Mixed/Mastered by me
Prod. Red Eyez

Lyrics: 
oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

uhh feelin the covenant pressure
7am filled wit longing 
inescapable terror
let her fight back, what a frightening
sight it must be to see
oh i'll yearn for the chest feeling we used to hold so deeply
learn to breathe on my own
take this coat from my arm
trade the cuts for complex sedatives
we both suck for sentiment
call for several syllables, i only need three
baby tell me that you need me

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

oh cut deep, we'll make new scars 
baby what's that tone for 
but every sentence that spills out your mouth makes me feel the resentment a little bit more
cut from the cloth but your more like a feather
every second we're spending apart puts us closer and closer to never
uh and honestly, maybe, been feeling it lately, i wish that i never had met her
you still got my sweater don't you?
lately you been cold like weather, so cruel
let me stay inside, i hope we get some snow soon 

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

fragments

lyrics

look a the rot
take in the breeze
i taken a lot
uve taken from me
time i had bought
blood staining the teeth
i cannot stop
look at the trees
one more bodies not enough
look at all the pain i had wrought
final image found of blood n snot
the weight upon my soul is building up

one night
in my eyes
is 2 days
without u
i try
and tears dry
and finally
ive found u

i just start to rust
i just start to rot
tell me what u love
gimme what u got
i promise we’ll be fine
u promise me were not
i cant check the time
cuz w u the time stops

look a the rot
take in the breeze
i taken a lot
uve taken from me
time i had bought
blood staining the teeth
i cannot stop
look at the trees
one more bodies not enough
look at all the pain i had wrought
final image found of blood n snot
the weight upon my soul is building up

Trees + Rot (tiedforsilver X Sorrowbringer)

lyrics ⬇️

it’s been cold out
and I been here alone
yea
i been here alone
and you don’t check ur phone now

i just hear the tone but I don’t wanna hear it no

you got me by the throat
knowing what I’ve done with you its so hard to go
i know it’ll show when I walk up in the room
implode and choke
cuz you cant stand the view 
I know I know

I’ve often been the rude one in ur life
but I’m offering solutions to make it right

your life is full of gratitude is that a lie
only if they knew a thing or two of what we do at night

it’s not so nice it’s not a crime but I know that I shouldn’t do it y
they say I should go to therapy but I already do it
i know what it’s like to bury everything cuz I been thru it
multiple the opportunities I lose I can’t control it
honestly I think it’s pride that’s over doing my influence 
everyday I’m getting by but how idk i have been clueless

let me close my eyes then I’ll prove it
my whole life a lie 
make me feel stupid




I know theyll be laughing in the background
came close but never really got attached how
i really meant to and i wish that i got it right
maybe this the problem why i cant sleep at night

I know, I know. w/ NAVYXOWER (yunny x cxrter)

this is probably my favorite song I've ever made, and it means a lot to me.

if you've made it here, please like & repost as it helps other people who might relate to my music find it

ty to all who listen <3
prod. michael harrison

**lyrics**
I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

I dont really wanna die I just want a warm embrace
Looking at ya' from the sky but i cant see your face
Babe It's just another ride, you know Ima be okay
But man i hope they hear my cry when i finally break
(x2)

If I turned around, would you call your friend?
I hate who I was but I'm better again
I cant stand the silence, you're my medicine
It's starting to rain, would you just take my hand
(x2)

I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

limerence (michael harrison)

produced by me
guitars/etc by rjpasin

our lives lay to waste
as we sit here collecting dust
our lives fade away
when you cant try hard enough
you dont feel like you're doing
what you want to 
you try just not enough hard

i come from a absent family
had to teach yourself things
and grow up on your own
this aint how things are supposed to be
you get addicted to blow off some steam
forgetting a portion of your life

you are ready to change it
you are ready to face
forget about your past
its all about the now
sitting on the couch not knowing what you're facing now
you're out of your mind coz you've had too much again
so who do you turn to when you live far from your friends
your putting on a face coz you have to pretend that you're fine
that you're fine

(dyingforcertain)
coming soon....

im not the kid you once knew (feat. dyingforcertain)

i would rather wake up alone then i would ever see your face again
open up my skull to see its nothin but the sedatives
a hollow hearted individual i can never admit to my sins
a shell full of frangibles just shatter my weak skin

where do i think that im goin'?
walkin outside but its snowin'
couple blunts i rolled for us but then you tell me that ur leavin'?

baby i know that im broken
cant breathe at night think i'm chokin'
please wait up and just stay up for me you know i'm not hopeless..

