swear on my life

skeleflowrs part three
guitar by @jolst

fun fact I actually wrote this song from the perspective of Jax Teller, the main character of my fav tv show (and quite honestly the tv show that kept my mind occupied and stopped me from blowing my brains out for years) sons of anarchy, I ended up rlly liking it so asked my good friend The Skeleton Man to jump on it 

so yea, bonus points if you've seen sons of anarchy cus the lyrics will probably make a lot more sense to u lol

voicemail by vict molina

sendflowrs:

when everything goes wrong
and all i can smell is smoke
I promise this will be the last time
the last time I ever choke
I feel intoxicated 
the violence is killing me
I just got one last thing to do
and then I think that its time to leave

bury me a son,
bury me with my friends
and im nothing without this club
but I just want it to end
I said bury me a son
my brother we will meet again
and im telling you my love
I just wish we could start again, we could start again

skele:

we can start again
this can’t be the end 
i had so much for us to do 
and i don’t know who’s a friend 
i might be broke but i’ll mend
i don’t wanna do this without you

honestly, i know i never meant a thing, love 
i’d give you anything
i’d bleed until the days done 
n honestly i know you’re already gone 
i just wish you wanted to hold my heart 


sendflowrs:

so I sit here, on my roof,
write another thought down
about you
I know im not my father
what should I do?
need to lock this shit down
and get a move
need to clear my head right
think ill take another ride
in the night time
oh this town it comes alive
heart is air tight
I cant let you read the lines
oh my love I 
think its
time for me to go 

so just bury me a son,
bury me with my friends
and im nothing without this club
but I just want it to end
I said bury me a son
my brother we will meet again
and im telling you my love
I just wish we could start again, we could start again

bury me w/ skele (jolst)

(prod. moneo)

shoutout soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for makin this wit me 

enjoy :))

lyrics:

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x2
don’t go around blamin’ the world for this; for me 

I am an extra in your movie 
don’t try and argue I’ll just leave 
we both know that we aren’t perfect we’re far from it 
far from roots we’ve grown a bit  

loving you something else.
I need a second chance, I’ll rip my heart apart from night to day.
I miss ur face could you please say the 3 dumb words that mean so much
it’s hard to hurt when you’re leanin on a crutch 
but baby, please 
don’t tell me that it’s all a fkn dream

skele:

bleed out 
i watched you fall 
just look at me now 

please don’t scream out 
i couldn’t take that sound 
you were all i had 

i’m so bad for you 
all the things i’ve been through 
always drag us down 
is it too late now 
i’m so in love with you 
anything i could do 
i would do for you 
i would cut thru my skin oh my god 
spilling out over the ground

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x4

pavement

spotify

pavement w/skele

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

ｏｎｅ　ｄａｙ　ｔｈｅｙ＇ｌｌ　ｈｅａｒ　ｍｅ　ｏｕｔ



prod. @jeweler737
thank you so much for listening.
thank you for being here.
x

i won't get this right
i never do
just another night,
where i think of you
and i know it's hard to cover all that spite
i do it really well, with a dulled knife
mom i'm sorry if you hear this
i never wanna speak up on how i'm really feeling
i know that you fear it; me leaving this planet
but i want to every moment
i've been caught in my own headlights
they're too blind to notice
turned to my own hand, in search of an answer
but all i receive are emotion enhancers
i've been down like forever
as far as i can possibly remember
(so dismembered)
i wouldn't wanna hurt an ant,
but i'm so selfish
i just can't help it
and i'm so sorry, i'm just not sober
here comes october
i'm getting older
just another disorder, that i didn't order
goodbye sweet child
i no longer can hold you
i don't even know you
here come's the morning
i'm one step closer
maybe i'll get an answer
but i don't have the energy to speak right now
(nor feel)
one day they'll hear me out.
oh,
we're among the earth, beneath the dirt
i feel it all, besides my worth
so all i have are these verbal words
i can't figure out if it's a bless or curse
oh what a mess i've made of me
i won't get past twenty-three
so here i am, still brittling
imagining all that i wanna be
will i ever be?

splitting hairs while the universe has it's back turnt.
a naive child leading oneself into great danger
letting greater danger bid on the outcome.
eyes creeping open ever so softly
are we in
are we...
how come?

fomalhaut [prod. jewelryboy]

