That im fucked up im the head 🥹🔥😤🥹

This made number 1 spot on my soundcloud 2023 playback ❤️

produced by @jolst and @sainttomorrow <3
out now on youtube through biteki & static:
https://youtu.be/DWpNablizm0
https://youtu.be/nEK_a4oFms8

music video:
https://youtu.be/95Kayd1Rpiw

hope u enjoy :)

lyrics:
i let my soul drift away just to feel something again
i sold my conscience for free, nothing to see but a man without his skin

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

plenty people consider hitting my phone again
i don’t mind but i’d rather just be alone again
findin peace in my soul life ain’t that innocent
if i wanted em to be, things would be different
quiet nights in my attic, now the static is loud
i just wanna see my dad again and make him proud
tired of the recycled life i’m bottling up
smoked a little bit too much and now i’m throwing up

whats in the water, i wonder...
sink to the river, discover
see my reflection in ripples
i think i need you a little
more than i’d admit
i find it hard to reminisce
feel my stomach start to twist
and now i’m back with those i miss
woahhh

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

enter the forest, forget life
i’ve done this shit for the last time x2

enter the forest, forget life

enter the forest, forget life [p. jolst x saint tomorrow]

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enter the forest, forget life [jolst x saint tomorrow]

lyrics vvv

my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
i wrote a note 
but i burned it so u wont find out
stayed up all night
all night..
my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
figure it out, no
figure it out..
my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
figure it out, no
figure it out..

yeah i found out where im from
ion like it so i gotta run
yeah i gotta gun
might just use it for fun
might just fuck up my lungs
flipping a bird to the sun
bitch its zero to one, yeah

stayed up all night..

my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
figure it out, no
figure it out..
my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
figure it out, no
figure it out..

yeah i found out where im from
ion like it so i gotta run
yeah i gotta gun
might just use it for fun
might just fuck up my lungs
flipping a bird to the sun
bitch its zero to one, yeah


im not coming home.

figure it out.. (skellington x cherry)

trash

prod. @sorrow_bringer 🖤


~~lyrics~~
fuck where’s the trust
leading lust, between us 
heating up, on the cusp 
self-destruct, blowing up
into dust
i wanna fall
(don't wanna fall)
into my own hellish spiral

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blow my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

co-depend, don’t forget
that i’m fucked up in the head
leavings cuts cause i’m not enough
and you won’t believe a single thing i said

i got too much on my plate
so i just puke it up & regurgitate
i do not fuck with the fate
pushing away the people
that would try to relate

trust my spirit
(where is the trust?!)
do you hear it now?
(i’m not enough)
it hurts falling down
just let me drown

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blew my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

i know what i’m doing, i know what i did
what i would give to go back to a kid
selfishness underneath my skin
to begin again, i would have to end
i’m a letdown, fight it off
hellbound, so fucking lost
count down, until i’m gone
ultimately i’m not what you want

(3x)
not what you want
(yeah…)

hellish spirals [prod. sorrowbringer]

[hero]

i hop in the shower with my clothes on
sing to myself till i burst a lung
i hop in the shower with my clothes on
yeah this warm water washes it away

[@navyxower]

yeah it washes it away, when im not doin so great
yeah you takin all ur drugs, just to wipe away ur pain
sit and cry about my feelings in the shower, so i stay
i think im loosin grip and yet, deaths scaring me away
its, visual all our lives just fade away
and all my tears, will wipe away
its all i want for you to stay, oh oh
yeah i hop right in the shower with my clothes on
thinkin every night what do i try, for
i wish i had you everynight to hold me on to giving grace
i wonder in three years, can u just look me in the face

[hero x @navyxower]

i hop in the shower with my clothes on
singing to myself am i best alone
i hop in the shower with my clothes on
yeah this warm water washes it away

[hero]

i hop in the shower with my clothes on
sing to myself till i burst a lung
i hop in the shower with my clothes on
yeah this warm water washes it away

shower thoughts (ft. navyxower) (boyfifty)

produced by autrioly 

completely non profit

lyrics

he keeps their heads in a box
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher rips us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock

he keeps their heads in a box
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher tears us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock

lately I just wanna sleep more
I been smoking weed more
I been getting blisters up on top of my hands and feet more
I just need to record
airing out these deep flaws
I just felt like moving on and I ran out of deep words

maybe I forgot that I was born for this
couldn't sell a soul that wasn't mine to give
sport a flowrs hoodie that doesn't fit
2 years I'm in UK bro we can link n shit

shoulda figured out that I'ma pessimist
I got uber eats bags stacked pyramid 
shirt n tie, uniform, yeah apron fit
even with artist block bro I cannot miss

everyone gather round yeah look at this
veins broke down again blew this bitch
bone broke plaster knuckles split
murder it yucky like I took a shit

