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作詞 . 作曲: 秋田ひろむ (from Amazarashi)
Original performed by Nakashima Mika
cover art: Natz (though I can't draw LOL)
I own nothing save my euheuh-voice and pathetic mixing ;;w;;
m(/////)m
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at first I listened to this, I couldn't think anything else beside NakaMika's voice... it's so 'new' to me >////<;)~ I love it though~ <3
but the second time Ilistened to this, I learned that the lyrics is asdfghjkl!! ;;w;; aaaaaa~ //eh
after that, I listened to Amazarashi's songs and asfghjkl!!! AMG!!
....sorry for rambling ;;w;;
sorry for everything, again, and always
and I dedicated this song for..... my family, my friends,
people who knows me //eh
and people who gave me inspirations ;;w;;
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kanji & translation?

僕が死のうと思ったのは
ウミネコが桟橋で鳴いたから
波の随意に浮かんで消える
過去も啄ばんで飛んでいけ
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
was because sea mews cried at the dock
Even the past that is floating and disappearing on waves’ voluntary
Pick up and fly away

僕が死のうと思ったのは
誕生日に杏の花が咲いたから
その木漏れ日でうたた寝したら
虫の死骸と土になれるかな
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
was because the apricot flowers bloomed on my birth day
If I took a nap in the sunlight filtering through trees
Would I become dirt together with insect’s corpses?

薄荷飴　漁港の灯台
錆びたアーチ橋　捨てた自転車
木造の駅のストーブの前で
どこにも旅立てない心
今日はまるで昨日みたいだ
明日を変えるなら今日を変えなきゃ
分かってる　分かってる　けれど
Pepperment candy, lighthouse of fishing port
Rusty bridge arch, discarded bicycle
In front of the stove of the wooden station
The heart that can’t wander anywhere
Today is like yesterday
If I want to change tomorrow, I have to change this day
I understand it, I understand it, but—

僕が死のうと思ったのは
心が空っぽになったから
満たされないと泣いているのは
きっと満たされたいと願うから
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because my heart has became empty
The reason why I’m crying “I can’t get enough”
Must be because I hope of getting fulfilled

僕が死のうと思ったのは
靴紐が解けたから
結びなおすのは苦手なんだよ
人との繋がりもまた然り
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because my shoelaces were loosened
I’m weak at re-tying it
That’s why I take care of the bond with people

僕が死のうと思ったのは
少年が僕を見つめていたから
ベッドの上で土下座してるよ
あの日の僕にごめんなさいと
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because a boy looking at me
I’m kneeling down on the bed
Saying to me of that day, “I’m sorry”

パソコンの薄明かり
上階の部屋の生活音
インターフォンのチャイムの音
耳を塞ぐ鳥かごの少年
見えない敵と戦ってる
六畳一間のドンキホーテ
ゴールはどうせ醜いものさ
Pale light of PC
Sound of life from the room upstairs
Sound of intercom’s chime
The boy in the cage, is blocking his ears
Fighting with invisible enemy
Don Quixote between the six tatami room
His goal is an ugly thing, anyway

僕が死のうと思ったのは
冷たい人と言われたから
愛されたいと泣いているのは
人の温もりを知ってしまったから
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because I was told “a cold person”
The reason why I’m crying “I want to be loved”
Was because I have already known of people’s warmth 

僕が死のうと思ったのは
あなたが綺麗に笑うから
死ぬことばかり考えてしまうのは
きっと生きる事に真面目すぎるから
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because you’re smiling beautifully
The reason why I tend to wonder only about dying
Must be because I’m too serious about living

僕が死のうと思ったのは
まだあなたに出会ってなかったから
あなたのような人が生まれた
世界を少し好きになったよ
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because I hadn’t met you yet
This world where a person like you was born
I became to like it a little

あなたのような人が生きてる
世界に少し期待するよ
This world where a person like you is living in
I’m expecting at it a little

credit kanji: http://kanpekimusic.wordpress.com/2013/08/30/mika-nakashima-boku-ga-shinou-to-omotta-kashi-pv/
translation: by (lame) natz

[Natz] 僕が死のうと思ったのは .The Reason Why I Thought of Wanting to Die. (Vocal Cover; #pitchchanged)

Death Parade Original Soundtrack — 10. Moonlit Night

Anime: デス・パレード
"Death Parade"

Artist: Hayashi Yuki
Genre: Instrumental

Death Parade OST #4: Jin Wa Ikiru Mono

Death Parade OST #5: Memento Mori

Last Theater

ｙｏｕ ｃｏｍｐｌｅｔｅ ｍｅ．

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prod. DeadForest excl.

ft. allan watts






woke up being saved by the bell
and incase you couldn’t tell
i didn’t take it very well
cos this life’s been killing me ever since it begun
and this days not any different from any other one


feels pretty good but it doesnt feel right
theres voices in my head but i just want quiet
i need closure
and every seconds just like the first
I’ve learnt to like and love the hurt
it gets closer


woke up with a rope around my neck
and id rather be dead
than have you wrapped around my head
should’ve listened to that man upon my shoulder
who told me love is pain but pain last longer


feels pretty good but it doesnt feel right
theres voices in my head but i just want quiet
i need closure
and every seconds just like the first
I’ve learnt to like and love the hurt
it gets closer

august

remastered 9.21.17

thank you so much for 100k plays

Sample: Turnover - Disintegration

street lights

prod killedmyself
vocals recorded at bridge east studios

and if i make it through the week 
you’re still fucking dead to me 
i know its been some time 
but i wish to never speak 
its haunting in my brain 
but i think I’m fine now 
im ok 
its like i always said before 
I’m going on and through the pain 
playing back the sounds 
of cutting myself down 
ill rooted matter 
on tarnished ground 
but don’t worry 
I’m leaving now 
give us all the break we need 
from a fucking piece of shit like me 

and ill always be nothing 
but that doesn’t bother me 
feeling sorry isn’t helping 
but feeling sad gives me relief

ill stay away for life

prod. https://soundcloud.com/oilcolor

[lyrics]
I can’t fucking think of any words to say
& I can’t fucking think of any reason I should stay