Produced by Branwen
featuring sewerperson
lyrics:
feeling myself expand my mind
I dont wanna talk mind filled with knifes
I dont wanna talk just to hurt u now 
I could never forgive myself if I hurt u
whatcha tell me yea u hate me so 
I dont really care I sold my soul
u could go ahead and bury me

feeling myself expand my mind
I dont wanna talk mind filled with knifes
I dont wanna talk just to hurt u now 
I could never forgive myself 
whatcha tell me yea u hate me so
whatcha telling me isn't making sense
whatcha telling me doesn't hurt me yea
whatcha telling me doesn't help me grow

could u help me yea I lost my way 
could u help me out yea im bleeding out 
im not giving into the pressure
u dont want me now in a second you'll haunt me
cross on my chest ur not gettin near me 
when im in a rage I just hope u dont fear me
she just wanna fight I dont wanna fight

Feeling myself I dont need ur pride
Overworking myself on a Thursday night
Sick of myself and my hopeful mind
Take a look at dry mouth and my blood shot eyes
Soggy old pelts
In the rain we survive
Oh im Cooking myself 
So u could Eat me alive
With the sos out
There’ll be no help now
Blood lines the camp ground
Of where we will die
Farwell 
She will never ever leave home now
Every time a tragedy comes around
She cant move or anything and shuts down
Brain cells
Wrapped around the fingers of the devil
When we heard the cry we should’ve come home
Now we lay in dirt graves all alone
We are all alone
Eating myself from inside my head
I been thinking just how I could tell my friends
No one cared then for the things I said
All it took in the end was the guilt of a death

feeling myself expand my mind
I dont wanna talk mind filled with knifes
I dont wanna talk just to hurt u now 
I could never forgive myself 
whatcha tell me yea u hate me so
whatcha telling me isn't making sense
whatcha telling me doesn't hurt me yea
whatcha telling me doesn't help me grow

could u help me yea I lost my way 
could u help me out yea im bleeding out 
im not giving into the pressure
u dont want me now in a second you'll haunt me
cross on my chest ur not gettin near me 
when im in a rage I just hope u dont fear me
she just wanna fight I dont wanna fight

feelin' myself (she dont) feat sewerperson [prod.branwen]

ｓｃａｔｔｅｒ　ｍｙ　ａｓｈ　ｔｈｅｎ　ｐｕｔ　ｆｌｏｗｅｒｓ　ｉｎ

keep going
love you guys.
ty all so so much for the support recently
check up on your friends, and in retrospect, more importantly yourself.
thank you so much for listening.
prod @cartermetro x @gavinhadley 🖤

(i barely feel at home right now)
(so i sedate through the drink and hope it all works out)

cauterize with the lime
press on the wound 'till i start feeling fine
why are the genuine so hard to find
but if i was counterfeit,
i would shatter on the ground when i fall
call; anyone but me at all
i'm out my element, don't be afraid though
i feel like porcelain
scatter my ash then put flowers in

i ain't want screen time
they think i ain't worth shit when my light dies
but i'll brush it off and say, "fine, yeah."
just don't get back to me for hi's
'cause that was our last goodbye

(who am i?) (2x)

avoid coming 'cross me
i don't talk often
sugarcoated but without the chocolate
you got the message, so ignore the comments
but my heart is nauseous, that's the problem
i drink and repeat 'cause i love the peak
down with his men-tal, knights, now the king
stuck in this hell, into hell i will sink
if i died, would you grieve?
i'd like to believe
and i can't remember how i felt
the moment had seized me, it's really so evident
all that remains are reminders and remnants
i wish i told you how i felt.

wade through the rain
cherish the moment
difficulties only prove they're golden
full exhaust, eyes sewn wide open
regard me as dust
just a road with no bliss

foaming at the lips
if i'm human, i admit
i hold a heavy distaste for what you have to say
but i'll listen
i'll listen anyways

cauterize with the lime
press on the wound 'till i start feeling fine
why are the genuine so hard to find
but if i was counterfeit,
i would shatter on the ground when i fall
call; anyone but me at all
i'm out my element, don't be afraid though
i feel like porcelain
scatter my ash then put flowers in

porcelain [prod. cxrter x gavin hadley]

9tails - im sorry (prod. killedmyself)

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

and i'm trynna get my money up
travel where the dreams come true 
when people make it it's never luck
except when it comes to you 

lately i been asking for help
sadly with no1 to come thru 
they say i just think bout myself
i'm trynna keep myself away from the box made out of wood

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how 

drugs keep me afloat
wavs keep me from ending it all
sometimes i wish u crushed my throat
so i woulnd't have to feel at all
so i wouldn't've to deal with all
the bullshit i get involved 
with everysingle day 
cause it just means a new headache 

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

autie