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endgame
i had a time n place to fall back into the fog
replay, id go back today
wish i never called it off
know im not one to just push it aside
i feel my lowest just steppin outside
brushin the dust off my lungs just to breathe alright
now i gotta take shit just to sleep at night

dim lights on my conscious
i crossed out my past mistakes cuz i just dont wanna process
im aware of all that time takes
i wont keep u guessin ima stay the same

surface tension i been making dents on top of water
im built from components held by PCB and solder
death watcher, keep it close to me
like i could just close the page but i dont bother
hold my head down underwater
to the slaughter
feel my soul levatate out of this shell when i step out
i really feel the distance now
it feels so wrong to stick around
coat on, i dont want a send off
threats artificial i fend off
dig straight down like a check off
bite my tongue, just wanted to just say it i held off

dim lights on my conscious
i crossed out my past mistakes cuz i just dont wanna process
im aware of all that time takes
i wont keep u guessin ima stay the same

replay i standup n pace, its all back to this
i cant concentrate, just hesitate
i pick up the pieces like whats to take
and like whats to say
i keep my mouth shut like what can be done
all a fuckin waste
i dont want a friend cause i have to face
that ive failed the people that stuck to me

dust

paperboy ft. swiiif (uglybeats)

I’ve never made a song about my upbringing when it comes to religion but was inspired to make this one day, maybe you’ll find some solace in this track and thank you for listening ~booj

support https://soundcloud.com/deadspyro



I never said that I was a believer
I don’t try to disprove so I guess I’m neither  

recite what’s on the page I’m not aware of what I’m saying 
my thoughts are on a swing they’re never still it’s always swaying 
hop up right on the scale with all the choices that I’m weighing
there’s just no chance I’m staying 
there’s just no chance I’m staying 

the praise is way too often where’s the meaning where’s the source 
they try to make you feel all safe and sound up in those doors 
I’m not okay that I had no say in what was placed inside my brain 
ironic in the way of how that window pain was stained 
it’s how I feel inside it’s partly beautiful disdain 
but the rest I’ll sum it up it’s pretty much revolving pain 
I don’t look back and see it as helpful more so detrimental
the judgement isn’t justified it’s only supplemental 

they say it’s bad manners 
when you don’t share but I don’t want none of what you got to offer not in there no
they say it’s all that matters 
when you reach a breaking point all that’s left is that you still get to own your share 

2X
recite what’s on the page I’m not aware of what I’m saying 
my thoughts are on a swing they’re never still it’s always swaying 
hop up right on the scale with all the choices that I’m weighing
there’s just no chance that I’m staying 
there’s just no chance that I’m staying

there's just no chance i'm staying (Dead Spyro)

sample by @shaedelea
https://soundcloud.com/shaedelea/leaves-of-our-time

think about it always
couldn't get me through the next day
trash bags full of paper plates
only see me on some holidays
now i'm here but it feels fake
don't want it now i guess i lost the taste
i cant feel resentment for the things that you still don't say
always tell myself that you can't grieve if you don't know me
feels like showin love is so phony
i dont have a friend, a single soul with me
see em always whine bout feelin lonely
ur friends are blowing up ur fuckin phone but you just don't read
u just want some woe is me
how do i invest into my life if i wanna cut it short
couldn't hold that over your head but it's still getting worse
whats to even say on that day, i
don't think that you'd fess that i'm a stranger
i just say it's complicated hiding under layers
thought i got it figured out cause it made sense to me on paper
im a soothsayer, light another taper
still forewarned bout my bones in a crater
ive been here this whole time
don't care to make em notice nah i dont try
i just do this shit n i dont know why
keep myself as visible here as i am in real life
i hold on to shame i keep it close and i don't know why

stranger

featuring my dawg @homesick

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

[@homesick:]
say goodbye, goodbye
send me off n shut the lights off
i can't expect you to live with this
no i won't spell it out for you
it's all wrong
i can't try to replace this
but i can keep my distance
let the memories keep me jaded
take what you want, i'm reapin the product
i'm serving sets of the shit i got wrong
n shit i cant talk, what i never wanted            
back to that spot it's so cold there
im a shadow with a blank stare
old coat with that old tear
i got a new spot with some old fears

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

liar w/ homesick (addyexo)

old asf thing from the vault w/ @torvamia <3 

luv yall thank you so fkn much for the support lately. shit gives my life meaning

dnt wake up ft. torvamia (methboiswag)

wanted this forever, i've been wishing
packed it up in boxes moving east to try and fix it
silent with your parents
i know they'd never say it

focus on the changes, growing in the silence
hard to even recognise my body from the mileage
everything you're scared of
but what if it was made up?

