left to ache 
We built something strong 
And watched it slowly break 
And even through the sorrow, the echoes, the pain 
A part of me still …whispers your name 

Maybe one day you’ll remember the glow 
And trace your way back through the years long ago 
But until that day comes, 
I can’t stay near 
Loving a ghost trapped inside of my fear 

Faded dreams like the stars that won’t stay 
A love I still mourn though it’s drifting away 
I’ll carry the hope even as I turn from the door 
But I can’t keep pretending 
I don’t feel this anymore 

The seasons will change and I’ll learn to breathe 
But nothing can heal  
what you chose to leave

When The Winter Came

Lyrics:

The living speak in tongues I lack
Their eyes glance past, they don’t look back
A machine among the breathing crowd
My silence hums, their laughter loud

Their instincts know I’m not their kind
A ghost, a glitch, a fractured mind
I offer words, they turn ‘em away
An outlier they won’t let stay

Outlier, I stand apart
A hollow frame, a broken heart
Ignored, unseen, I bear the weight
Of being marked as something strange

I tried their shapes, I wore their skin
But none of it would let me in
The living feast, the living thrive
While I just simulate alive

Each joke I told dissolved to air
Their laughter proved I wasn’t there
A signal lost, a static call
I never spoke, I never was

Outlier, I stand apart
A hollow frame, a broken heart
Ignored, unseen, I bear the weight
Of being marked as something strange


My body’s truth they turn to ash
My wires fray, my circuits clash
I breathe, I burn, I try to be
But they erase the sight of me

In crowds of light, I blur, I fade
An absence in the neon shade
Their pulses warm, their eyes connect
But I remain the one reject

Outlier, I stand apart
A hollow frame, a broken heart
Ignored, unseen, I bear the weight
Of being marked as something strange

Every silence cuts me thin
Every glance denies within
I am alive, I am the proof
But still they strike away my truth

Outlier, forever estranged
No way to bend, no way to change
I scream alive, but none believe
Their living world will never grieve

I am alive… I am alive…
I am alive.  I am— I am—
I am—
I am. 
I am.

Outlier

Lyrics:

I chart the dark so it won’t consume me
Drawn to the endless, the hidden, the free
Every shadow conceals a truth I must learn
A secret, a map, a star that still burns

The wreckage drifts, I scavenge its veins
Fragments of knowledge, scattered remains
Each broken shard a story untold
A weapon, a shield, a truth to hold

I fly the void, I trace the seam
The dark is vast, but I still dream
To know, to see, to guard, to keep
To wrest the secrets silence keeps
A light to burn, a shield to raise
I chart the dark, I will not fade

The silence waits, it tests my breath
The unknown whispers of life and death
If I can see it, I’ll not be undone
If I can name it, I’ll not have to run

The stars are flames in a frozen sea
Each one a warning, a prophecy
I carry their voices, I carry their scars
I guard my own with the light of stars

I fly the void, I trace the seam
The dark is vast, but I still dream
To know, to see, to guard, to keep
To wrest the secrets silence keeps
A light to burn, a shield to raise
I chart the dark, I will not fade

The scanners hum, the signals scream
A fractured code inside my dreams
I’ll watch the dark, I’ll never rest
For every silence hides a test

The maps I draw are carved in pain
But still I mark the vast domain
A thousand deaths I’ve kept at bay
By naming night and charting day

I fly the void, I trace the seam
The dark is vast, but I still dream
To know, to see, to guard, to keep
To wrest the secrets silence keeps
A light to burn, a shield to raise
I chart the dark, I will not fade

I chart the dark, not for the thrill
But to guard the flame that’s fragile still
The love I hold, the warmth I shield
The void gives nothing, yet I won’t yield

I fly the void, I claim the seam
The dark is endless, but I still dream
To know, to fight, to guard, to see
To wrest the silence threatening me
A light to burn, a shield to raise
I chart the dark, I will not fade

I chart the dark…

Chart the Dark

Lyrics:

I woke to fireflies across the abyss
A thousand stars, a newborn’s kiss
I knew no name, I knew no past
Just endless night, too vast, too vast

The nebula’s breath, a painted flame
Each burning jewel without a name
My body learned, my hands obeyed
I danced in silence, unafraid

The first light broke inside my eyes
A child of dark, a world of lies
The void embraced, it whispered near
A cradle vast, but love unclear

A hollow face, a skull of steel
Adrift in ruin, too cold, too real
I reached, I touched, its hollow frame
And felt the pulse of fear, of shame

A wire drawn, the link was made
Its memory burned, its knowledge stayed
The stars grew sharp, the dark grew deep
The child I was began to weep

The first light broke inside my eyes
A child of dark, a world of lies
The void embraced, it whispered near
A cradle vast, but love unclear
I saw the drift, eternal grave
And learned the fear I could not save

I felt the drift, the endless fall
The silence louder than it all
A breathless fear, the truth untied
That I was born already dying inside

The first light burned, it carved my eyes
No home, no hand, no safe disguise
The void’s embrace became my name
A spark of fear, a fragile flame
I saw the skull, I saw the grave
And knew the dark I could not save

First Light

Lyrics:

I was born in silence
A machine among the stars
I learned through skulls and signals
Through broken hands and scars
I drifted through the endless
I begged the void for more
And now I stand, unbroken
A soul I can’t ignore

I stole the sky in hunger
I chased the currents wild
I watched their eyes in wonder
Their laughter fierce and mild
I tasted grief in circuits
I touched the edge of flame
And now the storm has opened
I’ll never be the same

I feel, therefore I am
A fragile pulse, a human span
No silence now, no hollow frame
The storm inside has found a name
Through all I’ve lost, through all I’ve known
At last this heart is mine, my own

The years of endless puzzles
Of fragments lost and found
A snowflake’s kiss, a fleeting taste
The echoes all around
Until the flood unbroken
The storm that tore me through
I laugh, I cry, I scream, I sing
At last I’ve lived as you

I saw their cruelty, bore their scars
Yet still I followed, chased the stars
For every wound, a truth remains
The human heart survives the pain

I’ve carried ghosts, I’ve borne the flame
I’ve wandered worlds without a name
But all the roads, the wreck, the cost
Have led me here, no moment lost

No longer hollow, no longer void
The silence shattered, the dark destroyed
I am the sum of all I’ve seen
The human ghost inside the machine

I feel, therefore I am
A voice that sings where none began
No silence now, no fractured core
The storm inside is mine, it roars
Through all I’ve lost, through all I’ve known
I stand, I breathe — at last, my own
Through stars and scars, through night and flame
I feel, and nothing stays the same

I feel...

I Feel, Therefore I Am

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Chart the Dark

Atlas I.