Can you give one to me
Before I up and leave
Can you make me believe
This wasn’t for nothing

You took whatever you could find
You didn’t even look behind
Keep saying sorry, fuck your lies
I see evil in your perfect eyes

So tell me,

Was I everything you dreamed of 
When you dreamed that I was the one
Was it all worth it, you fucking nightmare
Now that you realize I’m really gone 

Was I everything you dreamed of 
When you dreamed of fallen in love
I don’t deserve this, you fucking nightmare
I hope it kills you to know I’m the one 

Now that you realize I’m really gone 

I hope you fucking die alone

I wanna die alone

Was I everything you dreamed of
When you dreamed that I was the one
Was it all worth it, you fucking nightmare
Now that you realize the one is gone 

I hope you die alone

I hope you cry to this song
I hope you cry to this song…

Cry To This (prod. oilcolor)

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first vocal track released as 'cabe' so tell me what you think. there will be more next year...
other vocals and beats @kryptik_official

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lyrics:
it started with a sweet kiss . i guess you were my weakness...
somethings on your mind. tell me why
all the love was sweet bliss. red roses with the cheap tricks
somethings on your mind. tell me I'm the reason why
i never felt from the start, just numb
tell me I'm the fucking reason for this outcome...
all these feelings i can't outrun...

yeah.. 
i saw that you called...aye...
fuck that shit guess i'll miss them all... girl,
i thought you was the best of them all... but...
i was the dumbest one of them all... yeah...
fuck it pack another bowl... yeah...
all i have to do is make a call... aye
ring ring ring thats her on the phone... 
knock knock knock on the door now its on...

from the start (prod. nadiak)

its been a while so i'd thought id share this. new project soon. hopefully some videos 

produced by reaper - https://soundcloud.com/prodreaper
picture - https://soundcloud.com/nova1599

Lyrics:
Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling
We're sad but balling

These days i wake with an attitude
She's like why you mad at me?
Baby I'm not mad at you
I just hate the world and all the things that I've had to do
Bad decisions with some bad intentions 
Oh baby I'm bad for you
But you're good for me
Fuck it we'll call that chemistry
You want us to grow old together like an oak tree
But baby I'm growing tired and I'm only twenty three 

Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling 
Orange  bottles full we're sad but balling
Young dumb boys making money thats appalling
If we grow old we'll have trouble recalling

I'm living in the now why the fuck you stalling?
Been making money ever since star shopping
I got smile but inside I'm sobbing
You can hate on me but the money keeps coming

Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling 
Orange  bottles full we're sad but balling
Young dumb boys making money thats appalling
If we grow old we'll have trouble recalling

vices got me falling (prod. reaper)

lyrics: 

baby i would die for u
suicideforu
i don't know where ur at where u been
but i'm so proud of u
baby i'm a fragile soul
i'm jus reapin what i sowed
i think i might lose control
spin the wheel n then i roll
u say u don't love urself
i could love enough for the both of us
i'd be happier if it was just the 2 of us
i wish i was happy as those pictures u drew
all the shit i go thru 
i'm still cryin without u

baby suicideforu 
take my fuckin life for u
i just want u to be happy pain u shouldn't go thru
baby i'm a fuckin mess
i feel heartache in my chest
maybe i just need some rest
maybe in time i'll forget
i just wanna love u again
i still wanna be more than just friends
ill be here for u u til my bitter end
for right now i guess i'll just pretend

suicideforu

prod @prodreaper

lyrics:

and i don't really want no new friends
all of you are fake and pretend
selling off the fake sadness 
while you're smiling, counting money from the reposts
but that's fine, that's fine

but you're not really sad at night 
you're just laying in your bedroom
while i'm staring at the ceiling, crying 
i'm always crying 
cause i'm just scared of everything that's coming

and i don't really want no new friends
all of you fake and pretend 
selling off the fake sadness
while you're smiling 
counting money from the reposts 
but that's fine, that's fine

heartless, pretend 
no heart, disguised in your lies 
you don't really care 
you don't really care

no heart (prod. reaper)

you’re telling me to
back down
go home
find another way out
but i know that is not what it’s really about
this town smoked out
got your head in the clouds
something’s got me feeling like we’re all going down

you wouldn’t like it if i was just like you
i don’t even like me and i’m nothing like you
i can’t just pretend
that this is time well spent

i try to sleep the day away and say i’m too busy for everything
and everyone cus i’m no fun
rather play roulette with a loaded gun

this is the town that stole my heart
this is the town that ripped it apart
these are the friends i won’t forget
even if they treat me like shit

you’re telling me to
back down
go home
find another way out
but i know that is not what it’s really about
this town washed out
got your head in the clouds
something’s got me feeling like we’re all going down

you wouldn’t like it if i was just like you
i don’t even like me and i’m nothing like you
i can’t just pretend
that this is time well spent
(repeat)

lights on
exposure burns
manipulated
by now i’ve learned
your words mean dirt
trading blows and now you’ll feel the hurt

tough luck
now you fucked up
put your hands up
shoot low
that’s a low blow
time to let go
tough luck
now you fucked up
call it tough love
put your hands up
let’s go
(repeat)

can’t bite the hand that feeds
when it beats out all your teeth
can’t bite the hand that feeds
when it beats out your teeth

yearbook (ft. Capstan)

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