I just saw the future I decided I don't like it
throw away the map if there's a way then I can find it
I just need somebody who can show me where the light is
I just got these images burnt inside of my eyelids

he keeps their heads in a box 
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher rips us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
the soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock



secretsauceshh (autrioly)

¥$, Kanye West & Ty Dolla $ign - FUTURE SOUNDS

Lyrics:
Feelin like a low down, ghost town, leave em on the road now
Packed up all your stuff, and you left me all alone, My flow, it goes, you dont keep it on the low
I can tell girl that you want me cause you leakin through your clothes

Got a bottle full of gin, while I'm locked up innis bih
Cause I'm 'fraid to go outside, shawty you know how it is
Better not breathe in the air, that you poison when I'm there
Cause I'm choking on your lies, and you know that it ain't fair

Baby you dont gotta cry tho
You still by my side tho
Always gotta wonder now what's runnin through your mind tho
Maybe we'll get high tho
Laugh about good times tho
Up until I panic and I pass out on the ride home

Cause I know you'll keep me, safe-from-all-of-this
And I know you'll lead me, close as I can get
You cant see me reach me, pour a cup of gin
But I'm faded lean be, spilling down my chin

Lowdown

lowdown

@sewerperson
@guccihighwaters

prod by me oobv get w the times

Down and Out (feat. sewerperson & guccihighwaters)

produced by the one & only: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @decksmusic & @nevermadeithome

lyrics:

sendflowrs:

it’s been a year since we left and we’re still not fuckin talkin,
left my home at 16, it feels like i’m still runnin 
why am i so upset?
i broke my nose now i’m covered in red,
and will you promise, stay right by my side?
it’s cold out there my love, pls just stay with me tonight 
just put your phone away yeah, i don’t wanna fight
(cus i know that i can’t trust u,
i know that i can’t trust u)

look what you did yeah, look at the mess that you made,
boy i’m good everywhere, each city i’m the thane 
fire up my bow yea the skies are turning grey,
fire up my flow yea best pray for it to rain

(cus i’ve been walking,
on my own,
never delete your number 
out my phone
she loves that fucking powder in her nose,
loves that fuckin powder, loves that fuckin powder, yeah)

decks:

it never even mattered to me
i said it was a problem but i lied thru my teeth
you’re the only one that i wanna see
dont wanna cause a scene, i don’t wanna intervene but

look at the way that u treat me
and deceive me
now im leaving
i don’t wanna be a problem
but you beat me
now im fleeting
and i tweet about it every day but now i need to “let it go”
i wish you could save me but i know you’re not my antidote
and yeah i know that im obsessed with you
or maybe i just like the idea
and i know that i need to get it through
my fuckin skull and get up out of here



nevermadeithome:

Well can you get the fuck out of my brain now 
im fuckin pissed off with you constantly being there 
And everytime that im walking around town 
I swear i see your face on everybodys head 
All your friends, they are fucking dead to me
They all knew, that you cheated 
I hope that your next boyfriend 
Goes out never made it home again 
I think ive just finally got over you 
Get outta my mind girl 
Stop hitting my line girl 
Even though your fine girl 
I dont wanna see you again 
Laying in my bed at night 
I cant see your eyes for the first time 
For the first time in my life 
My life 
My life 
Im upset 
In my life

upset :( w/ decks & nevermadeithome

Lyrics:
the sun has just set and im looking at lights
on top of a hill while i sip on this vice
the darkness is closing in i say im fine
just give me some space while i pour up this wine

im sending this letter hope it finds you well
im not doing great that's if you couldnt tell
i know that you're fine so this is my farewell
was good while it lasted fell under your spell

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
and now im climbing into bed i wanna have that dream
where im happy only reason that i go to sleep

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
you used to say that you believe in all i could achieve
but now its nothing more than just a memory to be grieved

im a ghost now
im a ghost now
got no host now
i do the most now

and I remember used to talk about just cruisin to the coast
but you always hated water so we never took a boat
and im drowning in my feelings like the ocean i cant float
you could catch me at the bottom cause i sink just like a stone

i dont know, where to go, cause i drift, like the snow
now im out, in the cold, got no love, got no soul
got no heart, jus a flow, pay the bills, you dont know
how im dead, now you know, that im done, so ill go

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
and now im climbing into bed i wanna have that dream
where im happy only reason that i go to sleep

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
you used to say that you believe in all i could achieve
but now its nothing more than just a memory to be grieved

im a ghost now
im a ghost now
got no host now
i do the most now

hellish spirals [prod. sorrowbringer]

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