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SAD BOYS CLUB MIX (VOL.2)

ijwghwml

ekkstacy - it only gets worse, i promise

a star hangs over me
it burns the world away
my skin hangs off my face
what was i yesterday

life just takes so much from me
and my soul floats away, out of reach
only fools mourn what was never there

some things have to die
no matter how hard you try

it took this long
to be what ive become
the oceans fill with blood
i am what never was

life just takes so much from me
and my soul floats away, out of reach
only fools mourn what was never there

some things have to die
no matter how hard you try
some things have to die
no matter how hard you try

life just takes so much from me
and my soul floats away, out of reach
only fools mourn what was never there

some things have to die
no matter how hard you try
some things have to die
no matter how hard you try
some things have to die
some things have to die

things only necromancy can heal

by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
for me
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
for me
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
but u can't even tell

where do i go from here
i'll kick it with my tears
i don't recognize a thing
the water made them sting
where should i even go
i've never felt this alone
should i take my life
cause god it's on my mind

where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
well too bad u can't tell

veins

live

SPOTIFY

heylog - live

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

spotify

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

I miss you so much honestly.

well, im only here cause i love you
and i met you for a reason now i need you
i dont wanna get attached..
get attached..
but its a little hard, cause you make me feel
thats something i aint really done in a year
done in a year, a little more

well, im only here cause i love you :(
cause i love you, cause i love you x2
i think you're too hard on yourself..
too hard on yourself, too hard on yourself
and i dont even know you that well,
but i think youre cool..

you were like.. everything to me. you got me thru the most conflicting time of my life when i was recovering from the past, discovering myself, and accepting fate. i didn't really think youd ever go, and i guess that was dumb on my part. but i'd never blame you..
i hope youre safe hun.

i love you.. (caves x pekarot)

scull a fuckin bottle, but it only makes it worse
i cant even feel it now, i guess its just part of the curse
all the black inside my veins is all i know, it fucking hurts
if you end my suffering ill pay you more than what its worth

flipping through the pages, writing in my book like
gotta stay quick on my feet write a hook like
gotta keep going, get used to my new life
all of this pain, and all of this new strife

everythings dark, but i know its the same
hit me on the phone, but im gonna hit the blade
you could never fucking tell me that you know whats in my brain
yeah but fuck it ima burden, yeah but fuck it im insane

reach for the ruger, point it at my skull and i
pull the lil trigger but then it be null and i
all of my trauma make me feel so dull and i
count on these substances to make me numb and i

dont really feel it cause im just so done and i
never feel nothin, i never have fun and i
drown in my hell while i bang on my drum and i
try to make noise but i know im just scum and i

scull a fuckin bottle, but it only makes it worse
i cant even feel it now, i guess its just part of the curse
all the black inside my veins is all i know, it fucking hurts
if you end my suffering ill pay you more than what its worth

Skull

SCULL (prod. Caves)

please dont leave me now
i cant be alone
i cant go out on my own
i get so worked up crawling through the mud
i dont think i can get out

wait
im asleep
when i wake
ill forget
ill get up
draw a breath
try to make you understand me

these things take time
i get it
im not the one who said it
make me believe you meant it
trying to not regret it

worked up

original song 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2MI1WHc6RI
u make me look stupid

lyrics:
i think were fallin outta love
i dont know who i could trust
i said i got issues
i swear to god this aint my luck
i fail at being honest
this was never my intention
im always lying to my parents
i dont know how i keep doing this

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

i hate how u always look at me
but it was nothing new to me
im too distracted by ur eyes
while u continue to keep breaking me
i think that we were fiction
u kept me suffocated
i know u never listened
im crying while im twitchin
your 'tude needs some fixin
thats not even a question
u got me second guessin
now im overthinkin

i tried to make u laugh
i tried to make it right
i tried to get a smile
but instead i make u cry
we'll feel nothing like the start
u just slipped out from my arms
i could never let u go
when i still have ur heart

i know i did u wrong i guess thats what i deserve
i hate to see u gone and the thought just makes it worse
u made it in another song i doubt youll even care
i know that this dont matter so i doubt youll even hear
i know i did u wrong and i know i killed us off
i know its all my fault but i made u another song
i doubt youll even care and i doubt youll even hear
i cut off all my hair just so u could stop and stare