wait outside for me and you'll be okay
clouds right above our residence have gone gray
time moves slow and steady but it lost the race
our planet as we know it will eventually just decay

everything that i've done has left me with the knowledge of the universe
I keep it tucked inside my mental 
everyone that i've hurt just know I did it to myself first
and it wasn't personal
everybody telling me that it'll be okay has never dealt
with the things i've seen
every time i open my eyes i see your face outside of my dreams 

everything that i've done has left me with the knowledge of the universe
I keep it tucked inside my mental 
everyone that i've hurt just know I did it to myself first
and it wasn't personal
everybody telling me that it'll be okay has never dealt
with the things i've seen
every time i open my eyes i see your face outside of my dreams 

my dreams start to rot away my brain cells
bloody scenes that i could never tell what entails
i'm incapable of breathing how'd i inhale?
all these toxins in my system I can't get well

well
are you okay without me?
if that's the case then i can turn around and just leave
insomniatic and i can't breathe
kick my thoughts unto the curb and let me rot please

let me rot into the soil
this life has nothing left but turmoil

i would rather wake up alone then i would ever see your face again
open up my skull to see its nothin but the sedatives
a hollow hearted individual i can never admit to my sins
a shell full of frangibles just shatter my weak skin

where do i think that im goin'?
walkin outside but its snowin'
couple blunts i rolled for us but then you tell me that ur leavin'?

baby i know that im broken
cant breathe at night think i'm chokin'
please wait up and just stay up for me you know i'm not hopeless..

personal (cxrter x woahsxda)

@killedmyself

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

all my life i felt worthless
i took my heart and i purged it
never comin up to the surface

thought that you would be worth it
i thought that you was perfect
tell me what'd i do to deserve this?

take me back,
take me back to the real world
take me back,
take me back to when i couldn't feel

rip my heart straight from my ribcage
i've been led astray from the good place
i've ran out of luck where did my good days go
the place in which i reside no longer feels like home

20 years have caught up wit me n jus fucked up my mental
tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

real world

real world (killedmyself)

lyrics//

iv been talking to god
iv been doing my part like you told me

was it always so hard
i know you think you were always controlling
but it was never thay part
i saw a light and it killed me slowly
and now im packing my car
i made you think
you dont even know me


i was lost in the fallout
you pushed me down as i climbed out
or tried to
ivy league to the dog house
wonder what they would say
if they got to?

now my comforters stained out
took it all to the grave like i told you
was i always a let down?
was i always a person that you once knew?

fallout [idly blare]

lyrics ⬇️

time flies by i know
make the life you wanna unfold
one eye looking down the rifle
countless tries they got me going thru a cycle

tbink back when i was young i would go hunting in the woods
grandpa taught me that yhe guns are only used for doing good
why is everybody toting all their guns up in the hood
i really think that i would change the world if i feel that i could

love, peace thats all that we need
everybody hates a single feeling of defeat

i always try my best to tell em how i feel
i dont like to crash the parties
i dont like to pop the pills
gimme paranoia 
used to gimme thrills
made me trapped made me stuck feelin ill
“whats up, poor a cup” no deal
maybe thats the reason i feel how i feel

they said that i gotta learn how to live
i wish that i could get past all the tricks
but i know nobodys an idol
so vital, the fact that you can lie tho

nowdays i think that honesty really got an appeal
theyll take ur heart when u think that they dont steal
yea you really gotta watch out 
cuz theyre gon tell you that you shouldnt ever fear

paranoia hits me in my ears
talking all the time thinking bout the years
i dont wanna think that you were ever even mine
you were with my peers 
it was clear

now i know what really came to my demise
but i dont wanna hear what i should really hear
always try to cover every single little lie
cuz i dont wanan kneel where we used to lay
but when its all uncovered ik how youll rlly feel
ill look up in the sky and hope ur still alive
im feeling really horrible and skippin all my meals
cuz i know im the guy that ruined ur whole life

nobody told me it wpuld be this hard
fell to my knees cuz it was ruined from the start

always felt like i need backup
yea but that aint even really rational 
could blame it all on bad luck
you know this life gets so personal

peace. (cl6udy x splashgang)

ty carter

lyrics

way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

it feels like you love me more when im going away
just look me in my eyes and tell me im okay
ill call you when im home so you know im okay
i could lose everything but id still keep my faith
i stopped smoking but i still keep them just incase
i wish i had some wings so i could fly away
way above the clouds
i wish i knew what i was doing instead of asking how
and im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
i was driving by myself im seeing a face in the fog
im supposed to be a man
but im just crying at a photo once again
and im obsessing over shit ill never get again
time moves fast i guess


way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

youre the rainbows and the sunshine
i can feel you in when the wind blows and you pass by
i can see youre face in everything
all sides
i need you to surround me till the day i die

as i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see you
smiling, shining
look how you did so well
and the day that i go
will be the day that you go
and girl im broken
i dont have a purpose
i dropped a song for you i hope that you heard it on your own
cuz baby this ones new and i just made it last night
i know they all sound the same to you
ive given up pieces of my brain for you
you know im trying to hold you tight when the night comes
but i feel you in my bones and my weak lungs

as i watch the storm pass 2 (cxrter)

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