Soundcloud Enthusiast But Part 2

SEE 2

Bessarion

acoustic

bess

She Hates Me

i am an icon with pollution in my eyes
i am subjected to experimental life
my head is filled with all the things you advertise
the common filth, the lie, the mental hell online

the world is easier to give up all the time
no point in hedonism if you are deprived
live on in agony or go ahead and die
oh, happy apathy, i'm so desensitized

mental hell online (common filth)

Fuck Off Acoustic

Resist Succubi Acoustic

erode me acoustic

i'll show you everything you've done
no point in trying to explain yourself
can't help it now
no words can leave your mouth
you'll reap exactly what you sow
it doesn't matter if you understand
the seeds will grow
they'll eat you up alive 

kiss it all goodbye
you'll be dead and in a coffin
you can wish that you knew why
but in the end you'll have forgotten
all these people drawing lines
parallels and intersections (partitions and connections)
crossing bridges between lives
tying strings into the other side

death never asked you for consent
forever is a moment's rest,
upon you now
breathing your own pollution
the blooming flower of your pride
has a weight so insupportable
it has to die
the stem cannot sustain the burden

(i am a man, a match, a burning mass, a billow of a flame
i am a soul a coal a fullness i'm unable to relate
my name is dream, my flesh is grass, and i grow older every day
my name is words, my flesh is dirt, my name is carved into a grave)

parallels and intersections

Lifes been real hard, you know im a fraud
Act tough all the time, but inside I cry
Think im gonna hit the hay, maybe tonight I will see ya

Daydreams keep me sane, problems in my brain
You are all I want, I love you oh wait
Around me vision fades, alone again cause I just woke up

In the end it was all a dream
You're not real theres noone who loves me
You were always in my head, in an hour i'll forget ya

I've been real tired, always undesired
Never seen a girl, its all so absurd
Think im gonna hit the hay, maybe tonight I will see ya

In the end it was all a dream
You're not real theres noone who loves me
You were always in my head, in an hour i'll forget ya

You're Not Real

Fried By Fluoride - Gloom 4Ever acoustic

NEET - Ugly (acoustic)

with apologies and policies we try
to mend what we have made, to keep alive
our deadliest assumptions crystalize
for we built these cityscapes on ice.
 
now i've made my way to solid ground;
and i am but a stranger in this town.
i don't see why i should stick around:
they'll crucify me upside-down.
 
but how seldom does a man lay down his life?
how selfish is the need to satisfy?
you'll never truly live until you die.
so let your heart belong to christ.
 
there's no reason you should be unsure
don't you see this place is so absurd?
and hell is just a place where people burn
their future to keep the present warm.
 
i am a speck,
you are a treasure.
i'm dying just to be
something that's of use.

something thats of use

slightly rewrote a song from high school. this is a cry to my fellow man to make a change in themselves, and in doing so, start making a change to their environment

people, we cause each other pain
just look at the mess we've made
how many souls have we profaned
when we all look the same?
(if only just to pass the blame)

you could save me from myself
or save me from breaking down
i swear i'm stupid can't you tell
i tried to be profound
you could save me from being used
i'm tired of this game
oh, all i wanted was the truth
instead you gave me pain.

people, hey have you heard enough?
all you need is love
one word we've lost the meaning of
won't you call my bluff?
start by giving up.

you could save my from myself
or save me from breaking down
i swear i'm stupid can't you tell?
i thought i was profound/we've built our own damn hell
you could save me from being used
pull me out of this game
oh, all i wanted was the truth
i never asked for pain.

people

i'm so sick of seeing smut
it seems like my whole generation
sold its soul, to feed its lust

i wanted a wife, all i found was sluts
an honest man has no more trust
no more hope, in humanity 

and all the time i've waited for my life to fall apart

work hard at nothing til i'm right back at the start
it's useless

i'm wrapped in plastic products
and soon you'll see me in a box
no more stuff could fill this void 

i'm fed up with distraction,
my descecrated lover
i'm a stranger in my own home

and all the time i've waited for my life to fall apart
working hard at nothing til i'm right back at the start
it's useless

stranger in my own home

useless philosophy
waste of my energy
mental pornography
unattainable ideology
 
there's no point in being wrong. woe
there's no point in being right. woe
and everything you've ever done
will coincide
 
your opinions are just desperation
place the blame upon the world and you'll feel alright
nothing tangible in an idea
nothing capable of changing your life
 
waiting for something
caught in a pipe dream
think you're contrary
you're a branch off the mainstream
 
there's nowhere else for us to run, woe
there's nowhere else for us to hide, woe
when everything is said and done
does it matter why?

blackpilled

very based (old)

some songs by the band i was in before we broke up. we never made official recordings.

We Will Waste

trophy girls - grushenka

I dropped out of college 
I don’t have a job and
I don’t leave my bedroom
There’s nothing I really want to do 

I’m such a lazy fucker 
Stay on my ass forever 
I’m such a lazy fucker
I’m never getting better

I just lounge all day long 
on my phone, somethings wrong 
Got no goals, got no life 
I just waste all my time 


I’m such a lazy fucker 
Stay on my ass forever 
I’m such a lazy fucker
I’m never getting better

Lazy Fucker

intro: A...C#m...A...C#m...Cm...Bm...D...Dm

A........C#m
I am happy
A.......C#m...Cm....Bm
I am happy to be sad
Bm ...........................................................D.............Dm
I've given up on trying to make you understand

A...........C#m
I am sincere
A...........C#m.....Cm.......Bm
I am sincerely full of crap
Bm...........................................................D.................Dm
When the irony ceases to help me cope with that

A......................C#m
All I make is noise
A........................C#m........Cm........Bm
Trying to express my point of view
Bm.........................................................D....................Dm
Empty words reverberate on nothing in this world

A..........................C#m
I speak into the void
A...............C#m........Cm........Bm
Curses to use against my soul
Bm..............................................D.............Dm
Echos to the eschaton forever to be told

A........F#m..D..........Bm
My oh my, why can't I
A.................F#m...D........Bm
change my life, valentine?

(cancer on society
caustic instability
crass insensitivity
product of modernity)

outro: D...Dm.... (A)

valentine (demo)

Im so afraid to speak, im scared of everything
everyones watching me, they know that im a freak
im staring at the floor, what am i living for?
i want to be normal, why cant i be normal?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

im staying home again, i dont have any friends
afraid of what they'll think, i shrivel up and shrink
they know im low iq, they know i failed at school
i am a fucking joke, why am i such a joke?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

Too Neurotic

songs against self

valentine

constancy

Yelling At Inanimate Objects Instead of You

i wanna believe
all the years of indoctrination
i wanna be
a normie with a vaccination
on my knees before the name of Science

i wanna see
equality and emasculation
i'll feel guilty
for being born a caucasian

tell me dreams to the CIA
cause all the normal people are turning gay
i don't want them to think im dangerous
so i'll buy the things and i won't have kids
and i'll masturbate and i'll stay inside
and i'll watch tv til my suicide
and i'll video game and i'll never pray
and i'll smoke the evil thoughts away
and i'll hate dissent and i'll stay in line
and i'll be complicit in my genocide
and i'll mutilate my dignity
i'll be the last branch in my family tree
i'll be the last branch in my family tree
i'll be the last branch

stranger in my own home

bessarion