tracing on your arm, getting closer to the lookout,
ripples in the water, we've been kicking in since sundown
to live in this forever
what if i never get better?
cause i can't take it anymore
i can't take it anymore
i can't take it anymore

does anybody know?
the only thing i asked you
lose it when you say
'does anybody have to?'
cause i've been in the dark
but never so invested
to hide it from the world
what i thought had been the best thing

and maybe it just fizzles out on hollow ground
scars that we had made in doubt, ashamed of now
your body in the darkness
like anything could stop it
and i just hate this fucking town and what we found
now my hairs been falling out, i think about
anything to hold you
and know that you were there too

cause i can't take it anymore
i can't take it anymore
i can't take it anymore

cause i can't take it anymore
i can't take it anymore
i can't take it anymore

Can't Shiver

this 1 means a lot to me 

thank u to @greenwood2000 for the amazing production

lyrics

help me out on the top of this promenade
i wish i could pray 
i got things to say

shes on my mind and im jus grabbing by the waist
people wanna play
they jus playing it safe

love me hard and it'll all be ok
i jus want you to know that. i still have faith

clocks ticking coz ion know where is home
she told me about those nights
this time im prepping all alone

weeks
go by like nothing
im on time but minds still rushing
then i find vices. i wish that i wasnt
drawn in deep. like a love u cant stomach

beats 
my heart still beats
i found heart in the midst of the trees
i spent time in the dark on the east 
then it all made sense with what u said on the beach

life goes where you reach 
and they know when you teach
its all in ur hands. theres no turning back

jump forward 5 and you’ll drop all the pieces
my route’s more important than yours. we’re jus creatures
my youth was alined in this unfortunate manner
we are an equal but in my world u matter more

crossed paths now im just crossed on saturn
lungs dust. could this get any badder
but im still locked till im not. not about her
coz im still lost just need natural laughter

my hearts in monaco x8

i been out of the way for a few years
it is not many times on a new years 
i feel how i do with just 2 peers
life tends to move with or without ur cruel tears

i see ur vision and i tend to lose fears
holding the past like a grudge. its just you here
ima forget all the rest with a true stair
deep in ur eyes lays the pain that ill chew. dear

wishing
no point listing 
i have the script im a man on a mission
actions over the words so i get pissed when
u do what i tell u hurts. would u listen?

im so great but u think thats what im thinking
ice cold soul in a summer, just hinting
i have a voice now. i wish that didnt 
a pawn away from a crowd will stay drinking

loves hard can we go by the sea
traces of myself off in the deep
we dont have to gloss over the painting
just lay down and lets fall asleep

a harsh truth for a thing that kind
hard news for being who wont not try
i tell the tales of a figure in the night sky
and what i see is it lasting a lifetime

this world i know
im sorry its so cold 
forgive me im so cold
but its just all i know

i feel were tying souls
my hearts in monaco
our love forever grows 
and you'll forever glow

monaco

monaco (greenwood)

produced by tiedforsilver x st4rscream
mastered by AVXiD
cover art by XELFIY

lyrics

"why u never talk" 
bb ion want to
it's jus how I am
promise it's not on u
drawing shapes on my ceiling
in my bedroom
took me 90 days 
to stop thinking bout u
suffocate me slow
kill me In the backroom
where'd the feeling go
don't think I can see thru
why am I waking up
I don't think I have to
why am I broken up
all over u

who r u
where am I
who r u
what I try

ion even wanna be here
I'm here for u
i wuldve skipped the party
if u ain't show thru
I can't see clear
I been going thru too much
I can't bleed here
ive been used as a crutch
for too long
I thought u were the one
but ur not
I just wanted love
but which one
wuld care enough
to come along
when Ive been stuck

"why u never talk" 
bb ion want to
it's jus how I am
promise it's not on u
drawing shapes on my ceiling
in my bedroom
took me 90 days 
to stop thinking bout u
suffocate me slow
kill me In the backroom
where'd the feeling go
don't think I can see thru
why am I waking up
I don't think I have to
why am I broken up
all over u

see_thru (tiedforsilver x st4rscream)

produced by ushanka boy
featuring NAVYXOWER (@navyxower)
mixed by navy & epitome
mastered by teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)

lyrics

well…
i don’t know why but it feels like
i’ve been here forever 
been seeing star signs layered through the sky
that lead me back to december

those cold lonely nights
drove me to insanity 
i didn’t put up a fight
for you and that drives me crazy 

what the hell was every supposed to do
i didn’t have a clue
this shit left us confused
but that’s okay we’ll work it out
there’s no need to cry now
wipe your tears, i love the sound
of your voice there’s nothing that

could replace you
you’ve always been the one i choose
there’s nothing left for me to lose
so you have to know these feelings are true

NAVY

baby i could do it better yeah i swear to beup at night i see you walking past my house theres plentyplenty times where i need you in my bed with mewhy is life never really even fair to mebring me back to another timeanother era another life  where i can say i feel alirghttime goes by really fast in the nightand when your with the ones you love the most, time just really flysfly carefullyi pray to god ill see you eventaullyi miss everything you said to mei hate goodbyes theyre not meant for me



well, i don’t know why but it feels like
i’ve been here forever 
been seeing star signs layered through the sky
that lead me back to december

i have someone now w/ NAVYXOWER (ushanka boy)

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

literal vampire.

@4EVER-Collective / the Hallway / FTB / @everlasting-collective

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see_thru (tiedforsilver x st4rscream)

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