my most creatively free project i've ever done. every weakness in me embodied in each track.

all credits will be in the description for each song

art by @n9kki

Lines of Death

i tried at least.

production: me
mixing & mastering: me & windfield @findwield

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lyrics:

these last few months in these thin walls
blood spilt w words, i’ve been through it all
n i grow tired day by day 
watching all my “friends” leave me 
wish they’d just stayed...
don’t know who i am anymore
i just don’t wanna b ignored
sick of it all…
cuz i’ve changed for y’all for far too long 
n all ur lies roll off ya tongue 
i’m done j being what u want 
it’s clear that i do not belong 

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk 
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me 
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further 
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

my memory’s faded and i’ve lost who i am
this piece i’ve painted, fragments of what was then 
let’s leave it in the past
let it decay to ash
let it just falter… away
feel like my whole life, i’ve been erased
always made me feel like i’m a waste
wishing i could never ever wake 
people switching up on me, it’s hard to say 
but i don’t really feel a thing but apathy
yeah every part of me is numb to pain 
everyday is just a cycle of my misery
and i hate it
cuz it’s always my fault and i’m always the cause of my fall

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk 
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me 
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further 
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

stream <3

same old me

a song ab my struggle and journey w/ identity and dysphoria :)

ty to @nclkyr for being on this with me <3

production: soma @prodsoma
mixing & mastering: orchid @0rch_id & me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

[verse]
ripped all my clothes from my closet
couldn’t bear it
tried breaking every mirror in my home
couldn’t do it
never felt quite right in this body of mine
it’s like i’m living a lie and i feel locked inside
been tryna find the answers to this all my life
but still i hide…

[pre-chorus]
i could dress like this
and i could talk like that
but it would never amount
this feeling just won’t quit
no matter what i do
it lingers back to me
can’t run away…

[chorus]
cuz every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be anymore
x2

[verse: kyra]
im scared to know whats right and wrong 
cuz everything just takes too long 
the way that everyone looks good
and im just stuck here, im thinking 
wish i could do it again and again 
i feel so amazing when im in a dress 
little do they know…
i just dont know who i am anymore

[chorus]
every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be…

[post-chorus]
i could be just like them
or anything that i want
in between or nothing at all
it doesn’t matter to me
cuz in the end, i may not know
what i really want, idk
but i finally know who i am

[outro] (avit + kyra)
who i am 12x
yeah i finally know who i am…

just like them feat. Kyra (Prod. Soma)

produced by me & ginko (@ginkomo)
mixed & mastered by ginko

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youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

in time, i'll learn (Prod. AViT & Radio Ginko)

with @prodmusa :)

produced by ria @ria_chuelo & me
mixed & mastered by me

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youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
the numbers going down
and i can’t get enough
obsessed with all my pounds
its been so fucking tough
counting everything i eat
throwing up what i don’t need
the sight of it just makes me sick
dont wanna take the risk
i cant quit it
each day just passes by
don’t even know why i try anymore

its all on the floor 
what i see, i deplore
but i just want it more
dont have any remorse
its all on the floor 
what i see, i deplore
but i just want it more
dont have any remorse

hallowed bones wither away
just rip my cuts I hate my skin
a silhouette of nothing appears in my room while my house is on fire

used to call me everyday when u need my help
when i’m breaking down this bed it’s like show & tell 
you just say you would choose your words carefully 
it’s not how it’s supposed to be

the darkness surrounds me
my eyes bleed when I sleep
these mirrors around me…
my eyes bleed when I see
the darkness surrounds me
my eyes bleed when I sleep
these mirrors around me…
my eyes bleed when I see

deplorable feat. Musa (Prod. Ria & AViT)

w/ @jacynyte :)

produced by @prodsoma , @zekzo099 & @nicopatty
mixed & mastered by me

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youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:

i laid bare everything that made me weak
yet every1 knew me more than i did 
and i could never see myself from where they stood
until i finally looked deep inside my soul
and now..

i can see where the lines meet
and every weakness in between
my bloodshot eyes tell me all i need
so you will never have to peek
written on these closing walls
the words i never got to speak
so i embrace it, all my wrongs 
and finally i feel so free

but it just feels so fucking fake
told all the time that i should change 
in truth, u never believed in me 
to overcome what i became 
but it’s not ur fault
it just wasn’t enough
everything that you say 
(is) like a knife through my heart
and to think that we could end it all
in the blink of an eye, these lines just halt

i can see where the lines meet
and every weakness in between
my bloodshot eyes tell me all i need
so you will never have to peek
written on these closing walls
the words i never got to speak
so i embrace it, all my wrongs 
and finally i feel so free

the way i look and how i talk
don’t say you’re sorry it’s not your fault
my eyes are tired of it all
my every flaw always gets involved
already know what is wrong with me
the silent words just make it hard to breathe
try to force it but it’s hard to be who you’re supposed to see
wanna fall asleep till i…
cannot think about it anymore
let it hurt till it’s silent in my core
try to be me, just another thing i force
now every word you say is like a sword to my heart
let it all
fall apart
right where you can see it
these heartstrings tangled up with vines
let go, it’s way too much to hide

lines of death feat. Jacy Nyte (Prod. Soma, Zekzo & Nicopatty)

produced by me, soma & nicopatty @prodsoma @nicopatty
mixed & mastered by me

released under Loveshock @loveshockrecords

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youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

it sounds like i'm losing! (Prod. AViT, Soma & Nicopatty)

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