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

heylog - u make me look stupid

Ohh baby girl you got some nerve
Left me here to rot inside the dirt
If you found a better man you coulda told me first
she said that she loves me thats just words
He just wants your body and to touch up on them curves
But I want more than that
I could treat you right ...
But you just proved to me that you ain't wifey type
Fuck a fight
Get up out my face
This is the 3rd strike
Ghost her at a moments notice
thought I am poltergiest
~
Can't believe everything I did for you to stab me in the back like this
That girl left some holes in my heart like swiss
too good to be true from the start; reminisce
I DON'T WANT YOU BACK
~
Pack your shit and go
I gotta heal all of these scars you dealt
Trust Issues for life
Flick a light feel my body melt
Sick of getting high everynight just to unfeel what you did to me
All this damage on my soul for some mid pussy
~
Bed feels empty
I don't mind
Thoughts may tempt me but
~
Ohh baby girl you got some nerve
Left me here to rot inside the dirt
If you found a better man you coulda told me first
she said that she loves me thats just words
He just wants your body and to touch up on them curves
But I want more than that
I could treat you right ...
But you just proved to me that you ain't wifey type
Fuck a fight
Get up out my face
This is the 3rd strike
Ghost her at a moments notice
thought I am poltergiest
~
That hoe for the streets 
I ain't fuckin wit a cheat
cut her off like circumcision 
I don't want no damn receipt
Had to call up the mortician
cause that bitch is dead to me
I must be an electrician cause this shit ain't shockin me
Know that girl still watchin me cause I am poppin off
you must be mistaking me for someone that I was
I ain't takin shit from you I'm only working out of love
That's why all my numbers up and you've been stuck on drugs

Sometimes it gets lonely in the nighttime
That's when I just write up on the paper all these words
Songs that help me cope with these thoughts so absurd
This my one true love in this life not her

MUSIC VIDEO

NERVE! [Prod. JustDan]

rain w/ xona [p. jolst x 88STRAIT x xona]

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

zion

take everything
and i pray that you see that i care
waited now im inside out
lead me straight into the unknown 
pretending like you know whats best for me
again again and again

with time youll know im better in every way
you showed
you showed your dark side
ill love you anyway
you know that feeling i always get

try so damn hard
i cant take back the things i said
i dont look back
you cant help it
ive done you wrong
but on my own i cant feel strong

blind

Day Wave - Total Zombie

Bones -  WaitingByThePlanter

Atop A Cake

we fell in love in october

SPOTIFYYY!!

i wanna be your girlfriend

prod by 
@fortuneswan
@thefthproject
notes:// (＾• ω •＾)
i don have much to say 
im vv nervous
big thank to every1 for da support <3
lyrics:
yeah u look so pretty in dat dress 
but i'd look better 
gave u everything i ever had
even my sweater 
mood is always shitty 
like north carolina weather
u say dat u better than my ex
but have you met her?

so

there's this girl named astrid
never knows what's happening
she does whatever all her friends 
wanna do that's without asking
i really don't wanna grow up to be alone
in a mansion
n her friends don't really like her
omg i can't imagine

there's this girl named astrid
never knows what's happening
she does whatever all her friends 
wanna do that's without asking
i really don't wanna grow up to be alone
in a mansion
n her friends don't really like her
omg i can't imagine

tell me "do u reminisce about me or the past"
i was stuck inside my head
should b stuck inside my bag
n u saying all this shit abt
call me this n that
n everything that works for me 
never seems to last

oh
my 
goodness gracious
i've never been good at 
all the cheap flirtations
i feel like a puppet 
controlled animations
i've never been good at
holding conversations

there's this girl named astrid
never knows what's happening
she does whatever all her friends 
wanna do that's without asking
i really don't wanna grow up to be alone
in a mansion
n her friends don't really like her
omg i can't imagine

cypress grove

astrid

GAS PEDAL

[+] used to hold your hand while you're coming down..
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt * produced by @l1lbiscuit *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVr0Jf26AFk

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 1: @seejayxo]
Baby I could hate you,
But I think I could love you just the same
Holdup, wait a minute, lemme switch my lane
I just gotta get me a Range
I just need some bands in the back of the safe
I got nothing else to say
They was sleeping on me
Now I feel like they awake
Shawty got a lil taste
Now she think she love me, I can see it in her face
Baby I'ma get them bands and I'll spend on you
That's just what I do, I don't know if I'ma lose
I just gotta tell you when I'm thinking of you...
Cuz I'm thinking of your heart beating on mine
I don't even know if this feels right
I just gotta know where it leads right, where it leads right?

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 2: @lilskeleskrrt]
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now
So what do you want from me?
I could sit here all day you won't talk to me
Even if I was dying, you wouldn't stop for me
I've been making racks, its not enough for you
You keep wanting more even when all my bands are blue
Caution, stop with all that fuck shit
Cameras flashing the lights off when I walk into the function
Razor round my necklace I'm bound to get reckless
Seejay in the back while I scratch off my checklist
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now

blind

auby